I Really Do Feel Cheated/Confessionals

Day 19
"andante"

- I MADE THE MERGE BABY! It's so awesome to have made it this far into the game! I know it's only final 13 and more than half of us are left, but I'm still so proud of myself for being able to cruise through that terrifying mutiny situation. I think I let myself get too loud the other day, but I don't expect that to negatively impact me too much. Hopefully me and the other Rubicante 3.0 can stick together and get ourselves into a majority.

"andante"

- Made my third merge on 703 and I'm super hype about that. But this is the first merge I'm going into without a sense of comfort or safety. Mutinygate hurt my standing with quite a few people and so I know I'm gonna have to work overtime in order to stay alive in this game. I know I can trust AJ, Lexi, Andrew, Isaiah, and Liam. I think I can trust Brian and Chloe. I'm not sure about Zach, Isaac, and Sam, and I know I can't trust Hesh and Lex. I'm gonna have an uphill climb to go further but I'm ready for the fight

"andante"

- even tho i feel bad cuz i did come to really like liz and aaron SAY HI TO SHANE IN THE VL FOR ME BRUH WITH IAN. shouldnt have voted him off!!! now me and liam just have lex left buuuut we kinda need him now so he can stay for a while but shane im sorry again that u went wayyy before you deserved but least we got some of the nerds who vted you out of here! <3

"andante"

- ALSO WE MADE MERGE AGAIN BABY LETS GOOOOOO 4/4 IN 703 AND WELL STILL HAVENT GONE PREMERGE IN AN ORG AM I FUCKIN INSANE OR WHAT. now it's time to win this shit fuck these other hoes

"andante"

- Oh hey, the hosts really were that predictable!

Aaron went home, shocker. Doesn't really matter much, because it's MERGE TIME BAYBEE! The new tribe color is yellow (the quartet of poop, cum, blood and now piss are all represented <3) and we name the tribe Andante. We MEANT to spell it ""Andate"", which loosely translates to ""bruh"", but we fucked up. Truly a bruh moment.

As it stands, the two factions have firmed up: the core nine (myself, Brian, Chloe, Hesh, Zach, Lex, Sam, Liam and Isaiah), and the four outsiders (AJ, Joe, Andrew and Lexi). Personally, I want AJ out first. I just can't withstand the chaos of his game - nothing personal, it's just business. With that said, I think the majority will want Joe as the sacrifice due to his volatility and his intention on targeting the former Alichinos. We'll see.

After ten minutes of settling in (fuck y'all hosts) we're treated to the first challenge, ID something or other. I'm not gonna bite, if I'm honest. I don't particularly want immunity this round, and I ESPECIALLY don't want to lose my vote as a convict. The idol clue is tempting, though. Again, we'll see.

Day 20
"andante"

- I have no idea what the dynamics are at the merge rn. All I care about is being in the majority. I’m close with everyone so I don’t necessarily have a target. In Canadienne Tunisia I was very close with everyone by the time we merged and everyone thought I was in their corner, and that ended up winning me the game. I’m gonna do my best to make it happen again.

"andante"

- Lex has absolutely sealed his fate. I will undeniably be voting for him this tribal. I mean, I was going to anyway, because that's the way the vibe was pointing me, but after that bullshit he pulled in the challenge, he's a dead man walking. I have no idea if I'll get traction behind it or not, but I'm coming for him, and if I win this challenge, he's got even less room to wriggle out of this. I want his head on a platter but in a vegetarian way. Show him what happens when you make me become the criminal.

Day 21
"andante"

- Doing this here because I need to vent and I'm not confrontational and rude enough to do it in a public space where it will upset everyone. Funny that. Liam, I know you don't want to be here and so you clearly don't give two shits about ramifications or adverse consequences that your actions, but kindly fuck off parading around like some fucking asinine clown. There are people here and gone already that have put in so much of their time, effort and mental energy to try survive, and you're just spitting in the face of everyone that actually cares about this season. By no means is anyone owed anything or entitled to being here, and anyone that takes the 'eugh so-and-so took my spot!' mentality is just as toxic and frustrating to deal with, but you can literally just sit there and do nothing and the world would keep spinning, people would keep doing their thing, and it would be shitty but at least tolerably so. I know more than most people here just how shit things have been for you, but that means nothing when you actively make things worse for those around you. That's what stings more. That I drop all the game shit to look out for you on a personal level and when I tell you, to your face, that I'm very upset, you go and gloat about doing exactly what upset me in the first place to my face in front of everyone, then just say 'well I have no excuses'. You can't just cop out like that. You did a shit thing, and people are completely in their right to be frustrated with you, and it's not just 'why is everyone attacking me nobody wants me here'. Bad circumstances do not and will not ever excuse bad behaviour. I don't know, it's just really frustrating to be talking with someone about being upset and less than a minute later they're deliberately rubbing salt into the wound. I'll get over it or go home, one or the other is going to happen this round, and both could have been avoided if you were just upfront with me instead of deliberately screwing me around for no gain to even yourself. Here we are yet again now. I naively think someone is a decent person or will at least behave as such, and they don't. Story of my life.

"andante"

- Zach won the challenge, after a long and uneventful struggle. I must say, the communication on the end of the Toereos (myself, Chloe, Brian, Zach, Hesh and Liam) was woeful - we were planning on coordinating who got the points, but Zach had to instead hustle on his own. RIP. Liam got the convict, which was definitely intended on his part. Again, his current state is concerning me. Game or not, I care about the dude and I don't want to see him suffer here.

With Liam out of the picture, our only bet to mitigate idols is - sigh - a 4-4-4 split. This, quite honestly, is EXTREMELY fucking dangerous. One flip means we lose a number, and the other four get power. It's a nerve-wracking play, but we'll see how it goes. Zach wants to split it between Joe and Andrew, and I believe Hesh will do the same. I'll take my orders whenever they come this round, I reckon. I'd rather not lead the first merge vote.

As for the idol clue? Silly boy Zach decided to be a silly boy and give every single member of the Toereos his clue. He was stumped, I wasn't. The clue was:

"It's in a blank space, baby, Right above your name."

I was stumped at first too, but then I looked at results. Right in the results cell were two slightly discoloured pieces of text saying "?extra". Fucking nice one. With that out of the way, I'm gonna go get this idol.

There's just one problem. I've never found an idol before, in seven years of ORG playing. Yuck.

"andante"

- THE QUEST FOR AN IDOL IN A SERIES OF MANY FUCKED PUZZLES BY TOBIAS MARLOW

?extra: I'm treated to a classic word search, with the message underneath reading "Congrats, you solved the first idol puzzle! This immunity hunt should require intense effort. Find words above and any letters left over will give you your next command." After a few minutes I realise all the words are in the word search, leaving me the leftover information of my next command.

?statisticians: "Logan bids his spiteful trawler, Noodles, abstruse goodbyes. Solving this puzzle is as easy as counting 1, 2, 3, all the way to 8!" This was the first puzzle to give me actual struggles. For a long time, I kept misreading the first sentence as seven words - turns out it was eight. Then I tried "Logan bids his goodbyes" and "spiteful trawler, Noodles, abstruse" before finally realising I had to count the first letter of the first word, second letter of the second word, etc. Listless.

?listless: It's just "Capital of Turkey" in Korean. Pretty weak effort there, Tobes, ya bastard.

?ankara: Now THIS was the one that had me for ages. "Connect like to like. In the centre, use both of the rules." I can't really explain it in words, but to cut a long story short, I spent five hours on this puzzle that consisted of shapes and colors, having to organise the center of it. It took me five hours to find the answer "tex". Fucking TEX. Holy shit, I'm a dumbass.

?tex: After many tears, I finally get to this big bastard. "Start from the ? and Xs mark the spots. The digits in each path, mere or great, form your numbers. Sometimes the whole is worth the sum of two mirror images. Your next command is only fourteen digits away. Good luck." It's essentially a numerical maze, where I need to find fourteen digits for the final clue. There's two pathways, and I initially assume I need to limit myself to seven for both paths. Turns out that the "mirror images" clue was actually the important one. There were two pathways, with fourteen digits each, that were directly symmetrical to each other. I do them, add the two numbers and get 92593100835766. That's around the number of brain cells I must have sacrificed for this quest.

?92593100835766: Final clue reads "You're almost there! Go back to each passcode you have used. For the first five, take their first letters and rearrange them in reverse alphabetical order. Then, put the single digit at the end that doesn't appear in the passcode you entered for the previous puzzle. Your final passcode will be 6 characters long. Good luck!" I shuffle the five letters into tslea, and add the only digit that wasn't in the final number: 4.

?tslea4: I got the idol.

Holy shit, I can't believe I got it.

This is, without any exaggeration, the first idol that I've ever found in an ORG. And to add to that, this is the first time I genuinely feel like I'm playing a good game in an ORG. Those years of retirement have finally paid off. I've got an idol, a majority alliance, connections on the other side, three garnets and my sanity only somewhat destroyed. Let's fucking GO.

During my hunt, the only clue I shared was the ?statisticians command with Brian. I was stuck on that one for a while, but I actually figured it out directly after messaging him about it. I decided to not tell him I solved it, and I won't be telling him right away that I've got the idol. First mistake anyone can make is getting lippy about a Hidden Immunity Idol. I'm not gonna even try it.

Anyways, that marks the end of the quest. I actually love you, Toby, I swear. You too, Josephine and John. Ya bastards.

"andante"

- So swap went as planned we took out the two reds we brought over as sacrifice. The Aaron one sucked, but whatever. We merged with the 4 and Zach won immunity. Those 3 old grey still trust us and for now that’s good. It seems like isiiah is moving towards Sam Zach and I which is great because if butterdog becomes in essence 6 we can end this game at the f11 with a vote out of a grey like Chloe. We just need to take out two of the 4 next and it’s really gsme over. A lot of people really think I’m their end game. When really it’s bromigos Zach Sam and I day 1 don’t forget it. I also have lex who I have for the better sense have been carrying a little since swap. This game feels great, just need a few more votes.

"andante"

- I mean if it wasn't obvious that Zach and I were in cahoots, it probably is now.

I bit the bullet and took the convict card so Zach could win, and AJ isn't happy with me now, at ALL. Oops.

I can't vote this tribal and honestly that's not the worst thing in the world at the moment. I was so stressed about what would happen and now I can sit back and hope these people don't fuck me over. I hate playing right now honestly but 13th? Come on man, I can do better than that.

"andante"

- There may be a 4-4-4 split at tribal, 4 on Joe and AJ, 4 on whoever grey 3.0 wants out, prob Lex. Honestly, I kinda miss playing hard and blindsiding people, soo I may or may not break from the majority and vote with grey 3.0. I like Zach but he’s getting very cocky, basically telling AJ that he decide who goes home makes me want to make sure that he doesn’t. This vote won’t be unanimous, and I’m looking forward to the chaos.

"andante"

- This could be my final confessional. Brian told me he wants me to stay and Isaiah told me of a possible 4-4-4 split vote plan. I hope things go in my favor and AJ, Andrew, Lexi, and I all survive Tribal but with how quiet people are being, I'm not sure. It sucks feeling dicked around by a majority of people and not really being given a chance to plead my case and try to stay but who knows. I'm not getting my hopes up but I'm gonna try my best to keep myself in the game

"andante"

- ight so this vote SHOULD be at least relatively simple??? (i hope but it's survivor so fuck all knows what might actually happen) one of those 4 grey NEED to go imo and honestly i really dont care which one, none of them are in my long term plans so they're all disposable to me. i think the plan right now is to split 4-4 between joey and andrew cuz thats what KiNg bRiAn wants since we gotta keep making sure he feels like he has the biggest cock in the cast and is running shit ya know. those 4 are probs gonna vote god knows who, probs me or lex tbh. i already got a vote cast so like i couldnt give less of a fuck as long as i dont die. although apparently joe is begging hesh and zach that he'll do whatever to stay even if it means voting one of aj/lexi/andrew which if he actually does will be funny af since as of now he's the main target LOL. me zach and hesh just need to skate by for a few rounds and hopefully pick off one or two more grey 3.0 (assuming this vote like actually comes thru and i dont die) since afaik no one else rly knows whats actually going on in the background except us 3 which if thats true WOULD BE LIT MCTITS although predictable af ofc. but again i aint tryna feel too good about it since ppl LOVE to change shit around so for the moment just hoping this vote goes thru pretty easily but if not then well ill go throw a mouse into a wall

"andante"

- also ive been working SO FUCKING HARD the last several days to try and bring isaiah over to my side so he's loyal to me and doesnt flip over to the grey's since he seems to be the main middle man right now and i think ive been putting in some good ass work. yesterday HE, not ME, mentioned us going f2 which ofc i bought fully into cuz i love the kid and need him to think we're boys throughout. and a couple days ago i brought him and zach close as well to form a 3 person alliance to hopefully keep him MORE at bay. THEN today he mentioned a FOUR person alliance with me zach hesh and himself, with maybe even lex as a 5th. all this coming from him, not even us! so i'd say at least for now, the work has been paying off and we got him in for a good while, at least until we can take over brian and his posse (pls God dont let me be getting played)

"andante"

- ok sooooo some weird shit just happened. andrew apparently told hesh that ISAIAH of all ppl told him he was getting votes??? which raised huge red flags cuz like ive been working on him so much why tf would he tell andrew of all ppl whats going on, wtf does that kid have to offer him that we havent already?? so that made us mad nervous but then isaiah confronts andrew then andrew says it was a lie?? like wtf is this guy tryna pull bruh, if he's telling the truth then all thats going to do is piss off isaiah LMAO. unless isaiah rly is tryna flip but again i dont see what he could possibly offer up to isaiah that would be better than what ive provided him. unless this is some BIG BRAIN ploy by andrew to get us to not trust isaiah or the both of them to get us to flip our votes or fuck all knows but i honestly dont think they're smart enough to even come up with something like that so im just praying andrew is being a silly billy and is paranoid he's on the outs. if this is a big boy brain play tho honestly congrats and good shit cuz i didnt see that coming from them but we SHOULD be chillin tonight

"andante"

- PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE LET THIS WORK IF IT DOES IM GONNA SAY IT NOW IMA WIN THIS GAME. annnnnd plus we're so far along on the merge idol clue (even tho zach is 100% carrying my dumbass) if we can also get that into our position my fucking GOD bro we'll actually be untouchable

"andante"

- Got the idol, plan is still 4-4-4. Surely this'll pay off, right?