Board Thread:Season 36: Mohenjo Daro/@comment-32578459-20181202090842

hiii guys! okay before this starts off lemme just say.. i apologize for all my grammar and incorrect spelling sdklhf.

so i guess i start this by talking about my pre merge game first? okay well. pre merge was fairly simple for me. coming into this game i wanted to do something different from the other games that i’ve played and try not to be a backstabbing annoying bitch. which i can totally agree i was at time, but i tried my best. being on the og lothal tribe i felt like the whole entire tribe formed a bond and we were all on the same page and didn’t wanna see any of each other go. we really slayed and tried our absolute best the first few challenges because we really didn’t know what we would do or who to send home. luckily for me i gave off a good first impression and got into an alliance with xfire, byron, tom and even nicholas. since i told myself from the beginning i would be a loyal hoe this game, i knew i wanted to stay loyal to them. i felt really safe with them and we would all talk about game decisions together. unfortunately, that only lasted a few days bc we literally had a tribe swap so early on in the game! but then again, thankfully, i had x with me and even vi from my original tribe with me. this is definitely when x became my number one ally bc we just switched from tribe to tribe together after working together. x and i both agreed that we really hit it off with ace and chieko and the rest of that was history. i knew from here on out that x, chieko and ace where my ride or die hunts till the end of this game. i even formed a bond with adam but like i said in my rop, something i regret is not being more vocal with him and opening up to him more. we didn’t really have a game bond, it was just really nice talking to him. i’m pretty sure to show chieko and ace that me and x where serious about working with them, we would vote out our og tribe mate, vi. since i had no game bond with vi, this was fine with me because i already picked the people i would like to work with and stay loyal with till the end.

now mergeeeeee! when we merged i was definitely excited to see nicholas again. but right after the first immunity challenge, he threw ace’s name out to me, so i knew i had to make a decision on who i was gonna stay loyal with. after talking around with x, chieko and ace it became very clear to me that working with them is definitely in my best interest. it became clear that nicholas wasn’t that loyal to me either since we all found out that he was telling a lot of people different stories and names. since nobody was really completely honest with each other this first merge round, adam became the first boot. looking back now, i felt really bad about the adam vote because like i said, i liked him on a personal level. but it was clear that he had other allys in this game that he valued more then me. x, chieko, ace and i all agreed that nicholas would have to go really soon. we knew what he was doing and how he was playing. he didn’t really wanna work with me i felt like, he just wanted my vote. i guess ace saw x, chieko and myself getting more closer with each other then him and he decided to flip around from sides. which is fine, i know he had to do what was best for him. but like i said, i wanted to play differently. again, nobody was really honest with me this round and i heard a bunch of names. my heart told me x was in trouble and i know he felt it too and i wish so bad that we were able to do something that would save him. x told me in confidence that he had the idol and i wish i pushed him more into playing it that round. when x left i lost my number one and felt at my lowest in this game. it became so clear that once chieko left the round right after x, that nicholas really was running this game. x, chieko and i all tried and told people that nicholas has been running things but nobody would listen to us, instead they just wanted to vote us out one by one. once i lost my 2 closest allys, i REALLLY felt alone then. i literally had nobody and had no other choice but to branch out  and try to squeeze into somewhere. i think i really connected and bonded with lex, while still keeping a relationship with ace (by choice and because i didn’t really know anyone else and what their interest are in this game for me.) i was so lucky that i started to form a bond with lex this round while nicholas was throwing his name out to me. i knew this could be my moment to show lex that i really will ve with him in this game and be loyal with him if we could just flip this vote off of lex and right onto nicholas. we really did that and i really hope i proved myself to lex that round that i meant what i said in being loyal to him. i felt a real genuine connection with lex more so then i did with nicholas and felt he actually cared about what i had to say and wouldn’t try to dictate me. the mark vote was easy. he was really the only other person left of nicholas’ that didn’t flip the last round. and luckily for me, mark voted with nicholas, making him the next target and making it an easy week for me. with the ace vote.. i really didn’t have a choice but to try and do everything in my power to stay. finding out lex had the idol i couldn’t give up and i had to keep talking to him and reassuring him that i got him till the end of this game. i told him he controls my vote this round and if i’m gone next, he has my vote and so on. everything i said, i meant. and i think lex felt how genuine i was with him that he used his idol on me even after he just voted for me. i didn’t hold that against him at all because i knew the choice where very limited. i was just so grateful that he saved me with his idol.

now.. i want to address something that ant has stated in his speech.

“Sure it could have been easy to do a 3-1 vote for Lex but I knew from the rite of passage that Zack was already trying to portray himself as this underdog who had a fire under him and was using the sandra’s strategy anybody but me, even though unlike sandra, he was out of the loop for a lot of votes.”

let me just say this.. you’re right. i was out of the loop on most votes. not because i didn’t know what was going on, but because i stayed loyal to my allies and to the people i said i would look out for in this game. i’m not trying to do no underdog story here. it’s obvious that i lost both my closest allies back to back and was suppose to go right after them. it’s obvious that i didn’t jump on the nicholas band wagon and let him control me. i would rather vote in the minority then vote against x, chieko, lex or even ace. so good job, you didn’t tell me you where voting lex out. woo hoo, because i STILL wouldn’t have voted with you either way. i promised my loyalty to lex and i meant that and i wouldn’t go back on my word. so thank you for brining that up.

i hope you all see that i tried my best to plat a very upfront and honest game. i hope in some way that you see my loyalty to my allies was a big game move for me since it left me on the outs with a lot of other people. i would vote in the minority every time then vote against one my allies that i knew had my best interest in this game. i never gave up even when everyone was against me. i never won an individual immunity and i still didn’t get votes cast against me till the round lex played his idol me. thank you and i’m not bitter and i’m happy with whatever outcome we have this season and i’m very proud of how i played.

xo 