Exuberant Golden Retriever Energy/Confessionals

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Day 22

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Day 21
"yangra"

- sooooo, Devin went home in an EPIC blindside. i am trying my best to convince people that it was Catnip's and Nathaniel's move... but was it? i spent last ~week spreading all the shady things about Devin to the 5 out of 6 other voters who wrote his name down yesterday (not counting myself of course):

- with open talks with Conch, we quickly discovered how much "game talk orientated" Devin is. Devin noticed that i prefer to bond with people before talking about life, so he simply attacked me with life related questions while AT THE SAME TIME attacking Conch with game related questions. that's neither mine, nor Conch's style.

- to Catnip i mentioned how "Devin says that you and Loren were in charge of OG tribe, but he also thinks you two will go against each other soon. Devin also suggested me to get close to Loren, so it means he will take Loren's side in a possible battle for power between you and Loren." that instantly pulled them apart guaranteeing OG Vulpa numbers in Mono 3.0.

- also, to Catnip, Nathaniel and after the swap Isaiah i told how Devin is saying how all hosts of Survivor: Lithuania are threats just as players from there.

- also, to Nicole and her close allie Nathaniel i mentioned about Devin's idea to target Nicole in the merge

- also in a conversation with Isaiah and Conch - we discovered how Devin is using other people's guesses to trade with other people, never giving his own. i shared that with Nathaniel, Nicole and Catnip. i believe that was the last nail to the vote. Okie was included due to his close relationships with Nicole and Catnip.

Can it be that all this time while calling Devin sneaky, I was the sneaky one?

"yangra"

- I was HIGHLY upset at the result of the vote yesterday. Everyone was saying that Devin and Loren were on the chopping block, but that Loren would more than likely go home. I really do hope everything is okay with Loren, but it just sucked watching someone go home who was playing active AND being shady. Did I want to work with Devin? Absofruitly not. But like I was hoping that maybe like Loren could come back later on and be a part of the jury. Like I do hope he is okay. But man, I would've hated to be in Devin's shoes there.

"yangra"

- Got into a little bit of a fuss with Catnip today which was my fault for sure. Most people told me right before the vote it had switch to Devin, but I did not have time to. But Catnip just like....failed to mention that to me. And I was getting told by people like Nathaniel, who I only worked with for a small period of time and they apologized. So I wanted to go to Catnip and ask if there was a reason why she didn't tell me.

Did I word the question in the best way? probably not. But it was a semi-argument that could've bit me in the butt. She was so confused as to why I was hurt and I thought in previous messages she had just said Devin was an option. But I guess I misunderstood or something.

But I did give her all of my letters as a peace offering. I didn't want any from her, but she gave them to me anyway. So I hope bygones are bygones (still shook that is only one word).

Day 22
"yangra"

- I've made it to the final 10! Our merge tribe's 2 clear outcasts are now gone, and it's anybody's game now. At this point, I'm aligned with basically everybody left besides Okie and Catnip, so things are going to get messy fast. So far, I've been playing the hero to an almost comical degree, to the point that even I'm starting to buy it. I've been leaning in hard to my exuberant golden retriever energy, serving kid in a candy store, Erik Reichenbach realness all day every day. I've been a gooey ball of mush to like half of my remaining tribemates, telling them how much they mean to me, how much of a loyal player I am, and how I'm just thrilled to have made it this far. Hopefully I've been so adorable that the idea of crushing my dreams feels just completely out of the question for these people.

I was a little stupid earlier, but I think it might actually end up helping my dumb, trusting Conch persona. CJ is coming to Boston, and we're thinking about getting dinner 1 while he's here, and I accidentally let that slip to Martynas. Which normally would be a huge, stupid mistake that would definitely be used as an excuse to target me and/or CJ. Except I told this to Martynas, who, unless he's playing the role of tribe softie even better than I am, is a genuine ball of mush with a list of principles longer than a CVS receipt. And I played it off like I just didn't want to keep any secrets from Martynas because I'm an upfront player and really fully trust him. I think it might have worked? This might end up being like telling Martynas I found an idol to build trust but instead of an idol (since I haven't found jack shit on these idol searches all game) it's just a dumb little thing that I said that I shouldn't have. But maybe it'll have the same end result? If I've learned anything from Meanjin, it's that sometimes the best move is to be honest about as much as possible, so that way when you do have to lie, you can get away with it.

Making Devin the merge boot wasn't necessarily my initial plan, but I do think it helped to build trust with people, Martynas and Nathaniel especially, and I'm now in an alliance with the two of them and Nicole. And Devin was making everyone nervous, and I needed everyone lulled into a false sense of security. I'm not sure who I'd want to target this vote. Ideally, either Okie or Catnip goes here, since I'm connected to them the least, or Matty going could be good for me too, since I think he's closer to many of my allies than he is to me. I don't think it'll be me, because I've already had multiple people tell me they'll raise all kinds of hell to defend me if my name comes up. But as I learned from Meanjin, getting comfortable is opening yourself up for a blindside.

"yangra"

- Hmmmmm.... either I am dumb or Matty may be using Devin's idol hunt strategy. To be honest I am being dumb....I think.....Maybe I am right.......hmmmmmm........

"yangra"

- I have also cleared up my suspicions with Okie through Nicole. She said that he feels good about me and that she has a strong bond with him. So I now trust him more, especially since he has shared many idol guesses with me. I decided to revive the alliance chat with us 2 and Nicole, since I think making sure they stay close to me via physical group talks helps keep me bonded to them. (I almost said physical group contact. oh NO).

I just currently in an alliance with everyone in the game except for Catnip and Nathaniel.....That means targetting one of them could be the move here. But would I really have the numbers? Now that Loren and Devin have been yote, this game is wide open. Nothing has happened at all tonight, but I think things will be getting messy soon. And I am scared. Not for myself, but about decisions I will have to make soon.

Speaking of me, I can't believe I was 1 point away from winning TWICE IN A ROW. I am :rage: I suspect that Isaac is rigging it against me. Isaac from the grave.

"yangra"

- Bonches <3

"yangra"

- Also I am one tribal away from making single digits for a third time AND tying my Mount Vesuvius placement. Go Piss Girl.

"yangra"

- I am currently celebrating 4/20 and almost made this confessional with "mrs dua bank" as the in-game name section

"yangra"

- so, Caeb, Matty, Okie. for me easiest choice before I heard it would probably have been Caeb. based on level of connection, being blamed for treachery and such. I am mostly paranoid about Matty though. but I feel that after last round, at least here, at least this once so close to it, I should be on his side - or like, maybe vote Caeb, even if I knew Matty was the majority, so that I could appear being loyal and sticking to the game trust/promises I made or alliances I made, things like that.

"yangra"

- soooooo... somehow i won the challenge. who cares right? hopefully - nobody will notice that this challenge was all about who has better social ties to be able to get other people's orders.

however, this is growing to be an interesting vote. i would prefer Matty: Getting him out would guarantee that mono 3.0. still has numbers and also, it shows to OG mono that it's not pagonging of them.

plus Matty and Caeb were the only ones who didn't shared their orders with me, i can understand that Caeb wasn't online in the time, but Matty pissed me off, so i guess that's a little personal? Plus it would be "revenge for Gevonte 1.0"

Catnip and Nathaniel prefers Caeb. Nobody knows yet, but Caeb is currently in my endgame plans, so i don't want him to go.

Conch prefers Okie, that would scare me a little as it would be 3 mono 3.0. going home in a row, and the other tribe has spent 2 tribals bonding with each other. giving them numbers now could be catastrophic.

however, in the text above i mentioned above endgame plans! imagine that! yeah, a lot of stuff will change till the end, but atm i am thinking about something of...

Matty and Okie going 10th/9th

CJ and Catnip going 8th/7th

Nicole and Nathaniel going 6th/5th

Conch going 4th

me being in F3 with Isaiah and Caeb. that would bring me good chances for the tittle. but of course it's just an idea. i am going to play round by round and see what will change trying to adapt. i wouldn't be surprised if i am 8th-9th myself.

this group of 10... damn... every tc will s*ck, you will definitely see my tears in upcoming few weeks, but i need to be in a mindset that we all are playing for ourselves. if i'd play by my heart and not head, i would just quit at F6, letting Nicole, Nathaniel, Conch, Catnip and Isaiah to just move forward, but i want to win just the same as all the other 9 people wants to win. I need to be ready to blindside friends, just like i need to accept the fact that it's very likely that i am going to be blindsided by friends soon.

"yangra"

- I really do feel bad that Loren was removed from the game. I really do think that there comes a point that real life does matter more importantly than these games. And unfortunately I do think that Loren is gone for the better. I hope he is doing okay. But nonetheless, the game is moving forward.

"yangra"

- So my goal for today's tribal was originally to solidify a majority. Preferably with CJ, Okie, and Catnip. I don't really care what happens beyond that. But that is what I want moving forward. Even if it means voting out someone I do love and appreciate. I think Caeb might be my original target, but I don't really want to do that. Which means that Nathaniel or Nicole might be my target who I can get the votes behind.

"yangra"

- Well, it looks like I might have to take out Okie and I hate it. I do think he can be a useful number with me but CJ doesn't seem to be budging and I need to gain Catnip's trust again. I am willing to throw someone who is loyal to me in order to bring Catnip to the end. I don't want to, but maybe I can convince them otherwise.

"yangra"

- Well, my name is coming up and people are.....telling me? I am confused though because Catnip appears to be playing both sides. I have to convince Okie that she is not the way to go here. Nicole has told me my name is up, and that she's writing it down. She said she's going with the numbers but MULTIPLE people are telling me that they are not voting me. So, if I had to guess, she thinks she has 6 - not including me. So, as much as I love Catnip. She chose to battle. And I'm willing to do whatever it takes.

"yangra"

- Quite a lot has happened in the past couple days. For starters, a majority of the players decided that Devin's double-dealing was too much of a concern going forward and decided to take him out over Loren which.. is fine by me. I was informed of the plan before the results happened so I wasn't exactly blindsided, and he likely would have been the next to go anyways. In addition, Loren was sadly medevaced. I have heard through Nathaniel that he was trying to paint me as trying to form some anti-Catnip coalition which is a bit upsetting, but right now this isn't about me. Loren has seemingly disappeared and all I can hope is that he's doing okay.

So with both of their departures, it's down to 10 and what I thought would be a fairly straightforward vote has turned into what may be the move that makes me a threat later down the line. The plan going into this vote was to keep it simple and vote Okie, since he isn't very well connected and wouldn't necessarily harm anyone's games. In addition, Catnip has told me that she doesn't trust him very much so I figured I would be doing her a favor by taking that person out. I was hoping especially to look out for her since we got into a pretty heavy fight yesterday, so my intention was just to stick by her side and show that I still have her back. However, she responded to my ideas with a bit of hostility; she treated everything I said as having not a lot of merit and instead told me she wants to vote against Caeb. Now... I made a promise to Caeb that I would have his back and not vote against him, so hearing his name is on the table combined with Catnip's behavior towards me, her sway over quite a few people in the game, and the likelihood she has an idol has made me realize quite clearly that she needs to go.. like, NOW. I was hesitant to make a power play this early, but I felt it was the only way to secure a majority going forward. So, I approached my core alliance of Caeb, Conch, Isaiah, and now Matty and told them Catnip won't budge, and that the only way for us to avoid a 5-5 is by roping in Okie using the information I gathered from Catnip about not trusting him, and put 6 votes on Catnip. Everyone very quickly agreed, so I went to work on Okie and let him know what Catnip had said, and he was on board. So in about 30 minutes, I completely flipped the plan and convinced Okie to switch sides, so I think this indicates that I have a solid amount of sway over my allies which is great for me. As long as Catnip doesn't play her idol, we're in the clear.

My other main concern right now is, I know by orchestrating this vote that I may lose trust with Martynas, Nathaniel, and Nicole. Personally, I think I've built fairly strong connections with each of them that they might still be open to working with me. I suppose that depends on how "betrayed" they feel by this potential vote. Either way, I think this move will put me in the best position going forward to navigate to the end, so if this doesn't work then I have a lot of obstacles ahead of me.