The Gays Are Banding Against You/Confessionals

Day 8
"gallieni"

- If I were to have an Edgic rating for this upcoming episode, it would be UTR1 or something around that. Unless we go to tribal, I'll be focusing on real life stuff more during this round of the game. I feel like things have calmed down, I'm socializing with people briefly enough to stay in touch with them, and overall just getting things I need to get done completed. So yea, just an update from me.

"azorella"

- I loathe this challenge with great intensity.

"couvreux"

- *my last two confessionals were day 7 So hunters gonna be wearing my wig when he gets online I'm fucked I really wanted to work with him and I let everyone pollute my mind!!! I fucking hate my life and this tribe!!!

"gallieni"

- Man, keeping up social bonds with everyone is difficult man. Especially when everyone, myself included, kind of beats around the bush when it comes to game talk due to being mistrusting of everyone in the game. It's resorted to various levels of small talk that I'm not a huge fan of. I'm just hoping that keeping up with people helps me out in the long run, rather than being a futile waste of time.

"azorella"

- I'm sad Kevin was voted off. Kevin, Ryan M, they would have been friends and allies in a swap or merge. And to wake up every time they go to tribal to find out Hunter was almost voted out both times... ugh. The only bright thing about this is there are 2 people against Hunter left on that tribe.

"azorella"

- Confessional: I am deeply, extremely unable to be artistically creative. My flags, idols, etc. are living proof. So I decided to go for brute force. Do something that takes a shitton of work to actually create. 1. I am on summer vacation and I'm really bored so it's a good way to keep me occupied, 2. I will have shown my dedication to my tribe and thus endear me both by work ethic and by partially defusing the challenge threat narrative. And during these 6 hours I have listened to in the background a number of interesting lectures by Jordan Peterson on human psychology, and my comprehension of those lectures has steadily decreased as I have painstakingly put together my over 1,024 mangatar mosaic together and as I have gone from 10 PM to 4 AM. I tell ya h'what though, it's a rather interesting night :P Much better than the crushing boredom that occurs for me whenever nothing is going on. I will say, I have to have something going on, if I'm not talking to someone I'm thinking about bills to be paid or some invention I could make or some idea here or there, and if I ever take care of everything (like at the end of school) it takes me about 24 hours to go from relaxation to madness. I enjoyed working to make a shitty mural for my tribe not even for my game, it's just something to distract me from the monotony of my life at the moment. I'm not even trying to be an edgelord that's just a fact and that's most of why I spent 6 hours making this mural oop so that's fun

"gallieni"

- Okay so you know how I said earlier I would probably get an UTR1 Edgic rating for this episode? WELL FORGET THAT, ITS ABOUT TO BECOME CP3 OR CP4 CUZ I JUST SNATCHED OUR TRIBE'S IDOL YASS!

God, it feels so good to have another thing to have to stress about in the game! Lol. Nah I kid, having an idol is always nice. I just need to learn to chill with it for once and learn when it'll actually be effective for me to use. Which I haven't ever done yet. So this'll be a fun learning experience!

"azorella"

- Honestly, since we haven't lost yet, things have been REALLY chill.

I have all the alliances I need, I've been strengthening my bonds, and all that we're really doing now is waiting for the swap. It's sorta like a hibernating squirrel!! That's me right now! Squirrel boy!!

So, I worked my ASS off on that chant (I made all the lyrics + video) and now I'm hoping we can pull out yet another W... I'm not prepared to lose. But if we do happen to lose, I'm hoping Adrian can go as he's the only one in the tribe that I don't have a working relationship with.

"gallieni"

- So I'm here waiting for the results of this challenge and I'm nervous as hell. Funnily enough, this is like a complete reversal of how I felt right after Couvreux's tribal. They got rid of their biggest challenge asset, so over here on Gallieni we're all hyped up now because, ""OMG HOLY SHIT WERE JUST GONNA CRUSH THEM!"" But it's not Survivor without a total reversal of fortunes, so of course we get a creative challenge. And of course, not only are none of us, save for Trent, skilled in photo editing and what not, most of the tribe was busy all day with various things.

So right now, we all submitted and I'm pretty sure there's not a single soul on Gallieni that isn't shaking like a leaf right now and preparing for the worst at tribal. Hell, Felix has already started throwing out names, since apparently he wants Miguel out. It's understandable, Miguel hasn't been on as often as he probably should be due to real life/schooling being a priority. It's just tough though because I like Miguel, but then again I like everyone on this tribe.

Hopefully though, a miracle happens with this challenge, we somehow don't go to tribal and I get to spend the day erasing all traces of my ""chant"" instead of stressing my head off about tribal.

"gallieni"

- So I'm here waiting for the results of this challenge and I'm nervous as hell. Funnily enough, this is like a complete reversal of how I felt right after Couvreux's tribal. They got rid of their biggest challenge asset, so over here on Gallieni we're all hyped up now because, ""OMG HOLY SHIT WERE JUST GONNA CRUSH THEM!"" But it's not Survivor without a total reversal of fortunes, so of course we get a creative challenge. And of course, not only are none of us, save for Trent, skilled in photo editing and what not, most of the tribe was busy all day with various things.

So right now, we all submitted and I'm pretty sure there's not a single soul on Gallieni that isn't shaking like a leaf right now and preparing for the worst at tribal. Hell, Felix has already started throwing out names, since apparently he wants Miguel out. It's understandable, Miguel hasn't been on as often as he probably should be due to real life/schooling being a priority. It's just tough though because I like Miguel, but then again I like everyone on this tribe.

Hopefully though, a miracle happens with this challenge, we somehow don't go to tribal and I get to spend the day erasing all traces of my ""chant"" instead of stressing my head off about tribal.

"gallieni"

- So Nathan and I are kinda in a situation rn, we have an alliance with snick, Nifty and Felix in one side and another with Trent and Andy so we pretty much r on the middle and have a choice to make in the case we go to tribal, but I really hope we can win this challenge because I'm not in a mood to break relationships in the case we are going to swap soon, connections are everything for my game rn and I'm not gonna lose them.

"azorella"

- I have the correct narrowed down to one of 24 potential combinations. It's getting down to the nitty gritty, and I'm mostly worried about Adro finding the idol because he is the only person on this tribe I haven't allied with. I'm also potentially worried about Selly finding an idol because he has a bit of a reputation for playing dangerously, and that's obviously the kind of person you don't want to be in power. Damn, I hope someone I trust finds that thing soon, preferably me.

"gallieni"

- So I'm here waiting for the results of this challenge and I'm nervous as hell. Funnily enough, this is like a complete reversal of how I felt right after Couvreux's tribal. They got rid of their biggest challenge asset, so over here on Gallieni we're all hyped up now because, "OMG HOLY SHIT WERE JUST GONNA CRUSH THEM!" But it's not Survivor without a total reversal of fortunes, so of course we get a creative challenge. And of course, not only are none of us, save for Trent, skilled in photo editing and what not, most of the tribe was busy all day with various things.

So right now, we all submitted and I'm pretty sure there's not a single soul on Gallieni that isn't shaking like a leaf right now and preparing for the worst at tribal. Hell, Felix has already started throwing out names, since apparently he wants Miguel out. It's understandable, Miguel hasn't been on as often as he probably should be due to real life/schooling being a priority. It's just tough though because I like Miguel, but then again I like everyone on this tribe.

Hopefully though, a miracle happens with this challenge, we somehow don't go to tribal and I get to spend the day erasing all traces of my "chant" instead of stressing my head off about tribal.

"couvreux"

- Tribal was the shit show that it deserved to be. Seeing Hunter and Kevin stick true to their intents was almost a let down, we screwed up and further alienated Hunter. As I've said before, I really like Hunter, the guy is a cinnamon roll. He understood his situation and tried his darn best to cope with it. You see, I am now trying to pull Hunter back over since I genuinely want to work with him. Had I had the time to look back at all my interactions with Kevin and Hunter, not a single one of them would have given the impression of either of them having an idol, and Hunter had been there being like ""Ok I'll tell Kevin this lie in order to make sure he doesn't think he is targeted"" and what not. I've gotta build back up my relationship with him on top of a shaky foundation, which I like not.

"couvreux"

- Let's look back at who started all this mess. Her name starts with J and the rest is nearly ulcer. She is a shady individual, she has changed personas in the past, which reminds me of certain massive cunt and renown sock-puppeteer, and what I've understood from people who feel the need to shift their persona time and time again, is that they love lying and building up their persona. She acts as the self-entitled queen of Couvreux, to the point of including a Queen Bee in her parchment. That's strike 1. She started the split vote last tribal, but wouldn't want to vote for Hunter and instead forced Zak to vote for Hunter, that way she can be at better odds with Hunter than Zak and Charlie, despite the entire stupid split-the-vote idea came from her and she dictated who did what, it also granted her extra brownie points if she made Final Tribal Council so she could be like "Whoever's name I wrote down, went home!" She tries to put on this facade of being a team player, when all there is below her skin is egotism and a fixation with self-preservation. Strike 2. The worst part, is that she is a backstabbing two-faced bitch. Turns out, that my suspicions about her potentially trying to get me out last tribal, were true. She originally juggled the ideas of splitting the vote against either me or Zak, proving that she does not consider us that good of an ally and she wouldn't flinch upon writing down our name. Ali said that she tried controlling him during the past few days, which is why there is a notion of Ali being her lapdog arose. He spilled me all the tea on her and then I went to Zak and filled him in. The plot thickens. When the initial alliance of me-Charlie-Ali-Julia formed, she'd also formed a secondary alliance with Ali and Zak. This was a snake move on her part and it just proves that she doesn't care all that much about me, Charlie and Zak. Honestly, she probably doesn't care that much about Ali either, she probably thinks he is dumb, and she granted Ali the ability to destroy her, and boy, did Ali just blow up her game by coming to me. I am going on a rat-hunt against Julia because she's wronged the entire tribe up to this point, there is not a single person she's not tried to utilise in this tribe. All of this whilst keeping her saccharine child inside an adult's body act. Strike 3, you are out, the gays are banding against you.

"gallieni"

- Ok so I was wrong my name has been thrown, and maybe it's me, I'm in people hands, which sucks! But I'm trying anything I can and more, after all I get why I'm getting thrown, being the runner up here is hurting me maybe, but the runner up won't fall that easy.

Day 9
"gallieni"

- Well, can't say I'm surprised. Based on how everyone was talking about their lack of commitment time + our lack of skills in this area, I kinda figured we'd lose again. Now it's just a matter of doing the same shit we did last time--spread around a name somewhat cautiously, have the tribe unanimously agree on someone, and then try not to let it leak to the one getting out.

Now, it's looking to be Miguel right now as it stands, and that idea was proposed by Nick. So Nick is, once again, going to get his way with this tribe. He's pretty much playing the 'best' game on this tribe, and by that I mean he's the only one assertive and open enough to put out names first and let them catch fire. I'm kind of iffy on having him as a duo partner at this point, just cuz of this status he has--I feel like he has stronger individual bonds with a lot of this tribe. I'll let him get out Miguel for now, but I'm thinking I might wanna go after Nick soon.

"azorella"

- I told that weird ass alliance I have with Josephine/Aren/Cali that I have their back if we swap tomorrow. I told them my internet is gonna be down and that's why I don't talk to them much. But in reality I'm not that loyal to it. I'm loyal to Aren... but I don't trust them past one vote honestly.

Hunter and Josephine host together. Josephine and Zakriah are friends. I see their facebook posts a lot. All the people I might be against are all together and I KNOW IT.

Josephine is sweet, I like her a lot more now... but a lot of people do... I have my eyes on her ready to pull the trigger if she does something against me or Adrian.

"couvreux"

- So, Im happy we finally won immunity, but this tribe is still going off and is talking alot of game. Julia and I have been close since the beginning and Joan wants her out. I'm not gonna let that happen AT ALL! So I need to plant seeds with Charlie/Zak/Hunter. I need them to see how much of a threat Joan actually is. I hope this much gameplay doenst paint me as a target tho.

"gallieni"

- Today, I think I learned just how strong Nick's social game is on this tribe. He's seemingly made strong individual bonds with almost the entire tribe, except like Miguel. And of course Ryan. He claims these weren't his ideas, but whether or not they were, I think I still am getting a sense of how much in-control he is of things right now. I'm hoping for a swap soon to potentially knock him out of this position, although I still fear he'll be able to make those strong connections on a swapped tribe. Nick just concerns me in a lot of ways, really, but the big thing is: he only concerns me within this context. On a different tribe with different people, will he pose the same threat? That's what I have to think about moving forward.

"gallieni"

- So kevin's gone as I predicted. Big shock. anyways we lost the challenge and are at tribal again. If things are going the way they should, it should be Nick, nifty and felix voting for miguel and andy, nathan, miguel and i voting for one of nick/felix. I'm definitely worried about andy because he's reportedly close with nick, but to make a promise with a group this early i don't think would be very good for him, so i'm mainly working off hope that he gets that felix and nick are running things and this is his chance to get some power back. All I know is either way I'm hoping we swap soon so I have minimal risk of dealing with this outcome should i stay. theres like a little gut feeling that we're being lied to and the vote is actually me or nathan, just based off talks i had, but i can't prove that and have to go along with things. this is the most nervous i've been this game and this is exactly why i said we should've kept ryan around last time

"couvreux"

- My tribe is fucking imploding all around me and all I know is everyone wants me on their side rn and I just know a swap or double tribal or something is coming up this next round bc nothing has happened and I'm literally shook

I have not changed nearly enough in my gameplay so far I let everyone completely manipulate my vote last tribal and ruined my trust with Hunter and fucked myself in case of a swap, but somehow mostly everyone wants to work with me?

Apparently Julia was throwing around splitting on me to Joan last round, but I know joan and Julia are completely at each others throats vying for head bitch in charge status so they're both each other's first targets for however long it takes for one to get the other out.

Ive been growing sketched of Julia and how many alliances shes making and I know she doesnt have my best interests at heart. We have a strong org relationship, but I've found that in this game, past relationships aren't going to get you very far. I just know posie is willing to stab me in the back if it suits her and I'm willing to throw away any ties to people I had before this game started if something that would benefit me more begins to develop. Case in point: Joan or Charlie. I want to work with the two of them more than anyone in the game right now, ive thrown around the idea to Joan and he wasnt repulsed by it or anything, but I haven't spoken to Charlie about it. I do know Julia and Joan both kinda threw Charlie under the bus for the split vote idea and I worry that he and Julia are closer with each other than either of them is close with me.

Long story short, Julia packing up and leaving is honestly the best thing that could happen for my game right now.

"azorella"

- Maybe it's just an error or I'm reading too much into something, but last night, while I was browsing the Wiki, I noticed that for the 703 Tribes template on the Wiki, there are two empty spaces under the current, pre-existing tribe names. Again, maybe it's an error or oversight or something else altogether, but it's also very possible that means that we'll be swapped into four tribes at some point.

"azorella"

- Aaaand, we won again!! Yipeeeeee!!!

Honestly, our tribe ROCKS. I'm stoked to be with so many cool campers like this!

However, Josephine & I have been speculating, and we're thinking that there might be a swap after this next tribal-council. It's scary, but in Survivor you can't be fearful - you have to face all twists n' turns head on, y'know. So, if we do swap into four tribes of five, I have to be prepared to do whatever I have to do in order to stay in the game.

I'm honestly nervous about being swapped into any kind of minority. I feel like if Azorella DOESN'T have an immediate majority on whatever tribe I'm swapped onto, we'll be targeted because people are gonna wanna weaken us. And, who are you gonna go for first? Me - the guy who's been reaaaally good at challenges. So, that's definitely a concern of mine. However, hopefully I'll be swapped into a majority situation and everything will be fine and dandy.

"gallieni"

- So I got a really bad feeling about this tribal and for some reason I feel like it could even be my last, so that's a devestating thought. Trent, Andy and Nifty are acting hella shady and if those 3 flip to Miguel's side, I'd be toast for sure, which would be horrible for the tribe. I highly doubt Miguel would be as helpful at challenges and we're gonna be at 20 after this, so plenty more tribals to come! I would honestly be surprised, if they were to save Miguel cause I can't imagine his social game is helping his cause. Literally all he does is respond with "ajfsjsjfasjfjsa" jafsjasjffasjfas. If I do stay however, I'd really want Nifty or Trent out soon, Trent cause he's telling everyone Nick and I are this huge duo that needs to be taken out and Nifty cause he's just super shifty. Last tribal he told Ryan that he's getting voted out and this tribal he's telling people he hates how Nick always gets his way, when this is literally just our second (!) tribal. Either way, if I stay I'll be super grateful, if not, no idea what I could have done differently!

"gallieni"

- I realized that this plan to take out Nick, it'll get more complicated and more difficult and potentially won't happen if we swap soon or lose Miguel this round. So, I don't wanna have to hang on to hope anymore. Hope is in my possession. I'm gonna use it to my advantage before it's too late.

"azorella"

- WHAT THE FUCK JUST HAPPENED TO NICK

"azorella"

- Bloody fucking hell.

"azorella"

- I think Nick being blindsided was a major wake-up call to everyone here. Nick was one of the people I felt that I got along best with in the game and planned on working with in the future, should we have swapped together. Now, those plans are impossible. This has put me into a very nervewracking scenario, where one of my friends is gone, the idol's location is still to be determined, and considering that if my hunch is right, we're about to move into four tribes, which could potentially be disastrous depending on how this swap goes.