I Should Be Annoyed, But I'm Not/Confessionals

Day 28
"katzole"

- I should be annoyed but I’m not. Nemo has proven twice now that he can’t be trusted. Ryan and Piper don’t talk game with me, Pendant is hella quiet and Matty/Samb tell me seconds before the votes are read. I’m ready to go all out now, no holds barred.

"katzole"

- Heading into the immunity challenge today, I am trying to set up a way to nix Ryan or Nemo out of the game. I have trusted them a lot. But I know I can't win if they both stay in the game. They are running the show and I can't allow that to dictate my game. I want to go far with Frog and Samb and see if we can mix things up a little bit.

"katzole"

- Oh look it me almost winning immunity ayeeee. But Nemo winning was not worse case scenario. It wasn't the best but it is a great situation for me to get Ryan out of the game. The problem is Pendant seems very hesitant to move forward in the game with us. Which makes sense. I want Ryan and Nemo to feel comfortable with voting Frog out of the game. That was supposed to be the plan last round so why not try to do that again.

"katzole"

- Okay well that was a smooth blindside. Nemo pulled a huge move there.

So Samb revealed his laundry list of advantages.... which just makes me want to flush them all out. This guy is a huge threat. It's so apparent to me that Nemo and Samb are a “ride or die” duo, and they're running circles around this entire tribe. I trust Nemo completely, but I'm becoming wary of Samb for some reason. It's like Nemo is the only thing keeping me and Samb together. But yeah those two literally have 4 advantages between them and Nemo is hard to beat in immunity challenges. So they can guarentee each other's safety until F4 at this rate. They're probably relying on me to vote out with them at F5 and F4. I mean, yeah they have a F3 alliance with me. But I'm literally a third wheel in that. I am not calling the strategic shots here LOL. So I'm either becoming final juror or goat. It's not exactly the position I wanna be in rn, but I recognize it's my own fault for having such a mediocre social game. Pendant and Matty seem too trusting after that last vote. They're not seeing the real threats. It sounds like Nemo talked them both into voting Anubis too. But credit to Nemo and Samb for having so much persuasive power. So yeah, Nemo & Samb are steamrolling and there's not much that can be done to stop them at this point. Everyone else is just so disorganized by targeting the wrong people or being too inactive. Pendant is playing too loyal to the alliance too. Maybe he assumes that I'll flip on Nemo & Samb at F5...hmm.. Pendant says that Frog is trying to take out Nemo or myself. I guess I'm seen as the power duo instead of Samb? Sure... let the jury think that. How is Samb's connection to Nemo so under-the-radar LOL. I know I told Nemo before that I'd like to see him win this season. He deserves it tbh. But I have to still play my own game here right? Like I don't want my legacy to be "goat who lets Nemo & Samb become the F2" :skull:

"katzole"

- ...dear LITHUANIANS 🇱🇹

...how are YOU ALL 😘 ? I have just discovered a FUN and NEW way of talking to EVERYONE! It's called DISC CORD. I thought it was called DISCO CORD 🕺 but apparently it is just DISC CORD. ...I am now in the TOP SEVEN 👏 🦆 👏 it was sad to vote out ANUBIS, but I am BLESSED to be here ❤️ ❤️ ❤️ ❤️ 😺 🙄 🙄 ...right now, I do not have any idea what to do 😂😂😂 perhaps you could help a boomer like me 👴 ...my head is NOT where it is at, at all 🤷‍♂️ 🤷‍♂️ 🤷‍♂️ ...NOTHING WORKS 🚢 🚢 🚢 😜 😜 😜 ...I AM FAILING my own strategy 😂😂😂 ...I am SUCH A BIG IDIOT! 🤣🤣🤣 ...I HAVE NO IDEA what to do 😅 😅 😅 😅 ...I DO NOT have ENOUGH PATIENCE to deal with IMMUNITY and the TRIBAL COUNCIL ....all I am going to do is KEEP YEEHAWING 🤠 and see what happens! 🥺 🥺 🥺 🙏🙏 🙏 ...they WILL NOT give me any relief unless I WIN IMMUNITY 😰😰😰😛  😛 😛  ...I REFUSE to do anything I am told! 😊 😊 😊 😊 😊 ...I am being offered a NEW ALLIANCE...with Matty, Frog, and Pendant. 😉 😉 😉 HOPE this works 🤣🤣 ...I am going to be LOYAL 😤 to NEMO AND RYAN 🍷 they are GOOD BOYS 😇 ...And I have NO idea if a NEW TWIST is coming up too! 😂😂😂 ...but remember... the Bible says, “He heals the brokenhearted and binds up their wounds. ...😠😠 ....” Psalm 147:3 😢 😢 ....and I am nowhere near retirement time, just call me SAMB THE COWARDLY COWBOY 🤠🤠😁 😁  and I shall hope I make it to DAY THIRTY 😛  so we can PARTY 🙂  YEEHAW! ...LOVE, SAMB 🤠🧡

Day 29
"katzole"

- Making this alliance with Frog and Samb is what I want to do in order for me to win the game. I have told Frog time and time again that I will be voting with him. I want to stand by that. After talking with Pendant, he does seem to see the light in voting Ryan out of the game and at this point, no one seems to see this coming. I am expecting it to be a 4-3 vote with Piper supposedly throwing her vote at Frog too. I am feeling confident that this is going to work. But I am also hesitant too. It's been quiet around here.

"katzole"

- Well Ryan just up and left tribal council and absolute pandemonium happened. Samb, Nemo, Frog, Pendant are all messaging me and I am very overwhelmed by everything that is going on but I had to do some MAJOR damage control.

I had to put my acting chops on with Nemo and try to turn my almost betrayal onto him and Ryan. I had to convince him that I was mad because I wasn't clued in on what was going on and it just didn't really feel like I was in on anything. Nemo makes it clear to me that Ryan was very nervous about the vote because I was being distant. Well, I was trying to get rid of you but dang I was at a baseball game I wasn't trying to be short lmaoooo Now I am trying to figure things out with Samb on what to do. Our back up plan with Frog is Piper but I am not really sure if that is what I'm going to do.

"katzole"

- Pendant tells me that Ryan was nervous and that Samb has not one, not two, but THREE flipping advantages. How is it that my number one ally doesn't tell me he has three advantages. And how does PENDANT of all people know. I am a lot farther down the totem pole than I thought I was. Man, I really felt on cloud nine for a second there. Should've known better. This is Survivor bruhhhhhhhh.

"katzole"

- At this point, I unfortunately have to go back on my word at Frog. Which actually makes me hurt so bad. I really wanted to work with him and I really thought we could go far. But the fact of the matter is that I just don't even want to do it. But if I don't burn this bridge, I will be burning so many others. I think Nemo feels bad for not giving me all information. And hopefully it can get Ryan back in my good graces. Bout to do a 360 up in here.

"katzole"

- So apparently Frog made an alliance with Matty and Samb to get me out (this is according to Samb but Pendant confirmed it). Like... that is such a bad read of the tribe power structure from Frog. Now I need to get Frog out.

Both Pendant and Nemo told me I'm getting votes tonight. And both encouraged me to play my SWP. Samb didn't seem that happy about it though LOL. But idc about putting Samb into a compromising position. The issue is that Matty didn't sound very committed to voting Frog when I talked with him. And Matty didn't once tell me I'm a target or an alliance was made to get me out. RED FLAG RED FLAG RED FLAG. So my game relies on Samb and Piper keeping me, and I do think Samb is capable of making a move behind Nemo's back. He voted out Neb in the pre-merge, I haven't forgotten that. Whelp I've somehow made it to F7 here and I'd like to do SOMETHING this season. So I'm gonna do the impulsive thing and play my SWP. Even though it seems like I have majority vote to stay, I want to scare Samb into wasting some of his advantages. It's a gambit. In other news, I've had some better chats with Pendant lately, mostly about furry stuff. But I do think there's signs there that we both want to keep working with each other. It just feels like he avoids game convos a lot. Nemo thinks that Matty and Pendant aren't very proactive players, and I'm inclined to agree. Frog is the one putting up opposition. I wonder if Samb would actually take Nemo to F2 because I don't think he wins that, mostly b/c he burned Ruta 2.0 and Nemo has a better social game from my perspective. Anyways I'm peacing out on this tribal and saving myself instead of helping my allies cuz... that's why I'm here right? To play for myself? And I want an attention-seeking moment a tribal dammit! Trust ranking: Nemo > Pendant > Samb > Piper > Matty > Frog

"katzole"

- Well, that was a fun punishment 🥴

But not as much of a fun outcome. I was gonna talk about how much I bombed that last challenge, but I’ll let the results speak for themselves. I don’t know why I tried brute-forcing the first two videos by skimming through the thumbnails when I could’ve just… actually watched them. Rookie mistake. But Nemo wins immunity! Hooray… and also boo. The dynamics of the tribe are interesting right now. There’s the three-person alliance between Nemo, Ryan, and myself - which nobody suspects that I’m in. And then Pendant and Piper who have told everyone they’re voting together. And I just got pulled into an alliance with Matty and Frog. Matty is kinda under my wing, and Frog and I can never coordinate the time zones to talk things over. At some point yesterday, I came up with a cracked scenario wherein I was going to vote with the rest of the tribe + get Nemo to use the Azuolas idol at this round to send Frog home, flip back to Nemo and Ryan and send either Pendant or Piper home with the Extra Vote, and then use the Katzole idol on myself to secure a final four with Matty, Nemo, and Ryan. Scenarios! But reading that back, that actually sounds far fetched. And step one of that plan is already broken because Nemo has immunity. Before the challenge results, Nemo and I agreed that Frog had to go, but the more that I think about it, I’ll need to take a shot at Nemo and Ryan eventually. Tonight might be my only chance to do that.

"katzole"

- Ok I’m actually late for the thing I need to go to but I just gave away all my advantages to the biggest threat in the game and I really have no idea what happens next but if I go, I go, if I stay, then I explain everything the second I come back. Things are extremely messy.