Board Thread:Survivor 41: Phi Pan Nam/@comment-39927342-20191012215458/@comment-43601271-20191012232531

Hey Jason!

I think the messiest thing I did in this game was going around trying to save Derek. Like I tried to rally Kyle and Anthony HARD to get them to vote with us again. There was a point that I thought me doing so was going to hurt me more than help me, but I pretty much thought “I’m already going for it so screw it, let’s see if I can save my ally”. I think I spent an embarrassingly large part of that day trying to get the vote off Derek and it ultimately all meant nothing. I think after that moment I got back to be a lot more calculated and slowly more reserved, which I was able to ride until the end of the game. But I felt like I was scrambling that day, and my name wasn’t even floating around!

For a short sentence:  I was true to myself and played my heart out.

For the last bit:  For the part of you being the topic of discussion I was mostly talking as if this were an actual season of survivor since that was Anthony’s DVD cover question. I remember having a conversation with you where you mentioned you had been called a lot of things in this game, such as a clown near the beginning and other stuff I won’t mention, but I’m sure you remember. You even said yourself you tend to play a villainous role, and in terms of an actual show being edited, my line of thinking was you’d probably fall into a villain-like role for this season. And villains are major parts of a season! There are usually tons of confessionals centered around them, so my line of thinking would be that if this were to air on the actual show, you would get a large amount of screen time.

For the eliminations, yes, I think you did play a role. You had a vote and I was lucky enough to be teamed up with you from the start. I shared a lot of information with you, and I like to think that we strategized together quite a bit. You were busy during a lot of this game so sometimes we were to the point with what we wanted to do, but I never did anything without talking to you and making sure I knew what you wanted as well, since I was invested in working with you long term. By me saying you had a hand in a lot of the eliminations, it stems from me seeing you as a major part of what ended up being the alliance that came out on top in this season. I think you only voted incorrectly once during the whole season, and I know for a fact you did it purposefully because you didn’t want to vote out Derek and it made our side look less united to everyone else. To me, you were an instrumental part of the season and somebody who’s opinions was put into consideration for each elimination, and that’s why I said you had a part in them. I hope that makes sense, explaining my head space can get weird sometimes.

I would say for you being a threat, it was because there was always a part of me that thought you would vote me out in an instant if you thought it gave you a better spot. I view you as a serious game player and while I love you to death as a person, I think you can separate the game from personal relationships and always thought you would pull the trigger if you thought it gave you a better chance to win. The biggest round I felt this was when Alex was voted off. This was because I really didn’t want Alex to go that round, because he was only helping my game. But when I talked to you, it seemed like you were set on getting rid of him. I knew there was talk I had a close alliance with him, so I kept a lot of my reservations to myself because I thought it I brought them up, it may have made you think I really had moved on from working with you to working more closely with Alex. And I 100% believed that you had the sway to get votes against me if you so desired moving forward. As a person, I think very highly of you, as a player, I think you have the grit to make the hard choices to win. As somebody also trying his hardest to win, it made me cautious.

Hopefully that answered all your questions Jason! Thank you so much! I really enjoyed getting to know you over the course of this last month and I appreciate everything you did for me, inside and outside this game. You are a true Qween, and whatever your decision with this vote, we stan true Qweens.