Board Thread:Survivor 24: Caracol/@comment-30582641-20170529023710/@comment-30582641-20170530002028

Nope, I'm still not done. You all are going to love my brevity at FTC, I'm sure.

If you'll indulge me a little further, I just want to mention the emotional toll this game took on me. Sorry if you're already sick of me whining about how he or she didn't like me, and whining about how I shouldn't have whined, because I know drama is just part of the program for some of you (I joined the BBUK VL today and Jesus Christ). But I'm a real greenie when it comes to conflict and even a little bit of it drained me.

I started this game as the bundle of boundless energy and optimism that I always try to be, and that was the way I rolled for most of the premerge. Then all the heat I caught from Dwayne, it just left a pit in my stomach. Then Forrest and I fought, and Kristen quit, and I had a hard time enjoying myself with so much vitriol in the air. I'm mentioning this because I want to apologize to anyone that found me less pleasant to deal with in the aftermath of Dwayne, Kristen and Zach's back-to-back-to-back departures because I checked out emotionally and had to force myself to try and be friendly until I finally found my groove again. I mostly noticed this change in myself threw the little things, like not tagging messages onto my votes, or not saying goodbye to Thiru or Christine. You all probably noticed it in my dialogue. I couldn't access my sociality, so I really sort of ran a script when I felt the need to make small talk ("Hey!" "How was your day?" "It was fine too. [Awkward transition into gametalk]") I was just burnt out and emotionally exhausted and couldn't help myself. I never lost my determination to compete and win, though, but I'm sorry if anyone felt alienated by me, or felt I was being fake.

To thank you for letting me say my long ass piece, here are some cool stats about Caracol:

-Only males found idols. The idols from the female tribes (Maya and Yajaw) were never found (to the best of my knowledge.

-Every premerge vote was unanimous. After that, every merge vote saw exactly three people receive votes until the F5.

-There were two voting triangles: Christine -> Thiru -> Me -> Christine at F8 and Lori -> Forrest -> Me -> Lori at F6.

-From Marie through Christine, six straight people were voted out with exactly five votes.

-We had four stretches in which five people, one from each starting tribe, were voted out in a row, including overlaps: Isabella-Zach, Kristen-Christine, Zach-Lori, Thiru-Forrest, and Chistine-Luis.

-At the time of Kristen's quit, the nine of us remaining had a total of one vote cast against us all game (Isabella's against Zach).

Ok, I have literally a minute left to submit this so I'll stop here. See you all soon, one way or another.