Board Thread:Survivor 30: Legends/@comment-24207263-20180225232716/@comment-26703314-20180226054539

How do I feel about my chances? Regarding what? Winning? Making it to the end? Enjoying myself? If one why not the others? It is a vague question with many possible answers.

I'm finally home after a week away at an important family event, I missed the chance to vote and play my idol last round, and I've not managed to win any immunities this season thus far. And because of the myopic and self-centered views of the players in this game (players that now are on the jury) I doubt my chances of winning are high. I know I can make it to the end, for exactly that reason, and as for enjoying myself that went out the window a while ago. So my 'chances' in ths game I feel vary depending on what we're talking about.

I think, I COULD win if the jury had an open mind towards me and my game? Like if they realized the many obstacles I encountered, both in and out of game, and maybe had a bit of perspective instead of being myopic and trying to fit my game and the things I had to do in a mold for themselves. It's very hard because I don't MEAN to sound harsh and I don't want to jump the gun and presume the jury has these biases against me, but it's something I feel the need to say. And in this game, if I've felt the need to say something, I said it. It's quite tough, because I've put everything I have into this season, I think all of us have? If what I've done and the things I've accomplished aren't enough that's fair and I can take that and live with it. But I feel as though that's not the case. That some people will not view me or my game favorably. And that's a hard pill to swallow after a long, hard game.

Also @ the jury if y'all plan to shit talk and get up in your bougie feelings regarding the things I say about you, I really could not care less bc the more upset you are the more what I say clearly applies to you. If I have to deal with the outcome of your tantrums either when I'm voted out or as a finalist, I really don't care so keep your feelings to yourselves. or take what I've said and apply some perspective. xoxo gossip girl