Board Thread:Battle Of The ORGs 2: Mount Yasur/@comment-24709342-20160527021853/@comment-4600940-20160527055030

I deserve to win this game.

If I asked you a question that said when did I ever NOT try and GIVE UP in this game, would you be able to answer me? No. I tried in EVERY round of this game. Not once did I give up to the hype that I was a "paranoid mess" and even if that may have been true, did I get myself to Final Tribal Council? Yes. I made the moves I needed to make and had people do them with me. When I was put in the situation where Perry was blindsided, I adapted and it ended up being a blessing in disguise. I WOKE UP. I realized I had to start playing the people I thought were with me, or I'd be played instead, because clearly they weren't with me.

I orchestrated the important moves in this game. If Domonique's idol was still in play, I'd be in a bad position at that point in time, but I KNEW that I had to do something in order to improve my game. In past games, I always "went with the flow" by going with what everyone was most comfortable with, but if I kept doing that this game, I would not be here right now. I wanted to redeem myself and make a good reputation for myself by playing this game to the best of my ability and I believe I did.

In Final 5, Grace tried to tell me she would "keep me safe" but I knew I would not be able to rely on her because she had to rely on immunities to keep herself safe, and if I had to rely on a person who couldn't rely on social and strategic game to keep themselves safe and instead physical game which she exercised to the best of ability, I'd obviously think twice. I talked to Liam and made him trust me even though I voted for him the round before, and he may say that he knew that the plan was going to be solid, but if he didn't know that Grace and Zach weren't really a final 2, what did he REALLY know then? If he never told Grace that Jamie voted for me and Liam voted for Zach with us, Grace would be telling you guys right now that Jamie voted with us.

I lost all my allies at that point and I STILL adapted to everything that was thrown at me, without Charley, without Jake, without Perry, hell, without you Aren, because I WANT this so badly and I wasn't going let people think of me as a paranoid and messy player. I DELIVERED safety to people. I knew Jamie wouldn't win so I saved her in final 7 by getting Alex out and even though I SHOULD'VE been the target, but they didn't realize that because I made them think I thought of them as one of my closest allies I needed. I did NOT think of Liam as one of my closest allies, but he thought of me as one of them, and I did not expect that all.

I played the best fucking game I could play and I have no regrets at all. I adapted to all hands given to me, and I was still able to control the game. You can say I don't deserve to win this game, that's fine, but trust me when I say this! I know the game I played and that I deserve to win.

Thank you for reading, and really, I appreciate you for giving me this chance to redeem myself. I genuinely, 100% think, that I should win this game. I did everything I could to put myself on the top. This is a game and I PLAYED it.

I love you and hope we get to play a game soon! <3

Oh, and Grace, I have something to say about your answers.

''-Since Alex had tried to play both sides when Jake left, and I felt that Jessy had lost one of her duos, Alex was the next target for me. Granted, Jessy had her own reasonings for targeting Alex, but mine was to hopefully prevent him from trying to take Charley to the end.''

You were not thinking of blindsiding Alex. I had to bring that up to everyone in order for it to happen. You told me that Jamie basically seemed "eh" to you, and I had to convince you to vote Alex out. You said that you were convinced you could beat him in almost any challenge except endurance, so it didn't matter. You told me that if I thought it was the best option, then it was fine with you. He was not the next target for you. Before I said his name, nobody brought him up. I can't let you take credit for my move, because that was ALL me. Grace didn't convince me on this in ANY WAY. Jake told me everything and I knew I wanted him out. I even have receipts on this.

-Granted, that connection didn't last long as Jake told me he wanted to try to flush Dom's idol when Will left.

Again, this was MY idea. I knew that Domonique's idol was going to be a major issue for myself in the future - and I knew I had to stop her from using it in the future, and since I knew I was going to be safe with only 1 vote against me, I decided to be risky and start the split vote plan. I had to convince Jake to do it - he wasn't sure that I could pull it off because you were so adamant towards not going through with it, but I managed to convince you.

I knew Charley was going to be seen as Jessy's goat, and if I went to a final 5 scenario with Charley and Jessy, I would've probably made the end, yes, but been seen Jessy's goat as well, which is exactly what I wasn't in this game.

I feel like your list of moves doesn't add up and all it did for you was realize the most obvious things. I knew Alex lied to me about the idol clues. You did not reconnect with Domonique. She wanted you and Will gone. If you went to final 5 with Charley and I, you wouldn't have made Final 5 unless you won all the immunities at that point. That's good for you girl, and I'm definitely not trying to say you did nothing in this game, but it's what I think your game was MAINLY about.

I just wanted to say that, because letting you slide with that and taking credit for stuff you didn't really do is not something I want to do. I get that the jury may think I didn't do much but trust me, I did.

All the moves I'm saying I did are moves that I DID. I'm sorry if you think I didn't do them. But trust me, I did. I cannot stress it enough.

Once again, thank you for reading.