I'm a Woman...Get Me Out of Here!/Confessionals

Day 26
"andante"

- Isaiah's an absolute fool. I cannot BELIEVE he would actually renege on this plan to take Zach out. And for what reason? Because you were paranoid about them splitting votes between you and Isaiah? THEY WERE IN THE MINORITY, YOU IDIOT. Andrew has now gone home 6-5, and I've been exposed to everyone as a total snake. Fucking hell.

That burns my bridges with Hesh, Zach, Sam and Liam, and I've heard from a few sources that I am effectively now their #1 target, perceiving me as the "leader" of the Queens of Josephine. All I can really do at this stage is try to rally Joe and AJ into a coalition, and then convincing the other four to take out the mutual threat in Isaiah. The guy has flipped on virtually everyone left in the game. He's too dangerous to keep around.

I'm fuming. Like, genuinely fuming. What was meant to be the perfect blindside may have just become a death warrant. I've got an idol that I can use, but what happens after that? I don't like the odds of finding a second one. And there's still another idol in the game that we potentially need to worry about. Like Icarus, I've flown too close to the Sun, and it's about to bite me in the ass. Hopefully we can turn this around.

"andante"

- What the heck is even that

"andante"

- So like I had no idea. Don’t get me wrong I messaged Zach before tribal like this is off. Once again I was right, but I was embarrassed to have not acted on it. So thankful for Sam pulling in Isaiah like dude that was huge. Us bringing in AJ early merge save us. I don’t understand how Joey and Andrew left out him out. If you have 4 people why ostracize one... it makes no sense. However we have a new 6 now. Joey and Brian gotta go. I’ve had enough of Joey going for me. He’s a little baby. If he doesn’t get his way he cries and makes a scene. So I’ll be happy to see him go.

"andante"

- Well, the initial fallout has settled. When push comes to shove, it could have been worse. On the other hand, it could have been much, much better.

I'm still frustrated with Isaiah, but I also know that there wasn't any malicious intent on his part. The guy simply got panicked about a potential vote split and jumped at the opportunity to take the majority on Zach's side, which I can't fault him for. Well, I mean, I can. But still. Joe's gone back to his standard pessimistic self, and it's actually really beginning to give me the shits. He apparently got into a massive argument with Zach tonight and he's naturally making allusions to ""betrayal"" in the One World chat. Homie needs to shut the fuck up.

I've done some damage control with Zach, Hesh, Sam and Liam. Of the four, Sam was the easiest to bury the hatchet with; the guy is a straight up chill dude and I think he definitely understands why I planned to do what I did. Liam and Hesh seemed a bit more tepid, although in all fairness Liam was also just emotionally exhausted. I do worry that I've pissed Hesh off a bit too much to really make amends, but all I can do is continue trying.

Shockingly, Zach himself has actually not taken this super hard. We hashed it out for a solid half hour and his reasoning for everything makes sense. My read on AJ being a major threat was incorrect, which I can wear now. We were both honest with one another, and I've told him (as well as the other three) that the door is open if they want to work with me again. That's the truth, too - I'm in no position to really try and lead this next vote.

Zach's told me bluntly that he wants Joe out next, which I'm honestly inclined to agree with at this stage. Joe's negativity is becoming really toxic to the vibe of this season, especially as the rest of us really get along with each other. There's also been accounts from multiple people of him emotionally manipulating Liam's guilt from the Lex and Lexi votes, which I think is completely fucked up. I would have liked to take Joe as a goat for FTC, but after hearing that I'm not interested. Get fucked with that shit, dawg.

We'll see how the tides look tomorrow, but if it's a clean Joe vote then I won't protest. After that, it's game on.

Day 27
"andante"

- Thank god I won immunity. I love Isaac but he’s insane if he thinkms they’re not about to turn on us. I put it at about 50/50 it’ll be Joe or Isaac. Sadly that means I’m gonna convince him to hand me his idol to hold in case it is him. I don’t see this as betrayal, I see this is an insurance policy considering we just broke everyone’s trust.

"andante"

- My game the past few tribals has been absolutely insane. Blindsiding most of the tribe then lying about it, then voting with the minority which led to me scrambling, then falling into the swing vote position blindsiding half the tribe again. After the merge vote and the vote after, most of the tribe hated me. Now, I've got most of the tribe back on my side, which is insane. There's no reason I should be in a good spot rn and I am. in AoV I ran the first half of the premerge, but then all of my allies went back to back the second half. At the merge, I climbed back up to power and got back into control. It was a great feeling, and I'm getting that feeling again. I blindsided Lex and got most of the tribe to hate me, now I'm back in my F4 with Sam Hesh and Zach, Isaac Brian and Chloe still trust me and think I'm with them, and I'm good with AJ and Liam. Joe is pissed at me, but his game is coming to an end soon anyway. I love him, but he's too emotional, and I can't do anything to keep him in like I did at the merge. Rn, I'm not opposed to a f6 with me/hesh/zach/sam/liam and aj/chloe. I have a new F3 going with Sam and Hesh, and I honestly think I can beat them in the end. My game has been messy as fuck, and I've angered every single person in the game since we merged, but I truly do think I can win this. The only person I trust 100% rn is Sam, and I'm gonna do everything I can to make sure both of us are sitting in the end together.

"andante"

- Men are so trash I’m sick of talking to them.

Sick of not being listened to by men.

Men are the worst.

"andante"

- I’m a woman...GET ME OUT OF HERE

"andante"

- Predictably I flopped the challenge - what, you expected differently? Come on. We're an hour out from finding out who's going home tonight and right now it seems like it'll be a 7-2-1 vote for Joe. I've heard from AJ that Hesh is paranoid and insists that two votes are thrown on either myself or Chloe as a contingency, which honestly isn't that surprising. It's likely those votes will be for Chloe.

Speaking of, Chloe's really mad with Brian and me. She feels like we've left her out of this plan as well as last week's, and isn't particularly keen on cutting Joe (a loyal number) over Isaiah, who's flip-floppy. I kind of see her point, but at this stage it needs to be Joe. The only way I can avoid being next is by rebuilding some semblance of comfort back with Zach and his crew, and they're all set on Joe. Besides, everyone's pretty much done with Joe's attitude and negativity, including myself; the primary reason most of us want him out is because we find the way he's treating the Liam situation really uncomfortable. Keeping him in this round as "a number" would poison the jury chances of anyone who tried it.

Brian's also a little paranoid. I don't think he's twigged onto the fact that Joe is a moral vote more than anything for most of us, and has fairly large concerns that this is all a ploy to blindside me. As a contingency, I've passed on my idol to him in the case that he's right. I don't think playing my idol this round is the right move. Again, the idea of Zach and the others lying about voting Joe out for morality's sake doesn't feel in character for any of them. It'd be a little gross if they did.

Hopefully I'll still be in Vesuvius tomorrow.

"andante"

- One more thing I forgot - Joe's current plan is a 5-4-1 vote with myself, AJ, Brian, Chloe and him voting Isaiah out. To do that, he's giving Isaiah a false name. Not bloody likely, old Joey.