Big Brother 10/Week 2

"yaknad"

- so im not anywhere near being in a good position in this house right now literally because of this dumb ass twist. i get it, i signed up for this season, im expected to be able to prepare and adapt to any twist the season throws at me, but this one is just plain dumb. like i signed up to play a BB game that the players inside the game dictate and determine the flow of what happens, not for the VL to help decide based on a popularity contest, and this will single handedly get me a low placement so sorry if i sound bitter but it's very much warranted.

"yaknad"

- so morgan got placed up as the first mvp target right? WELL OF COURSE, this dumbass decides to come to the conclusion that it was me simply based on what happened in comoros, i know it for a FACT he thinks it was me, and thats probably the main driving force since i fucked him up that game and therefore i "cant be trusted" and with trey having been put up next, one of the ppl i considered myself closest with, i guarantee by the way they've been acting that morgan got to him and now i have a target on my back because of it. sorry im a MUCH better survivor player than you and outplayed the the fuck out of you and you missed jury!!! :((((( but dont bring that shit here to a completely different org and put a target on my back because of it. this fucking pisses me off lmao this is not how i wanted to start my bb game based over something that i didnt even do, completely out of my control lmfao. whatever dude, ill see if i can get myself out of it but im not too hopefule at all

"yaknad"

- i just wanted to chill, be social and have a fun start to this org but now thats been completely blown out of the water, thats why im so mad, because its over something i didnt even do and cant even prove otherwise. now i NEED to get this mvp so i can go to morgan and fucking prove to him and trey that it wasnt me. thats the only thing that can POSSIBLY save this dumbass target i have on my back and my position in this game. but this is for me, i am SO done with morgan, and if i can get this mvp, thatll give me the one-up i need on him, if i dont tho, which im not expecting to, then well, im in a shit spot and gotta figure something else out. godspeed to myself i suppose

"yaknad"

- sorry for being bitter, i hate sounding like that, but put yourself in my shoes and imagine having your game start like that because of something entirely out of your control, and being forced to start off playing defense because of it. im emotional and i just had to come and express my feelings and get it off of my chest, im still upset, and im still not hopeful for myself in this game, cuz im so sick and tired of becoming so visible to everyone in these games, i wanted to try and play far more utr but now that aint possible. esp with the cast im with lmao im one of the few that can actually hold a conversation. but again ima do everything in my power to try and get myself outta this hole, cuz yall know me, i dont quit till im out. IM A GAYMER!

"yaknad"

- especially with the cast we have too, ive struggled significantly to bond with people, like most these peeps either leave me on read or reply with a maximum of 5 words and i can only force myself for so long, idk if they're doing this to everyone or if im the problem (probs the latter lets be real) so this isnt really the type of cast i can come in, fuck around with and have a good time with, so it makes finding allies, friends n shit difficult as i forget most of these people are even in the game. idk, like i said the start of this game for me has been less than ideal to say the least, but ima do my best to adapt, fix the problem and get myself into a good spot in this house, or go out trying, so we'll see how it goes lads.

"yaknad"

- So far I’m in zero alliance chats, which is very stressful. However, I do think I have options. My social game has been pretty good (I think). My big problem right now is that the two potential alliances right now both want me, but I’m the only overlap. One side is Meghan, Bryce, Morgan and Syzmon. All of whom I love. The other is Sharky, Natalia, Sam, and Quintin. All of whom I love. I want to be part of both groups, but I don’t trust one more than the other. I don’t have confidence in one where I can tell them about the other. So if both alliances play out, then I have to hide them from each other and hope they don’t find out. Playing the middle is fun but very stressful.

"yaknad"

- Hey DR! It's been a while since we last spoke. I'm sorry that I haven't been around much, with dropping off my son to college and all, but I'm glad to be back to good news. For starters, Hannah was evicted! My HOH was a success as I got everything I wanted - an inactive out and good relationships with mostly everyone. While I would have liked an alliance to form while I was still in power since I would have a lot more leverage in that regard, I'm super ecstatic since something may be forming soon...

On another note, Bryce won HOH, meaning that he's 2/3 for comps he's competed in which tells me he's quite the competitor. He's definitely someone that I felt good with since very early on and I think he'll keep me safe like I did him last week, which I think is such a good benefit for being 1st HOH. For the first few HOH reigns, I can always cite that I didn't nominate them (presuming that they wouldn't be Melanie at least). I think this could curry me favor and keep me safe more often than not.

Bryce told me he's nominating Abi and Sarah, which while I like both of those girls, I don't really need them for my personal game (as bad as that sounds). At most, they're just numbers to keep me around. I need people that are going to have my back through and through, which leads me to my alliances that I have going on.

Right now, I'm thinking of forming something with Morgan/Natalia/Sam/Trey/myself. I thought of this group because I'm close to each and every one of them and I want them to think of me as their ride or die. This allows me to stay close to them and also to keep things in check in case something goes awry (which with this twist, they most definitely will). While I feel good about surviving noms this week from HOH, I'm worried about MVP because it could be anybody and anybody really could have a reason to nominate somebody, so I've got to be the person who gives no reasons to nominate me.

This week, I think I want to begin my floating strategy. As long as I have a good core alliance, I'm fine for the time being since I do think we have good competitors and loyal people. I think as long as I'm able to keep up relationships with everyone and not make any drastic moves by calling people out or by flipping votes all of a sudden, I can make a run for this game.

"yaknad"

- So I nominated Megan with the MVP power for 2 reasons. 1 is I don’t think she’d ever expect it to be me especially after we just formed an alliance and had really good conversation last night. Since I won it already, I’m hoping that means I have a good chance to win again in the future when it’s more valuable, and I don’t want my name coming up as someone who’s a threat to get the power over and over.

2, if she stays on the block I don’t think she’s in danger. And I fully expect her to come off the block when Bryce wins his second veto of the season.

"yaknad"

- Fuck you Bryce.

"yaknad"

- omg so i won hoh and ppl finally talking to me but like they are so dry maybe im dry too i currently stan syzmon natalia and yoni thats it. sam is alright i guess and sharky too. pod seems to like me but hes so rude and i want him gone the second the numbers allow. this week i had the misfortune of speaking to megan and shes just the worst tbh FKJJKASHKJ she hadnt msged me before hoh results and now shes trying to be my bff and made an alliance that im in now with trey morgan syzmon and her like.. i just like syzmon PLS why am i forced to do these things. i leaked it to natalia and told syzmon i did tho i was bored idk im so happy that this mvp nommed her hopefully she loses pov no one saves her and she can just go idc that im not the one who nommed her. melanie is so annoying also she only msg me now that i have power like.. ok. also trey says he likes kamala harris and i think bc im black he thinks i like her too but i just very much do not like that fed so thats awk KJFHADKJ me and yoni are ending gun violence by winning this game btw.

"yaknad"

- WOOO WEEE now im in an alliance with people that i dont even want to be in an alliance with. i dont have any desire to work with morgan, and ofc with morgan comes trey, and i have no relationship with natalia. the only reason im even in it is because of my relationship with yoni, who wanted to start the whole thing. i was very excited when she came to me wanting to start an alliance, then my heart sank as she mentioned the people she wanted included. but i cant just say no to an alliance offer. whatever tho, it's an early game alliance which means it should provide me with a bit of a safety net to gimme the opportunity to be the one to strike first (hopefully) cuz i have NO desire to work with these people long term. i do feel bad cuz yoni is the only one i rly wanna work with here and i dont wanna do her dirty but i know with this group im gonna renege soon. until then tho, ima just chill and stay off peoples radars since the ones i want gone im temporarily working with until my time comes where i can backstab them and i cant wait for that moment :D

"yaknad"

- ofc there are probably other alliances out there, and this is the only one im currently in. but to me 1 on 1 relationships are FAR more important and valuable than alliances are, and i have better 1 on 1 relationships with a lot of ppl not included in "pentagons." again, this is only cuz the offer was there and u cant just decline those esp this early, but im shaking in my penis ready to go back on these plebs when the time is right, i just gotta make sure i dont wait too long.

"yaknad"

- The thing is, i did my research. morgan, trey and sharky are all from morgans cute little BB org. and ofc with the whole morgan thinking i was the mvp, to trey being put up right after, to them being close to sharky who i betrayed very recently in canadienne hvv, theres no doubt in my mind that these 3 are banded together and WILL go after me at some point in this game, probably sooner rather than later. and i have a feeling they got Q too, i like Q, but i have a strong suspicion that those 3 got to him as he's one of the more active people. im very aware, and i know for a FACT i have a hit on me, and 2 of those ppl i now am in this alliance with LMAO love that. so if i stick around with it, ill be chopped before too long, so all this does is allow me the option to play offense first. but im always worried on playing too hard too quickly, but with all this meta bullshit i fear is going on, i might fucking have to before it's too late. idk man, i overthink a lot, but im very certain all this shit is going on and im not gonna sit around and wait for my suspicions to be reality and regret not having done anything because of it. stay tuned lads the Samnado might have to come to life here very soon and do i care about the repercussions that COULD happen? nah fam, i could care less. i'm here for a good time and if that results in a long time as well, then double bonus!

"yaknad"

- It sucks too, because some of these ppl are ppl I talk to the most in this game. And I could be wrong in my suspicions, but I don't think I am. And there's also a lot of shitty social players in this game too, so im gonna have to pull out the Sam charm to get them on my side before anyone else's and basically build the army i need to keep myself in a solid spot. But I have to do it in a way that doesn't make it seem like im christie from bb21 by making it visible to everyone that im tryna play multiple sides. Idk man, it's all about timing and being as subtle as possible, let's see if it works out for me in the end (probably not let's be real.)

"yaknad"

- So that blows balls, BUT I'm staying positive. I find it weird that Megan was saying she heard Sarah was saying differently than what Sarah told me. But the results show that Sarah was being honest with me, so I'm gonna stick with that!

"yaknad"

- Dear Diary Room, these bitches are conspiring against me ;) My Plan to stay low key & not make too many friends or seem desperate, has not worked. This may be my last & only confessional. Wish me luck.

"yaknad"

- Idunno who the MVP is... I'm getting a little nervous they may nominate me (idk why) now that Megan won Veto and will probably remove herself from the block. In terms of the vote, I really don't see myself voting out Abi. I love her and I want to keep her in the game. Tbh I'd probably vote Sarah, unless maybe MVP chooses someone interesting and then who knows what can happen 👀 If I had to guess who won MVP.... honestly idk. Low key I thought maybe it was Abi and she wanted a bigger target sitting beside her in case she was worried about getting put up. Another part of me feels like it was a boy like Sam or Trey or Sharky idk..

Oh also, I was asked to be in an alliance of 5 people hahahaha. I talked to Yoni though about how I know some of the boys in this group of 5 (before the alliance chat was made) are in multiple alliances already so that she doesn't trust them fully bc at some point I wanna put up Trey and Morgan's asses, I think Sam too LOL. But when I do that I don't want Yoni to be upset bc I "betrayed the alliance" so I needed her to be sketched out by them too lol. She thankfully agreed with me that we need to keep an eye on them and not fully trust them but we said we'd go with the alliance for now just to keep ourselves safe for a little bit longer at least in case one of them wins HoH.

This led to my new alliance now with Yoni!! We decided to call it Double D's and it's frkn iconic. I am obsessed with her, I want an alliance of four with Yoni, Szy, Bryce and myself. But I'm not gonna bring that up for now. Actually szy kind of brought this four up to me first. But yeah I'm trying to be social but also not be too memorable that ppl even consider putting my name up bc they think I'm harmless loll

"yaknad"

- Ok so here is the tea. I want to be in an alliance with Sharky (love him), Trey (love him), Sam (absolutely love him), and Natalia (sort of love her but not sure yet if I can trust her). I really like Bryce and Sarah, but I'm not sure they've meshed with the same people as me yet.

Sharky and Trey have both confirmed they want to be in an alliance. Natalia and I know each other from a different game and she sort of owes me soooooo I think I can play the guilt card with her.

Morgan is a sweetie. I wish we connected more, but alas we haven't. Megan recently reached out which was cute.

For this weeks' veto, I would be shocked if I was nominated. I would be more shocked if I was evicted... so I'm not really worried yet.

"yaknad"

- So since we've last spoke, Megan won the POV which means she's more than likely going to take herself down and the MVP will have to nominate someone else (I hope to God it's not me LoL). Oh, and I made my first alliance of the game!!! I'm very excited about it, it's called Pentagon. It consists of me/Trey/Natalia/Morgan/Sam. All people I really like and I really want to go far with until the end preferably. I think I formed this group because I personally have good connections with them and they also all seem pretty solid. I'm just hoping the group sticks, because I talked to Natalia and she seems to be aware that Trey/Morgan are involved in other alliances which could jeopardize things.

On top of that, Natalia and I have a duo called "The Double D's" (it's supposed to be a bra-size joke on my part LoL) and I love it. We both have bonded really well and I see her sometimes as the daughter I never had. She's just really an amazing and sweet girl and I'm looking forward to slaying this game with her!

Bryce and I also made a duo in lieu of the El Paso shooting called "For Texas" which I also love. Bryce is just a really cool kid and although he's trying to figure out his life, I like his ambition and his work ethic and he's just a really nice person.

Right now, I'm just focusing on reconnecting with those I missed before I went on a vacay. I can only hope it's going well but I really don't know, especially with this crazy MVP twist in which literally anybody could be nominated. I just want to fade into the background and have good connections with everyone, but stay true to my alliance at this point in time. It's a boring strategy, I know, but it's the only way I'm going to be able to stick around for a long time and I intend to do so to get to the end.

"yaknad"

- This game is getting harder. I’m in two alliances right now. The Pentagon is definitely the one I feel best about. But like the people I consider my best allies are Q, Sharky, Sam, and Morgan. I’m not even in an official alliance with Q and Sharky. My dilemma is do I tell Sharky and/or Q about the Silencers. If they find out, then I want them to find out from me. I don’t want them to think I’m hiding something from them. Either decision is problematic.

"yaknad"

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