Board Thread:Big Brother 4/@comment-31720975-20170910000346

 Okay, so where do I even begin.. First of all, I just want to say thank you to the hosts, this game has certainly been something and you all did a fantastic job of keeping it together.

 Coming straight out of Bali, I was unsure of if i should play another org, but ultimately, despite all the controversy and the regrets i've had over actions i’ve made, I’m proud to have made it to the end, and i’m ready to face any criticism I deserve, and own up to my game.

 I’m going to divide this speech mainly into the strategic game related decisions I made, but then also personal. I truly believe the game of big brother is divided into 3 sections: Strategic, Physical & Social, and I am adamant throughout this speech it will be clear to see, I outperformed in 2 of those aspects, and I’m ready to apologise and accept the social mistakes I made, but also acknowledge that I didn’t play a flawless game, it certainly had errors, but i made it here, and I believe I have the strongest case to win.



 Before I begin, I want to outline some of my strongest arguments, for why I should win, which I will explain in further detail.
 *  On a physical level, I was able to dominate towards the end. I won the most competitions of anyone in this game. 3 HOH & 4 POV, this saved me towards the end, and i was able end up in the position I now am in. I was able to take out the people I viewed as competition threats, and end up in a final 5, where I could win out to the end. However, I was also able to survive at times, without competition wins. I survived the double eviction where I was on the block, despite numerous campaigning attempts to evict me, and I also was vetoed by one of my closest allies, showing the trust and loyalty that I had built with her.Daniyes.gif
 *  I created a counter-alliance at the perfect time. The leftovers was formed by me, in the final 12. I knew this was crucial, If Sydney had left, the side i was building would have severely lacked individuals I believed could win competitions, and I felt with Anna’s activity, we did not have a chance. It was due to me, that Christina/Courtney were pulled into the alliance that i had pulled together of me/Charley/Sydney/Joey. This was because i outlined information about Alexa/Elmo etc to Christina/Courtney and persuaded them that my story was right, and they needed to join this alliance crucially, they also felt more bonded to be on a personal level than they did with Alexa. This created a majority, and we were able to flip the game, before it was too late. This move was possibly the most crucial and game-changing move that occurred in the game. Immediately after this move, we had a 6-5 majority.
 *  Some of my final 2 deals resulted in benefits . I overplayed my cards early on, but my alliance with Anna resulted in her willing me her legacy advantage. This was after I had orchestrated her blindside to save Sydney, I think this deserves respect. If I did not receive this advantage, a 3rd nomination would not have been named later on in the game. This emphasizes how, whilst I may have overplayed my card with some, I still had numerous options in the game, and people who did trust me.
 *  Managing to survive numerous call-outs . Through the leftovers i continuously pledged the idea that it was ‘us vs them’. I was honest, and the other side was liars. This perceived ‘honesty’ from my side, saved me in many weeks where I could have been a target and left. This alliance remained loyal to me, despite the onslaught of negativity towards my gameplay.Keesha.gif
 *  Despite being a huge target, I survived an eviction where both of the nominees next to me, where to leave. Sydney did not flip, due to me previously saving her, showing I made the move at the opportune time. From final 12 onwards, I had a solid target on my back, yet I survived, where my enemies did not. I think that speaks volumes to how, I was able to create social bonds, which did help me, when I needed them most. Everytime someone would leave the house, they would call me out, Say i was going to win, and try plant an even further target on my back, but I still made it here, I think that’s impressive. I didn’t need to hide behind anyone in this game, I survived as one of the largest targets.
 *  I recieved 0 votes against me all season, and voted in the majority every week.
 *  My allies from the leftovers never turned on me, despite constantly being called out as the leader, and them being berated for being ‘sheep’ and needing to take me out. My allies even vetoed me at points in the game (Charley in week 6) and did not nominate me when they could have, despite pleas from the opposing side who were now the minority, offering them potentially better deals. Christina, Courtney & Joey all had opportunities to nominate me late in the game, and did notParisssss.gif

 I think one of the hardest things I had to do in this game, was adapt. I began this game hoping to play an under the radar snake like approach, form multiple deals (I overplayed my card, and did not realise how transparent this would be), not win competitions, and slide to the end. Ultimately that all blew up in my face by week 4, I was called out completely by Annabelle, my game exposed, and I truly believed it was over. This terrified me, and from this point on I had to be more outspoken play more aggressively, and continue to deny my game to those I believed would listen to me under the guise of being ‘honest’, and it worked. My alliance believed me over the opposing side, and i was able to survive.



 I implore you all to put aside your negative feeling towards me which I completely understand (and will try to explain fully later on in this speech) and vote for who truly played the best game, which I am positive is me. You all wanted to get me out in this game, tried and failed, with many of you openly stating I had your vote if i got to the end, due to my gameplay. If any of you on the jury had been at the end, you would have wanted your game respected and validated, and I hope that you can ultimately see the effort, and moves I put into the game, and reward it. I didn’t play a perfect game, but it was certainly better than my opponents.

 I’m going to try give an outline of the weeks throughout this game, and my thought processes at that moment.

 Week 1:

<p dir="ltr" style="line-height:1.38;margin-top:0pt;margin-bottom:0pt;"> Coming into the game, the major flaw I had perceived with my gameplay, was that I hadn’t kept my options open enough. I ‘locked’ into an alliance early on at the merge, and put all my eggs in one basket, figuratively speaking. This was to my downfall. This was one of the major elements I wanted to change, I wanted to always have options, and have a direct line of communication with everyone on the cast. Regretfully, however, i overplayed this. I created numerous final 2’s in the first week, built bonds, and this placed me firmly in the ‘middle’ of the house, which was a dangerous place to be.

<p dir="ltr" style="line-height:1.38;margin-top:0pt;margin-bottom:0pt;"> I was aligned in a group known as ‘kumbaya’ with Alexa, Annajane, Zakriah, Sydney, Charley

<p dir="ltr" style="line-height:1.38;margin-top:0pt;margin-bottom:0pt;"> But also had deals with people on opposite sides of the house, notably a deal with Joey, Elmo, Forrest and also working relations with Christina, and others.

<p dir="ltr" style="line-height:1.38;margin-top:0pt;margin-bottom:0pt;"> When it came to the eviction, i Perceived the majority to be voting to save Annabelle, and so flipped on Kumbaya, and voted correctly. This was one of the few times in the game, where I was not in control of what was occurring, but I was happy to vote in the majority week 1, and did damage control with Kumbaya, noting that i was ‘tricked’ into saving Annabelle, and would not have done so otherwise.

<p dir="ltr" style="line-height:1.38;margin-top:0pt;margin-bottom:0pt;"> Week 2 followed similarly, with Alex from the Kumbaya side of the house leaving, due to me having more of a social relationship with the opposite side of the house, I was able to avoid nomination. But i began to be concerned, For my own game at this point, I needed the ‘sides’ to take each other out weekly, and could not afford one side to decimate the other early on, as this would lower my options, and personally I felt more bonded to the Kumbaya alliance, than Annabelle,Will,Ryan,Miguel etc.

<p dir="ltr" style="line-height:1.38;margin-top:0pt;margin-bottom:0pt;"> Week 3, Zakriah won HOH. I had a final 2 deal with him, and we discussed his nominations together, though i was sure to explain to him heavily that ‘it was his own decision’ and I would support whichever move he made. I won the POV, which turned out to be a bad move. I vetoed Forrest, hoping this would continue to leverage his side of the house and allies (and we had a deal) but ultimately, I believe this began some to see my moves as calculating and transparent…

<p dir="ltr" style="line-height:1.38;margin-top:0pt;margin-bottom:0pt;"> Week 4, was a disaster for me gamewise. I won HOH ( a competition I had tried to throw) and i was in a dangerous position. By this point, I had some semblance of a relationship and deal with every person in the house, and my plan had been to float the middle as long as possible, but now, I had to ‘pick’ a side.. I realise I had played way too transparently early on, and I was nervous. Ultimately i chose to side with Kumbaya, as we had more personal discussions and I felt more at ease with Sydney/Charley/Zak etc.. I nominated Annabelle/Ryan as I hadn’t solidly made a deal with either of them, but this is where my game really took a turn for the worst. Annabelle, before her eviction, called me out on my game, and I knew i was in hot water.

<p dir="ltr" style="line-height:1.38;margin-top:0pt;margin-bottom:0pt;"> At this point my strategy became to ultimately shift the blame. I had spilled some information to Will, about Sydney hoping to backdoor him during my HOH. Sydney already had some suspicions of Alexa being a double agent, and I was able to fully pin the blame on her, by adding more information, and agreeing with Sydney. This ultimately, would prove a very good move on my part, this set up a Sydney v Alexa showdown, and both seemed to believe I was on their side, carrying me through a tricky double eviction, which I survived despite Will trying to throw me under the bus, by pledging my loyalty to Sydney (I had nominated 2 from the opposing side, so there was no reason not to believe me)

<p dir="ltr" style="line-height:1.38;margin-top:0pt;margin-bottom:0pt;"> But also through Week 5, by immediately flipping to Alexa, and promising to vote out Sydney.. At this point, my strategy was to allow these 2 to go after each other, and hopefully reduce the target on my back, and lay back for a good few weeks by throwing competitions and continuing to build bonds incase i was in trouble (e.g by continuing to build my relationship with Charley who had been in a similar position).

<p dir="ltr" style="line-height:1.38;margin-top:0pt;margin-bottom:0pt;"> Week 5, I voted out Zakriah despite out deal, as I also had a good relationship with Joey, and believed he would be more useful in the future..

<p dir="ltr" style="line-height:1.38;margin-top:0pt;margin-bottom:0pt;"> Week 6 was the first week it was me who was fully the target, by Ryan, which was understandable. At this point I began to take a more aggressive stance towards the game, arguing with members of the cast and denying any accusations thrown towards me (many of them were true, but only an idiot would admit to being a snake, and I wanted my allies to still trust in me). This proved the right move, Charley vetoed me, and luckily I was able to survive, but at this point, I suspected more than just Ryan was after me, and this is where i made my most crucial move of the game.

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<p dir="ltr" style="line-height:1.38;margin-top:0pt;margin-bottom:0pt;"> Sydney and Anna where the final nominees, both I believed I could work with, but by keeping Sydney <p dir="ltr" style="line-height:1.38;margin-top:0pt;margin-bottom:0pt;"> I went to Sydney & Charley and we all discussed the state of the game etc. It was here that i proposed flipping the game, and creating a new alliance. Neither, had solid relationships with both Christina & Courtney so ultimately, it was me who went to both.
 * 1) <p dir="ltr" style="line-height:1.38;margin-top:0pt;margin-bottom:0pt;"> I perceived her target would be higher than me, due to her competition prowess, giving me a few crucial weeks to regain allies
 * 2) <p dir="ltr" style="line-height:1.38;margin-top:0pt;margin-bottom:0pt;"> If she did win competitions, I knew I would be safe
 * 3) <p dir="ltr" style="line-height:1.38;margin-top:0pt;margin-bottom:0pt;"> I needed someone else to go after Alexa/Ryan/Forrest etc.

<p dir="ltr" style="line-height:1.38;margin-top:0pt;margin-bottom:0pt;"> I spilled information on Alexa playing both sides, created some lies also, and managed to persuade both to join a counter alliance to save Sydney. Joey joined also (We had a good relationship, and he had previously been nominated by Alexa, so I knew he would side by me)

<p dir="ltr" style="line-height:1.38;margin-top:0pt;margin-bottom:0pt;"> This created the Leftover s, and from the beginning I constantly spouted a ‘Us VS them’ Mentality, we were the underdogs flipping the game, and we would get them out one by one.



<p dir="ltr" style="line-height:1.38;margin-top:0pt;margin-bottom:0pt;"> From this point I knew my relations with Alexa etc were completely burned, as they had been blindsided by the vote, and this is where some of my social game completely fell apart in terms of those who weren’t my allies. I decided to take an even more aggressive approach, be completely loyal to the leftovers (As apart from Sydney, I believed I could beat them in competitions,  I got on with them on a personal level, and I knew they would choose me over Alexa) and hope to take the other side out 1 by 1

<p dir="ltr" style="line-height:1.38;margin-top:0pt;margin-bottom:0pt;"> Numerous fights happened, but this seemed to build my trust with the leftovers. I didn’t back down, argued my case, and continued to paint that side as liars, snakes, and people who needed to leave the game.

<p dir="ltr" style="line-height:1.38;margin-top:0pt;margin-bottom:0pt;"> This paid off the following week: Courtney, who had been looking for a solid alliance, now had one. & Forrest, one of Alexa’s closest allies, was evicted. We were now up to a 6-4 majority, and it seemed like it could be plain sailing.

<p dir="ltr" style="line-height:1.38;margin-top:0pt;margin-bottom:0pt;"> Week 7, was where my previous social relationships, saved my Ass. Alexa won HOH, and I knew i was getting backdoored. However, Anna Jane after her eviction, willed me her legacy advantage, despite me orchestrating her blindside.

<p dir="ltr" style="line-height:1.38;margin-top:0pt;margin-bottom:0pt;"> This enabled me to name a 3rd nominee (which no-one suspected, as I had been disqualified in the HOH competition the advantage was given) and the plan was all set to take out Ryan. I decided to inform the leftovers of my power, to continue this trust, and show that i was ‘honest’ in my intentions against those not with us & we knew we had the numbers to save Charley & Sydney and evict Ryan.

<p dir="ltr" style="line-height:1.38;margin-top:0pt;margin-bottom:0pt;"> Despite the double eviction, twist, my ‘honesty’ and persistence to argue with Alexa etc, continued to build my trust with Christina, Joey, Sydney etc, and this was crucially the reason I was saved over Charley, as I had more ‘fight’. I survived an eviction where ⅔ of the nominees would leave, despite my huge target and lobbying efforts, i think this deserves respect.

<p dir="ltr" style="line-height:1.38;margin-top:0pt;margin-bottom:0pt;"> Week 8, I won the POV to save myself, the beginning of being able to dominate competition wise, as many of the threats had been evicted (which I hoped for) and Sydney was evicted. I had planned to save Sydney hopefully, as I needed her as a meatshield as I was becoming aware of the fact, many targets were leaving, and there was no-one I could hide behind. But the votes were not there.

<p dir="ltr" style="line-height:1.38;margin-top:0pt;margin-bottom:0pt;"> In the double eviction, Christina won, and intended not to nominate Elmo initially. Luckily i was able to persuade her that he was a competition threat and he wasn’t one of ‘us’.

<p dir="ltr" style="line-height:1.38;margin-top:0pt;margin-bottom:0pt;"> From the Final 6 onwards, and especially after Alexa’s eviction, I did have to rely on competitions to get to the end. So my main focus was to make sure the field was individuals I could beat, and I accomplished this. I won F6 POV, F5 HOH, F4 POV and F3 HOH. Totalling my competition count to 7, the most HOH’s and POV’s of the season.

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<p dir="ltr" style="line-height:1.38;margin-top:0pt;margin-bottom:0pt;"> Christina and me, had also promised each-other a f2 early on (We were in a final 3 alliance alongside Courtney) so I knew I had at least one person in my corner, who would hopefully save me If i was to lose a competition. Furthermore I continued to discuss with Joey that we needed to be against Christina/Courtney as they were a tight pair, and so were Alexa/Estefana, leaving us as the odd 2 outside, and he seemed to buy this.

<p dir="ltr" style="line-height:1.38;margin-top:0pt;margin-bottom:0pt;"> This placed me in a difficult position in F5, Where i did nominate Joey, and I can agree this was a bad move, and could have cost me..

<p dir="ltr" style="line-height:1.38;margin-top:0pt;margin-bottom:0pt;"> Ultimately I was able to win out.

<p dir="ltr" style="line-height:1.38;margin-top:0pt;margin-bottom:0pt;"> I’m completely open to questions about this gameplay, but I hope it shows <p dir="ltr" style="line-height:1.38;margin-top:0pt;margin-bottom:0pt;"> I believe I did play the best strategic and physical game in this final 2, and my social game was not completely lacking, as my allies in the leftovers remained loyal.
 * 1) <p dir="ltr" style="line-height:1.38;margin-top:0pt;margin-bottom:0pt;"> I was always an active player from Week 1
 * 2) <p dir="ltr" style="line-height:1.38;margin-top:0pt;margin-bottom:0pt;"> I was willing to flip when needed to save my skin, orchestrate blindsides, win competitions and create counter alliances when needed be
 * 3) <p dir="ltr" style="line-height:1.38;margin-top:0pt;margin-bottom:0pt;"> I fought to stay each week, I was never someone ‘following’ the orders of others, and I was the ‘figurehead’ of the leftovers, yet survived until the end, this group remained loyal to me, despite opportunities to flip provided from Alexa etc. This evidences that i did create a solid loyal group, which I think is impressive in a season which was constantly changing.

<p dir="ltr" style="line-height:1.38;margin-top:0pt;margin-bottom:0pt;"> However, I did have mistakes in the game, BUT i was able to adapt. I changed my game after the callouts early on, played more aggressively and never gave up.

<p dir="ltr" style="line-height:1.38;margin-top:0pt;margin-bottom:0pt;"> My game certainly wasn’t clean-cut or smooth, It was messy at times, too outspoken at times, and could have been improved in areas, But i made it here, and none of the other big threats in this game, can say the same.

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<p dir="ltr" style="line-height:1.38;margin-top:0pt;margin-bottom:0pt;"> Finally, I would like to address some of the personal complaints I have honestly deserved. I took my insults too far, I have publically apologised but I completely understand that won’t be enough for me to be forgiven on a personal level. What i did was wholly wrong, and completely crossed the line in a game sense, and all i can do is truly apologise, it doesn’t define me as a person, it was moments of pure ugliness, from the heat of the game, and i’m embarrassed and ashamed that i went to that level. But all I can do is learn from this.

<p dir="ltr" style="line-height:1.38;margin-top:0pt;margin-bottom:0pt;"> I hope you can realise, that in this final 2, I was the best player of the season, and reward the person you consistently wanted out, but were never able to get, the person you proclaimed as the ‘Vanessa’ the person leading the house (which was correct).

<p dir="ltr" style="line-height:1.38;margin-top:0pt;margin-bottom:0pt;"> I would hope you would vote based on game, and who truly played the game of big brother, and the strategy the best.

<p dir="ltr" style="line-height:1.38;margin-top:0pt;margin-bottom:0pt;"> I’m of course open to all questions, criticisms, i haven’t wrote a speech like this before and i’m ready to answer with complete honestly and hopefully clarify some issues.

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