Letting Him Live His Alliance Fantasy/Confessionals

Day 4
"ouani"

- "Forgot to make a confessional on day 3, but I was riding the high of the challenge win and pretty much chilled out for most of the day. I'm not too confident about doing well on the cryptogram, but it seems like Austin is going to be the first person voted out from the tribe. I am a bit worried about what'll happen after though. I have a good relationship with Zach, Andrea, and Grace but I haven't been approached about an official alliance at all and I'm getting a teeny bit worried. Zach and I have started sharing idol guesses so hopefully one of us gets our hands on that thing soon. But I honestly wouldn't be too mad if we swapped at like, 18.

RIP Brian, I hosted him in Mount Olympus and really liked him, and I think we definitely could've worked together. I am really glad Nathan stayed, though I forgot if he was on Brian's tribe or the other one. "

"moya"

- "Tribal went perfectly. I played super aggressively the first round and I totally believe I am running things. I am on ride or die deals with Drew Lex and Nathan. I am really feeling those 3 especially Drew and Lex mI really trust them. We chat a lot, we make jokes, we exchange idol numbers, I was feeling really safe that tribal even though I knew Devon was voting for me. Linus and I have been having solid chats and we seem to want to work together but I don' t really trust him that much. I am glad he is in that alliance though. We made an alliance of me Lex Drew and Linus, and initially I wanted to have Nathan in there too but I guess the others were not having it so they kiinda avoided it. I am wary of Drew' s and Linus's relationship but I really believe Drew and I are the closest pair sofar in the tribe, and the 2nd closest pair is me and Lex. I feel like I am running things but I also don' t want to go on a power rush it is still suuuper early. I am keeping my tabs there with Loren, I just can' t seem to have a good chat with that guy. We should be on friendly terms though, I am pretty sure he is the next to go should we lose the challenge.

I have been guessing idol numbers like crazy and I am gathering numbers from everyone and I havent found a single working nmber yet. Maybe someone has lied but it is my strategy to not lie about anything that can be easily later be proved wrong. I don' t think anyone has lied to me though. I think that idol will be mine soon and when it does I won' t tell a soul."

"ouani"

- "So earlier today I actually got some really neat information from Andrea. She told me that Grace went to her and shared that she was said to see Brian L from Wanani go home. That is some pretty vulnerable information, especially since there most likely will be a swap at some point, and I could ruin Grace by spreading the rumour that she might be in search of retribution on Wanani, or alternatively if I can figure out who was the second vote for Mihai (unless it was a coward's vote in case of an idol) we could sway them to our side using the Brian L-Grace connection, which is a much more wholesome possibility. But I did take out a nugget of information from this interaction: Grace trusts Andrea more than me in an intimate level, since she shared that with her over me, but Andrea, after I shared with her the tea on Austin, trusts me more than Grace since she is spilling intel on Grace even though it's an ""aw look how sweet Grace is"" kind of way, which was very cute not gonna lie. I feel like Grace and Vivor actually swapped places in my threat ranking, because it appears that Grace trusts both Andrea and Vivor more than me, so those are two dynamic duos that could outcast me down the line, luckily it's not a threesome because I don't think Vivor and Andrea are all that close. If I am going to have to chop anybody from the people I'm close to, it might have to be Grace, despite how much I like her. I swear that keeping track of the dynamics between Andrea, Grace, Vivor and myself feels like some twisty telenovela love square, but it doesn't help that Aro and Zach are some kind of background characters in the tribe and Austin has imploded his game so much that the four of us are sort of letting him live his alliance fantasy until we can blindside him. Fuck that was a tad mean, sorry.

Me and Andrea have gotten pretty close, we bonded over previous ORG frustrations and how certain ORGs are dumpster fires, bitch fests are quality bonding experiences. I feel like we are in really good terms by now, but I am still not gonna take her, or anybody else, for granted, because I did that with Cali and Nathan in Res and look how that ended 👀🔪. I really am enjoying bonding with these people though, much more than in Japan or Res where it all was more awkward and gamebotty. I basically fanboyed to Aro about Masterchef Spain whilst I was watching it. He had NO idea what I was talking about but I feel like we both enjoyed that chat. Additionally, I feel like my chats with Grace, Vivor and Andrea about Austin's fuckery have been very fun, and Austin has lowkey set up for me the alliance I was thinking, the fact that he pretty much excluded Aro and Zach will make it very easy to ensure that I can have my visualised minority of Aro, Zach and Austin be at odds with one another so they don't unite, and still potentially use Aro as a secret number. Talking with Zach is a bit awkward but I think that if we only go to tribal once I can still use him as a number in a swap or merge, same with Austin since we are already ""allied"".

Additionally I figured out the first of three numbers for the idol, and I have devised a pretty clever way to use that momentum, I am guessing a combo with that number in a different place since I got an 'O' for it but if that's still wrong it doesn't matter since next round I'll just guess three entirely new codes, since by a process of elimination I'll know where it goes. By doing this I'll cover more ground quicker and figure out the other numbers faster than the rest of my tribemates since they are likely to keep the numbers they figure out in their combination for future guesses. With my method I am pretty pumped certain I can gain an edge on the idol hunt. I'm also considering trying to trick Austin so he gives me his guesses, but that might be a bit too OTTN and I am NOT risking getting called out by him as he gets booted.

For the challenge I'll be doing the chess puzzle, since I've sort of practiced chess a bit this year, even though my chess partner at uni SUCKED ASS and went MIA on me. I think that most of the ORG population will struggle with the chess puzzle, because let's be real, they don't read books and I doubt their rowdy selves sat through learning chess as children. I will try to win, but I don't care if I place 2nd or 3rd since I can be like ""oh it was actually a different puzzle than I thought it was"" and with these puzzles there isn't much justification. Even though it is an AWFUL thing to say and it might come back to haunt me, I wouldn't mind going to tribal once or twice before the swap or merge, just so that Ouani doesn't look too threatening to the other tribes and they band together. I don't think Vivor, Grace or Andrea are going to be the sort of #bigmovez crowd that'd backstab me premerge, or at least until we enter the jury phase, since I am protecting Andrea and I think that Vivor and Grace benefit of me as a meat shield just as much as I benefit of them. Lastly, Austin, Zach and Aro have all been playing lackluster or messy games that most likely have the tribe more preoccupied with them than with me, since I've kept most of my machinations internalised into confessionals and my little journal, but idk I am paranoid of looking sketchy, but I do try to keep it cool with the players."

"wanani"

- I am still here! Who votes someone out on their birthday? Pory and brian, apparently. Well, brian is gone and now pory is in a bad spot. Even though I got two votes, I feel I am in a good spot. Both tobi and rob warned me that my name has been thrown around. I am also close to Augusto. With these 3 people I talk quite a lot every day and I really feel these types of relations can keep me safe. I do feel a swap is coming soon and my safety will be gone. I am trying to enjoy this game so much more than others I played because somehow I feel it is my last one, so I wanna win, but also do it in a fun way for me.

"wanani"

- Also, I am paired against Grace for the challenge. She is like my idol and fav person in these orgs even though I think we spoke like once. I need to survive enough to play with her ❤️

"ouani"

- "Henlo

Tribal for the other two tribes couldnt have gone better. Devon got unanimous'd, thus removing the biggest thorn in my side of the entire season right off the bat. its such a relief to see him go. Like, dont get me wrong, Devons a great guy, but as a player he is someone who i did not end my season on good terms with, and to be able to not have to worry about that stress AND outlive him is such a good feeling. its 2 of my season goals taken care of right away! (not being first boot, beating devon to be the higher placing hallasaner). This also means that the reoccuring theme of hallasan returnees is gonna come tru for me so its basically just prophecy now. The whole, one hallasan goes early, the other goes deep/wins thing, yknow. Its just a cool feeling. Also, the fact that the pink tribe wasnt unanimous is such a good thing for me - it shows fractions and dissonance and in the case of a swap, thats a great sign for me.

Aro and I are planning on finalizing an official alliance tonight / tomorrow. We havent decided exactly who we want in there, but its some combo of Grace, Alex and Andrea. I think we should make one with Alex and Andrea, and another seperate one with Grace, just in case something happens where we have to go against one another, the Grace/Aro/I group can take over. Obv i dont think these tribes will remain unswapped for that long, but i digress. The obv first target is Austin - Alex and Aro have both mentioned it like 5 times, so I think I'm sittin just pretty rn.

Not much else has happened since yesterday so theres not a TON to write about but I am feeling good and confident in my game now, much more than before and I am READY to go.

Also, I think were coming in 2nd in this chall. But I'm actually kinda itching to go to tc. Austin isnt good for my game so removing him early actually sounds like a wonderful idea, but im not gonna throw. Im not THAT confident yet. "

"ouani"

- "The wait for the tie breaker results are stressful. Meanwhile thankfully me and Zach are closing in on the idol, hopefully no one's gotten to it yet. I am planning to lie about it to Zach if I do get to it first though. There's probably gonna be a ""the chest is empty message"" if someone's already taken it so I'll just tell him that someone already has it, and he'll probs get that message if he double checks.

Also Zach is planning on creating a 5 person alliance with us, Grace, Alex, and Andrea. But he's also gonna treat me as the person at the bottom of the alliance, just so no one suspects we're close. Austin is probably dead if we go to tribal, but honestly I'd rather we not go for a few more days. "

"wanani"

- Last round was a series of firsts; first tribal, a first boot, and a first blindside that hopefully leads me to first place! In all seriousness though, I’m kinda shocked it worked out so smoothly? It was a clean 5-2 with Rob and Tobi purposefully leaving Pory out of the vote which should work in my favor? I do feel bad that Pory probably thinks everyone hates him and wants him gone ASAP, but it advances my game so idk…. That being said, I’m glad Mihai stayed and I’m even more happy I didn’t go from first place to first boot because I would’ve cried ghnfjdms,

"wanani"

- Let’s just say Pory is doing some damage control because he just approached me for an alliance with himself, myself, and Tobi. I… am not too mad at it because a little extra protection never hurt anybody! Tobi being included in yet another alliance does raise my eyebrows a bit since it seems he has like the best social game on the tribe, but this also gives me a reason to be all the more closer to the legend <3 I did ask Tobi if we should let Dani know (secretly, I don’t want to but if Tobi is closer to Dani, don’t wanna seem like a bad guy) and he said he doesn’t really know but leans towards no. I proposed that we should wait until results like if we lose and think Pory is going/would leak the alliance to save himself, we should tell Dani to save face and if not, we have Pory in our corner. This all stemmed from the fact that Pory wanted to potentially add a 4th member but I tried to shoot that down quickly by saying our first dicussion as an alliance should be whether or not we needed another member yhtjfdks !! All in all, I do feel somewhat secure on my tribe? However, I just need to make sure others don’t see that or I got a ticket home…

"wanani"

- I suck at all challenges including puzzles, love that for me!! However, others feel confident in their section so I hope that equals a win because if I’m the puzzle piece that caused our tribe a loss… not a cute look fam (‘:

=Day 5== "moya"

- I am very pissed that we lost the challenge as neither have the time or inclination to vote out someone from this tribe which is almost guaranteed to be someone trustworthy. I am also incredibly pissed at Loren for dropping the ball BIG TIME on this challenge and even the previous one. The only thing that is not making me vote him out right this second is that I’m convinced that I’il have his unwavering loyalty if he stays. The other easy vote out option is Konstantinos who I do trust and do think trust me, he has also performed really well in challenges so that’s another reason to keep him. Now, I’d prefer Drew going, but honestly he’s just too close right now to Nathan and Linus to consider voting him out when there’s a Loren and Konsta who don’t talk to them. Personally, I think I’m pretty safe as of now.

"moya"

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"moya"

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"wanani"

- "OKAY. SO. This game is going extremely smoothly for me right now. I could not be happier with my place in the tribe, as well as the people that have Been voted out! Brian had no loyalties to me, and Rob informed me that Brian x Pory added Rob/Tobi into an alliance without really even asking them if they were okay with it. They both felt bad and ran and told me about it, which just further solidifies my bonds with both of them i think! I feel the most trust/the best vibe with the two of them so far and i really want to solidify somethint with them like a f3 or something!!

Augusto i really like, dont get me wrong, i just... dont feel the same vibe i feel with rob and tobi!!

Mihai is nice an i think i can trust him for now but i wouldnt be mad if he left tbh

Porys the only wildcard now for me. I dont think he rly has someone in particular on the tribe that hes rly WITH in the game and i dont know if i want him in my corner or not.

Winning this immunity challenge just made me feel even better on my tribe! I’m excited to keep goin in the game and tbh im excitedto keep talking to everyone bc i rly like talking to rob and tobi nsngkwkgkwngn they make me feel happy and i wanna be their friends awh "

"moya"

- "So here’s what you missed on Nathan’s Totally Fab Moya Life. I ABSOLUTELY loathe losing, I hate it, hate it, HATE. IT. But here we are again at tribal council. Luckily for me though I managed to land myself in a cute 5 person alliance last round of myself, Drew, Linus, Lex, and Loren. Now while that would leave me safe and cozy for this vote, that unfortunately leaves Konstantinos out in the cold.

And to be quite honest, I don’t really know how I feel about just tossing Konstantinos out of the game right now. Like, on the one hand, you have the obvious factor of me being in an alliance that excludes Kostas and I don’t think it’s a particularly good move to fuck that up so early - so there’s that. But on the other hand, Kostas seems like such a genuine person and I feel like the dude has put some real trust in me; however, I also feel like Loren (who Kostas would prefer to boot) has also put quite a bit of trust in me. We’ve been on call with each other a couple of times now and I do feel that we’ve bonded. So this leads me to ultimately think that Konstantinos is the right choice for me tonight - and then I should basically hope for a tribe swap tomorrow.

There’s also a more pressing issue that I started feeling today, in that something feels off. Maybe it’s the paranoia, or maybe it’s my spidey senses tingling but I’m scared that I’m lulling myself into a sense of complacency by taking the easy route with this vote. I would like to believe that I’m just tripping. But last time I believed that, my alliance shanked me. GAH! In conclusion...fuck tribal. "

"ouani"

- "uuuuhhh im p sure were swapping in 6 hours but ive been grinding to try and get an actual official alliance going. Aro is still worried about Andrea and Alex's connection, and I dont blame him, but basically i talked with andrea yesterday and mentioned wanting to form an alliance with her. She was rly down and suggested we add Joan, which like, okay whatever thats fine. I decided to reccomend Grace and keep it a four person group, but Aro is still my #1 ally here and Im gonna be updating him on everything, as im sure Andrea will do the same for Alex. In the event we dont swap, however, Aro and I really need that idol. I'm pretty sure I could get Grace on my side, but once Austin is gone, I do think that Andrea, Joan and Alex are gonna target Aro, which I cant have. At worst its a 3-3 and I prob wanna kill Alex there before he can make it too far (dude is an incredible player physically and quite good socially), but I'm hoping it doesnt have to come to that. I honestly would be cool with us 6 being the final 6, but pagongings are boring and also highly unlikely, yknow? Anyway yeah being on the dominant tribe kinda sucks for confessional content and visibility but it DOES give me more time to turn my brain off and smoke weed so uuuhhhh whos complaining lmao.

Til' next time <3"

"wanani"

- "So, things seem to be... a bit better. That was the first time I was completely blindsided in quite a while. Everyone's goin around tellin me ""oh no it was against Brian nothing to do with you"" but here I am being the only other jackass to vote Mihai. Even Tobi didn't tell me. People thought Brian and I were a duo, and like, ??? Who tf would think that! How! Someone said like ""oh you pushed hard for Mihai"" BECAUSE HE WAS INACTIVE! Like, good fucking lord I was fine with him going I only worked with him because he wanted to work with me! AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA like what the fuck? I would have considered booting him if we lost again! But nope, here we are!

So, like I have to fucking do now, I had to crawl my way out of Hell and into some sort of stable ground. I think I've like kissed enough ass to get back in people's good graces (WHICH I SHOULD NEVER HAVE HAD TO DO IN THE FIRST PLACE) and I *think*, *think*, I have made it so that I can stay over Mihai. I am trying to set something up with me Tobi and Augusto, and I am going to pray that works.

I have no clue if I can trust Rob. like, 0K clue if I can trust him. He just wantonly backstabbed me and idk it's awkward between us but I got Tobi Dani and Augusto HOPEFULLY.

Meanwhile, I've made the Ultra Idol Sheet 5000. Which like, is just a grid of where I haven't guessed for the idol and my odds for finding a number. The UIS5000's only purpuse it has that suits me is just keeping track, but I like data and numbers so I added the % in lol.

Anyways, the challenge. I honestly got no fucking clue how I got SECOND in that. Like, tf? I got really good RNG and someone got 14 SECONDS above me. What the actual shitting fuck is that horsehockey? Whatever, we still won, still got an idol clue, so it's whatever. I just need to not publically freak out and I'm fine. Just keep the ranting about how I hate everyone to these and it should be good (note: I don't hate everyone, they just made a bad decision). Would I flip at a swap? No, but like, I'd work with KING SMOCKE in a heartbeat. So glad he got immunity :heart_eyes:"

"ouani"

- Super stoked that we don’t have to go to tribal again! I know going into this challenge, I may not do as well as others. I was wanted to do sliders, but Alex V beat me to it because he seems to be very good at it. So i let him, and got stuck with Logic, which is not as a bad as i thought but considering that others probably done challenges like these before i’m not expecting anything more going into this. So i ended up with 12 minutes, which ain’t so bad for my first time, guess i’ll have to me so much quicker since i sucked in time management. Then we were up into an tie breaker challenge which Alex V saves the day with his Black and White number skills that was played on (to my knowledge) Sequester, and i figured he would win this for us. I’m certainly glad that i’m allows myself with him, being him as my shield and all. lol But let it be know that i ain’t like Wardog who would take out his biggest shield just for the sake of wanting to make moves to build a resume. It’s all in a matter of time, and maneuver to keep myself out of everyone’s radar. Which is my goal right now once i formed myself in the alliance, which i build up with Grace, who i’m still a bit iffy with, Joan because of him & i reconnect but still can be unpredictable and a trouble for me down the road, and of course Alex V who i’m hope to be perceived as the leader so that people will go after him at some point. Now these guys are like big players compare to the other three like Andrea, Aro, and Zach who are still new to me, but will try to build a connection with if things go hay wire for me to jump ship if necessary. Right now i just want to have a better position for myself further in the game, and these guys who i’m with could take me there. So i’ll there a little coat tail rider who will vote along with group, until the moment is right to cut loose, and is long as it’s not me, i’m good.

"ouani"

- "It is Day 6 I still haven’t made an official confessional because this tribe is boring. Like beyond boring. I promise I’m trying y’all it’s just... so hard to make

Basically at this point my number one ally is Alex Vivor which is fucking scary. I know he isn’t the most liked person but I honestly have never had a problem with him but I know there’s a possibility in a swap scenario that he could just be a target for his reputation but I feel like I need him right now. We’re both past winners and I’m afraid that title might eventually bite me in the ass.

Another person I really like is Zach and today he asked if I wanted to work with him so like that’s great!! Besides that I don’t really have much to say except that Alex told me the middle number for the idol is 32.

Also Austin tried to ask me for an alliance with Joan and Alex days ago and never made it so yikes on his part

Hopefully some more stuff happens bc I’m honestly bored

~Grace "

"wanani"

- GET ON THE WINNING TRIBE HOE!! For real though, I am more than happy Wanani won immunity like…. How did we dominate that? I had no confidence (it’s something I’m working on, I swear) going into this but we slayed that! I was kinda hoping Ouani lost just so that the numbers on all the tribes are even because a sis fears a swap at final 18 and a swapfuck would make me super sad… especially since the Byzantium swap was full of that. Moya being there will be interesting because it’ll make their tribe all the more tight (or not, we’ll see) so gl noms !!

"wanani"

- With winning immunity came reward in the form of an idol clue… and when I tell y’all that my MISSION thus far has been tracking down that idol, I am not kidding!! Like I have a spreadsheet full of guesses (everyone except Pory has told me where they’ve searched ghfdj) and I’ve found one number and shared it with Rob who then gave me a number… I gotta find this thing, I really do. While I do tend to go home with idols in my pocket, having the security that there’s one in my back pocket would be awesome since you never really know with a crackedt cast. Anyway, I hope I can get it xoxo

"ouani"

- "With a second victory in a row, I feel like things are slowing down a bit, and I don't like it. There is so much small talk I can entertain until I don't want to talk with somebody unless things get juicy, and I am hitting that spot with pretty much all my tribemates, starting with Austin, then Aro, then Zach, then Andrea, then Grace, then Vivor. It worries me that just like I am not starting conversations as often others are not with me either, or at least not as often. It's usually a sign that if they aren't talking with me they are talking with somebody else, which isn't great, but I do feel that Andrea, Grace and Vivor all want to ally me, and the feeling is mutual. I think it was Andrea who pretty much told to me that ""Austin did all the work for us putting together an alliance of us two, Grace and Vivor"" so that was pretty ballsy of her and made me a rather happy fella.

That being said, our tribe's performance last immunity was pretty bad, I was lucky, at risk of sounding like the pompous ass that I am, that nobody in the ORG rea tds good literature or plays chess. But I am worried that the fact that only me and Vivor did good is luring eyes my way, but then again Vivor kicked ass on his puzzle AND the tiebreaker AND the first immunity so I feel like he is a way better target for me, chess is such a niche talent anyways. Part of me wants to go to tribal because I know that a vote is the only way that I am going to be able to forge solid game bonds with the people I want to work with, and also because I really do want to get Austin out because his poor gameplay could screw me over in a swap, also tribes that retain all their members are always very flashy targets in three tribe seasons, and seeing how in this seasons connections are pretty lowkey, tribal lines might matter come merge as one of few straws to grasp.

I am nervous about the thought of growing complacent, so I am going to do the rounds just to nudge things so that they stay on the track I had previous set up. Austin has gone silent once again, so he might be digging his own grave further after that messy alliance he set up, so I am going to make sure that nobody else is talking to him if I am, and if I have to, talk to him as much as pretty much everything he spews feels like amateur hour that reminds me why he was considered together with myself one of the Japan goats. Honestly, I'd grade him a C+ for initiative and an F for execution. But yeah, I do want to step out of the current limbo of pleasantries, to start scheming with others about stuff beyond Austin-Is-Not-The-Sharpest-Tool-Now-Is-He, but I am scared that I might come across as if I am overplaying, so I just need to nuance it, maybe even introduce Aro and Zach to the Austin shenanigans, but that might be too risky. I just need to do something before growing complacent or bored."

"wanani"

- I… am awful, I really am! So basically, I had my guess at 6 AM and found the last number needed to crack the code for the idol. I told Rob I searched but hadn’t received an answer so I was gonna sleep… which I didn’t really do, I just didn’t want him to find the idol so I waited for his time to search to pass and THEN I told him my revelation. Idk, I feel bad because I don’t like being selfish but I’m trying to secure the bag here and the bag needs a cute idol in it. I am telling him that the idol would be ours even if I’m not sure it will be, but I just want him to put full trust in me… however, my guessing time is after tribal so if we have a tribe swap, I’m gonna cry hgfjmds,	\