This Vote Shouldn't Be Too Difficult/Confessionals

Day 19
"jigme"

- Well Damien just smashed tribal lines down with a sledgehammer. I knew Karsten was going home as zach had told me a few hours before tribal, I am not quite sure if this was a good move on damiens behalf but Karsten was robbed and I'm pissed.

"jigme"

- Well we merged. I really feel alone at this merge, all the old yangras are catching up. Vincent and Seamus are both rolling with new squads after throwing their respective makalu under the bus. I am now convinced Damien has the idol. I am so FUCKED. I am gonna charm my way to surviving you heard it here first.

"jigme"

- The mergeee! I'm so excited to get more into a deeper game with more thought and strategy behind it compared to before where I just tried to maintain as little attention on me as physically possible. I've already spoken to everyone and it's looking like Yangra is wanting to stick together as we have obvious numbers advantage, but I like some of the Makalu's, and some of them are definitely less threatening than my Yangra tribemates. At this point, there's such a dependence on the numbers game, but that's all pointless if at the end of the road I'm going to lose against someone else, even if I do like them or they were an ally. I need to decide what I'm going to do from here on out, whether I ride the numbers until I can find a safe way to execute a blindside or go for the jugular from the get go. Choices...

"jigme"

- I guess I'll do sort of a merge assessment, starting with the people I already know, then moving into the 3 new people I've met.

Lexi: I still like Lexi, I don't think she will want to waver from our group and she's usually someone who agrees with me on situations in the game so, not much has changed.

Pory: The only thing I don't like about Pory is that he has come across as a loose cannon who will come up with ideas and then follow through with them without consulting allies / getting approval from others. Like he's the type who would literally ruin a whole plan bc he couldn't shut up and he ran his mouth to the wrong person LMAO I can just see it happening. Aside from that though he does seem loyal.

Drew: I've grown to like Drew more on Lhotse, we talked a lot more and he's also someone who I think will stay loyal. The only question mark is him being "friends" with Seamus outside the game while I have little to no relationship with him. However it could be a good thing potentially, Idk.

Liam: Liam was my favorite person night one but ugh, he's always so short with me and I feel like he's someone who isn't trying to play an intense game and is just going with the flow happy to still be here, which is okay I guess. There's also the Lhotse idol thing which was shady, Idk. I still like him.

Marty: Yawn okay honestly I was never a fan of him on Yangra because of his weird out of the blue stunts to save Jenna for no reason but even aside from that he's just..ugh. Firstly he bores me, and on top of that he has apparently ALREADY told Lexi that he doesn't want to stick to tribal lines, so I guess there goes counting on him for a vote. And also he could NOT be more short with me. Like on Yangra he'd at least give me some conversation to work with but now it's like I'll try talking to him and he says like a sentence. I did my best of playing super dumb with him on Yangra and so hopefully he thinks I'm a non factor in the game. I highkey want him out before any of Makalu to be totally honest.

Big Z: I still really like talking to him! He's always been cool and last night he gave me an explanation to what happened on Makalu's tribal. Apparently Damien came to him and Marty last minute and wanted to vote Karsten bc he didn't like Makalu? And now Jp is completely alone in the game. I mean idk how much I'm gonna believe but he definitely gave me more than Marty with his "Yeah we pulled that off" Which was all he said about the whole situation (If you can't tell I'm rolling my eyes so hard at that)

Seamus: Honestly, I really slacked on talking to him on Lhotse, but tbh he didn't have much to say. He didn't even attempt to talk about tribal with me, it was almost like he didn't even care if he went home. I just have nothing to say about him.

Jp & Vincent: I really just need to talk to them more, it's only been like 12 hours but yeah. Lexi and Pory believe they have Vincent as a vote so I mean pop off? But yeah, no real opinions yet.

So that's pretty much how I feel about the fellas on Jigme. My biggest goal right now is...I'd LOVE to win first individual immunity. I'm terrible at challenges, my only strong suit is endurance. I can win endurance. But if it's nearly anything else, count me out. But if I did win, that would be so great. First merge tribal will show a lot, it'll show where people align and where the numbers are. And I don't want to have to worry during it. It would literally be so perfect for me to win but, I probably won't.

"jigme"

- I've finally bookmarked the confessional page! Expect more frequent confessionals from me! <3

Jigme blessed us with the merge, so we honoured him by naming our new tribe after him. I was the person who came up with the name, by the way :)

Right now, the merge can be seen as three trios and two other guys:

Yangra (myself, Pory, Lexi)

The Three (Drew, Liam, Tyler) [that's just what I've been calling them for the sake of simplicity]

Damien and some other guys (Damien, Big Z, Marty)

So Jp and Seamus are not in any of these trios. This doesn't mean that they'll be targets, there is no way that none of the trios want to target any of the other trios. Right now, I think that the best thing to do would be to see what people from the two other trios are thinking. Actually, first I need to make sure that they are actually tight trios, because I've really just been inferring from voting results. If they aren't trios, then our trio will be a little more dangerous since we'd stick out. So before anything else can be done I need to ensure that.

Jp came up to me and said that he felt like he was in trouble. He wasn't, since Damien wants to target Lexi and Tyler, and our trio knows that he's a good person to keep around, but I still promised him that we could work together. For the first vote, I can't see him trying anything too drastic. But if I make the same mistake I did on Makalu, then Jp is going to see that there's a tight group which he isn't a part of, and make a move against us. So one thing I can not do is establish myself in a strong position in the tribe. I'm not going to be the guy dictating the votes. As long as the person suggested as the target couldn't help my game in some way, for this vote that's who I'm voting for. After the final 11, who knows what's going to happen next?

Day 20
"jigme"

- So I honestly have no fucking clue how this merge is going to go but I'm just going to try to lay low and not get blasted out of the game immediately. I'm trying to communicate with everyone and at least be open but it's tough to remember sometimes, especially with my active hours being so different from everyone else. We'll see how this goes.

I also found out that some people do daily confessionals. How? What? I don't have something new and unique to say every single day. I'm not that desperate for attention haha.

"jigme"

- Nevermind @ immunity LMAO I've been trying for hours and can't even get past the first level so that's cancelled.. Tbh tribal shouldn't be that scary because I know for a fact there are 5 solid votes that aren't going to waver and I'm honestly not worried about them wavering, but I guess my fear comes into play because I don't know where the rest will fall yet. Personally I want Marty out immediately, and Lexi thankfully agrees with me. It turns out along with telling her that he doesn't want to stick to tribal lines, he's said the reason is because that's "boring" which is very reminiscent of on Yangra when he wanted a threat out at final 18 for no reason. My theory is that Marty probably wants to make an impression in some way on the season and so he forcefully has been trying to be extra, and it makes sense. But I don't want to deal with someone like that lmao like I don't have time for the tomfoolery. Couple that with the fact that he gives me one word replies.. I'm just sold on him being the first merge boot and it would be perfect if that could happen.

Sidetone I'm pretty sure I forgot Damien in my merge assessment and if I did it's because he HASN'T SAID A WORD to me. I said hi, he said hi back 17 hours later. No further updates.

"jigme"

- God its been a while since I've written one of these i need to improve. But yeah whatever. So Karsten goes in a surprising 3 1 1 vote which shocks everyone really. We though if anything karsten was flipping but fucking nope plot twist he goes. I mean, i like marty and big z, but i wouldnt have cared too much if one went. Another peasant bites the dust, you know? But hey they are here and while they are might as well use them for what they are worth. Meanwhile damien is the supposed flipper and thinks tyler and lexi are the big threats like what? Lexi has been inactive for a while and Tyler is ok yeah. But how the fuck could he know? Right. Marty and Big Z. Ofc. Well good news is they have 0 fucking clue how great I'm doing here so i can fly utr for a while. Also by bring not as much of a threat i can win doeo with no sweat off my back. These guys all fucking suck and i have finally found a fb flash game I'm good at, so hey, free real estate. Not gonna win much after unless i have to but meh i just like winning. Winning is great! And i win a lot of challenges. A lot. Hahahahaha so yeah. Meanwhile the old majority on og yangra is back together and stronger than ever. Did you know we are the last 5 people left in the game with no votes? Amazing, right? Its almost as if we are fucking golden gods sitting on top of the mountain. Also fuck doeo.

"jigme"

- This first merge vote is gonna reveal so much about whats to come and what to expect for the rest of this season; and honestly I'm excited! I don't think I've came across as a massive threat to anybody in this game, so I'm hoping that if people really are wanting to make big moves right out of the gate, I'll be a possible number instead of lingering in people's mouths. There's so much left to consider going into this vote; going against who of these 11 people will result in a win for me? who can I really trust, and will everything be as simple as it's being made out to be?

"jigme"

- Well this game has taken a turn. I am at the very very very very very bottom of this merged tribe, but that isnt necessarily a bad thing im such a non factor somehow that people just dont wanna take out a pathetic kiddo such as myself. Karsten getting voted out did wonders tanking my threat level and the fact that me and zach are still close as hell whilst the perception of us being apart is out there is GREAT. I just hope no one is lying to me to snipe me outta this game. I am gonna make a comeback you heard it here first.

"jigme"

- I wasn't surprised I didn't manage to win the immunity challenge, that game was sooo hard and I could barely get past the first level, but Pory winning doesn't hinder my game at all so it's great he won. This vote shouldn't be too difficult, there's already a majority gunning after one person so fingers crossed it'll work out simply!

Day 21
"jigme"

- So literally everyone has been telling me that Seamus is going, but Jp let me know about a plan to get Marty out. But the fact that literally no one else has told me means that they’re worried about me being so close to Marty. If Marty becomes a martyr I won’t be too broken up honestly, I love the guy but it’s still the game and I’d like to win. But I’m just concerned that it’ll isolate me without me having even done anything to deserve it. Here’s hoping for the best either way.

"jigme"

- For some reason, Pory thought it would have been a good idea to tell Marty that Seamus was the decoy vote. Seamus found out, and even though I told him that he wasn't in any danger, he still tried to rally votes away from him. He almost got a majority against Liam or Tyler. That just shows me that he's a dangerous player. Pory wants to vote him at 10 but I feel like that wouldn't work well for me, and not just because I know Seamus would be loyal to me. It would be a messy vote and no one would really come out of it looking better, so I really hope it doesn't come to this.

"jigme"

- hello so i forget to make these im sorry. so ill just explain last round and this round. so last round we lose and went to double tribal. it was joey and me vs drew/liam/tyler and MY FUCKING AIRPLANE LIED AND SAID THEY HAD WIFI WHEN THEY DIDNT SO I SELF VOTED AND JOEY DIED. anyways. but yah then we won the next immunity so i didnt die.

then we merge and im nervous bc i havent been hella social just kinda a floater but woot woot. anyways i come in 3rd in immunity, pory starts throwing out mine and martys name. well i dont like losing so i decided to make an alliance LMAO. BUT BEFORE THAT EVEN HAPPENED DAMIEN OFFERS ME HIS IDOL. so for a hot second i was like wow i should convine him im going home, get his idol, and then vote him out so i get it :). but decided that is tooooo mean. so i teamed up with him jp zach and marty and now we gonna idol marty and split the vote so that way the two trios have to vote one of themselves out.

drew u can be fucking thank you i voted for splitting between lexi and tyler rather then u and lexi.

"jigme"

- This is the most icky tribal I've ever been to. Not the craziest, just the ickiest, for me at least. The 5 of us (Pory, Lexi, Drew, Liam, Myself) were going to vote Marty and only tell Jp and Vincent as the 6th and 7th votes. (Throwing Seamus' name out to others as a decoy) Obviously we can't trust one of them because a few hours ago Seamus went to Drew telling him he KNOWS the vote is between himself and Marty, and that they have 5 votes (Marty, Seamus, Damien, Big Z, and JP) to go against Lexi, and Drew was asked to be the 6th vote. Supposedly they hadn't approached Vincent yet and there's no word on whether or not he was ever approached but it was at least appearing as if he was the swing? Then just now Drew tells me that Vincent told him that Seamus threw out mine and Liam's name to him.. All the while NONE of these people on the other side have including me in any of their plans so I'm obviously not trusted. The other day Pory told me that Damien mentioned myself and Lexi as the biggest threats. (For whatever reason) So if Lexi goes out tonight, I'm going to not only be in minority but I'll be following after her. We just have to I guess hope that the 5 of us + Vincent stick to voting Marty out, or that they some how screw up and don't get 6 votes on Lexi. Drew says Seamus seemed to back out of the Lexi plan but I don't believe it's dead, if Marty knows he's the target he's obviously doing whatever he can to save himself and Drew even thinks he's being left out of conversation now too. So I honestly don't know what's going to happen. This truly sucks and I just have to hope for a miracle at this point bc now my name has been thrown out also. There's 20 minutes left until the deadline and all I can do is pray! I've never truly felt on the outs in an ORG and if this doesn't work I guess I'm gonna find out what that feels like! Or I'll just be gone.

"jigme"

- so we are 20minutes until tribal and i forgot that pory existed do to his lack of social skills. every conversation with that dude is so bland and basic. if he was a baking ingredient he would be flour. 1 word replies to everything and never asks questions, probs isnt much of a thinker. if im on jury i hope he makes it far lmao

"jigme"

- :o I found an idol! On my very first guess too! I never thought this would ever happen tbh...

It's at a perfect time too. Seamus is trying to turn the two trios (me, Pory, Lexi and Drew, Liam, Tyler) against each other. That's why Lexi and Tyler are the two options for elimination. We can't let that happen, we can't give him too much power. One thing which we can do is to make it seem like Seamus successfully split us by voting 5-4, but then the 5 remaining members of these two trios, as well as Jp, can then gain the upper hand on Seamus at 10. As long as Jp doesn't, everything will turn out fine.

"jigme"

- So everything seemed so fucking simple until fucking damien had to fucking ruin it with his fucking idol so he is going to fucking drown at the fucking bottom of the fucking ocean with fucking seamus and all of those fucking snakes and fucking rats they can all fucking rot for all I care but all I fucking know is that they are fucking going to fucking feel the wrath of the 9th circle of fucking Hell next cycle. I'm going to make them fucking know what it is like to fucking feel fear. No one is going to fucking mess with me and get away with it. Vincent got the idol, that's all we need. We're set now, we have the tools and it's time to craft the holy weapon to bring those fucking shitheads down.

"jigme"

- Yet another example of why you don't FUCK AROUND with BIG Z

So the plan of the "majority" at the time this tribal started was for everyone to tell me and Marty that Seamus was the vote, and then just vote out Marty. Why I was left out of this on Marty's side I have no idea, I guess because we worked together to get out Karsten? But like what other choice did we have? I would've even stuck with them had they brought me into their side!

BUT THEY DIDN'T and I found out through the grapevine as I always do. I've got connections, of course, I was going to find out. I had a feeling all along since Lexi and Liam are terrible liars and I could tell something was up all along anyways. I went to Seamus wanting to work to save him and find out that, of course, I was right and Marty could die. Clearly not a fan of that, so just like the Karsten tribal we rally the troops and end up pulling off this fantastic maneuver. The resume just keeps on being built.

Now the big question: Lexi or Tyler. Do I vote out Lexi, who I wanted to work with all game long but have been essentially rejected at every turn from having that opportunity? Or do I vote out Tyler, who is clearly unaware that I can see him coming online and blatantly leaving my messages unread until hours later., in which he ends up bullshitting me anyways. At this point I'm cool with either. What matters is that, yet again, you don't fuck with Big Z

"jigme"

- I have an F2 with Drew and an F2 with Jp, and what is essentially an F2 with Marty and a probable, eventual F2 with Damien. Spreading myself out a bit too thin I think, this can't last forever. The question now is when.

"jigme"

- WOW, so that vote happened... Someone heard about the Marty plan that probably shouldn't have- and it led to an idol play with me and my closest ally being tied. This sucks. What Drew wants to do, is make it 5-4, but then self vote so it goes to rocks. Now, that plan worries me a little bit- just because of if anyone votes a way that isn't expected and I end up leaving. Would I be happy with it? Yes. But does the risk outweigh the reward? I have no idea.

I'm going to say my being targeted is Vincent's fault- he told Seamus that he was aligned with me and Pory- and I'm assuming he also told Seamus about how Pory referred to the other 3 as a trio.

Now, I think I have Damien, Pory, Vincent, and JP all to keep me. If Drew self-votes, that's all I will need. So as long as I keep them tight, I should be good. That leaves Liam, Marty, Zach, and Seamus keeping Tyler. So if all goes well, both myself and Tyler should be safe- along with Pory. Best case scenario, Zach, Seamus, or Damien goes. I'm highkey stressing out about this, but I have faith! <3

"jigme"

- I'm not gonna lie, these past 22 hours have been the most fun I've had all season and if I go out at least it was in this way. Drew is truly the greatest, he's so cracked (in the best possible way), that he wants to not vote, and force rocks, and he isn't worried about the risks. We've formed an alliance of 6 with Pory, Liam, Vincent and Seamus (Who though he voted against me, Seamus seems very genuine about wanting to save me and has been since the beginning of this, I have no choice but to trust him.) We're hoping to get those 4 votes which at LEAST would force a tie. If we don't get Vincent (who is the sketchiest due to being apparently close with Jp who was in on the last vote), Big Z swore up and down that he would vote to keep me no matter WHAT the others are doing. Marty, Damien, Big Z, and honestly also Jp for all I'm concerned, are my enemies after this round and I want nothing more than to embarrass the hell out of them, having one of them rocked out. There's a high possibility it doesn't go to rocks, but it's still looking like I stay. There is still a chance I could go, anything could have gone wrong. Lexi was filled in on Drew's plan to not vote and she could have literally just warned everyone who we proposed an alliance to so that they vote for me, but then she's be in hot water with her own allies next week because Pory and Drew will both hopefully be pissed at her, so I'm thinking she'll just allow this to happen.

I'm not entirely worried about being on the outs next week and having those gross masculine white men targeting me, if I survive this, I can survive anything, and Drew just told me he has the Lhotse idol. Having him as my closest ally is the best, not only is he hella trustworthy, but in time he will make a bigger target of himself than the target that is for some reason been put on myself and Lexi for being "threats". I don't know if I'll survive this for sure, I don't know if I'll have majority next week for sure, I don't know if we'll win against these trolls who think they're running the show right now, but the one thing I know for sure is that I'm finally having fun in this game which I haven't been for 20 days. So whether this is my last confessional or not, I'm satisfied.

"jigme"

- Hell yeah it's time to go completely rogue and see if anyone notices. I can afford to right now.

In my eyes Lexi needs to go, there's probably more votes on Tyler anyways but this is just what's best for me personally. I'm putting winning the game myself over sticking to an alliance.

I did promise both Lexi and Tyler that I'd save them without even thinking that I had done both so the vote truly did tear me apart to an extent, but I needed to put personal stuff aside and do the right thing for my game. We'll see what happens.

"jigme"

- Playing some serious five dimensional chess in telling every individual person who I voted for without blowing my cover and/or making people mad. Somehow it's all working

"jigme"

- This tribal council has descended into CHAOS. I understand why Drew put himself in that position but honestly it just made everything so much more stressful - but I guess I can't complain because he got the just desserts of making such a bold move. I can't be mad because of the outcome, but I wish things were just simpler. Hopefully moving forward things can be more smooth, but I'm not optimistic, it is Survivor and there's still ten people left in this game.