Board Thread:Big Brother 7: All-Stars/@comment-27761891-20180827151348/@comment-24114312-20180828012845

I wrote this on a plane lol. Idk why that's important but just wanted u to know I guess?

anyway first jury speech, I was a little worried everyone was gonna wait till the last minute to post theirs or roast me in theirs LMFAO but I guess not so here we go!!! I'm gonna respond to 2 quotes you said and just justify/clear up my thought processes!

'A lot of it seemed fake' [about our strategic conversations] - some of it was (as I believe a lot of convos in orgs are), although most of our strategic conversations weren't fake. I said this throughout the season, I never have a closed mind in orgs - like for example, when I spoke to Alex about keeping him over Conor in the triple, the likelihood of me actually doing that was quite minimal but I never actually ruled it out because I didn't know what benefits Alex was willing to offer (and which of those I could actually believe he would do). Whenever I speak to someone strategically, I always consider whether they'd be loyal to me, the jury's perception of them, how strong they are in competitions etc etc, and from that I make a judgement of how far I want to go with them. But when I make plans with people, most of the time I do genuinely intend to carry them out - when I made the JADC alliance I wanted that to be my final 4, when I made a final 2 with Mackie I did want to follow that through at the time we made it on like week 3 when I thought Conor had betrayed me, etc, although often I get sidetracked and change my plans, but I can't then tell the other player I've changed my mind. I guess I overpromise in certain situations and get carried away in the heat of the moment, I do it in real life too and make loads of plans then have to tell the other people that.. I'm not gonna follow through with it. It's definitely a flaw.

Plus I do conceal certain aspects of my game that wouldn't be appealing to the other player. So for example, when we spoke at final 7 (during the triple) about keeping Alex or Conor, that conversation was almost entirely genuine, but I overhyped how far I wanted to take you because even though I knew you'd win in the end, I wanted you to take me there with you if you won the final HoH. I think that regardless, in some way, a degree of fakeness is necessary in strategic convos - at the final 3 for example, you made me feel safer and warmer towards you by telling me that you'd consider taking me to final 2 despite the fact you weren't going to. AND I SENSED YOU WEREN'T AT FIRST but you seemed so genuinely hurt in how you spoke about the situation so I believed you LMFAOOO, I was like 'wow Brian's rlly gna take Nick over me bc he's upset?? hmm..' LMFAO.

I think a big thing that proves that all our strategy convos weren't fake is that at the final 3, when I was concrete in my decision and was never going to budge on it, I told you honestly that there was no chance I would take you to the final 2. I no longer had an open mind and was immediately forthcoming with that!

'You and Jamie had no loyalty to me' - my speech is, and probably will continue to be, extremely cold and chess-like so I understand why you'd think that. In these games, I always attempt to view the game as separated from personal connections as possible, it's maybe a bit grim of me but I really can cut people I've been friends with for years and have done that in many orgs. If Nick was gonna win at final 2, I'd definitely have cut him if I won the final HoH even though we've known each other since 2013. With that being said, I do have loyalty to people but it's never undying. For our relationship, I did have a degree of loyalty to you, the final 4 were all people I felt loyal to and I even mentioned to Ali when I nommed her over you that I felt loyalty to you so I was stuck between two people I had loyalty to. But I did realise towards the end of the game that you would be unbeatable in a jury situation, which you acknowledged yourself. I definitely had loyalty to you though, if I didn't then I wouldn't have used the DPOV on you and I wouldn't have not nommed you when my options were only you and Ali, and Ali and I had been working together from, I believe, week 2 or around that time.

Ty for the jury speech!!! Sorry if I seem extremely robotic in this response, I do view these games completely removed from personal friendships and it's psychopathic a little bit LOL but I did love getting to know you on a personal level and you're one of the reasons why I enjoyed this game so much, so ya :)))), hopefully we can stay friends afterwards because I know how people often stop talking after orgs and I don't want that to happen