We Can Go to War/Confessionals

Day 9
"makalu"

- So the Medha. ... ." blindside " did not go as smoothly as planned, but hey, at least my first move worked? She hates me now tho so that's upsetting, i could feel a lowkey friendship building before this. Anyways, the real tea is who voted Karston... probably someone who was on board but didn't want to ruin their friendship with Medha? Idk.

"yangra"

- Jenna’s alive and no one knows what the fuck is going on anymore and I’m kind of loving it

"yangra"

- I'm so like, annoyed right now for a number of reasons. Firstly because Marty is the biggest joke, I'm sorry but I cannot with him. Lexi told me that 10 minutes before I told her the idol had been found, she told him that the answer I gave was wrong. So obviously, that was his idol (we been knew but this confirms it). Not to mention the fact that Jenna told Lexi before results that it wasn't her idol. And I just, do not understand. I went to him right before results being like "Is it me going :'(((" And I told him the obvious reasons why I think he gave her the idol aside from the fact that I already knew, (Him posting his VL in the tribe chat, his unwillingness to want to vote her out yesterday ect.) And he just lies to me. Like?? Even if SOMEHOW we are all wrong and Jenna found that idol herself and it wasn't his, he was still genuinely debating voting to keep her ALL DAY and everyone knows it. He's just.. a loon. And the second reason I'm mad is because we *literally* could have gotten rid of him. Me and Lexi wanted to put two votes on him instead of Aleks, but Pory kept INSISTING we don't do it. Pory is also just kind of stupid, like I'm sorry but he was apparently having a meltdown in Jenna's pms before results and he honestly has no self control. Lexi is the only person who I consistently see eye to eye with... Anyways thanks to him both of the lunatics are still here and I'm over it. I don't wanna be swapped with them, I don't even want to talk to them. Jenna just refuses to respond to me, probably still doesn't know my name, and Marty gives me one sentence replies now, always, which are all lies anyways. Part of me wants to lose immunity so we can just be rid of at least one of them for good

"makalu"

- Yo I guarantee you Trey is hot on my trail. He knows I was the hinky vote I can feel it.

"makalu"

- No swap? We didn't plan for this. Joey is likely going to be the vote, but I'm wondering if he knows that. If we do lose, then the vote might not be as straightforward as it would seem. As long as we continue to hide the existence of our alliance, then I don't really care what happens.

"makalu"

- It's sobering seeing your name get written down for the first time, even if it was only one vote. Don't know who did it, or why; could it be to sow paranoia in our core group? Maybe they are just messing with me? Beats the hell out of me. All I know is that if the person wants to go to war, we can go to war. Just stop hiding behind anonymous votes.

"yangra"

- Ok so well that was fucking intense. I don't know about you but hearing "oh yeah jenna is playing an idol" 10 minutes before tribal when everyone has voted is probably one of the most stressful things you can hear. Like holy fuck that just took a solid 5 years off my life. You know how you get stressed over certain tribals? Well having the possibility of a 2-1-6* vote is pretty fucking stressful! Meh, whatever, Aleks is gone now. And yeah, he was kinda robbed. He was like high key next boot anyways so I'm not gonna cry over it. Best part is, now Jenna is all like "yeah it's just you and me now we gotta win out" -_- like jesus christ jenna im sorry but you're next boot. I didn't vote with you I voted with you conditionally, which are 2 completely different things. At the very least, I'm pretty much guaranteed top 4 of Yangra, since idols are no longer an issue. Remains to be seen if we swap, but as the numbers lessen I doubt it more and more. If it doesn't happen at f15 I don't think it will happen. I'm fine with that tbh, these guys fucking suck at math so Yangra can sweep them easily. I mean Chrissakes it's 10-0 right now! They wouldn't know what a prime number is if it slit their throat! Ok well, if it slit their throat they would die. Whatever. Point is they suck. It's a wonder how people like JP can even fucking survive in the modern day world. His answers make it look like he's throwing his tribe out the fucking window or he's fucking braindead. I mean hey, I'll take it, but I'll be damned if it isn't conspicuous. For now I'm just gonna relax on my little throne as the uncontested head of Yangra...

"yangra"

- You already know I'm dedicated to this game when I'm up at 5 in the Morning just to participate in this challenge when everyone else isn't able to. We have a good lead right now, so I'm just hoping I can keep it up for us because I really don't wanna go to tribal council again!

"yangra"

- Presuming I make the merge, I can't wait for these overnight challenges that literally everyone from my tribe except Liam and Tyler will end up asleep for.

"yangra"

- http://prntscr.com/jrssl3 I've officially decided that being confident is *not* the best thing to do. Meanwhile Drew and I are the only two people on the entire tribe who know what the fuck they're doing in math so we've just had to carry the tribe through most of the questions so far >_>

Meanwhile, we have Jenna. Oh my dear lord Jenna. Jenna, you're really nice, and I like you a lot as a person, but I'm very concerned for you....

Day 10
"makalu"

- Operation: Eliminate Seamus has been activated, and Agents Joey and JP spread the word successfully. Another vote that I really didn't want to happen, but what can you do? You gotta cut off the bottom to stay at the top, right?

"makalu"

- Lost another 24 hour live challenge. Now to tribal... Consensus around Seamus seems to be growing, but after seeing my name on the parchment last week, there isn't a bone in my body that feels "comfortable" with tonight's tribal. Gotta make sure there aren't secondary plans being made without me

"makalu"

- Hopefully no one does anything stupid as this tribal, trying to make a "big move" or anything. Safest thing going into a swap is to have faith in your tribe mates, and a blindside on me (or anyone else in our core five) would be a terrible idea. We're seeming to coalesce on a Seamus vote. He's a nice enough lad, but he's been MIA in challenges and his social game has been lacking. That's good enough for me; I don't want to pull around dead weight on a swap.

"yangra"

- WOW. A lot has happened since my last confessional, huh? So first we had Jenna play an idol- Marty's idol. After the vote, I kinda went up to him and he started on this whole "wow! Well at least we're not divided!"... we kinda are if you gave her an idol? So I went on to kinda say "Look, I know it was your idol- J9 now is missing an idol, and you guessed J9. I'm not telling anyone, but everyone thinks you had it. Like I want to work with you, but I'd appreciate you being honest with me. And I can tell you that after the vote, like 3 people came up to me wanting to split some votes on to you, because they were worried you were going to play an idol on Jenna. I obviously was able to prevent that, but it definitely wasn't the smartest decision you could have made." So that kinda made him like, realize that he placed himself on the bottom with Jenna, even if everyone else doesn't know for certain that he does have the idol.

We then had the challenge, which was math- which I hate. I managed to get I think 3 answers correct, but Pory and Drew really carried the team. Then there's Jenna. To start off with, she would make a guess- then come into the tribe chat like "What's product mean?"... if you had no clue, why did you answer? I get that you want to seem active, but literally you're just making people wonder what you're doing. Then, after the challenge- she said that Drew and I were the ones that won for us.... uhm girl, Pory put some work in overnight. Everyone was kinda like "What about Pory?" and Jenna went on to say she forgot Pory existed.. Tyler threw some shade at her, and I laughed. Jenna is a sweet girl, and trust me- I adore her as a person, but I don't think she's really invested in the game?

Now, we have our day off while Makalu attends tribal. If we had gone to tribal, I'm not sure if it would be Marty or Jenna. No one really trusts Marty following the previous Tribal Council, but Jenna isn't all the way here. Personally, I'd rather vote Marty before a swap- I don't trust him not to flip. I don't trust Jenna either, but she never really seems to know what's happening in the game- so she could be an easy boot on our tribe if we weren't worrying about numbers. But at the same time, if we have a challenge- she isn't the most reliable. Really, I don't want to swap with Jenna or Marty- despite me telling Marty I want to work with him. If he values Jenna's loyalty over mine- that's not something I want. There's a lot to consider and think about- but I'm choosing to worry about that later, after talking with my alliance. For now though, that's all I have to say! <3

"makalu"

- I’m in a weird spot. I don’t like everyone in my alliance. I shouldn’t say that. I mean I don’t trust everyone in my alliance. The people outside of it are the ones I’d rather play with. Seamus is most likely getting voted out, and I’m really sad about that. He deserves better, and I really want to play with him. I’m debating with whether rocking the boat is a good move right now. It probably isn’t. I don’t want to use all social capital to save him.

"makalu"

- This tribal was supposed to be easy. The potential for an idol has now turned it into a clusterfuck. Someone is leaking information to Seamus, who was supposed to be blindsided. WHAT THE F*CK IS GOING ON?!!?!? (sick meme reference)