Completely, Unequivocally, Absolutely, Empirically, Emphatically Fucked/Confessionals

Day 14
"malacoda"

- First things first, fuck. Ian leaving sucks for me. He was someone I was planning on having in my backpocket later and I had been very deliberate in the amount we talked to where we weren't allies yet but tangentially were connected enough that I could pull that out of my sleeve later and work with him. His departure is awful, and coming off the back of Lora and Vincent's departures, definitely raises red flags in that I can't keep getting close to players that are obvious targets, because if I do, I'm just putting myself in harm's way, but at the same time, I want to keep keeping these people around so I can beat them later on. It's a tough catch twenty-two to be in and I need to figure out how I'm going to adjust to life without Ian.

"malacoda"

- This mutiny situation brings so many interesting questions to the table, and I don't actually have all the answers for maybe the first time in this game. I definitely want to mutiny, not only because it keeps up my unpredictability and people seeing me as a bit of a joke - which I'm sure certain people see through but it still gets mentioned every few days regardless - so I can keep running a tight ship without it being apparent because my game looks anything but air-tight. I also think it brought about a very interesting dilemma. Andrew told me that, point blank, he's going to mutiny to grey. I'm a hundred percent down for that, but then I got to thinking, 'why was Andrew so quick to agree to the idea I memed about in chat of all of us going grey, and why did he so quickly decide to jump over?' To me, it's clear he knows he was the vote. Now, no offence to Andrew, but bro is not around enough to where he would just deduce that off vibes, so someone told Andrew that he was the target if we ever lost a challenge. So, my thinking is that someone told someone from another tribe and that person relayed it back to Andrew. Such is the issues with a one world season, but still, Andrew is aware enough of his position that he wants to bail. That's act one. Act two just happened in a conversation with Aaron and I. Aaron says that Liz is going to brown. Cool, I don't really talk with Liz enough, and even though we've been trying to put together and alliance with the two of us, Liz and Lexi, Liz is always the one that has cold feet. If she goes to brown, I don't care. Now, Aaron says that he wants our tribe to follow. That... is also great news. Everyone goes brown, Andrew goes grey. I get to enact act three. Act three, the best act in everything (don't quote me on that it just fit the vibe I don't actually know many good act threes, act four is always better especially in Shakespearean work), is going to be me pulling some big dick shit. I'm going to go covert undercover secret special ops babysitter espionage Vin Deisel in The Pacifier corporate spy private investigator type beat all over Andrew. The whole tribe will go to brown, but I'm going to follow him to grey, and at that point, I've got more people on that tribe that like me than he does, so I can effectively cut him at the knees and stunt his growth and prevent him from getting any more footing in the game than he previously had while on the bottom at our tribe. You let a cockroach keep roaching and then suddenly a nuke drops and they're the only one that survived and they're just chilling with their twinkies or whatever the imagery is. I'm not letting him do that, so I'm going to throw myself into the fray and take charge of my former grey tribe before he can do anything to stop me. Watch this space, I'm fucken good, so this'll be even better.

"malacoda"

- Imagine being the midwife for Nicki Minaj and her pussy is just like three feet above the bed because her ass is so big and then the baby just falls.

"malacoda"

- So Jigme has cursed us with a mutiny opportunity! I’m not very excited because I have a feeling it’s gonna cause a lot of people to feel betrayed but at the same time my tribe just wants to all go to one tribe to make a majority so I have no clue what’s going to happen

"rubicante"

- Oh, how the days become fearful with age.

So Tribal came and went and we sent Ian home, 5-1. Ultimately, it was the easy choice - he wasn't the most prolific socially and we had the advantage of Joe feeling insecure as an extra number for our side. Alichino cut Tommy, and I feel for the dude. It was his fuckin' birthday!

Everything's chill, then Jigme shows up again. Let me just say it: fuck off, Jigme. I don't want none of your mutiny bullshit.

Expecting a relatively relaxed situation with nobody taking the bait, I'm instead treated to the fact that the ENTIRE. FUCKING. MALACODA. TRIBE. is planning on mutinying to Rubicante. Fuck.

Realizing how dire this situation could be if not planned out, I officially merge my alliance with Hesh with my alliance with Brian and Chloe - we plan on bringing Zach and Liam into the fold. Initially, we consider the idea of Hesh mutinying off to Rubicante to join us three, but then we start entertaining the idea of myself, Joe, Isaiah, Chloe and Brian jumping ship to Alichino. I kind of wanted to stay grey the entire pre-merge, but alas.

The four of us lock this plan in, and it's agreed we need to keep it secret. Unfortunately, Brian messages Joe with the plan, believing he could trust him. He couldn't. Joe must of leaked the plan, because I get wind that only AJ and Andrew are jumping ship to Rubicante - the others plan on going Alichino. Wanting to unite with Andrew, Joe seems intent on staying put. Brian, Chloe and myself don't have a choice anymore. We have to go Alichino, or else Lex will flip to the original Malacodas and eat Hesh, Zach and Liam.

The entire situation has brilliantly exposed dynamics for the first time, which is likely what the hosts intended. I learn from Zach that Joe and Tommy were tight; with Tommy out, this means Joe's pissed with Hesh and Zach, as they told HIM it was Lex going. Ruh roh. Hesh, Zach and Liam are a tight trio, with the former two also being close to Lex. I still personally don't trust Lex, but he's not a major priority for me now that the mutiny has thrown everything into perspective.

AJ and Andrew jumping to Rubicante together gives me the impression that the two of them are tight. Joe is also tight with them too, apparently, as he's planning on staying put to join up with them. Ah Joe, you're making my life difficult here, little one. He's a threat to my game, and I think Brian is beginning to see that too. Unfortunately, him and Chloe seem rather tight from their interactions in the One World chat - this may pose a problem.

Of the four Malacodas who plan on jumping to Alichino, I'm only particularly tight with Sam, and I think Zach would like him to join the core group. Aaron M and Liz haven't made much impact socially, so they'd be easy cannon fodder. Lexi, on the other hand, is enigmatic. I haven't heard a single person say they know where she stands or who she's aligned with, which is honestly kind of scary. Either she's playing woefully, or brilliantly.

Then there's Isaiah. He's messaged me saying he plans on staying in Rubicante due to ""cum tribe power"", but if the situation gets dire I'm gonna try and get him over to Alichino. I don't want to leave him alone in a tribe of four with AJ, Andrew and Joe. I need that extra connection.

AJ and I have been talking and it seems his mutiny is built around the intention to work with the current grey tribe. As much as I love the dude, I just don't think this one will work out if we stay together. His game is too chaotic for me to sustain, and if I have to leave him on a tribe of 3, that's what I have to do. The way of the crumbling cookie is a hard way, but it's the way.

As for now, I sleep. Fuck this mutiny.

"alichino"

- Okay so in the immunity challenge Joey and I were working together for the most part. I just messed it up. AJ and I worked together for a minute as well and Chloe helped too. In the end I almost had to choose who would win, which would’ve been AJ’s tribe just to keep Sam safe. But I didn’t have to. Joey loses which I’m pretty sure he and AJ coordinated. Aj was mad annoying in the game though and just in general. Never the less I have an alliance with Brian Liam and Zach so Liam is going because he’s in the plan and I had one with lex and Zach and Zach and Liam. Tommy reaches out to Zach telling him we should go lex because Joey told him that lex and I were too close. Okay Tommy you’re not good at these games if you do that. Joey is telling you everything And what to to do and you’re telling people. So time to weaken Joey. Plus how has no one figured out how close lex and I are. I’ve worked my relationship with Liam big time even threw in a VC. So it was a 4-1 on Tommy. Joey was pissed but Zach snd I came up with a lie which he didn’t buy. So he’s not going to work with us. Which is fine, because Chloe Brian and Isaac all separately have expressed they like me and fuck with Zach and Liam and then they all kind of admitted their together and after talked I ended up in a chat with them and we want to make a six with Liam and Zach. Love it. Also no one has any idea that I’m even remotely close to Sam which is insane. So the goal is with this mutiny to get AJ to guess wrong and take his tribe to either Grey or brown then all of grey and all of brown go to red, Joey will probably go with AJ but we’ll take sam with us. Also Liz and Aaron who like lex want to work with Zach and I. That’s fine it gives us people to vote out, so they can come too. Ideally it would be Joey Lexi AJ and Andrew on one tribe the rest on the other. But if Joey stays with his tribe then maybe we send Sam Liz and Aaron out to that tribe to take care of AJ and Andrew. Either way my long term plan is to roll with Chloe Brian and isaaac until like a final 9 maybe and then Zach Liam lex Sam and I take them out. This game is going swimmingly. Zach Sam and I had our VC where we discussed the scenarios.

"malacoda"

- shits absolutely going off the choo choo shoot right now and im all for it tbh

"malacoda"

- bruh aj is going all fuckin psycho right now dude like ive never seen him like this and he finna get absolutely bamboozled AND I CANT WAIT HAHAHAHA

"rubicante"

- So where do we start? Well Ian left. That's the positive. The negative? Hesh and Zach turned on Tommy and blindsided him and me. They told me that it was Lex going the last day so to say I'm upset with them is an understatement. With me, you only get one chance. Once you lie to me and blindside me, it's a done deal and I can no longer trust you. They lied to me so I can't trust them and I need to rebuild what's left of my game. I came clean to Isaiah and Andrew old Malacoda. I told Isaiah about how Hesh, Tommy, and I were actually in an alliance with Zach and Andrew that he nearly went home at our first Tribal because Zach told us he wanted Tommy. I pushed the blame onto Hesh with Isaiah so he trusts him less so hopefully they still trust me with that info. Hesh came to me right away and tried to make excuses that he couldn't tell me and that he still wants to work together. Does he think I'm a fucking idiot? You lied to me for 24 hours. Why the fuck would I trust you? I'm not sure about my path forward because those two could, and probably are, gonna bury me. I made my disdain for what they did extremely clear and told them it's gonna be tough to trust them after that. Let's see what happens.

"alichino"

- Successfully voted out Tommy despite Joey's best efforts to take me down. But now we have mutiny...the plan, as of now, is to do an 11-4 split which Zach, Hesh and I came up with. The four being AJ, Lexi, Andrew and Joey. This would ostracize them from the 11 and would force them to cannibalize themselves. Because I am acting under the impression that they are allied. On the 11, my position would be fairly secure in the Zach/Hesh/me core with Liam/Sam/Liz/Aaron as numbers to get that sweet, sweet majority.

"malacoda"

- Oh wow we've got ourselves quite the mess here. So I've started to put pieces together I was wondering why the hell Joe was helping AJ with the challenge Joe was about to win the challenge and then now I'm starting to hear that Andrew is actually close with AJ. So now I'm thinking well AJ told Joe that Andrew was in danger so Joe threw it. and I'm suspecting that there was a bigger alliance in play because apparently Joe was upset that Lora and Tommy were voted out. Not only that Joe tried to push Lex to get voted out which come on man you can't get your hands dirty by trying to push it through tribal lines. You're going to get caught. so now that we have this mutiny on our hands it appears that 11 people are coming over to malacoda. While Lexi AJ Andrew and Joe are all going rubicante. I'm sure they will have a blast trying to vote each other out. I thought I was close with AJ and who knows I may still be if he can survive through that ordeal. However for now he's far too sketchy maybe he should have picked up on that. I don't like sketchy people that's the entire reason Shane got voted out. On the plus side however me and Sam have now gotten closer than ever. and if things work out the way that we're talking about working them out, then it's looking like a six or seven person alliance in my favor so I think I'm good. These people really seem to underestimate how dumb I can play. I'm very good at it.

"malacoda"

- so today was an absolute shitshow lmao. with this whole mutiny thing being announced it started off chill but then a few hours later everyone started going fuckin psycho. obv minus the shane boot most of these votes have been unanimous so not many "lines" have been drawn yet but now that we can choose what tribe we wanna go to and one world obviously playing a huge factor in who wants to join who, lines in term of pure social relationships started to be created and now the game is heating up WOOOOOO

"malacoda"

- so as of now my closest crew is me hesh and zach. we're the fuckin bromigos that all get along super well and also have very similar approaches to this annoying ass game so it makes bonding that much easier. plus if they werent here id be bored as fuuuuuuck. but ofc with one world im trying my best to have relationships with as many people as possible cuz i dont wanna be the guy to get left in the dust cuz i decided to say fuck one world and instead be the guy ahead so i have more routes to take to ensure i stay safe in this game cha feel. i feel like i have a solid relationship with most people in the game as of now, and with this mutiny bullshit now it's being put to the test and i think im finna come out on top

"malacoda"

- so aj has gone fuckin berzerk and has decided to be the spotlight of the game now and so many people dont trust him, myself included. he's trying SO DESPERATELY to get himself on grey with his minions of andrew/lexi/joe and "take control of this game." what he doesnt realize (at least i hope to God he doesnt) is that everyone else has been comparing notes and sees straight thru his bullshit. so a plan was hatched to get those 4 of the tribe by themselves and the rest of us go to red and have a big ass tribe against that 4some. this gives me a cushy majority within a large tribe of mostly people i vibe with, and in the case we win challenges, that 4some is gonna have to turn on each other which will be funny af to watch. and in the case we lose, i think there will be plenty of people to pick off and i shouldnt have anything to fear. im aligning myself with the big personalities of the game to keep myself moreso utr and simply focus on 1 on 1 relationships cuz the last thing i want is to be in the spotlight too soon. like i said i came to play a winning game not a "BiG MoVeZ" or "BuiLd mY ResUmE" game. gonna do my best to keep myself in peoples thoughts so hopefully they dont consider myself a target to vote off so i can keep myself in the loop of whatever bullshit might be going down after this crazy mutiny thing. here's to praying im not being bamboozled :pray:

"rubicante"

- Ah god, this mutiny is really getting hot.

As it turns out, Liz and Aaron are planning on staying put in Malacoda. Aaron in particular has also caught on to AJ's little alliance and he's doing everything in his power to avoid being on a tribe with him - looks like he and I have similar motives there, oy vey. Initially I was hesitant to leave the plan of jumping to Alichino behind, but with this in my back pocket Hesh and I start assembling the troops to hit Malacoda. Red time, baby!

I've heard from a few sources that AJ, Andrew, Joe and Lexi are officially a power quartet, and if everything goes to plan they'll be stuck on Rubicante alone, with the remaining eleven people going to Malacoda. This is a win-win for me: I've got all of my allies on one beach (plus a couple of extras to cut first), and the other alliance is forced to eat itself. All I have to do now is make sure AJ doesn't get a whiff of the new plan; sadly, this means lying directly to the motherfucker's face. It looks like I'll be taking the primary heat for this, but I'll just pretend mutinying was a last-minute decision. Hopefully this goes to plan.

And if it doesn't? Well, I'll see you on the other side. Likely with Jigme's decapitated head in my hand. Fuck you, Jigme.

"malacoda"

- the game is def starting to heat up and become more all-starsy and WE FINNA GAME BABY

"malacoda"

- REMINDER: VILLAINS HAVE MORE FUN

"malacoda"

- obviously it's still VERY early in the game, but fuck it ima go out on a limb and say if this move works, it literally gives me a roadmap to f3

"rubicante"

- This mutiny is stressing me out. All of my allies are going to red, as far as I know, but Joe think me and him staying on grey is a good idea. I feel so much better going to red but I’m going to lose trust with Joe. Honestly it could be better for the long term since he’s trying to get with Aaron and AJ, and I don’t trust either one. Someone is going to be mad at me no matter what I choose, so let’s see what happens

Day 15
"malacoda"

- HAHAHAHAHAHA IM ACTUALLY FUCKIN WEAK BRO IT LEGIT IS 11V4 RIGHT NOW LMAOOOOOOOOO

"malacoda"

- Holy shit, the plan worked. It worked.

We wake up on day 14 and as planned, Alichino is no more. The trio of AJ, Andrew and Joe, alongside Lexi, is stranded on Rubicante. And myself, along with ten others, are in the new Malacoda. The Almighty Cum King™ has left the cum tribe and joined the red tribe, but the spirit lives on.

Make no mistake, this mutiny and the way it happened can be credited squarely upon the shoulders of Hesh and myself. We formulated the plan to unite us two, Zach, Liam, Brian and Chloe. He was responsible for the switch from brown to red, and I was responsible for fooling AJ, Joe and Andrew. Of the six, I'm very closely knit to all five other members. I'm the #1 of Brian and Hesh, I'm extremely close to Zach and Chloe, and I'm Liam's biggest moral support. Isaiah is in my back pocket, as is Sam. Lex, who was once my primary target, has now slotted into this majority as a number. And if we lose? We've got Liz and Aaron to cook before hands get dirty. Cocky as it may sound, I'm playing the best game here, and none of these dinguses realise it!

Surprisingly, AJ and Andrew aren't even that pissed off - they buy my lie about my choice being made out of panic. Joe, on the other hand, is pretty ticked. The guy explodes in my private messages and then takes it to the One World group. He calls out virtually everyone, with my name coming up once or twice. Preparing myself for my game to be rumbled, I'm instead treated to Brian, Hesh, Lex and Zach all taking primary heat by engaging in a fight with the guy. It seems for now that I'm UTR, which is perfect.

For now, I'm at peace. On with the show.

"malacoda"

- Okay so I am now aligned with chloe brian isaac liam and zach they wanted to go brown, but i convinced them to go red, by using liz lex and aaron, who also stayed red becuase they think zach lex and i are going to work with them. Liz reached out to isaac all by herself which led isaac to want to come red because hes under the imperssion liz has no idea whats going on, which she doesnt. this way well have people to vote off if we lose. liz and aaron would be the first two boots. Sam zach and I are tight, lex zach and i are tight liam zch and i are tight, we have brian zach and liam in one, we have the 6 of chloe liam zach brian and isaac in one. chats im tlaking about. Zaach and I are in real control of everything moving. The plan is to use brian isaac and chloe to take out aaron and liz and that tribe of 4 then liam lex sam zach and i take out the greys isaac could be useful there too as he has pretty mich said he wants to work with me and zach. So the greys think zach liam and i and lex are with them and the reds liz and aaron think zach myself lex and sam are with them. We have this played perfectly. We had to lie to AJ but isaac took care of that and him joey lexi and andrew went to the other tribe. Joey is pissed but joey was never in my long term plan after the swap. He kind of got screwed but thats what happens. AJ joey lexi and andrew will be the next 4 to go either come merge or in the swap they essentially are over. So the plan is those 4 go, liz and aaron go, brian chloe isaac go, liam goes, then isiah, and well see from there.

Bascially im in the drivers seat, Isaac thinks this was me and him making this tribe move, liz and aaron think it was them, it was really me and zach, with osme help from lex and sam.

Trust rankings,

Zach

Lex

Sam

Isaac

Brian

Chloe

Isiah

Liam

Aaron

...

Liz

...

Everyone else

"rubicante"

- That was just completely, unequivocally, absolutely, empirically, emphatically, fucked. For the four of us to have basically been lied to by eleven people, in completely seperate and isolated instances is just crazy. I have no idea how we're going to do this, but we're going to. If there's one thing stronger than any other driving force in the world, it's spite and revenge. I will fucking take them down even if I have to do it with my bare fucking hands. Bring it shitcunts.

"rubicante"

- Now that the dust has settled and I've had time to think about everything, I can honestly say that if given the choice between the tribe of four or a tribe of eleven, I'm in the place I'd prefer to be. I'm the single best challenge performer in the game, so there's no reason why I can't carry yet another tribe in challenges and get us to the merge, and in the meantime I'm not fucking people over and causing the amount of drama that will unfold on a tribe of eleven. They basically have to play the merge game at the final fifteen, meanwhile the four of us get to go as gung ho as possible. We have nothing to lose. We have nothing but each other left. We're going to persevere through this even if it kills us. Joe is the richest guy out with his three or four garnets, Lexi is the single most liked person in the entire game and has been great in every challenge, Andrew is literally the most cockroachy player I've seen in a massively long time and has avoided countless time he should've been DOA, and I'm just a fucking god at everything I do, so there's absolutely no reason why we shouldn't be able to get through this together. These are four people I'm down to call my Survivor family for the next however long, and while it means it's going to be rough as fuck if we lose, I think that's just all the more reason for us to be able to ride this thing out until the merge or another swap. I believe in us a hell of a lot more than I believe in that other tribe, so let's fucking buckle down and do this.

"malacoda"

- https://youtu.be/Zhtim2taME8

"malacoda"

- We lost the challenge, but frankly I'm not too fazed. It seems like Liz is the consensus across the board - not many social ties, which ultimately is all you need for a reason. I feel bad, because she seems like a great person, but if you don't have the bonds then you don't have the bonds.

Day 16
"rubicante"

- So let's recap, shall we? First off: I'm now on a tribe with Andrew, AJ, and Lexi. These are three people I trust. Everyone else is off on Malacoda and have basically lied to the four of us about their mutiny plans. There was a big blow up in the tribe chat and in DMs where Hesh said he didn't lie before admitting that he 'probably' lied to me about the Tommy vote (He didn't 'probably' lie, he did lie). So that left the rest of us in a vulnerable spot and I'm sure the 11 were confident they were gonna walk away with a win but LMAOOOOOOOOOO WE BEAT THEY ASSES. That's what they get. As for my game? Who knows. I'm probably dead in the water though Brian said he wants to attempt to regain trust between us. I'll go along and see what happens but I'm not gonna trust him 100% ever again. I'm down but I ain't out and it's gonna take a lot to take me out.

"malacoda"

- fUcK yOu MaLAcoDa!!11!!11!!" coming from the edgy kid with absolutely no social skills LOL

"malacoda"

- Hey hi howdy

so we send Tommy packing and, expectedly, Joe is furious about it and makes sure hesh and i are aware of that. Next day, after joe ghosts me on my apology, we get the chance to mutiny. AJ goes bonkers and just like, announces that his whole tribe is gonna come to brown, but that andrew is going to gray and aj was gonna follow him to "keep an eye on him". now, everyone with ability of perception can see that aj, andrew and joe are working together at the moment, and the rest of us have a pretty good idea of what they want - mostly, distancing ourselves from those 3 because AJs being so chaotic that nobody trusts him, Andrews borderline afk nonstop, and Joe keeps trying (and succeeding) in starting public fights in the one world chat. we get to chatting with people, where Sam, Liz and Aaron feel unsafe and dont wanna be anywhere but where hesh and i are, so they originally wanna go to brown. Meanwhile, Brian Isaac and Chloe, who were running their tribe start talking w me, liam and hesh and work out this 6 person group, and they decide to swap with us as well. this kinda left the two "free agents", Lexi and Isaiah up for grabs. I had heard or had suspicions that Lexi was working with AJ, so while I really like Lexi I felt I couldnt fill her in on anything - but I did talk to Isaiah a bit and unless the kids genuinely gaslighting the shit out of me I think I trust him when he says Hesh and I are his closest allies. That leaves me, Hesh, Sam, Liam, Lex and Isaiah in the majority of this 11 person tribe, where the other 5 all think we're with them too. Obviously in about 3 hours this illusion is gonna crash, but I'm hoping that Aaron, the only dude im worried about ostracizing, will realize it was kind of a group collective decision to boot Liz and that there is room for him. I actually trust and fuck w aaron quite a bit, more than the gray trio tbh, but if he needs to be collateral damage while we navigate this stage of the game, I'll just have to let that happen i guess

Right after the mutiny, the 4 on the outs were understandably upset, but Joe just starts fighting brian in the main chat trying to air dirty laundry that brian himself had already prepared me for and that I knew was just a way to make joe unaware of the 11. He starts putting my name in there so, in a moment of emotional weakness, I hopped in and started like, fighting joe. Lex also joined in after a while, and i kinda dipped out once he joined cause i dont want people to think he and i are like ride or dies or anything like that, but of course it seems like this entire 11 move is being pinned on me. AJ decided itd be an epic bit to just be a dickhead towards me for the rest of the night after i had just got out of a heated argument with someone id consider to be a friend. like, i dont even like fighting random people, let alone someone i actually give a shit about as a person. So like, im already hurtin pretty bad and then this dude decides that setting his status as #zachisoverparty and then putting a screencap of the challenge with 1 point and saying it reminded him of me was a cool and epic thing to do so that was fun. he did apologize later for it but i have some serious questions as to whether it was aj thinking i could take the joke better or if it was a strat move for him.

challenge comes up and its a flash game so i naturally wanna sit out, but somehow on a tribe of 11 all but 5 of us are offline for the sitout selection, meaning i had to play and fuck up the challenge sending us to tc. these past few days have been the worst ive felt in an org since like, 2017, so it was already pretty heavy but adding the burden of tc and voting out someone who has given me no real reason to vote them out this early is just gonna make it worse.

On top of that, Andrew puts "GET FUCKED MALACODA" in chat, which like, on its own i saw no problem with and kinda thought it was a bit. I think we all thought that. But he decided to come back and like double down on it and rubbing it in our face and shit, and Joe just sits there all condescending telling people to ping him if stuff starts popping off. Like look, I understand feeling burned by such a bold mutiny play, but joe himself was JUST talking about how toxic the game was getting... and less than 24 hours later has cemented himself as one of the people spreading the most toxicity. Thankfully nobody took the bait on that one, but I just know now that until those 3 are all gone, this game is gonna be just completely unpleasant for everybody involved as this is just gonna continue. I really dont understand either of those twos logic - not really sure when gloating while the two biggest targets of a 4 person minoirty at f15 has ever been a good idea - but i guess its getting the eyes off aj and lexi so maybe its intentional.

i heavily considered telling my tribe to boot me tonight. IRL is piling up, the game is toxic as fuck, i hate arguing with friends, some other things id rather not discuss. yknow, life happening. I decided against it but i mean i came damn close. I actually still think that if its not Liz its me goin home cause most of the cast has been radio silent with me on this vote, but im hoping thats got more to do with it being a huge group with previously established lines and not everyone banding together to yeet the problematic one thats takin all the heat. i dont think its a move that makes much sense for the aforementioned 5, but if they all coordinated it could definitely happen.

At this point im just hoping for a smooth merge, the garnet situation this season is already fucked and joes v likely v close to being able to buy some nice stuff for himself at merge so i would ideally like him to go asap but im expecting lexi to be the ultimate victim of the twist and go home should they lose.

Heres hoping for greener pastures around the corner

i guess

or not

idk

"rubicante"

- I've said it time and time again; if you gave me the choice of being on the tribe of four or the tribe of eleven, I'm in the place I want to be. Apparently some shit's gone down over there, but I have literally one person giving me even the slightest bit of information anymore, and that's Aaron. He refuses to say names, he refuses to look like he's giving me information, but I'm like, pretty smart and shit, so I can read between the lines and see what he's saying. It seems like it's me in particular that's being stonewalled out, because even Joe is hearing things going on to do with Lex and Liz and Chloe so I guess I'm just a marked man. It's a worrying position to be in, because I'm normally in the polar opposite spot. I usually see and hear everything in ORGs and I'm a central hub of information that pretty much everyone comes to to lean on when they need to talk about things. I can absolutely rebuild from here and since I'm on a tribe of four I have nothing but time on my side to just slowly work myself back into favour with people. I'm certainly going to face an uphill battle in that regard, but I have to be willing to at least try.

"rubicante"

- Not in the sense that I've been throwing them under the bus, per se, but I've been slowly making the rounds to people and voicing concerns with Joe and Andrew's volatility towards Malacoda in the one world chat. Here's the thing, I'm not a fan of attacking the other tribe at all, but I can see why they're doing it. We all got meteorically shafted by them, so emotions being high and people getting angry with each other is a natural progression. I've been just as vocal and loud as Andrew and Joe and the only person on our tribe really taking the quiet approach is Lexi, but I think I've just been making a very conscious effort to channel it a bit better in order to not upset the masses nearly as much. For me, the distinction lies within the framing of the outbursts or the public pop offs in the one world chat. I'm all for hyping our tribe up and think being boisterous in that regard is nothing but a positive. It might come across as cocky, but it's just perpetuating this energy that we're an unstoppable tribe and that even with the odds stacked against us, we can mount and insurrection and get to the merge together. Inversely, Andrew and Joe's approach has been about tearing down Malacoda, specifically Zach for some reason that I'm not actually aware of, and while I've fed into it with dumb jokes like making my status #ZachIsOverParty, I don't like the visceral approach they've taken. Perhaps arbitrary, but I think the distinction is that I've been saying "fuck yeah, our tribe is great" while they've been saying "fuck you, your tribe is awful". From everything I've managed to hear, people do recognise that and the frustration is more towards those two than me, so I do hope Andrew and Joe switch more to the former side rather than the latter they're currently on. I'm all for keeping up the shit-talking culture, but let's keep it under the scope of civility if we can.

"malacoda"

- I dont understand. Liz told me about going after lex and i felt like i had talked her down from it, then she tells sam about it too. wouldnt you know it, sam tells hesh, hesh tells lex. There goes Liz, i legit cant fucking do anything to save her at this point. What gets me the most however, is even before that, lex was considering dropping liz. WHY THE FUCK WOULD WE DO THAT? Okay liz wants you out? whoopdie fucking do man, what the fuck can liz do when she doesnt talk to anyone. I dont understand why we are going after her. its an easy vote people say. who the fuck cares about easy? i sure as shit dont, it's been bullshit unanimois votes except for the one i constructed. everyone is so fucking afraid of making waves, where will that get them? voted the fuck out. I will not allow that to happen to me. Lex says liz is just a bump in the road for us. Just a bump.