Board Thread:Survivor 25: Resurrection/@comment-31988991-20170705101350/@comment-24808835-20170705231828

Hey Julia!

Here's what I have to say:



As for your impression of me, as brutal as this is, I feel a little insulted that you would call me inactive, as someone who tried in every challenge and spoke to everyone, over a person who self voted at the Final 4 Tribal Council. If I came off as distant to you, that's because we were distant. Zakriah and I talked about how we felt like you were a loose cannon and THAT'S why we weren't strategically close. Being distant does not equal being inactive. And I don't see how I didn't "manage" getting around timezones. We still talked. I only didn't respond to you when I was working, sleeping, or in class, and those are all very valid reasons to not reply to someone instantly. As for being led, I don't disagree at the early merge. However, once the Jenna vote hit, I was definitely playing for myself. If I were led around, and didn't have any energy invested in this game, I wouldn't have participated in the last two challenges. I wouldn't have voted out Charlie or Nathan, even if they would have beaten me. I wouldn't have had to campaign my ass off and fight to stay at final 5. I wouldn't have decided to force a tie to try and save Aren, worried he might be my last opportunity to win this game. If I truly did not care and was inactive, none of those things would have happened. I would have been content being here with Nathan or Charlie. So, to answer your question, I don't really know why you have more of a bitter feeling toward me. I did show passion and activity, and honestly I worry that you might be stuck viewing me through the EMBB lens. That's not who I am, and my actions in this game have very clearly shown that.

It doesn't help that Adrian has been flat out lying about me at this FTC. He says I didn't talk to him at all until the George vote, which is not true. I started talking in depth with him at the Jenna vote to pull him in to my side, and I have him on record for saying that he liked working with me because I asked for his opinion, pretty contradictory to his claims that I rejected any idea that wasn't mine. The only time I was ever firm on an opinion with him was at the Nathan vote, which why would I not be? And even then, I very clearly told him, because he was so set on voting Zakriah based on personal feelings and vendettas, that I'm sorry if he felt like I was being bossy, but I needed to get my thoughts across.

For your first question, I wouldn't say I was stopped at all from making big moves. I was constantly on my toes in this game. However, especially in these Second Chances and AllStars seasons, you can't make flashy move after flashy move. That's what gets you sent home. I think I had a good balance of making big moves, and subtle plays. I don't think there's anything wrong with playing UTR either. I still had some pull in the votes, but while I was doing so, all of the bigger targets were voting each other out. It's easy to get comfortable in that spot when you're talking with everyone. As long as my name wasn't being spread I was ultimately content.

Q2: It seems like you guys wanted flashier gameplay, so I would have really made what I was doing known. I wouldn't have made my decisions under the radar, and I would have been a lot more up front with my connections and decisions. There were times when I was scared to admit things, like I couldn't bring myself back when Aren was around to tell Nathan that I wanted him out. But I also had no reason to tell him, and it worked in my favor when he saved me later on. I probably just in general would have been a lot more straight up in my intentions and less wishy washy.

Q3: Charlie should have won this game because he dominated a majority of the merge. Even when he was being targeted, he had another trick up his sleeve, whether it were Zak's exile ticket, or Zak's idol. He won challenges when he needed them, and he kept tight social relationships with just about everyone. Charlie kept a sense of friendliness with a majorly savvy strategy, and I think out of everyone, he played one of the most well rounded games of them all.

Q4: Zak isn't reslly a dick. He just has a temper. I reccommend having him count to ten and take deep breaths whenever he wants to rub his moves in your face ;)

Will do your task when I get home from work!