Board Thread:Survivor 37: Egypt/@comment-24584422-20190130040630

Well hello final 3. Before I get into this I wanna say thanks to the hosts and players. It's been the hardest game I've ever played and so well done and a fun ride for me and it's all down to you all.

I'll say to the final 3, as I've said to the jurors. As people I like all of you, I got along with everyone in the game and built good bonds with everyone and even friendships. (Even those I didn't talk any strategy with- Hi Luke, we love Sansa). So I just want you to keep that in mind for the rest of this, I'm not talking to you guys on the level of the friendship we developed.

I also wanna say I understand y'all are trying to argue your case and outdo each other here, but we as the jury still have feelings and deserve to have our games valued as well and not insulted.

So I left this game, unlike the rest of the jury, feeling good about myself, and about y'all 3. I thought I was gonna be the one to swoop and go "well hey guys, you've been pummeled by this jury let me give you the ~fun~ question." Well y'all really knew how to flip that right on its head with your speeches. I wanna get something out in the clear so you understand where I'm coming from. I genuinely felt my chances of winning this game went down the tubes when Nathan was blindsided- at that point I realised I'd either stick with an alliance that would give me 4th place at best, or backstab that alliance and if I made final 3, get heat. Ultimately, I ended up in both positions, just 4th to a different group. So my goal primarily was character and storyline orientated. Who doesn't love a big revenge story? I sure do, and I loved my own journey even if no one else did.

Hearing your speeches though, bandying around "oh I got Rob into this, I made him do that, I bonded with him and that's how this alliance happened," I wanna be clear, yes I made bonds with ALL three of you, but my decision to align with the three of you was purely as 3 people at the merge I wasn't out to get. Any single one of you at that stage could've been replaced with Rhi and I'd have been fine with it. I did bond with all y'all, but don't try and diminish my own agency and my own decision making ability, or assume to know my thought process. There are a lot of lies and misconceptions in your speeches and I'm not sure if you genuinely believe it, or you don't remember well, or what. But I'm not gonna get into that, I've spoken my piece with the jury about these things, and a lot of people have pointed out their issues.

I guess it's hard to hear things like "oh we went behind Rob's back to get out Sam," or "this person wanted to vote him out at 5 but I changed their mind." etc. etc. I don't care about the finer details of the truth but it's just disappointing to see that, as players, y'all three are hypocrites. You proudly put out there "we gave Rob what the others didn't." Y'all three did EXACTLY what Sam, Dani, and Zach did but at least they own it, and now the dirty goes both ways. There was no reason for y'all to scheme against Sam behind my back, there's was NO question of my loyalty in my mind to y'all. So that's really hurtful.

This makes it hard to think of a question to ask you guys. I wanted to ask a fun question but now I'm unsure. We'll see how I feel.

David- my question to you is, as the person claiming to be "in the know" about everything and like the king of receiving information- did you know before I told y'all after Danielle was voted off (unless I didn't even say then, my memory failing me now) that I had a legit, bonified, codified since day 3 alliance with Zach, Dani, and Sam? Cos you talk about "The Sekhmet 4" with them and Luke so I'm curious. And if so, if you did know, how did you know? I think you've underestimated other people's connections and knowledge, such as the "Tara plays double agent" plan based purely on something JOHN had said.

Andre- my question to you is, do you believe genuinely what you're saying in your speech, or are you trying your best to spin straw into gold to sell your chances at winning? I say this as someone who would've been in that position of having not much to sell to the jury. And if you do believe what you're saying that's fine, but if not, what other approach do you think you could have taken? And I guess I'll also say, you say that "you talked David out of blindsiding me at final 5," why did you talk him out of a move that would've been detrimental to his chances at my jury vote and not yours? Because had he done that, he would've probably seriously jeopardised his chances at my vote because I would've held him entirely responsible. So I guess I wanna know, was that a lack of awareness on your part? Or is it a decision you regret to convince him not to?

Tara- You know you got mad at me for "exposing" your double agent role. And you say in your speech you know I threw you under the bus to cover up myself in a lie. The truth is, they just didn't buy you. And they DID trust me because we had an alliance from day 3. One that I went back on. I realise I kept that information from you guys, but there was a lot you didn't tell me. You never mentioned your final 3 even though it was clear as day to me. So I guess my question is for you, why were you so determined to be the double agent when I was clearly the better choice for the group? And not only that, it wasn't a good decision for your individual game so I'm curious as to your thought process there?

And I guess for the fun questions, I think y'all need a few more. Just to show that I'm not entirely angry and mad.

Firstly, the fun part. My vote on the way out was for a "secret category" so what do you think it was? I'll help out a bit, the category is "the person who ______"

And finally, we had our Real Housewives of Egypt alliance (one of the many alliances I got to name <3), so what would your Real Housewife of Egypt "tagline" be and please explain why.

Best of luck to all three of you, my vote is VERY much up in the air.  