Firina and Gilad/Confessionals

Day 7
"tharros"

- I’ve been hiding it from my tribe that Benj and I are actually good friends. I really don’t like pregame friendships but he was definitely going to be a tight ally if we ever reunited..good on Zama for taking him out because he’s a smart player.

"tharros"

- OK THIS IS RANT TIME

HOW TF ARE WE NOT ALLOWED TO HIDE FAKE IDOLS THIS IS BLASPHEMY. WHERE'S ALL THE FUN GONNA BE NOW HUH. NOW I CAN'T HIDE A FAKE IDOL AT A GUESS FOR JAKE WOMACK. DO YOU KNOW HOW MUCH THIS HURTS MY SOUL. IM DEAD INSIDE. THIS IS HIMALAYAS ALL OVER AGAIN WHERE THE HOSTS WOULDN'T LET ME PLAY FAKE IDOLS ON EVERYONE THE TRIBAL I WAS GONNA GO HOME. I'M NOT GOING THROUGH THAT STUFF AGAIN NUH UH.

THIS IS THE REVOLUTION FOR FAKE IDOLS. FREE THE FAKE IDOLS! THIS LITERALLY RUINED MY PLAN WHERE I WAS GONNA PLACE A BUNCH OF FAKE IDOLS AT EVERY SINGLE LOCATION POSSIBLE GIVEN THE FIRST CLUE. AND NO I'M NOT KIDDING I WAS ACTUALLY GONNA DO THAT. BAH HUMBUG THIS IS THE MOST SINFUL OF RULES AND I WILL DEMAND FOR IT TO CHANGE.

Day 8
"tharros"

- Nadine just told me about the twist! From what I understand, each tribal will be attended by a member of the opposite tribe, and that tribe member grants someone in the losing tribe a clue to the idol. On top of that, the member from the winning tribe has the option to mutiny :o

I love this twist! It’s creative and I think I can really use it. I want to win this chall and save rob, but if we lose then a member of Zama comes, I charm their socks off and make a friend/get closer to finding the idol. If we win, Rob stays and I possibly go to Zama and use that as a chance to create bonds with the other tribe. I’ve been looking for a way to safe guard against getting swap fucked (because I know that’s the only way that I’d go home before the merge) and this is it :)

"tharros"

- I have this GRAVE feeling that we might lose this challenge. Zama's members spread throughout timezones and owned us in the first immunity challenge. But I'm not losing faith yet, maybe we can pull off a miracle. Lives are on the life here.

"zama"

- Does anyone even read these?

"tharros"

- I was actually a bit upset that we lost the reward because I'd have won that one, but begin asleep makes me liable to miss a lot of things!

I'm hoping we can win this immunity, because, I don't appreciate the other tribe for voting out Benj after I had personally bonded with him. Plus it would prevent them from getting too stacked, especially since they had won the last reward, and I had already spilled the beans about Zama tribe in the tribe chat so having them observe us is a no-no.

I strongly believe Zama tribe thinks for themselves, because Fariha and Carson were supposed to stick with Benj but they voted him out. It might be a two-factions game, but the observer twist lessens that scenario and we'll see if there will be swaps. I sort of regret not doing much at the last tribal, because I could have saved Benj, but I couldn't.

I've been talking about game stuff more with Will, and I believe I'm at the point where I can trust him to go observe the other tribe and hopefully he makes the right choices to keep us safe, during a swap scenario. He has a good head on his shoulders, but it also means he would also think for himself. Yet he calls me his queen, and personally I think that's kind of cute. I've also been talking with other people in the tribe. Rob is quite inactive and might get out next.

"tharros"

- Well it looks like I’m going to be observing Zama’s Tribal. Once we started pulling ahead in the challenge I pushed to be the one to go. I really need to be cautious about how aggressive I come off.

The goal is to build connections, possibly give someone the idol clue, and make sure I’m covered when the swap comes.

"zama"

- benj left but i couldnt do anything sigh whew so... i got chosen/volunteered for the reward and it turned out to be a puzzle which.. YES lvoe puzzles and i managed to win the reward for us! furthering my usefulness to the tribe and that stuff (idol clues rock too)

i sent danielle + jerry my idol doc to get them to trust me more because i need people who trust me after i lost benj. everyone BUT gilad has said something about how they trust me a lot etc so thats what makes me lean towards going him because...

we lost immunity. pretty badly because it was a live challenge and with time zones + our lives it was hard. so unfortunately we're going to tribal again ugh

but fortunately, will decided to give me an idol clue (i love will hes awesome hes also from california!!!!! woo) and wanted me to share it with Danielle so i did and me and Danielle are most likely gonna tell Jerry bout it tomorrow so we can form a closer bond.

ooh also targets of everyone

jack - fariha? jason - gilad

thats all i know so far and everyone else is the "majority" stuff which : ) is what i am but its also ugly bc i dont like people playing how i play because i suck at the game.

idk what im talking about anymore. but i have a gut feeling i might be blindsided etc or something... idk. hopefully i wont.

yeah bye idk

Day 9
"tharros"

- Bitch

"tharros"

- It’s about 4 hours since I’ve been at Zama, things have moved quick and I’m feeling good about it.

Danielle was the first to message me, which is good because she’s the best player in this season not named Will, and I think there’s a 99% chance she’s in a majority alliance rn. I kiss her ass and do my best to make her feel comfortable with me.

I hit up Jason, Jack, Jerry and Carson as well and that’s gone alright, but I’m not going to push for a bunch of info or be aggressive because it’s so early and none of these people should trust me yet.

I decided to give the clue to Carson and Danielle both. Why? Because Danielle is queen bee right now and I need to be on her good side, and Carson is social enough to not get voted out early, but passive enough to be a reliable vote once we reunite. We built a ton of trust and I really feel good about it. Danielle could blow it up but she’s not aggressive and I think she’ll look at me as someone to hide behind in the merge.

I’ve got a whole day here and the party has just started so let’s see what else happens

"zama"

- Completely unsurprised we're going to tribal because NOBODY -- not even me, tried that challenge. We were all busy, and it happens. Whatever. I'm pretty sure I'll be safe this time and no votes should be thrown my way, but I'm never feeling safe at this point. I'm having a blast getting to know Will though, I feel like I can definitely make some in-roads with the other tribe so worst case scenario we're outnumbered at a swap/merge, and I can integrate with them to further my game

"tharros"

- I love Zama Jack. We get along really well :) still don’t trust him but we’re bonding af right now.

Danielle told me that Firina and Gilad are less active because of time zone issues, and that Jason is paranoid. I think I can assume that one of those three are going home and that Danielle, Jerry, Jack, and Carson have a majority. Good stuff.