Board Thread:Season 38: Rhineland/@comment-37224968-20190325200503/@comment-35910691-20190326082347

Hi Thomas. I’ll start off by answering your first question in regard to the Final 10 round. Had Anabel approached me and mentioned the plan to blindside you, I would 100% not go along with it. For starters, Anabel and I did not have a close relationship, so her asking me to vote a specific way would be sketch to me. Secondly, I much rather would have played this game with you over Nora/Willow. If I knew the vote count was 5 for you, 3 for Willow and the two of us had not voted for Nora yet, I would have definitely would say we should vote for Willow and attempt to force someone on their side to flip for us or draw rocks if it came down to it. When you look at the two sides of where the votes were, it would not make sense for me to vote you out and stick with them because I enjoyed playing with you, alongside Felix, Anna, and Miles more. And had I known of the plan to get you out and I went along with it, I’m not sure how it would speak for my longevity in the game. Obviously, I could always flip back and vote with the others the following round, but then I become known as a flipper who would flip whichever way the wind blows. Or I could have stuck with that 5 group, and where I didn’t have any form of relationship with 3 of them. So, sticking with you that round would have been the optimal strategy for me.

Finding a song to describe my game was a little tougher than I anticipated. And funny enough, I actually just asked a final 3 to do the same thing and now I know what they went through. Anyway, the song I have chosen to represent my game is: In The End by Linkin Park. The reason I picked this song is a very simple one actually, and the more I listened to the song, the more I felt like it fit perfectly.

“All I know Time is a valuable thing Watch it fly by as the pendulum swings Watch it count down to the end of the day The clock ticks life away”

Time = Playing the Game. Without having an active hand in the strategy and planning, you sit and watch the game move past you and leaves little room for you do anything. The pendulum swinging represents the time spent in the game in which I took little action and wasted the time I had the chances to do so. The clock ticking life away is as simple as time passing by and ticking away chances of a strong showing by myself, and chances of me winning the game.

“It's so unreal Didn't look out below Watch the time go right out the window Trying to hold on, but you didn't even know Wasted it all just to watch you go” I didn’t look at the game at hand and do anything major to change it and favor me in the long run. I allowed myself to get to this point without realizing how crappy I was. Because I took the safe and easy path in the game, I practically watched my game get throw out. I thought I had a chance in the game, but clearly, I was mistaken. I wasted my opportunities in this game.

And last but not least, the chorus:

“I tried so hard And got so far But in the end It doesn't even matter” I did what it took to make FTC, whether it was little things I had done, or the fact I allied with bigger threats in the game and I just got lucky to be remaining. I got so far, but in the end, it doesn’t even matter. Yes, I made it to FTC, but I got here without doing much to reward me for.

And this brings me into your third question: Why do I deserve to lose this game?

Well Thomas, even though you said it was a difficult question,  I unfortunately have a very genuine answer that didn’t take me long to think of. I do not deserve to win this game because what game do, I even have to show for? My social game was complete and utter crap to where I didn’t even have a mediocre relationship, with at least 4 members of the jury. I managed to get this far because I allied with the strongest competitors this season. And because I did so, I was never going to be the target, but for multiple reasons. 1. I was a non-threat to most people in the game. 2. Again, my social game was complete shit so why get rid of someone who wasn’t trying much. 3. I wasn’t playing the game hard like the others. In terms of strategic game, I did attempt to influence votes when talking to the top dogs. Whenever I told them an idea, they seemed to entertain the thought. But in reality, it was like a parent telling their 4-year old kid that a macaroni art drawing they made in school today was the best thing they ever saw and would hang it on the fridge to make the kid feel good. You could call my game here nonexistent if you wanted to. So that is why I deserve to lose this game. Hope that’s good enough of an answer for you.