My Current Dilemma/Confessionals

Day 19
"catarina"

- I honestly didn’t think that Andrew would vote for Nathaniel too, so that’s great because it kinda seemed like someone tried to work with Andrew after I threw a vote to make sure that we’re safe from an idol.

As of now, I really don’t care much if we win or lose the immunity challenge because someone in my tribe is really annoying me and I’m really thinking about voting them off next. I also think it’s the best move for me to get rid of them before they strike first, and I hope I will be able to work with the right people to make that move.

Day 20
"tacana"

- I'm not surprised that we lost the challenge, but I'm not so eager about going to tribal anymore LOL. The general consensus is between Malik and Claudia, and I think everyone, including them is aware.

I was actually pushing for Claudia to go. At least Malik is making an effort with me, wheras I haven't had a single conversation with Claudia whatsoever. However Austin is pushing hard for Malik, and he cites the fact that Claudia has no connections on the other side. Although that's true, I don't feel like Claudia has much incentive to be loyal to us either. Nick and I are pushing for Claudia, but I don't wanna push too hard for no reason if Austin is really set on Malik. I'm waiting to hear what Rhi has to say.

This tribal is very decisive to how the merge is going to go. First of all, Catarina is guaranteed to reunite. We're a sexy foursome, and Nathaniel is waiting to join in on the fun. Plus Brandon seems to trust us more than his former Quetzel members. Therefore, Malik or Claudia are being treated like swing votes, yet we have the power instead of them. You see, if we keep No-Connections Claudia in the game, we're giving her options that she has no power to act with. She has no one to flip to, wheras Malik apparently does. I guess my head says Claudia, and my gut says Malik. Hopefully I don't have leaky gut syndrome, so if we end up voting Malik, I'm not in a merge alliance with Claudia, despite not even knowing where the bitch is from.

"tacana"

- This vote is kind of tricky. I have the Catarina alliance which I trust the most and then my alliance with Rhi, Austin and Brandon. Luckily, both are on the same page but I can't decide if it's better to vote Claudia or Malik. It's going to come down to who I think will flip more, I think it'd be Malik but Claudia and I just haven't really spoke. The thing that's getting complicated is Claudia and Malik are asking me who they should vote and I just do not know what to tell them. On another note it seems like Brandon and I are bonding a lot so hopefully that'll help me in the long run.

"tacana"

- So, we lost the fucking challenge, and I did my damned best to help the tribe out with my flag and all, and guess what happens? Nick, Rhi, and possibly Sim are all after me. Brandon sat out that's fine, but Sim didn't even do SHIT. He was supposed to help Austin, but all he did was complain, and then disappeared the entire challenge.. and I should leave? Fuck no, if anything I should be fine. And then apparently they wanna kill Tacana's numbers, which make no sense. It's like Quetzal with 5, Catarina with 5, and Tacana with 3? What sense does that make? If anything you should try to use me to fight Against Quetzal and as an extra number, not vote me out like a dumbass and lose one by one. Think smart, dumbasses.

"tacana"

- If I go, then I go! Had an amazing time playing!! I hope I didn't suck too bad so I could look forward to a return lmao

"tacana"

- So here's my current dilemma: Malik would be a pretty easy vote off, but Malik and Claudia obviously don't want that, Malik is a loose cannon but I actually want to work closely with Claudia, But if I don't vote off Malik I don't want to vote one of my Catarina people, so that leaves Brandon, which makes sense, right? He has 4 Queztal on the other tribe he could flip to at merge, and if we were to vote Brandon and include Malik and Claudia, they could rope Chris back in at the merge and then we have 3 solid looking numbers, but the issue is getting one Catarina person on board, Rhi is pretty much a no go considering Brandon is 100% loyal to her, Nick is a maybe and Sim is as well, but we vote out Brandon and don't tell Rhi? I feel like that loses her as a number, so right now I'm confused whether to vote Malik, then possibly lose Claudia as a number at merge and let Brandon flip back to his original tribe, or vote Brandon, secure Chris, Malik, and Claudia as numbers and then possibly lose Rhi, but getting Chris as a number is assuming that he voted in minority at that last Catarina tribal, it's fucking rough but hopefully I can make the right decision.

"tacana"

- Okay I've discussed the vote more with Brandon because I've been really considering saving Malik, and Brandon brought up that we could vote Sim, which at first I didn't really wanna do, I even warned Sim about Brandon wanting to vote him, which if I end up going with Brandon and voting Sim Sim could seriously seriously fuck me over by exposing I told him something about Brandon, so now I'm in an even tougher position sOOOO this is gonna be a rough vote, but if Sim doesn't expose me and we do vote him, Claudia and Malik could stick with us and we have a strong 6 and possibly even 7 at merge

"tacana"

- So Claudia comes up to me about an hour before the vote saying "You're gonna hate me" so I immediately assume she's voting me so i ask what's going on and she is really quiet about things at first but then she tells me eventually that she does have an idol, and that she's playing it on Malik, and although she wouldn't tell me who she voted, Malik said he voted Sim and I don't see any reason for him to lie, so I assume that Sim is leaving this tribal with two votes, maybe more if Claudia included anyone else on this plan, Sim will be missed but with this way Sim does leave like we talked about doing earlier and I don't have to lose Nathaniel as a number, I've already started apologizing to Malik for being able to do nothing so he would at least possibly think that I didn't want to vote him so we can be on a good page, and Claudia and I are obviously on a good page since she told me about the idol, but results are coming soon and we'll soon get to see all the shit that is gonna go down, there's always that slim possibility it could be me so I'm nervous about that but I honestly think Sim is done for.

"tacana"

- So here's my current dilemma: Malik would be a pretty easy vote off, but Malik and Claudia obviously don't want that, Malik is a loose cannon but I actually want to work closely with Claudia, But if I don't vote off Malik I don't want to vote one of my Catarina people, so that leaves Brandon, which makes sense, right? He has 4 Queztal on the other tribe he could flip to at merge, and if we were to vote Brandon and include Malik and Claudia, they could rope Chris back in at the merge and then we have 3 solid looking numbers, but the issue is getting one Catarina person on board, Rhi is pretty much a no go considering Brandon is 100% loyal to her, Nick is a maybe and Sim is as well, but we vote out Brandon and don't tell Rhi? I feel like that loses her as a number, so right now I'm confused whether to vote Malik, then possibly lose Claudia as a number at merge and let Brandon flip back to his original tribe, or vote Brandon, secure Chris, Malik, and Claudia as numbers and then possibly lose Rhi, but getting Chris as a number is assuming that he voted in minority at that last Catarina tribal, it's fucking rough but hopefully I can make the right decision.

"tacana"

- This tribal council is going to be pretty boring. I tried my damndest to get Austin and the rest of my Catarina alliance to flip on Sim, but Nick was the one who mainly wasn't receptive. I guess I'll be going with them to vote against Malik, and I'm PRAYING that a merge comes fast, because idk how long i can last on this tribe!!