Fast and Furious/Confessionals

Day 1
"florencia"

- i WISH i COULD DO A VIDEO RECORDING. It has been nuts. We just figured out it is fans vs favorites, but I convinced everyone we are the favorites. Everyone in our group is drinking besides Matthew (We have an alliance due to playing animal crossing) Talked to Jim (who seems the leader and Mackie about forming a "Getting drunk alliance". Not even drinking... Just trying to find a connection with each person 1 on 1. (Jim and I like the same alcohol, Mackie and I love Canada, and Matthew and I already saw each others animal crossing town. Have no clue what I am doing. Hoping I am not annoying anyone yet

"florencia"

- So ... its the 1st hour & most of my Tribe said Hello & logged out. Sigh. A guy named Mackie is on my tribe. Think I will try to align with him. He stanned me in Chernobyl. Tan seems cool too. I can't seem to find common ground with Ginny. Can't wait to get to know these other folks!

"florencia"

- Eyyy first confessional from me!

So far I'm doing well in this team! Most of the team are active now, and I had fun talking with them especially Jacob, Alex and Jim. Also I saw Evan in the other team ashdkjashdkh I swear this is gonna be a major shithole a few weeks forward. Anyways hope the others will reply soon tho.

"florencia"

- Ok so uh day 1 confessional woohoo! Excited to be here and all that. You know like I think this is honestly a really good thing for me. I usually don't use ORGs as an escape but tbh I kinda need one rn dfghjk. Just having people to talk to and not getting lost in my thoughts is kinda one of my MOs at the moment. Not to harp on this AGAIN after I've mentioned it in my profile AND my intro, but it's been a real shit year. My granddad died, depression REAL hard REAL fast, I went through the paranoia and sadness of a failing relationship, homophobia in my family's been a bitch, and loneliness has kinda been creeping up on me for MONTHS now. I'm also writing this on April 11th, so, uh, yeah! 8 months to go until 2021!

Now that COVID-IS-A-BITCH locked me in my house for the next who knows how many weeks/months, I need something to keep myself sane. Weekly sessions with my therapist aint gonna cut it anymore. I think by using this as something to just maintain any semblance of a social life, I'll be okay. Like, that wasn't really my plan, it's just worked out that way. I like everyone on my tribe pretty much anyways, and I can actually hold a conversation, wow! Surprised me! I think it helps that I know two of these people from prior to this game. Granted, I BARELY knew them anyways and they're good conversationalists. Jack I knew from The Hunger Games community like 4 years ago, and Jacob I know from SFW like 1/4 of the people in this community. Let's through first impressions of the tribe!

Alex - Nice enough, and we share a lot of interests! Hoping to get a better chance to talk to him (I'm sure I will, the game's been going on for 5 1/2 hours)

Genevieve - She's nice to talk to, but in the convo we had she kinda seemed like she didn't wanna talk to me?? Idk I was talking to her and she's left me on received and gave me short answers and I KNOW she's online so like???? Ofc I can't say shit since that has been me before. Omg I finally get to be on the other side and see how it feels! (spoiler alert: not great! to those of you I did this to, I'm so sorry) She also has a rep of being a gamebot which scares tf outta me

Ginny - can't hold a conversation thus far unless in a group setting, will try to tomorrow hoping for better results bc I know it's 1:30 AM her time and not everyone is nocturnal like me. (this also applies to Genevieve when it comes to sleep schedules)

Jack - lOVE, adORE, icoNIC! We stan him!!! I want to make an alliance with him and Jacob asap. I also appreciate him giving me flashbacks to the Hunger Games Fanfiction Wiki back in 2016.

Jacob - lOVE, adORE, icoNIC! We (also) stan him!!! Ok but seriously like we have an alliance and he is the only person I've talked game to thus far. He and Jack are so fucking easy to talk to. The only thing that scares me about him is how much he talks about strategy. Like he's already hinted at wanting Genevieve gone and how Mackie's this massive threat and like girl if this is your mind day fucking one 5 hours in I don't wanna see it on day 30.

Jimbo - UGH I LOVE THIS MAN!!! I love how he likes pokemon and RPDR and has ducks that visit him!!! and he's like 42 and we stan a nerdy, gay/bi (?) cowboy icon! We haven't talked much one on one, but I love him in the tribe chat.

Lachlan - I haven't talked to him but I know he's from Bristol so he is definitely asleep rn and that's why he's not been online yet.

Mackie - Great conversationalist! Apparently an ORG community icon? Idk, I know OF him so I'm gonna have to do research and see why he is an icon!

Matthew - Super fun in the group chat, want to get to know him, no one-on-one yet. We stan a nerdy gay, though!

So yeah! I also know like 6 people from the favorites tribe an aHH I'm nervous. I've played 2 ORGs with Abi (we have a history but I love her to the point we message outside of the game every so often), 4 or 5ish with Aaron (we have a HISTORY y'all), 2 with Tommy (we love Tommy), one with Evan (scares the shit out of me, but I love him anyways), Vincent (pretty sure he will want revenge from Reincarnation), and one with Jay (voted him out 3rd in my first FB org bc he was inactive, and he voted for me on the way out.) Like this could be a good thing but it could also be a BAD thing. Predicting late pre-merge boot as my placement bc I think I've actually got a foot in the door this time but, like I said, HISTORY so that swap's gonna fuck me. Then again, watch me be the first boot! I wouldn't be surprised bc, anxiety? She's a bitch, y'all.

"soacha"

- https://youtu.be/xhk2PrqVUDs

"florencia"

- OK. So Day 1 is over. The barrage of introductory IMs is past. Settling into Day 2 where you kinda talk to people you want to talk to. Fueled by White Wine - I kinda went out of the gate fast & furious. Some people, like Mackie & Tan, seemed to appreciate it while others may have been scared off. Hopefully I am being seen as approachable more than desperate. Is it me or has everybody NOT at least said Hi in the Tribe chat? Hmmmm.

"florencia"

- Hi! I’m like very excited to be here on 703 (deadass woke up at 4am stressing over this jskdhskhd), and our tribe is pretty much an amazing bunch so far! This is my 1st time being on a 10 person tribe, so it’s spooky personally, BUT that can’t stop me from asking everyone whether pineapples belong on pizza! sskkjsadkajdaklj okay i’ll start actually being serious now.

- Alex/Ginny: Haven’t really talked with them yet, but they stans rpdr on the tribe chat so that’s a plus

- Genevieve: Okay, so I’m getting bad vibes from Genevieve? Not to be that meta bitch, but she was seen as a gamebot from what i saw on Main Lake Baikal, so idk? I haven’t talked to her yet though, so we’ll see

- Lachlan: who

- Jim: i refuse to call him Jimbo. Anyway, he’s like even older than my dad, and i’m VERY inexperienced when it comes to talking to older people, hope that’s not a problem! He seems nice tbh, like i genuinely have nothing to hate about him

- Mackie: well,, mackie genuinely scares me tbh! I stalk org communities since 2017, and he has a huge rep, (again, not to be a meta bitch) and this is his comeback org too so i think he’s going to give his 100%! But like to be honest, we’re a bunch of nerds fighting for an online title, noone is cool lmao. i’m glad i have the chance to meet him, and i think i can work with him, and he can be a great shield too. And he likes pineapples on pizza, taste.

- Zeebem: king!! Ik him from the SFW community, so we already have some kind of bond, and talking with him has been genuinely fun! Pineapples on pizza stan too, i love that our tribe have people with taste! I trust him a lot, and i think we can definitely move forward and do some damage! also he reminded me of catallena by orange caramel, which is an absolutely iconic song! <3 stream it

- Jack: another person ik pre-game! We played on mongolia, and while we were not on the same side, i like him a lot and would definitely take this chance to work with him! He does tend to get messy during tribals though, so that’s something i gotta watch out for.

- Matthew: rpdr stan <3 king of correct opinions <3 that moustache <3 living for it. I’m definitely gonna try to move forward with him in the future

About the other tribe,, well i expected a mixed season since 703 haven’t had one for a long time,, and they do scare me! They have a shit tribe color and name though, it deadass sounded like sriracha :P i don’t know anyone from the other tribe EXCEPT evan,,, and let’s just say that we have history during mongolia,, not looking forward to the awkwardness,, but like i hope i can like make amends with him, we got on well before the Mongolian reunion shitshow, and while i don’t exactly hope that we can be that close again, i still want to like be able to call him a friend when this is over. Geez that was long djkshdjs

So this was definitely my longest confessional ever, and i genuinely hope that our tribe can overcome the Jacob Curse (aka losing all the immunity challenges, deadass won 1 immunity in my past 2 games) and slay this game!

"soacha"

- Whew here I am competing on 703 after such a long time. I'm already feeling the thrill of playing Survivor and building strong relationships. I forgot how exhausting it is only after 5 hours in lmao. Anyways, coming into this game, I was expecting a handful of returnees but with more newbies. That wasn't the case and this cast actually has some intense competition. This is a rather large group of people so I'm trying to learn to multitask socializing. I talked to a majority of the people on my tribe so far so I might as well list off my first impressions after the first night.

Aaron - Aaron was the first person who reached out to me so I'm willing to work with him. We connected over Koror's ORG and our original 703 seasons. He seems like a real straight-up lad and easily a top choice for an ally. I can only hope the opportunity presents itself with enough bonding.

Abi - She's the only person on this tribe who I've connected with before this game. I ended up getting voted off early on so we never truly connected. I hope that changes this time around since I know she values loyalty above all things and that's pretty uncommon in these games.

Chieko - I commented on how her profile pic looks like Ducky Momo from Phineas and Ferb lmao. We're slowly becoming more responsive to each other's dms but I can say she kinda reminds of my little sister. She has always been my fav siblings so I hope Chieko and I establish a bond if my is feeling correct.

Evan - I feel like Evan is the most threatening player here so I need to keep a close eye on him. Just based off of his performance on Main's Mongolia and Tommy's ORG, he seems like someone who will lie for his own gain and is not afraid to cause a stirring. We have spoken much yet but I want to be on his good side in the midst of any worst-case scenarios.

Izzy - I love Izzy so much. We connected over random shit like Lost, our ORG experiences,. We also pointed out our pre-existing relationships in this game so I think she's someone who understands the people in the ORG scene. I feel we get along very well and I hope this continues. She seems to be a strong social player so I'm not gonna be heavily reliant on her just yet until I'm confident her and I can form a formidable pair.

Jay - We haven't even talked to each other yet so idk. We played in a past ORG before but he was incredibly inactive and we barely got to know each other. He seems more active here now but I kinda forgot he was here and either of us have yet to reach out to one another so...

Rob - We talk to each other like we're emo and it's kinda funny. He kinda ghosted me mid-convo so I hope it picks back up later. Not sure how Rob's gonna stay active while playing both this ORG and Louvre but I hope that doesn't hurt me or our tribe in the long run.

Tommy - Tommy is someone I really wanted to connect with out of the gate. We ended up talking about our ORG experiences (yes I noticed the pattern) and his own ORG among other things. We shared a healthy amount of conversation so I think there's potential for us to be good allies.

Vincent - He seems pretty chill and we mostly discussed how Discord is the new hip avenue for ORGs now. We bonded a bit over how we're on flops on Bang-A-Rang and how we stan the cast of Tibet. But nonetheless, I would definitely like to work with Vincent if possible.

Overall, I think most of the people I find myself connecting with the best are all on this tribe so that's a major bonus starting off. However, I'm not sure if our tribe can perform well in challenges when compared to Florencia. They have people like Mackie and Zeebem who I recall to be strong physical players, but I hope my judgment is off and Soacha can stay safe for as long as possible.

"soacha"

- I am so excited to be back. My last time playing, I was a total villain. I hurt people, I backstabbed, and I did whatever I could to cause drama. Looking back on it, I’m not proud of the game I played. I want to be able to watch this season and see that I was a good person and if I am devious or a snake it’s because I had to be. I don’t want to be mean. I’m nervous to see where this new approach will take me, but I know it will be for the better.

"soacha"

- I’ve been talking to almost everyone on my tribe and I get along great with everyone. For some reason, I don’t think Izzy likes me. We’ve talked off an on but I have a gut feeling I’m annoying her. I really hope this isn’t the case because I love having conversations with her. Other than Izzy, I seem to be connecting well with all of my other tribe mates. I really like Andrew, Tommy and I have played together before, and Chieko and I get on like a house on fire. Vincent and I have had a.. checkered past to say the least, but we agreed to put it behind us. Hopefully, if Izzy really doesn’t like me, I’ll have enough allies and connections that it doesn’t become a problem. Otherwise? I’m screwed.

"soacha"

- okay i'll be real with you here. i'm emotionally in a bad place irl. like i'm REALLY not doing well for reasons that don't have anything to do with this game. and i thought i would be okay playing this but i'm super scared that it's going to bleed into this game. i just did two dumb things: 1. asked aaron if he wanted to work with rob and i without consulting rob first - rob did not want to work with aaron and now feels like he kinda has to. 2. posted an idol guess in the tribe chat. idk if either of these are huge errors but i know that sometimes in survivor little things can fuck you over. so i'm trying to not get extremely paranoid. rob voted me out in malawi (i don't hold it against him, i was messy) and so i have this fear of him judging me and thinking i'm messy again and voting me out. we did work together in romania so there's that, but idk. i'm probably working myself up over nothing. i just need to calm down and practice some mindfulness here.

ANYWAY WHO'S READY FOR FIRST IMPRESSIONS rob: already explained. i hope we'll work together well. aaron: now that i know rob didn't want to work with him, idk how much info i should give him. rob doesn't want him to have the idol. aaron and i worked together in molise so i trust him but idk now. i'm doubting myself. i'm worried that i'll do something stupid to piss him off by snubbing him since rob doesn't want to trust him? idk sljfkhsldjk why am i a wreck chieko: she's uh. odd. a little out there. she's definitely nice but peculiar. andrew: i like him, we had a nice conversation night one! he's watching lost which has my all time favorite actor in it so we can probably talk about that haha. we talked about other tv shows too but we got along well. evan: super sweet but he's trying so hard. like he talks soooo much. i can tell he really wants me to like him haha. tommy: kinda bland. he works at walgreens. that's pretty much the most i got out of our conversation jay: same as tommy, pretty bland vincent: also someone i had a really good night one conversation with, he likes danganronpa so we talked about that and tv shows (why did i have two night one conversations about tv shows? hahahaha) abi: okay gotta be real here, white girls with dreads REALLY put me off unless she's mixed and i don't know it. she also has five kids??? girl wtf??? she seems nice though so i don't want to totally count her out but our conversations were pretty bland too.

so yeah that's everyone on my tribe!! i know jimbo from the other tribe since i hosted chernobyl and he's super cool, and i recognize genevieve from spec-ing her in lake baikal but that's kinda it. i've been getting other bits of info from people on this tribe who have played with them before but who knows, obviously i won't have to worry too much about them until we swap or something. but tbh i think we're gonna win this challenge. we have a pretty solid tribe and i think we're gonna kick ass.

ALSO ALSO ALSO

i talked in a VL about the hurdles i want to overcome and how i promise to do a tiktok dance for the VL for each one i can get over. they're kinda based on things that i struggle with or worry about in past games. here they are: 1. don't be first boot (i've never been first, i've been second twice, but knock on wood haha) 2. make it to merge/jury - these aren't always at the same time, but ideally they are. if i have to pick one i'd rather be jury and not merge but hopefully i'll get to both 3. beat my old placement, 10th

i can think of a few goals i might have after that but i don't want to get too ahead of myself haha. making merge/jury will be enough of a challenge as is. rob said we can drag each other to merge and he thinks i should be able to beat my old placement. if he has faith in me, then i trust him.

okay i have more i could say but i should save it for another confessional, i might do some video confessionals at some point? hopefully i'll be giving you lots of confessionals, i really want an episode title hehe. i think i had two in romania? i guess i have to say lots of iconic stuff!!

love y'all c:

Day 2
"florencia"

- Alright, day 2 just started, and we just got our first challenge! So I think it's fair to list out everyone, talk about what I think about them and ranked them based on fondness (cuz like, that's what everyone's been doing the past few seasons, right?)

1st: Zee: OMG I NEVER EXPECT A REUNION WITH ZEE!!! We actually met each other 4 - 5 years ago in another wikia and was rly good friends until we both left the community. Honestly it's been fun talking to him, and yes, we're already forming an alliance. I rly hope this lasted all game tho, cuz we gonna be spilling blood all over the place :)

2nd: Jacob: Yass my queen!! Hmm honestly this is a bit of a shocker but Im actually enjoying our talks so far since the main ORG ended. Despite the slight rivalry that we had in the game, I think its better if we push it aside and work together for now (Cuz yknow, Evan's here). I talked with Zee and even he said he's good to join us! So that'll make the three of us causing havoc in this season!

3rd: Jim: Ahhh glad to see another old soul in this season! I think he's really fun to talk too and we talked about McDonald's to Pokemon! However, its just day 2 so I need to know more about him :P

4th: Alex: Honestly Alex is probably the chillest guy I talked to so far. And you know I LOVE talking to chill people, cuz they'll never yell at you or anything and just gave you a relaxing vibe. Also he seems reliable so I should get to his good side. Btw, I like how he kept calling my by my surname, I cant help but to laugh at that. Dont mind it tho.

5th: Matt: Another person who seems chill. Our first convo gives me the shits and giggles and I heard good remarks from the others. Hope we talk more though.

6th: Mackie: Well dont get me wrong, I enjoy talking to this guy. But he just had the word 'THREAT' written all over him. Hell, his first try in the challenge and he alr got a 100++ score. wtf. It'll be fine for me to get on his good side, but it'll be even better if we get rid of him early before he dooms us all.

7th: Genevieve: Hmm yea same goes with her. I felt like she's gonna be a huge threat if she stays for too long. Also,I heard that she is sketchy af, so I need to keep and eye on her.

8th: Ginny: Girl, I know you're in a tough situation irl, but pls just pls PUT SOME EFFORT! I've been talking with her and all she did was giving me half ass replies (hmm, okay etc) and when the challenge came, she said she's gonna skip. I - THIS IS JUST DAY 2! Honestly I'm just rly annoyed that she isn't even gonna put in effort. At least be competent for God sake.

9th: Lachlan: Bruh, you still wanna be in the game or nah?

Well, I think that's it. I just read the challenge and so far only Mackie and Zeebem can be relied on at this point. I just hope Ginny and Lachlan can at least be competent because I'm really pissed at both of them rn.

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"florencia"

- oh girl I'm tired. Ginny like does not wanna compete in the challenge for whatever reason??? like if it's something serious then you know I completely understand, and I get that it's Easter weekend but really tho like you can just say hey I can work on the cheer w/ y'all but I won't be able to contribute as much this round, I'm sorry. Now with that said, my only two allies in the chat coming after her??? I'm fucking screaming omfg. Jack got REALLY condescending to her and sorta pushed her into choosing something which like I...ugh. Like deadass, he sent me this thing after where he asked me if it was narcissistic to ask the whole tribe to thank him for getting Ginny to comply with the challenge? I-...GIRL I'M ALIGNED WITH THIS MAN!!!!!! THE FUCK???? I feel bad tho bc like when I told him maybe to not say that he seemed really sad and told me he had to go and like idk I don't wanna make him upset lol. Alex, Jim, Mackie, and Matthew (and Jacob potentially, who is on thin ice bc he also called out Ginny and is overplaying) are the ONLY sane/active/non consistently overplaying people on this tribe. I feel like I could never actually go on Survivor bc I cannot hide my facial expressions. Like when I read that conversation the amount of face cracks I had. Deadass I think 5 different personalities popped out in me when I read that thing. Regardless, I think rn I *have* allies, but I am not married to anything. I mean, it's only Day 2. I wanna ride the wave and see where it goes. Is it with Mackie, who is a very big threat? Is it with crackheads Jack and Jacob? Is it with Alex and Jim? idk, but like ultimately I kinda just wanna side with the people who are going to take me further. What's making me nervous rn is that I'm putting all my eggs in the wrong Easter basket (It's Easter, I had to).

"florencia"

- So ... Challenge Time. Always makes me nervous. Glad that not everybody wanted to sign up for the cheer since I would suck st the other two challenges. Alex, Zeeb myself & Ginny/Glen are the cheer squad. We made a chat group since its a cooperative challenge. So far I'm doing the work. Alex & Zeeb are moral support & Ginny/Glen said Hi. Nice. I don't mind doing the work so long as it's not the noose that will hang me if we lose the challenge. I continue talking to Mackie. He's kinda my bro crush this season. I had Linus in Chernobyl & Trey in the Canaries. Not like actual crush .. but they have a quiet confidence & way about them that is calming & attractive to work with. Hopefully I can fan thst ember into a lasting alliance. I still don't know the 10th member of the tribe is. Odd

"florencia"

- I am living my social queen fantasy right now and it's important in this early stage to establish those relationships so that you're not the one who looks suspicious as hell scrambling AFTER the immunity challenge. I've got a great bond with Jack Tan, Mackie, Zeebem, and I'm excited to see how that pays off.

"soacha"

- https://youtu.be/D3vKZnEPCyA

Day 3
"florencia"

- What a great Easter on Survivor! I'm pretty sure I'm in with Mackie now for sure. Now I'm in with Alex. Alex said he likes talking with Mackie & Tan. I like talking with Tan too. Hopefully this will solidify into a true alliance! Day 3 & Lachain & Genevieve haven't even opened or read my IM. (Yes. I looked up the last member of the Tribe!)  Or anybody's from what I gather. Possible 4 person alliance? 2 easy targets. I like what I'm seeing!

"florencia"

- (keep this private) GOSH SO MUCH IS HAPPENING. Actually I am worried for our team. We got multiple people who arnt really playing so it already feels we are down some numbers. Nervous about our first immunity challenge and think we are going to lose it. Ginny has been acting so weird in this group. Barely responding to answers and seeming not okay all the time. My and Mackie have teamed up (I call him Mackelmore) and I think we have both build solid relationships with people in the group. I think I see an alliance of Mac, me, Jim, Tan, Z, and Matt forming. I however did a very BOLD move. I want the idol. or at LEAST know who has the idol. Therefore I went all in with trust with Mac today. I told him we need to work together to get this idol before anyone else. Therefore he is working on the front numbers and I am working on the bottom. This can be a completely bonehead move, but I want to have fun and I think this will give me and the people I want to work with power. I told Mac he could have the idol if he trust me and will work with me in this game (as it is the first time I am doing one of these) I just want to make sure I dont work too hard at the beginning of the game. Going to back down after getting this idol.

"soacha"

- https://youtu.be/XjYcCkx7oKs

"florencia"

- In a season of fans versus favorites I truly feel like the definition of the fan. I’ve wanted to do one of these games for years now and finally built the courage to apply, but I’m realizing even on fan tribe, everyone has done one of these games besides me. I want to do well and I want to last long but how do you navigate that? Should I play more naïve? Ilearning how to do the speed of the game is so critical and that’s what I’ve learned so far four days in. I want to make my tribe proud, I want to show I can pull my weight. Really hoping the relationships I’ve built are. sincere. I want to come in this game just lying but realized how important to just be me makes for authenticity

"florencia"

- lol so you know how I was venting about being maybe worried about allies? Was I? idk oh well lol. so basically like that's out the window and I'm well omw to being aligned with the whole fucking tribe!!!! we LOVE being able to only align w/ no one or everyone!!!! So I have a 3some w/ Jack and Jacob, a 3som with Genevieve and Jim, and Alex wants a 5some with him, me, Jim, Tan, and Mackie. omfg. I'm just like gonna have to manage my alliances if I can figure out how??? a 7 person alliance of all of them? eek. I'm nervous as hell just because I don't wanna fuck this up again. Like this wasn't even really me trying to work with people, everyone has just sort of come to me which is definitely a good thing until I say yes to too many people. Then it becomes a bad thing. At least Ginny wants to quit which I feel bad about. I think they have lot going on rn and I feel like I misjudged them. I had a lot going on in my last ORG and I felt very unhealthy and paid the price for it in game. The same thing is happening w/ Ginny, I think and I just want them to be happy and ok. Alex thinks they've been trying to call out for help which I agree with tbh. Idk, I just want them to be okay. Depression sucks ass and it sucks even worse when you deal with it alone.

"soacha"

- okay so uhhhhhhhh.

we won immunity! first and foremost, that's the most important thing. i think abi, evan, and i really killed it on the chant. tommy didn't contribute much but he didn't have the opportunity to really do anything so i'm not holding it against him. so yay no first boot on this tribe!

okay now the tea. there are two people giving me weird vibes rn.

Rob: so i was hasty in adding aaron into our idol guessing pool without asking rob first, that's my bad. but rob is weird about why he doesn't want aaron to have the idol. like he had this whole thing about not wanting someone he doesn't like or trust to have the idol. which is normally perfectly sound logic in a survivor game. but it's literally the first round and he's saying he doesn't trust or like aaron, which is kinda bonkers? i know you need time to build up trust but cmon dude, i feel like that's a bit far. he doesn't even have a reason for disliking/not trusting him. i literally asked and he doesn't. he said his reaction would've been the same or worse if it was a different tribe member that i'd roped in. bruh, do you not like anyone on our tribe??? why are you playing this game jsdhjdf he said he couldn't be bothered to talk to some of the people on the tribe and like. cmon dude. i guess maybe he's too busy with louvre but bruh this is. just. i don't even know. i'm worried about what might happen if aaron does get the idol. rob said he doesn't want that but that he won't have a meltdown if it happens. so... what does happen??? like one of us is inevitably going to have the idol by tomorrow unless someone cleaned it out real quick (unlikely). it's hard to say what all the possibilities are for each person ending up with it.

do i want the idol? i mean yeah, who doesn't. but it's also a lot of responsibility and that kind of scares me. honestly? any of us ending up with the idol scares me.

Evan: as i think i said in my last confessional, evan comes off as a little desperate to be liked, but not a bad guy at all and i like him so far. but he came to me tonight and was like ""do you not like me? i'll leave you alone if i'm bothering you!!!"" and he sounded like me when i was 18 sjlkdhfjdls. evan please. the second you start saying stuff like that, you start digging your own grave. i get what it's like to feel that way so i'm not too put off by it, but it definitely shows that, to quote one of my episode titles in romania, ""he's a little unstable."" not as bad as some of the wacky cases in romania, but it's certainly a red flag. he was so sure that i disliked him bc he started most of our conversations and he felt like he was the one always asking questions and i'm just. it's exhausting to feel like you have to put on this perfect, happy, ever interested face for someone so they don't think you hate them!!

...wait, that's probably what everyone who has ever known me ever has said about me. so uh. whoops.

evan if you're reading this after the season, i don't hate you!!! at least not now while i'm writing this!!! just chill a lil my dude!!!

okay so. idol tomorrow. i'm nervous as hell. my stomach has been tight on and off all day whenever i think about idol mishaps or what would happen if we lost immunity. i'm doing my best to not get too worked up about this. i have to remind myself that it'll be okay if i get voted out, whenever it happens. i could be second boot and it would be fine. i would be fine. it doesn't mean i'm a bad person or awful at orgs. i need to repeat these things to myself so i can believe them. i can only control what i can do right now. i can't control the future, i can't control the past, and i can't control what anyone else does.

this was an exercise in mindfulness, which is a very important part of dbt (dialectical behavior therapy - i've been doing that for like half a year now).

OKAY NOVEL OVER JESUS CHRIST WHERE IS THIS MOTIVATION DURING NATIONAL NOVEL WRITING MONTH IN NOVEMBER

"florencia"

- As the game begins, I checked first to see who I'd be playing with. A fear of mine coming in was for the season to include multiple people I had known prior. I wont get too meta this season, but for context I had been around the community from around 2016 or something, having left around 2018 after a late game exit in 703 BB AS. S/O to Nicole for being on my ass to do the cast form pre season im the worst.

With Quarantine pausing the NHL, my team (that I work for) has me at home. School is all online, so it created the first opportunity for me to have free time in years. I left partially to pursue my career, but also since I was becoming disinterested. Not in playing, but in the medium this community provided me. In the few games I've played outside of this community, I've done much better and been able to connect with more people. Something told me that I should give it another go however. I had always made sure not to play 703 Survivor, as I knew there might be a time down the line that I wanted to devote myself to playing a winning game. As i had mentioned in casting, most Org's I've played I was recruited for, having me not 100% focused on getting the win. I often found myself being honest that I was more interested in entertaining and having fun with it. This still holds true, but I'm hungry to win this time. (I'll try to have this be the only mention of outside games, just needed some context.)

Back to our first moments on the beach (virtual beach), I began to slowly speak with people. The first few hours you spend talking to everyone has a huge impact on how you are seen. I wanted to ensure I was starting my social game off on the right foot, without seeming threatening from the get go. I find i communicate differently than most, and i think this was evident to a lot of my tribe early on. I've spent the last 3 years training and working in a very competitive sales environment, which has significantly improved my people skills. I will get into this more as the season progresses. I'm a bit odd at first, but part of this is strategy (part is my personality, I'm pretty weird lmao). It can be awkward and tough to start talking online to randoms you've never met and are competing against. I find that keeping things light can break the ice pretty well, allowing for more than surface level conversation.

All of that went out the window when I ate 2 of those 70mg THC Truffles. But let me tell you, boy, did I have fun at least. Once I was nice and fucked I started ramping up the social game and might have even overplayed a bit. Once the game begins, and the tribe is bonding, I am kind of able to just go on auto pilot. It's no longer as much of a game, as like my work. I meet CEO's and President's to try and get them to give me a blank cheque after meeting me the first time. It's a similar process however. People will open up to you when they are comfortable, sense integrity, and have a self interest in communicating with you. If one of those 3 things isn't being met, you are going to have a tough time having authentic conversations. I see Day 1 as meeting a potential client the first time: I have to make them want to include me in their plans. People make emotional decisions, and justify them with logic. For me to get in with these people, I need to connect on both levels.

The night winds down for me, and I have spoken to about half the tribe or just over. Jim was the first one to strike me as a candidate for collaboration, as he insinuated it from what I deduced. We had friended a while back when he had played a previous game, and he seemed to want to use this as an in with me. I was totally on board, Jim is someone to have on your good side. I don't foresee a swift blindside from him in the near future with having him in good favor. As the night beckons, I'm left with an inability to comprehend the most basic of concepts from the edibles, and faint images of cowboy hats floating around as I fall asleep. I woke up, turns out Jim just moves a lot in his sleep.

"Florencia"

- As the game begins, I checked first to see who I'd be playing with. A fear of mine coming in was for the season to include multiple people I had known prior. I wont get too meta this season, but for context I had been around the community from around 2016 or something, having left around 2018 after a late game exit in 703 BB AS. S/O to Nicole for being on my ass to do the cast form pre season im the worst.

With Quarantine pausing the NHL, my team (that I work for) has me at home. School is all online, so it created the first opportunity for me to have free time in years. I left partially to pursue my career, but also since I was becoming disinterested. Not in playing, but in the medium this community provided me. In the few games I've played outside of this community, I've done much better and been able to connect with more people. Something told me that I should give it another go however. I had always made sure not to play 703 Survivor, as I knew there might be a time down the line that I wanted to devote myself to playing a winning game. As i had mentioned in casting, most Org's I've played I was recruited for, having me not 100% focused on getting the win. I often found myself being honest that I was more interested in entertaining and having fun with it. This still holds true, but I'm hungry to win this time. (I'll try to have this be the only mention of outside games, just needed some context.)

Back to our first moments on the beach (virtual beach), I began to slowly speak with people. The first few hours you spend talking to everyone has a huge impact on how you are seen. I wanted to ensure I was starting my social game off on the right foot, without seeming threatening from the get go. I find i communicate differently than most, and i think this was evident to a lot of my tribe early on. I've spent the last 3 years training and working in a very competitive sales environment, which has significantly improved my people skills. I will get into this more as the season progresses. I'm a bit odd at first, but part of this is strategy (part is my personality, I'm pretty weird lmao). It can be awkward and tough to start talking online to randoms you've never met and are competing against. I find that keeping things light can break the ice pretty well, allowing for more than surface level conversation.

All of that went out the window when I ate 2 of those 70mg THC Truffles. But let me tell you, boy, did I have fun at least. Once I was nice and fucked I started ramping up the social game and might have even overplayed a bit. Once the game begins, and the tribe is bonding, I am kind of able to just go on auto pilot. It's no longer as much of a game, as like my work. I meet CEO's and President's to try and get them to give me a blank cheque after meeting me the first time. It's a similar process however. People will open up to you when they are comfortable, sense integrity, and have a self interest in communicating with you. If one of those 3 things isn't being met, you are going to have a tough time having authentic conversations. I see Day 1 as meeting a potential client the first time: I have to make them want to include me in their plans. People make emotional decisions, and justify them with logic. For me to get in with these people, I need to connect on both levels.

The night winds down for me, and I have spoken to about half the tribe or just over. Jim was the first one to strike me as a candidate for collaboration, as he insinuated it from what I deduced. We had friended a while back when he had played a previous game, and he seemed to want to use this as an in with me. I was totally on board, Jim is someone to have on your good side. I don't foresee a swift blindside from him in the near future with having him in good favor. As the night beckons, I'm left with an inability to comprehend the most basic of concepts from the edibles, and faint images of cowboy hats floating around as I fall asleep. I woke up, turns out Jim just moves a lot in his sleep.

"Florencia"

- well, we lost immunity, which quite frankly sucks! Guess the Jacob Curse’s still going strong. And I scored the most in Entanglement too, so people’s gonna think that I’m good at flash games, which honestly, i’m not lmao - you can prove that by having flappy bird as the next flash game! Okay, but so much has gone on in the last 2-3 days, so i’m gonna spam confessionals now! Shame on me for being lazy the past 2 days ig :(

first things first, let’s talk about the literal elephant in the room: Ginny! i just, cannot with them seriously…. girl, why did you even apply when you put in no effort and wants to quit on Day 3???? like come on, many people applied but didn’t get in, and you’re here asking to be voted out on day 3? come on.. no sis no. at this points i’m glad they’ll be out next, won’t miss them!

so currently, i think that i’m in a good position within the tribe! the power of changing my fb worked somehow, lmfao. i have working relationships with mr. disgusting hetero aka mackie, jack(ie cox) and z! and i don’t think i have done anything to warrant a target yet so all’s good for the pineapples on pizza stan! dsdlsdj. as for whether i trust them fully though.. ooh boy. i think that the only one that i can like trust fully, is zee, cause for the most part our convo are light-hearted and stuff. mackie is an amazing person, and i’m vibing with him hard, but like it’s gonna be hard for me to put my eggs all in his basket. and i’m not basing this on meta things, he literally lied to me about his idol guesses they first chance he have lol. good thing my gut feeling told me to check his idol guesses! as far as he knows, i don’t suspect a single thing, and i’m just a naive bitch waiting to be manipulated. i’m still gonna work with him, but i’ll keep him at arm’s length. and jack is literally a walking ball of paranoia. like come on, he fears being a target because he was mad over ginny??? like come on, i’m sure everyone is mad at ginny lmao don’t be that bitch. mackie currently plans to have a me/him/jack core, and i’m sure i’m gonna be the middleman in that core because jack thinks mackie’s a huge threat because he played in main hvv 2 3 years ago, which is ridiculous btw. lmao i’m such a hypocrite oops. but the thing is, i think i have options, and i can cruise to the swap at least, especially with ginny and lachlan, who haven’t responded to anything on our tribe. Here’s hoping for a immunity win x

"florencia"

- GINNY WENTOFF IN THE FACEBOOK GROUP LAST NIGHT WHEN WE LOST THE CHALLENGE AND WANTS TO QUIT. Said they just wanted to quit because they was depress. I am pretty confident all votes are going towards him, so unless this was all a play, I wont be blindsided tonight. I dont think it was a game though as everyone seems to have gotten 1 word responses from Ginny. I actually message them and said that I wanted to talk outside the game really quick because they have mentioned being depress and being a failure a few times. Said I know resources if they really are struggling. I know a lot of people are struggling during this time of being stuck inside, and I take ""depression talk"" very serious. Didn't respond, but I hope if they get voted out, Ginny will still message me if needed some resources.

Zeebem mentioned to me that the producers really asked Ginny to join as they needed numbers. Not sure if this should worry me, but I wonder if Z has some ties with the people in charge of this specific ORG, or if Ginny just told him that. Like how would he know this... I also know Z made a final 3 with Jim and Genevieve, but I really want to work with Zeebem. So far still growing with my other relationships with Matt, Tan, Mackie and Jim. Really enjoying this season.

"florencia"

- Girl....... the absolute shenanginns. I’ve never in my life been threatened by a person to vote them out??? Just LEAVE! But I simply will not allow myself to be tricked if there’s some greater conspiracy at play and I will be writing down an alternative.

"florencia"

- I think, to a degree, I have the tribe dynamics pegged. Ginny and Lachlan are like, lepers. I mean, Ginny asked to quit and refused to participate, and Lachlan is, like, apparently on another island or something bc he won't respond to ANYONE. Then, there's Genevieve and Jacob. Genevieve apparently just hasn't been the most active, something she's told me herself. As a result, I haven't heard people really talk about her as an ally. Then, I think people are just kinda put off by Jacob's overplaying I guess? Idk. No one has talked to me, at least, about wanting to align with him. Then idk Jack has just kinda been a lot in chat, but he's been mentioned by Alex as a potential ally. Really, Jim and Alex are the top dogs of the tribe imo because everyone LOVES Jim and Alex, and for good reason! They can hold a conversation, are kind, and aren't dumb either. I'd like to believe I'm up there with them as apparently a lot of people want to work with me as well? I think the top 4 of the tribe are Jim, Alex, Mackie, and I. The only thing about Mackie is that people are already seeing him as a threat for past games he's played. I think he and Alex are super close though based on Mackie liking a page of his and just how they have similar interests and are around the same age. Plus, Alex wanting to work with Mackie solidifies that for me. So, when it comes time for Jacob/Jack to try and get Mackie out, he and Alex are gonna raise hell I think. Mackie's social game actually really scares me tbh. I think everything he does is very deliberate, so that you feel loved and understood and liked. He took Ginny's side in a very subtle way when Jack/Jacob were calling them out, likes peoples' Facebook posts, remains active in conversation with people, etc. It's nerve-wracking how hard he's playing socially and it makes me want him out sooner than later.

"florencia"

- Day 4. Or 5? So I stepped up on the challenge & fell on my ass. My song/chant was SO good IMO. I just don't get it. Well whats done is done. BUT Ginny wants to be voted out so I don't have to worry so much. Im in 2 alliances. My main with Alex & Mackie. And another with Zeebem & Genevieve. I like both alliances so I'm conflicted. Maybe we can join forces or something? Today has been quiet except for the tribe talking about Mr. Whohaaa. That text mssg spam for penis. Apparently the gays want to impress the ladies with out genitalia since Host Drew got a similar text. Lachlan literally hasn't replied to ANYBODYS messages, but we are still gonna vote Ginny. I hope they are okay!

"florencia"

- Day 2-3

Day 2: So far things haven't been the most eventful. I woke up and had time to myself, spending most of the day in and out to see not many people around. I heard from some about being busy for the Long Weekend, but had yet to speak to at least 3 or 4 people. Inactivity seems to be an early game thing, we shall see how long it persists.

With extra time to think, I assessed my early position in the game. Main things I'm thinking about are:

1. Initial first impressions I've left 2. Overall feeling on the tribe

Day 3:

3. Strategy going into the first vote 4. How I feel of each tribemate

1. So far I don't think the impression I've made is too strong. I have a hard time dialing back being social, so I'm sure people recognize my ability in that regard. I didn't want to come in with my personality fully showing. since I'm pretty polarizing in real life. The main item of importance is the fact that I've displayed competency, instead of playing into a ""dumb blonde"" role heavily. That D O E S N T mean I haven't had my blonde moments already this game, but I don't want the impression to be that I'm conceited and ignorant. I'm trying to develop an identity that is passive but intelligent. From my read of the tribe, that will help me to draw people in to discuss the game.

2. Being a FvF season, my initial fear is that the favorites tribe is stronger and more equipped to win. We also are split down the middle, so if they get the numbers it could be a pagonging. I feel good about our tribe in terms of cohesion, but I don't know how strong we are as a whole. I feel like I'm above average in challenge strength, but only top 25 percentile or so. On this tribe, I think I'm one of the stronger challenge competitors, which is worrysome. The hope is that as the others get into the game, they feel the need to increase the compete level.

3. Going into the first vote, I had a feeling we would see Jeff at tribal. Fans lose first (who would have guessed) due to a mixture of low compete and rookie adjustments. I feel like a Hockey Coach talking about why my team got the L. Getting pucks in deep wouldn't have solved our problems. As soon as we hit the beach to prepare for tribal, Ginny volunteers to go home. No, threatens to quit should we not send them home. Sorry Colton lite, doesn't work that way. I've thought about the angles, and i don't see how this is anything other than a way to lose without facing defeat. This way nobody can say Ginny was going out anyways. I also think there might be more at play. It seems like there might be connections I don't know about, and I don't know if this is in any way related. One thing is for sure, I can always sense when the equation doesn't add up, and right now, the math doesn't check out for me, broski.

4. I'll break it down: - Zeebem: We have had a few conversations, with not a huge amount of substance. I would put Zeebem right in the middle of the tribe in terms of who I trust, which is probably his strategy. Not too big, not too small. I feel like he has a good game, coasting right now which is smart. Someone to keep an eye on.

- Matthew: At first I didn't think we would be much more than tribemates, but Matthew and I were able to find quite a bit of common ground. We had a good talk about his stand up and comedy prowess, and it allowed for us to connect on a personal level. he is no-nonsense and I can tell plays however the fuck he wants. I can match his no fucks given attitude well, as it's part of my real personality. We have also had game conversation, so I think Matt and i will be able to work together. Not my closest ally, but an ally nonetheless.

- Ginny: Either Ginny is a mastermind who is about to get me out at the first tribal or has just given up. Either way Im not voting for him, it doesn't benefit me at all. First or second boot here, since we will probably be back at tribal next round lmao

- Genevieve: Tried to message, but didn't get much. Only think I can say about Genevieve is Jacob is close to her, and has made it clear without saying it. If Genevieve ends up as the target, I need to let the majority roll the ball on that one.

- Lachlan: You can go

- Jack: Jack and I have connected from early on, and I believe he trusts me. I have a hard time getting a good read on him early, but I don't think it's a bad thing. I think he is just holding his cards rather close similar to Zeebem, but I trust Jack more than Zeebem. Potential ally.

- Jim: Jim was the first one I spoke to, and instantly I knew I wanted to work together. He latched onto me and pretty much told me he was glad to see me playing, we clicked ever since. He mentioned to me that he wanted to solidify something, and wanted to bring in Alex. I wasn't planning on creating an alliance before the swap, but having one sprung on me isn't the worst thing. I see Jim as a long term (But not Day 39) ally. I have trust in him which is reciprocated. As we play, I could see it turning into a Day 39 alliance.

- Alex: Alex is probably the person I have the most trust with. He is a newer player and it shows, however he is a smart guy. He has tendencies similar to when I first started playing, so I knew we would work together. What I didn't expect was for him to approach me with help for the idol. He pretty much said he wants me to have the idol and wants to go all the way with me. I think he is a bit naive to the realities of the game still, but will learn as he plays. This is beneficial as I think I will be able to get my way if we disagree. I don't foresee a circumstance in which I need to cut Alex however, and would not be surprised if he was my main ally this game.

- Jacob (AKA Mr.Crackhead): What can I say about Jacob. At first I didn't know if we would be close on a game level, but I connected personally pretty early. He mentioned having seen me play before, and slipped that he knew a lot and stalked the Wiki somewhat. He even knew placements I had in past games when i didn't. Very sharp guy, and not afraid to say his mind. Told Jacob he might have to be the Trish to my Tony sometimes, which is half true but half me trying to endear myself to him. i have been able to have more personal talks with him than anyone else so far, as well as gameplay talk to some degree. My only concern with Jacob is I think he is able to say what you want to hear well, and would cut me later on 100% without hesitation. One thing is for sure, our dynamic this season is going to be very interesting. I could just as easily see us needing eachother more than ever against the favs, it will come down to how threatening he sees me.

Going into tribal for tomorrow, I'd rank trust levels as:

1. Alex 2. Jim 3. Jacob 4. Matt 5. Jack 6. Zeebem 7. Genevieve 8. Ginny 9. Lachlan

"soacha"

- https://youtu.be/6wV4Z_VgVRc

"soacha"

- this is chieko speaking here, and finally now makes an unexpected debut of the season after the premiere happened. she finally speaks for once, and so does everyone else. well, at least a little late.

speaking about my tribe as since three days have passed so far it has been nothing but most everyone seem dry whenever i talk to them in their messages. honestly im not sure if it's me, or that's how they are going with it anyway, but these folks need to put some effort in their social game if they want to stay here, because i aint here to stay to be in a tribe with any of these people and would cut one of those bitches out for me.

luckily enough, we won the first challenge thanks to andrew, jay and i's combined effort, even that was so deadass close, otherwise people would have been voting me out right now and end up in a first boot that tried her best without a fight. honestly im not sure who could it have been, but it would be better if aaron, tommy or vincent would have went home anyway due to their lack of social effort. at least miss chieko's safe for another day this time. see me later when tribal council happens for any of us soon.