Might Vomit Later/Confessionals

Day 30
"andante"

- HOOOOOOOOOOOOLY FUCK

Vote split worked like an absolute treat. With 18 votes cast, I'll admit I began to panic when it was 8-5-3-1 (me being the 8) with only vote left. Then the last vote came back for Isaiah and I nutted a little, ngl. Not because it was Isaiah - absolutely love the dude, champion - but simply because this was the win I needed.

Hesh is absolutely steaming, but I gotta be honest: what did you guys expect to happen? We literally learned this lesson during the first merge tribal: don't try and split the votes when only one flip will turn the majority. Attempting a 3-3-3 split at final 9 is pretty dumb when a third of the votes you're relying on are from Isaiah and AJ, who have both thrived on chaotic games. Admittedly, it's a little funny that Isaiah got Lex'd, but that's only because I love irony.

Speaking of AJ, I really did misread him throughout the game. Despite all the chaos he's produced, I really think he would have been a loyal ally had I just stuck to him. Alas, I can make up for it now - but only for now. Homie is effectively a big threat now; he's got six tokens, is a potential immunity threat, and is the last remaining member of the Rubicante post-mutiny tribe. If he gets to the end, he's pretty much got four of the ten jury votes guaranteed. I cannot let him get there.

As for this next tribal, we'll see what goes down. I really want to take either Hesh or Zach out, but Brian really wants Sam as he thinks he's a challenge threat. And then who knows what Chloe is gonna want, or AJ. We've got an inkling feeling that we could flip Liam, but if nothing else I've got the idol I can drop if things get too hot. I guess we'll see.

"andante"

- Day 30 and I'm still here! I can feel my adrenaline just ramping up like crazy.

This tribal council is the most crucial one to me. AJ flipped, surprise surprise, and I think it gave away now that he might have the idol. How else would he have known it'd be safe to flip? This means we might be at 4-4 this tribal, and if the idol is correctly played, one of myself, Zach, Sam or Hesh might be going.

Day 31
"andante"

- So AJ flipped for selfish reasons. I knew he would and idk if he'll flip back. I begged everyone to vote him off in a 5-4 split but know one listened. So we lost Isaiah. I still have my final three and even if i lose I'm confident that I can win in that final 3 and even if I don't those are the homies. I won immunity, after pretty much purposefully losing the others. Brian and Isaac are talking to me and i feel it because i like them. However, I have heard that Isaac doesnt like me. So these are things to keep in mind. I think we lie to AJ here, make it a 4-3-1. Say were voting for Brian, and then we go vote for Chloe. AJ needs to go next. Then we take out Isaac and Brian with a 2-2-2. There is a path to the end and its so close.

"andante"

- Hesh won immunity, which all things considered is a touch inconvenient for me. Hesh was the only target that I was dead certain in taking down with everyone (Liam included) on board, but with him immune it's gonna be harder to convince him to flip. It's between Zach and Sam, and I think Zach needs to go. He's the biggest jury threat in the game and is a direct obstacle in my game. Brian wants Sam gone and has for a while, but I need him to be patient. Homie just wants to win some challenges.

Brian and I offer Liam a F3 alliance with the trade being that we blindside Zach tonight. Liam's considering it, but I can tell he's uncertain - Zach has been with him since the swap, and I think Liam is worried about flipping because of the emotional strain it'll cause him. I feel truly bad for the guy, it's a shitty position to be in. I'm trying not to pressure him too much, but I also kinda need him to do this.

Liam's also wary about AJ's lack of trustworthiness and activity, which is fair. He's at work most of the time and is a proven agent of chaos. Chloe, meanwhile, remains somewhat inactive and I'm fairly convinced she's checked out at this stage. I'm praying neither one of them flip.

Honestly? I think tonight might need to be the night I drop this idol. Zach, Hesh, Sam and Liam have all said I'm not on the block tonight, and I do believe they're going for Brian. Best case scenario, I idol Brian and Zach goes home 5-0 or 4-0. Worst case scenario, I've been bullshitted and I go home 5-3. That, or it's a 4-4 vote with me on the block and AJ votes me out on the revote. Shit, this is a risky play. But I can't lose Brian. He's pretty much my main ally at this stage, and having that extra number permanently in my pocket is so important.

Might vomit later.

"andante"

- This may be my last confessional. Just played the idol for Brian. If it is, just know that this org is easily the greatest I've ever played, with one of the greatest casts I've ever played with. No regrets.