Board Thread:Survivor 21: Kerala/@comment-26085335-20161209135559/@comment-1928659-20161209190943

Nic!!! Finally you show us your face!!!

Ok about what you stated about me! I was not going for being an UTR mastermind nor for dominant leader. I know that I am too much of an attention seeker to ever be able to play UTR but also I am too much of a goofball to de the dominant master. You explain my strategy very well, by understanding that I made everyone think that my vote was up for grabs. And you know what, it actually was up for grabs, but I was socially aware and informed enough to know where and when I would give it. I played the numbers game and always tried to make sure that it wouldn' t make sense for people to vote me out, because I would always be a possible partner for the next vote.

I never claimed to be the evil mastermind behind everything. I did use the "chaos strategy" to fuck shit up, but ''it was usually the shit that did not involve me that were being destroyed. ''

So I am taking pride in the way I played the game. I managed to know every single plan that was forged and predict every vote and every flip that someone would want to make.

A good example of my game was your vote-off. Being aware of the relationships and how tight each one was, you coming to me to vote out Julia was a direct red light. I immediatly hear that I am the target and flip ffrom the alliance that you created to the Periyar group to vote the person targetting me out. It was that kind of awareness and always being able to predict the numbers and the way relationships would develop that helped me swing back and forth and being the swing vote in every single vote off after Anna was voted out.

I played a big move game and never hesitated to do the move if it was benefiting my chances. People say that the big move game is not good because it puts a target on you. Well, that' s true. But if you actually reach the end with a game of understanding the dynamics in every given moment and making the moves that would keep you safe the longest, then '''the safe play seems to resemble more of a floater game. '''The goal in my type of game is not to prove that you made the moves, because the numbers speak for themselves, but to avoid the increasing target on your back. And I did that as well as it was possible.

I think I have answered your question about what you called the target strategy. I am glad you understand how it worked and how I managed to maintain myself unvoted even though I had been public enemy No. 1 for a while. I am no going to say this is not a dangerous game. It was risky and exciting. And it resulted in my constant paranoia. But behind the one million crazy scenarios I was making and stressing myself with, I always had the info I needed and had a relative feeling of safety.

I can pass now to your question about my biggest mistake. It happened during the only round that I was not feeling very comfortable. It was the round I was going for Jake. A round earlier, I had created a coalition with Jake and Catherine. But it was obvious to me that Jake was a huge threat and since the votes to get him were gathered easily and I had trouble findind the motives of why Jake and Cat would keep me in the game, I thought this vote would be between me and Jake. I did see the votes flipping to Jake slowly and did see after a certain point the idol play coming and I thought that Jake and Cat would decide the vote-off. At that moment, I could not be sure that Violet and Tucker were not throwing votes my way, but I was ready to get one or two votes cast for Tucker and see if I could use the idol to my advantage. I even had a vote ready for him. That was the most obvious mistake I made because he was lucky enough to win immunities and I could not get the me and less threatening F3 players I wanted.

At the F4, having both Jake and Tucker there I had a decision to make. It had been brought to my attention that being a little stressed and layed off some of my social game after the F6, and Tucker playing a game trying to own everything that had happened with a certain cockiness, that I may not get credit for the moves I made. The last thing I was, was a goat to Tucker, and I didn' t want to lessen my jury chances by seeming like one. Plus, I did think that I would have a solid chance against Jake. I did not see the threat everyone was calling Jake after the F6. I understand rooting for the underdog, and the "I vote for my friend" thing, but I just didn' t see it.

So I guess in this game, I used my mind and my flirt more than my brawn. Don' t get me wrong, my physical game was on point, leading my tribes through wins and winningthe most individual challenges, but I could have made it without them. I did not need to be immune. I was like a tiger. I could run fast from one side to another always stepping carefully like the king of felines, and that was my attribute. Not my claws and teeth.

Once again, you made me write a small book here. Sorry about this. Hope I covered you and I made you change your mind. See you soon at the reunion!