I Will Be the First 703 Two Time Winner/Confessionals

Day 34
"ralfiki"

- So, linus told me how before deadline, Rob told him that Grace gets the majority of votes and that asked him to play an idol for her if he wants her to stay. I am so done with Rob, he really ruined my game this season and it is because of him Grace or Linus will win. He was feeling bad for Grace... are you fucking kidding me? If you feel bad for voting someone out, dont play Survivor. Funny how he doesnt feel bad for himself for losing against Grace. Rob is the weakest player I have ever played with because Grace plays him how she pleases. I know I am not winning, I am the underdog here, but I feel good knowing I wanted to do the right moves in this game, but I played with stupid players.

"ralfiki"

- "If this vote went to plan, Zach would not have left- it would have been Grace. I personally felt horrible about Grace leaving because she had given me a lot of information in this game, but she was a huge strategic threat in the game. I also wanted the chance for Linus to use the idol on me in the final 5 as opposed to her. I thought that if he were to have won immunity and everyone else just voted out Grace, he would have been more likely to give me the idol. At this time, Zach approached myself and Mihai about a final 3 because we were the least threatening players and that we needed one another to get to the end. This was not a bad option for me because it secured a footing with now all players in the game, but I did not agree with the sentiment that I was one of the least likely to win. Alas, I went along with it and since Linus won immunity, the target became Grace. I wanted Zach to target Grace more than Augusto because I knew Gus had the idol that I could have benefited from and Grace was closer to Linus than I was with Linus. Augusto and Mihai shared a similar mindset that Grace needed to go. Despite a weak attempt to save Grace by saying we need her in challenges to defeat Linus, the target still remained on her. As I said, this was not an issue to me because even though I was losing an ally, I was still maintaining a position where those moving forward had like interest to mine. Also by proposing an argument for why Grace were to stay, it would render me favor if Grace were to stay by a miracle and I never officially agreed to Augusto or Mihai that I would vote Grace. Well a miracle happened for Grace and a disaster happened for Zach and Linus. I told Zach that he could not tell Linus about this vote. I knew how close the two were, so without revealing too much information, I shared what Linus might do. I told him that Linus might play an idol on Grace because he needed another threat to overshadow him in this game and to show that Grace needed Linus, lessening the game that she played. Ultimately, Zach tells me he starts talking to Linus about the vote. Bonehead mistake. But this is when I started having doubts with Linus. If Zach were to discuss this vote with Linus, then it is very likely he had the votes to eliminate Grace. Linus still was telling me the decoy split on Zach and Mihai was still on, but I knew that he was knowledgeable about the plan. If this was not enough, Linus tries to heroically tell Grace that she needs to go because she is a threat. Grace was able to convince Linus to play the idol on her, making a total 180 on Linus' judgement. This is also when I found out that Linus had the merge idol. My close relationship with Grace, despite being knowledgeable she was going home, helped me in this situation because I gained pivotal information for the final 5 which will dictate how I maneuver. I briefly hopped on call with Linus to tell him that the votes were there to eliminate Grace and reaffirm that he needed to use the idol on her. I knew that he planned on it anyway, but this showed that I was loyal to the 3 because I knew that Linus and Grace would be in the final 5 now and I needed them to trust me. So we are talking and Linus does not want Zach to go home. Despite Zach making a final 3 without him and saying that his biggest regret was not sending Linus home at 8, somehow Linus still trusts Zach. This raised red flags for me due to the ability for Linus to play the merge idol on Zach at 5 or to choose Zach over me. Linus said him and Grace were voting Augusto. I even suggested voting Mihai (the only other option) to save Gus, but that did not get any traction- Gus was the target. This is about 15 minutes before the deadline, so I messaged Gus (maybe multiple times with a few phone calls) telling him to play his idol, still vote Grace, and I would explain later. I did not have time to explain to Gus how I was saving his ass, I just needed to do it. He later told me that he had it playing conditionally anyway, but I made sure that he played it that round. So if Zach Mihai and Augusto are voting Grace, Grace Linus and supposedly I are voting August, who goes home? If this became a null vote, it would be between myself, Mihai, and Zach. At this time, I had a stronger connection to Mihai than Zach, and Mihai trusted me the most out of anyone left in the game. And obviously I did not want to go, so I wanted to take action into my own hands. I told Grace and Linus I felt horrible about voting Augusto, so I just wanted to throw a vote. I said I would deal with the ramifications from Zach, I just promised Augusto I was not voting him this round. In reality, I wanted to separate Zach and Linus, keep myself safe, and have the final 5 be people that highly trust me. And as I said, this was going to be a null vote. I wanted to control my destiny. Also I wanted to assume a move with this idol play. The purpose of an idol play is to save an individual that will better your fans and eliminate almost who is less beneficial- and i believe i achieved that. So moving forward, i still think I am positioned well with Grace, Augusto and Mihai all trusting me and Linus feeling like he needs to work with me. So we shall see, hopefully I can make final 4 and ultimately final Also now that I am looking at the days, a Final 2 is looking very likely... We will need to figure that one out when the time comes. "

Day 35
"ralfiki"

- "So this Final 5 was exactly what I wanted since the Final 8 when the Nucleus was formed. I knew that Grace and Linus would trust me, and I was able to keep in the 2 original pinks, Mihai and Augusto. I am able to play both angles in this situation. Now, I know that Linus has the idol, it comes down to the immunity challenge. The Pinks know that Linus has the idol too, or at least I let them believe there is a very strong chance, so if Linus does not win, they will most likely still target Grace. I am not sure what I want to do, but it does come down to the immunity challenge. This is the first time in the game I feel out of control. With Linus winning immunity and giving the idol to Grace, the only move I could have is to persuade Grace or Linus that Augusto is better to keep than Mihai. My pitch to Grace is not that strong because the reason she wants to keep Mihai over Gus is because Mihai is less of a threat in the end, but he has shown he can win a challenge. I am trying to say that Gus has a fire lit under him that he will win the challenge and he came in second in the previous round, but these two have wanted Gus out for a while now. I tried my best to save him, without exposing my cards and keeping loyalty to Mihai. If I were to over sell that I want Gus to stay, then Linus might tell Mihai that I am not with him. Gus and I are not even able to both vote Mihai to save him because of the dynamics of the tiebreaker situation where Grace and Linus will have majority. So sadly, I must vote Augusto out of this game to salvage a relationship with Linus and Grace."

Day 36
"ralfiki"

- Day 36!! I just found I messed up the challenge by not reading the instructions carefully. I am heartbroken, but in the same time as I said some days ago, anything that happens now for me in this game it is a bonus and I will try to enjoy this game. Also, one of my best friends has her wedding tonight and I actually considered doing the challenge there until you guys told me I messed up and then I realized this is nothing more than a game and it should never come before real life, so thinking of that made me feel a bit better. Realistically, I think Rob will choose Grace over me and the fact that Linus gave Grace two idols means they are close, so I expect to leave next tribal. And that is fine because this game has been such an emotional rollercoaster for me and seeing how no one from the outside was rooting for me when the final 5 post was made and also knowing how I’ve been talked about for many rounds, it just made me wonder if anything I did in this game was even good or worth of anything. Perception is everything for some people because they forget that perception is not reality and I cannot fight that. I mean, what Augusto said when he left meant a lot because at least someone saw that I played a good or at least a decent game, but yeah, this time I really feel it is gonna be the end of the road.

"ralfiki"

- I am back on fighting mode. If this was the real survivor and people would watch my confessionals, I would be the biggest mess, but this is actually how I am in real life too when I put my heart into something. I put my heart into this game and was soooo disappointed for messing the challenge, I really could have get this one and now I have good chance of leaving since Rob already told Linus he wants to vote me. But I will vote Rob, i will vote Grace, I will do anything so I can survive this vote!!!

Day 37
"ralfiki"

- "Last round was completely unnecessary and I almost got fucked but ultimately for the millionth time this game, I get what I want.

Basically Rob somehow convinced Mihai into voting himself out. I told Linus that Rob was doing this and Linus had every right and the power to fuck me over and get Mihai to vote Rob instead of me, but he didn’t.

I don’t know what kind of pull I have on Linus, but me being honest with him almost ruined my game. Fortunately it didn’t and I feel like the fact that it didn’t proves that I was able to get my way through my influences.

I think Rob is very overconfident right now, which he shouldn’t be because he will be getting 3rd place if I have anything to do about it. I’m not afraid of Rob, or Linus, or anyone.

I will be the first two time survivor winner on 703. Grace Diaz-Twine"

"ralfiki"

- "This round was crazy. So obviously I did want Linus to lose the challenge because Mihai and Grace will both take me. I was telling him that the jury will not respect the game that he played if he has shown he is just dependent on immunity wins. That is a 100% true feeling. The last jurors think that Linus did nothing other than win challenges, and I think that is clear. However, he did not trust me enough to throw it, and sadly I lost the challenge. I did think that this was a challenge I could have won, so I did not even want Linus to throw it. I was genuinely telling him what I thought the jury would think of him. I thought I had it in me to win that challenge, but sadly I was a minute late on one post at like 3 am. I think at this point of the game is where I make my first major blunder. I was talking to Linus under the presumption that Mihai had already left the game. I wanted to establish that it might not had been in the best interest for me to take out Mihai, but I trust him and Grace. I also wanted to give myself another pathway to the final 2, so I started talking about how it would be a great battle between us, where if he took Grace then she would win. The reason this was a blunder is because I did this under the presumption that Mihai was already gone. This made Linus backtrack to Mihai because he believed that his best bet in this game would be against him. However, Linus severely underestimated my social connections with Mihai and Grace. I think, at this time, both of them trusted me more than him. Mihai and I have been close since the start of the game, and I always made him believe he was my #1. Linus and Grace were less close because he informed her that it was in his best interest to vote her out at 6, so that made her wary of him every since. Anyway, Linus approaches Mihai saying to force a tie, he must vote Rob with Linus. This does make sense because Mihai v. myself in a challenge would be close, and Linus wanted to take Mihai as a goat. Mihai and Grace would also never take one another. So this would be the best move for Linus, but no one wanted to do what was best for Linus. Mihai then approached me about making a 2-1-1 vote where him and I would both vote Grace. I considered this, but then realized this would leave me in a final 3 with Linus and Mihai. I presumed that Linus would probably win the FIC and take Mihai, so this is an avenue I did not want to pursue. I think that I convinced Linus enough today that Grace would be a bigger threat than I would be in the end, so I am going to take a gamble. I made sure that Grace voted Mihai with myself to eliminate the person that has the highest chance of being in one of the F2 seats. Now, I am in the final 3 with Linus and Grace. I am hopeful that both will take me to the end, but I am going to go all out for this FIC to earn myself that seat. "

Day 38
"ralfiki"

- So this one is definitely going to be a challenge. I voted out Mihai because I knew that if it came down to myself Mihai and Linus in a FIC, Linus would win and take Mihai. I needed to strengthen my odds to get to the end, so I have been making Linus doubt that he could beat Grace in the end, leaving him with the best option of taking me. I need to win this challenge to secure my own fate, but I am with 2 comp beasts and it is looking unlikely. I am still going to give it my all and hope for a miracle!