Big Brother 10/Week 4

"yaknad"

- Okay so everything went (mostly) according to plan, we sold Abi on the boys, she voted for Megan, it went to a tie, and Sam sent Megan home. BUT she didn't go quietly. She tried to put a boys alliance on blast, but not the one that actually exists lmao. Honestly I spent a lot of time painting her as shady, and she definitely is, but mainly she was a threat to me. And how viciosu she got on the way out proves it. But were moving forward I'm going to look out for my people and hope for the best.

"yaknad"

- Bra-fucking-vo hosts. Because this pairing up thing is drama. No one know what it means. I'm torn between do we pair up with an ally to work together or do we spread out so that no matter what pair wins we have somebody in the running! Oh well I split the difference and paired up with Natalia because I trust her but she is definitely after some of my allies...mainly Trey. So I'm hoping we can win and if we do idk if I'll ask for HOH or let Nat take it. Either way I KNOW that Bryce/Szymon or Maya/Melanie CANNOT win this. This'll be a fun one folks.

"yaknad"

- WORST. CHALLENGE. EVER. I hate this challenge so much. I hate doing it with a partner. I get so anxious. I have PTSD. This is the challenge that sent me home in Kingdoms Collide. Like ugh I need a xanax.

"yaknad"

- HOH 4. WE KILLED IT. (At least we think we did) But now we have to decide who is going to take HOH. Frankly I don't really want it. Because I want Morgan gone and I don't want to be the one to do it. But I'm going to use this time to negotiate a little. I know she won't nominate Sam, but I made her promise that she wouldn't nominate Trey either. I know I'm leaving Quintin out of it a little but I can only stick my neck out so far without showing all of my cards and tipping off Natalia that a guys alliance is real. So I've done what I can, to make the best of a tough situation...for myself. Hopefully Trey and Q win anyway. But we'll see

"yaknad"

- Okay red flag. Sam just told me I was "killin it" which is an immediate red flag for me. I know Sam is a ride or die for me but I have to see that people are noticing how hard I'm hustling. Time to pull back again.

"yaknad"

- Yikes yikes yikes. I was hoping by easing up a bit on Abi at the end she would notice she'd be better off siding with the side I'm on and vote Bradley with us. But looks like some people can't be trusted to make the correct game decision for themselves.. oops. I still love her but I'm disappointed again cuz at first she said she wouldn't vote Trey and now she was one of the first people to say she would vote Bradley but then she changes her mind .. high key this is also Megan's fault because she never campaigned to us about not voting her out, meanwhile Bradley was campaigning really hard. So even though that didn't change my mind personally, it did change Abi's cuz at least Bradley was talking to her. Lol. Anyway Trey also found out I said I would be coming after him lmaoooo I think we can thank Bradley for that but I voted for him so I'm not blaming him loll. Anyway, I'm not scared. If Trey wants to come for me he can do wtf he wants lol. I had to unfortunately promise Sharky I wouldn't nom Trey if we won the pairs comp so he would give me the HoH but either way 2 boys are going up and one of them are going home if I'm HoH. Periodt. My dream is to also get MVP so I can out up Trey anonymously lmaoooo but idk if VL is gonna support me. We shall see.

"yaknad"

- I confess I am terrible at making confessionals, I think I’m probably going to just take my entire DR and dump it in the confessional at one point or another lol

"yaknad"

- So I feel like I upset a shit ton of people with this last vote. But I wanted to go with my gut and didn't want to just go along with a vote because Szy said so. I'm kinda ticked at Natalia for saying she would vote with me and then waiting for me to vote and doing the opposite. Megan was rude. Szy had a hissy fit at me. So I'm just rolling my eyes and letting the drama pass. We all do what we think is good for our game. And obviously Megan was a complete loose canon, because even her allies were like "ok, this is a bit much" upon reading her tantrum on the way out the door. However, Szy having HOH is kind of making me nervous, because I feel like he will either nom me or someone I was working with, just out of spite.

"yaknad"

- Well well well. How the turntables. 😂😂 King Szymon won HoH 😍 and I was just behind so if he couldn't pull it off, I was going to pull it off for us ❤️ but now I'm relieved because if I was HoH I would have had to put up Morgan and like Quintin probably as to not upset that many ppl but still get a boy out, but now that Szy won, he's going for the jugular and he doesn't give a shit who he puts up lmao which mean he can make a BIGGER move than getting Morgan's big target ass out. We STAN. also I can go for next week's HoH and we can keep each other safe another week. Woohoo. I was scared of whoever was gonna win MVP because it could totally fuck up this week because even if we had two string boys up, if one of the ppl from that side won MVP, they would nominate a girl or someone on our side and have the numbers. But now that Bryce won MVP, this week will be a success !! 😍 Also it seems I might have been able to mend my relationship with Bradley after voting for him but I'm not fully convinced he's bought it. In fact I don't think he has at all but I'm gonna hope for the best. I mean there were 4 other ppl who voted for him soo.. hopefully he doesn't gun for me first out of everyone lol. I genuinely love Bradley and want him to do the best he possibly can here and I would actually like to work with him so hopefully we can do this at some point this game. 😍

"yaknad"

- Happy that Szymon and Bryce is with the girls to get the men out. Nothing personal with the men in the game but you got to admit there is something shady going on between them…

"yaknad"

- Yikes I did NOT wanna be picked for Veto because if I win, I'm gonna have to show my cards. Sharky and Bradley are both gonna be expecting/hoping I use it on them and I just don't want that kind of heat on me so I have to throw it but not make it look like I threw it. I'm so tired of throwing comps cuz I'm naturally competitive but literally the more I think about it all day, I can't win this Veto. I don't want Trey to win it either which is what makes me feel conflicted but oh well. Also, Sharky messaged me after noms cuz he was PISSED. He flat out said he's gonna be coming for the next HoH HARD, to put up szymon. I had to empathize but at the same time not really encourage too much the animosity towards Szy bc obviously Szy is my closest ally. However, I'm not going to tell Szy everything Sharky said and the extent of his anger just because I don't want szy to change his mind about wanting Trey out and then switch the target onto Sharky. Right now Sharky is the main boy that has been giving me information from that side so I need him here with me and I trust him.

Other than this, I'm SO HAPPY for our bottoms alliance, we are finally going to have a good week, and no matter what, a boy from the other side will be going home! Woohoo.

"yaknad"

- omg so WOOH last week terrible bc abi wants to be a guy's girls. im not like other girls looking head. anyways. i just really like.. love szy and natalia???? why are they my 2 fave ppl ever meeting FJKADSHKJ like what is it about them... sam is running this game and will win but w/e. sharky as fake as ever. morgan literally never want to speak to him again like maybe i shouldnt say in confessional but idc its tea FHKDSAHKFJ. BUT ANYWAY szy is HOH wooh!!! me and him practiced so MUCH for that hoh win and we did it and im so happy for him!! and then i won mvp?? like i know i prob only won bc szy campaigned for me he said but still.. ugh love this love. so a man WILL be going home!!! know that. im just so happy AHH we have power! me szy natalia + maya melanie and yoni are gonna RUN this. but i feel like hopefully its just me szy and natalia JKHFAKSDJ other 3 are ok too tho. love yoni actually. the 4 of us. thats who im loyal to

"yaknad"

- i am so happy JKFHAKDJ like. so far this house is so ugly and all the less active men get a free pass while the less active women get nommed. (i nommed them too so..) but like its sad no one ever wants to go after them so im so glad me and szy get to end that trend!

"yaknad"

- https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=YOa8T2zS8jQ

"yaknad"

- I could kill him. I'm so pissed at Szymon. I even waited a day to talk about it because I thought I'd chill out. NOPE. Like what a backstabbing little scum bag. Day 1 he came to me and was like "I don't know what I'm doing. Carry me" what a farce. And people have been trying to get me to align with Szymon (mostly Maya) but like thats not an option now. He's dead to me. And frankly it makes me trust Bryce less because he must have known about this. THEN! He has the audacity to not explain it in his speech and just says some bullshit about how he's turning the tables! HOW SO BITCH?! Like he comes for me and Trey like we are some "other side" who has been running the game. Yet Trey has been on the block 3 times now. IT'S ONLY WEEK 4! And I have been playing the middle just like all them. But you know if he wants to act like we're enemies then guess what we are now enemies. Because he just became number 1 on my list and when I'm here next week he's in fucking trouble. We also got lucky with POV picks. I'm confident Natalia would pull me off. And I obviously am going to try my best. BUT I think best case scenario is Quintin wins and pulls Trey off so they are both safe. And then hopefully Morgan goes up. People want Morgan out anyway so if he goes on the block, then Trey, Sam, Q, Abi, and Natalia have the majority to send him packing and I feel good with all of them so I think it could work. Even if Sam goes up I think we could get the number to send home Bradley over us, but more difficult. Idk whatever happens Szymon might as well have just signed his last will and testament because he's dead to me.

"yaknad"

- So...I made it very known to everyone that the best outcome would be for Quintin to win. He submits a word that isn't even real. I screw up and submit too soon before realizing I had an 11 letter word that would have one. CHIMPANZEE. Kill me. AT LEAST Bradley won. So hopefully the MVP is going to put up Morgan. I never thought i'd be relying on them but that's our only hope now is to get Morgan up and hope we can keep Trey and myself safe. Fuck.

"yaknad"

- well now that brad won pov, my prediction of getting backdoored by bryce the current mvp can finally come true :))))

"yaknad"

- Okay so I’m a little bit at a loss. Because I’m trying to clear the air with Szymon to ask what his issue is and honestly he’s been lowkey highkey annoying about it. Because he’s applying I hurt him first but won’t clarify which is fake. I just don’t think there’s anyway to come back from this because it has completely changed my feeling about Szymon (I’m speaking strictly within the confines of BB10 I fucking love him outside of this) and like he acting like I’m a schemer but is is 100% a SNAKE. I can’t work with him. Its over.

"yaknad"

- https://youtu.be/eLp1ddTrD7E

"yaknad"

- I honestly glad I didn’t have to play Veto this time cause the challenge seem confusing. I just realize Abigail isn’t in our “we bottom clowns” alliance and I wonder why. I will try to bring it up causally so she can stick with us

"yaknad"

- so last week was a success id say, i decided to chill on my big move mantra (thank god) and go after megan instead, who clearly didnt care enough to try and include me in her plans for this game, as well as be fake as fuck toward me so out she went :) and i saved my boy bradley! however, the vote was VERY close obviously cuz i ended up having to break a tie, and the vote ended with there seemingly being 2 very different sides to this house, best put the guys vs the girls and bryce/szymon lol. so everyone knew that this hoh was gonna be a fucking big one, and what happens? someone from "the other side" ends up winning it, and look what happened in terms of noms and bryce being the mvp, only guys went up lol. thank god tho i have a good relationship with szy, bryce and natalia, esp nat and szymon. even tho we are seemingly on diff "sides" of the house, those 2 are probs my fave to talk to just in general. hell szymon and i use the voice recorder thing to talk most of the time as opposed to just typing normally. and both bryce and szymon approached me after szy won hoh saying they wanted to work with me so thats always a good sign when im not the one who has to approach the people that i basically just voted differently from. of course tho, all my original allies all got put up, except morgan who i have no doubt is sucking up to the power those 2 possess right now. basically my position in this game tho is very secure but very dangerous, im basically in the middle lol. ive got most of the house wanting to work with me, which is why i havent been put up yet and all my allies did, but at some point or another my true allegiance will surely jump out. idk man, for now ima just do my best to NOT win challenges, continue to talk and try and be close to the people of this house, make them want to work with me, and whoever happens to be the people in power, just go with what they wanna do. cuz to play the middle and keep people trusting you, you GOTTA do what they want, to ensure they can trust you lol, as opposed to tryna make them do what you want. thats the best way to get them to want to do the opposite and turn it around on you

"yaknad"

- so this week on paper isnt ideal for me at all. i have a final 4 alliance, and the 3 other people in that alliance are currently on the block lmao. so one of them is def leaving so rip that f4. i have a feeling tho that whichever 2 make it thru, us 3 will be stronger than ever moving forward. however for the time being, ive gotta make sure i know who the target is, which im afraid right now seems to be trey :( and go with it, thats the best play for me in this game, to make sure im not on anyones radar. as much as i want trey to stay in this game because we are really close allies, ive gotta go with whoever szy/bryce/nat want right now to stay in good with them, and ofc the people on the block who i didnt vote for. i personally would like to see sharky go the most since im very close to the other 2, moreso than him. but like i said before, i cant try and go out of my way to make anything happen, all thatll do is piss people off and put a target on my back that ive worked so hard to make sure is invisible.

"yaknad"

- and another huge benefit to "working" with bryce and szy, is that they are probably the 2 biggest threats and targets in this game. and they dont seem to have very good relationships with people from "my side" so thats a cute look on me i suppose. and then ofc i still have my boy brad in the mix who i havent mentioned any f2 with but would still like to go as close to that as possible with. but yeah if i keep hiding in the shadows of those 2, they should be targeted over me, and itll allow me to slide thru undetected more easily while i keep up my social bonds with the house. so right now i am in a very strong position, but like i said it is VERY dangerous and could be exposed, turning me into the biggest threat. but im hoping for now, if i keep socializing with people and staying in good with them, and not going out of my way to do something opposite of whoever wins wants, cuz i dont want to win, thatll be the WORST thing for my game, i might have a small chance at maybe doing decently well in this game. only time will tell fellas, this week hasnt been fun, but honestly it might be essential to keep the target on others and get myself closer to the people who made it thru while losing a member of our crew. godspeed to myself brothers, it's only gonna get harder from here. but i think i can get myself through

"yaknad"

- also i wanna apologize ahead of time for seeming so negative or bad about my game, i actually think im doing very well right now, but im always expecting the worst just cuz thats how i am towards myself. still love everyone here tho and this has been one of the most stressful orgs for me ever but it does have a very fun cast that i genuinely do enjoy talking to and being around <3

"yaknad"

- Okay! So I realize I haven't been doing a lot of these but the game has slowed until a certain point last week where even my activity slowed down. Unfortunately, this week has gotten hectic and now I'm suddenly the swing vote here.

There are no new alliance updates outside of the "we bottom clowns" with Bryce/Melanie/Szymon/Natalia/Maya, which is a cute power alliance full of threats guaranteed to go before me. I've been pretty UTR this week and I don't know where I stand in the overall game, but I do know that this week is a tough choice between Trey and Sharky.

I'm going to have to vote for Trey here, mainly because it keeps me in line with the group I'm in now and I don't think Sharky is really going to be loyal to the rest of his group.

"yaknad"

- Okay so Szymon and I never finished clearing the air but it seems like we're on better terms. I'm going to keep him at a distance but he's not my enemy I guess. Unfortunately with Bradley winning POV were in a horrible position. Quintin has been put up as the renom and that's just...sad honestly. The Wild Bunch is going to be broken up and we've only been around for 2 rounds. I'm conflicted because I love Trey and Quintin, so I refuse to campaign against them. I've been doing light check in with everybody but I'm not trying to drill them ugh idk what to do.