Big Brother 10/Week 7

"yaknad"

- WE ARE BEING DUMB WHEN WILL SAM GO HOME IJUST KNOW ITS NOT SMART KEEPING THAT MAN HES GOOD AT COMPS AND HE ISNT LOYAL LIKE THE MEN WANT TO KEEP HIM TOO SHOULDNT THAT BE A BAD SIGN. but sharky is the worstTM so w/e idk. i want to win hoh next round but i also dont. also im so sketched cuz mvp is def one of my allies but they wont say. scary :s

"yaknad"

- wooo i did it baby, we lived! single digits YEEHAWWWW!! and with my boy Q as well! im really glad sharky had the final words that he gave, cuz that should hopefully wake the whole house up and get people to want to target that strong trio, w/o having to worry about getting blood on my hands since i still have an ally in szymon, although im starting to think he doesnt have my best interests in mind so ima have to work on that. or at least have him be ok with getting rid of natalia, if hes hesitant tho then im calling that shit off LMAO cuz i aint about to just let them 3 cruise thru this game by separating my alliance. regardless, im stoked to still have made it thruuuu. it sucks tho, cuz i previously said i wanted to work hard for this hoh to shake shit up, however i forgot im going to a lake house this weekend where ill have virtually no wifi so thats fuckin unfortunate, hoh seems real slim to me but with everythings thats gone down and is going down, i should be in a smooth spot and people outta be taking shots at other people in this house whilst completely whiffing on me, man we really out here sitting in the golden spot of champions

"yaknad"

- HAHA I DID IT BABY!! I told ya i was gonna go hard for this hoh and I GOT IT WOOO! man I can't wait to be targeted for being this seasons comp beast but idgaf i won probs the most important hoh this season and i cannot WAIT to cause some fucking chaos and take down some people who think they in control of this shit!

"yaknad"

- I'm pissed. I'm really pissed. I was in the lead for HOH and upon reading the results, I would've won had I JUST been able to finish the comp. But no, I waste all my time counting up and back down only to mess up at friggin 69 and having like 3 minutes left, I had to resort to counting up 3 in the short space of time I had. This fucking sucks...

It sucks because I really wanted to show others and myself that I could win HOH. I haven't won a competition since Week 1 and it sucks seeing other people win things and me being left behind. Add in the fact that most likely Q/Bradley are safe because no way in HELL does Sam put them up means that I'm most likely losing an ally by the end of the week. It just stinks all around.

My one saving grace is that I don't think Sam will be putting me or Natalia up. I mentioned a possible F3 deal between the two of us, and I'm hoping he sticks to it. I know that he and Nat are close, and I'm hoping that they see me as much of a goat to drag along with them. I'm hoping…

"yaknad"

- well. so sharky gone and left annoyingly. but w/e. um sam just won hoh which is ugly bc he prob gonna nom me which is fair cuz i dont like to talk to him so i dont. but still ugly...szy thinks he wont but hes WRONG. so then!!! (omg im writing this like as if i was doing it sporadically but its all at once idk ya) bradley says sam gonna nom me and he gonna try to talk to him to stop him. he says tell no one. i told... someone :( i thought szy wouldnt leak i was just telling him cuz he was so annoying saying sam wouldnt nom me so i wanted to be like WELL GUESS WHAT MIMI WE DID. but.. he told SAM (he says its bc he wanted to throw bradley utb which i kind of believe) but it has the annoying side of fact that sam told bradley he knows bradley told me. so now bradley mad at me and i just play dumb but i do that so much no way he belives it but its mean cuz i actually wanna work with bradley and kind of trust him but he prob doesnt trust me at all. BUT then apparently throwing bradley utb worked so now sam might backdoor him but idk.. seems fishy. BUT THEN SAM OPENED PANDORAS BOX and its double veto and i think i won a veto?? by doing a nightmarish puzzle from heck. it was so bad. idk if i won tho things are confusing. i panic. im so hungry. i wanted lunch. but i had to do a puzzle instead. hm.. sam wants to talk but i just dont like him KJDASHFKJ its so. ugh i know i have to put emotions aside for game but i cant stand him hes such a pig and makes stupid racist remarks and i just cant stan it UGHH like bradley is annoying with how cocky he is but i get over it for better of my game.. why cant i do it with sam.

"yaknad"

- SAM CAN FUCK RIGHT OFF with his bullshit excuses about "having" to put me up. Yeah thanks bud, I'll remember that when I "have" to backdoor your ass out of this fucking game. Like I wish he'd have enough respect at least to be straight up and say he's threatened by me instead of being all "well it's too late now I have to put you up bc you're already pissed at me" like stfu. Omg. I can't stand him. And ofc Bradley's fucking AWOL cuz he knows he's been pushing my name for how long now. Both of them can go fuck themselves. Oh and to top this off, I lost trust in Szy real quick with this move because this story that they're trying to sell me about yoni telling Sam I was "worried" about Sam winning HoH is bullshit. I highly highly doubt yoni would say that when just last week she was telling me she wanted to solidify something with me and Sam and her. Lmfao. Well I'll say this much, they'll have to take me out KICKING AND SCREAMING, cuz that's the only way I'm leaving the BB house. So, let's see how veto goes and if I'm still up and Bradley or a bigger threat is not sitting next to me after the ceremony, all HELL is breaking loose and whoever is sitting next to me better be scared. Toodles.

"yaknad"

- I can not believe that we are already nearing 40 days. It feels like just yesterday we entered the game for the first time. I remember how wide-eyed and excited I was, now I'm just dreading this game because it feels so muddied LoL

I think one of the contributing factors into that is that it's been hard trying to play a solid game and be in control of things when it seems like this entire game has been boys vs. girls. It makes things hard for me, who is a person who typically likes to float in the middle, since I always feel like I'm stuck to one side. Luckily, it seems like I may have an in w/some folks to get me by.

Sam is the HOH which is good for my game, much better than Bradley winning at least. I don't know, there's just something about that kid that I don't trust. Anyways, I know that Sam is going to target Bryce and possibly Szymon for eviction, which while it does suck to lose one of them, I also don't want to get sidetracked from my goal which is winning. I needed them to go eventually, I was just hoping Bradley could go first.

Ideally, I want to try and talk to Sam about the noms to maybe convince him to BD Bradley. He might budge and do it IF he feels like he has the entire support of the whole house. I'm going to talk it over with my Double D, Natalia, and see what she's thinking…

"yaknad"

- Quick update but I... might've just sold Natalia down the river to Sam by mistake LoL

Last week, I told Sam that I was thinking of an alliance with the three of us but then I also said he should talk to Nat and reassure her that she's good for the group since she was unsure of what he would do but knew that he would keep her and I safe. That's not exactly what I said verbatim but you get the gist.

The problem now is that Sam is targeting her because he feels like she didn't want him to win when that's not the case. So now I've gotta talk to Sam, make sure he keeps Nat off the block, and then work on Bradley going up.

"yaknad"

- Oops turns out Yoni did say something that was accidentally misinterpreted by Sam to mean I was "worried" if he won HOH. 😬😬😬 lmao there's still some shady shit going on though 👀 if any of these bitches are conspiring against me I will find out. I'm also trying to talk to Bradley and get him to say something incriminating to me so I can run to Sam ab it lolll so far nothing but let's see. I'm not gonna do too much or else I'm gonna make myself the actual target for real lmao I gotta chill till after the veto

"yaknad"

- Off-topic comment, but I don't know why the game feels so much smaller, like it's about to be 40 days come Wednesday yet we've only been through about 7 evictions and there are still 7 people left to go before the F2. Maybe people just aren't talking to ME which is the problem? And if that's the case, my ass better do something quick!! 😂 Also, I'm not sure why Bradley and I can't connect. He's in college, in fact he's a senior, so I'd wager he's about 21 or 22 yet the kid just seems so socially awkward. Like he wonders why he's being targeted so many times. Well... the only reason people want him out is because his social interactions are fake. I have a feeling like he was all gung ho with the guys and then once he saw that the guys were found out, he jumped ship and decided to play the "every man" game. But the problem with that was... he didn't have the proper connections to make a good flip Since he spent so much time "bro-ing" it down with his bros *rolls eyes*

"yaknad"

- ight im back now for good, i needed that break, this game was getting to be too toxic and unhealthy to the point i was actually getting pissed irl and thats when i knew i had to take a step back because this game isnt worth my own mental sanity. im in a tough spot in the game, but honestly if theres anyone that can get myself out of it, it's myself

"yaknad"

- Bryce told me he's gonna use his veto on me and szy said he'd use his if he wins veto on Maya (since Bryce is using his on me) so both Maya and I would come down and szy would be safe (if he does win the veto) which like obviously this sounds amazing.. BUT, I have learned to not trust anybody and at the back of my head is the idea that what if Bryce and/or Szy are playing me.. and they get me to throw the veto to szy and then neither of them use it on me 👀😳 Idk if I'm being irrationally paranoid but like this is where I'm at rn... So I know I want to push as much as possible to win this veto comp for myself but I'm worried if it's me and szy at f2 and I don't throw it to szy that he'll be mad at me cuz he would be vulnerable but like... Ugh I just am so skeptical. It seems too good to be true.

Also oopsies I might have mentioned to Quintin that there could be a chance of Sam backdooring Bradley before I found out from Bryce they are in an alliance lmaooooo so I had to play it off like I would push it on Sam bc "it's my best shot to stay" and "I'm desperate". Quintin asked me who I had heard from that Sam could possibly backdoor Bradley but I wanted to protect Szy and not tell Quintin that it was Szy who told me Sam was willing to backdoor Bradley.. so I played it off and didn't throw szy utb. Also, if you ask me, Sam has never had any intention of putting up Bradley lmao it would be a terrible game move for Sam and Sam is no idiot. But Szy seems "convinced" Sam would do it. I mean if he does it'd be amazing but I'm not buying it. Oh so today I "made up" with Sam and acted like I had no hard feelings and we were cool moving forward blah blah cuz if I am still otb after veto ceremony I don't want Sam pushing for me to go cuz he thinks I'm gonna come after him full force lol. I love Sam sm he's awesome 💯 (sorry for cussing you out last confessional 😳😳) but for my game, I definitely AM coming for him full force lol. He's way too good at comps to leave around any longer. He was right after Bradley on my ideal boot list anyway.

"yaknad"

- my entire almost flawless game is gonna be completely ruined simply because of this very fun BB twist!!!!!!!!!!11111111!!!!!!!!! thats gonna cause the ENTIRE house to come after me!!!!!!! my entire perfect game completely lost!!!!!!!!! because of one week!!!!!!! that i didnt even know was an option not to open cuz i was reading it in my math class and the hosts were like omg pls hurry!!! so i just said yes? whatever dude im ready to get out of this game, its been the most fucking toxic org ever thats actually pissing me off to the point im getting pissed irl and im BEYOND READY to put it past me like i legit dont give a FUCK anymore!!! im never EVER playing another BB org again they're the most fucking retarded thing ever LMAO!!

"yaknad"

- well the second veto were the reason on why i was sitting otb, sam told me earlier hes not going to nom me and hed go for bryce & natalia but since bryce won the veto i guess he had to choose someone. I mean thats fair but it still sucks.

I’m glad that most of the people on our alliances got to play in the veto, the best scenario would be either szymon or yoni got the veto so that they can use it on one of us and bryce on the other. and boom we still have the numbers to save the other player. It’d be a great turnaround and all hell broke loose ksjdksjs

I decided to throw myself under the bus to bradley, i know that he has a loud mouth but thats the plan, hes gonna think that im at the bottom and im disposable by my alliances, if that got me a vote to stay in this game well hell yeah im just gonna ride it.

"yaknad"

- I've been picked for Veto so hopefully I can win here. My plan is to win and take off Natalia, but if she's in the lead, I might just throw so I don't necessarily have to be the one to do it, because then I have to explain why I want to save her to Sam and my new potential alliance of four... More on that later! :P

"yaknad"

- So I didn't notice this during the comp but afterwards I saw that yoni messaged me saying she swears she is gonna use the veto on me but that if I could please throw it to her... Which makes literally 0 sense to me because if I'm going down anyway.. what is the point?????????? And after the comp she said she had some tea to spill but that she would tell me AFTER results (again makes me feel like she didn't wanna say the wrong thing in case I won the veto comp), which, both of these things together are making me extremely sketched out especially since I know she's in an alliance with the boys, and then to top it off she mentioned it had to do with talk about a "trio" like sis what? If I hear ANY talk about this trio one more time I'm gonna kms. So now I'm freaking out that what if even though TWO of my allies said they would use the veto on me, NEITHER will & at that point fuck my drag ig, sashay away for me.

"yaknad"

- So, I have won the POV this week. I never thought I'd EVER utter those words, but it feels great to show that I can win competitions when I need to. Do I think I needed this one? No. But it's good to have, because potentially I could save everyone I'm working with and not get too much blood on my hands.

Bryce has the secret POV that was won this week, which is great for my alliance. But I also have another alliance with Sam/Q/Bradley. Personally, I have way more loyalty to the bottom clowns so I do want to save them this week. However, I feel like if I use the Veto, I'm going to look shady to the other alliance.

The only way I could somehow get around that happening is if I could convince Sam/Q that cutting Bradley is best for us and pulling in maybe Maya as a fifth is better, but also make them think that we didn't have the votes to save Bradley to begin with by lying about Abi's vote. That might be one way to manuever around it, but I'm not sure...

Ugh! I feel like I opened a whole can of worms by winning this not going to lie LoL

"yaknad"

- Woo we love pandora box making this literally a crazy week.. furthermore we love sam taking out his number on HIS hoh djdjfkf i wanted to get bradley out for a while now & its one step from happening on his closest allys week dkfkfkg glorious. but ya sam proved lots of loyalty to me with this whole week but at the same time rubbed me rlly the wrong way with the way it went down.. also miss yoni basically got caught on playing all the sides, the good thing is that she stuck with us & played the veto after lots n lots of concerns

"yaknad"

- WHEWWW yoni pulled through i love ha so much, the mom that i wish i have <3 im glad that we talked through before the veto and made sure that if she wins the veto its going to be used.

brad & q goes up and honestly i’m fine with it but the fact that brad talked about how sam is his #1 ally and he is sending him home is hilarious kdjdksjs PHENOMENAL! i love him but i never sees we make it to the end together, he is kind of screwing me sometimes but i know hes got my back so yh. its his time.

"yaknad"

- 😭😭😭😭 Bradley is so pure. I hate that this game has come down to a competition of which one of us gets the other one out first. But I know for my game that I should make this a move to take him out and that it's logically sound. I just feel so bad cuz he was campaigning to me today and I really put myself in his shoes and I also remember how much of an emotional mess I was when I got nominated just one time and Bradley has been through so much hardship this season like he's really gone through a LOT and then on top of that, he really believed Sam was his #1 ally.. and imagine your number 1 backstabbing you so dirty like this.. whew.. I don't wish that on my worst enemy. It must be a horrible feeling :( At the same time, Bradley chose, made, and cuddled his bed.. so now he has to lie in it. He even admitted to me he picked a side and it ended up being a side that was gonna discard him. Nonetheless, there can only be one winner so at some point everybody is gonna get royally screwed, and for everyone except for one, it will cost them their game. At this point, you just have to make sure it isn't you.