One Beautiful Jacaranda/Confessionals

Day 21
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- YES. I AM MAKING THE MERGE. I am so happy to be done with this god-forsaken tribe once and for all. Hopefully, I can find new life with all of the other castmates and work my way toward a win.

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- I have been focused on talking to a lot of people. There are two main sides, the Dumbripi and the Kapolla, leaving me and Morgan in the middle. I want to side with Kapolla, but I will tell Kamen about the plan and that is to vote Jason, who I believe to be a threat. Hopefully this doesn't blow up.

Day 22
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- So good to be back! I’m happy to be part of the game again, and I have to make sure I’m getting credit or people won’t see me as a good player at the end of the season.

I’m happy to get together with my old alliance, this nice to know that I’m not alone. Also, I have to make sure Gavin and Morgan think I’m in good connections with them, I do want them to trust me although I’m not sure how much I can trust them. For the others, I just need to try my best and get along with them, hope this will go well.

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- I don't think I sent a real confessional since the merge so yay I made the merge! First couple days were slow, just basically saying hi to people. No plans were really put together on my end.

Current read/standing with every remaining person: Andrew: He's my ally and I think he trusts me a lot but he can still be annoying to work with at times. I'll probably try to go far with him unless the tide is against him or he betrays me. Catnip: She's cool! I don't know if we'll end up on the same side based on how things are shaping up right now (I'll elaborate), but I like Catnip. We've never talked strategy though. Cole: Still super dry. Don't really have any desire to work with him. Gavin: Lmao Gavin is still funny and I think I can trust him. Andrew really wanted Gavin at the merge and we have him now and I'm totally down with taking Gavin far. Jason: Still super dry, even more so than Cole. Also lied to me about the vote so bye. Kamen: I love Kamen just because he actually has a personality and is fun to talk to, but I can't shake the feeling he wants me out. Also, he definitely lied about the way the idol works. But I can forgive him because he's nice to me. We probably won't actually become allies which is honestly funny as fuck to me. Magnus: ??? I honestly have no clue. Magnus didn't respond to my DMs today, so they're probably working against me right now. Understandable, so I'm not gonna be salty about that. Just don't vote me out and we're cool. Morgan: I think we're cool. Morgan doesn't give off a lot of emotion when we talk but I accidentally called him dad so now he's calling me son. So we're BFFs now. I hope we're gonna be able to work together. Nick: Tbh Nick's my closest ally. I'm 100% comfortable telling him what I want to do and he gives great ideas too. I'll admit Nick's a bit subservient to me but I don't ignore what he wants to do. I want him to come with me to the end. Tal: He's so nice! Our time zone difference is frustrating and there's a language barrier but Tal's fun to talk to. I'm really comfortable around him. Essentially, Kappolla and Ngau'u teaming up would make me so happy. The good thing is, if this works, I don't necessarily need Magnus. I'm gonna elaborate on the current state of affairs in another confessional, since I always type in huge chunks of text lmao.

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- Opening my second confessional with a petty rant about the judges of our first immunity challenge. This is not necessarily because I believe I personally deserved better, but I'd like to point out the peculiarities of the scores in comparison to my own.

The first judge was fine. The scores showed an application of consistent discretion. Judge 2 for some reason REALLY enjoyed Catnip's. I understood her flag, but why it deserved 10 for humor and creativity (in comparison to the other flags) is baseless. Kamen received a 4 for creativity, and I received a 1. Judge 3 I'm actually petty about (and I'm allowed to be petty cause I know Liam). Jason, whose flag was nearly barren and genuinely lacked creativity, received a 6, 6, and 7 for the three categories. I received a 4, 1, and 1. He ranked Nick's flag with a creativity of 7 for having good handwriting skills. I think some other flags were unnecessarily docked points, but that's enough of that. It's just a challenge though, and HOPEFULLY the judges did not know whose flag was whose (except for Gavin, of course). If the judges have any issue with what I think, sorry, but I'm allowed to have my opinion about your judgment just like you had your opinion about the flags lol. ANYWAYS, onto the game: Everybody seemed hesitant to put out names for the vote, but I ended up making the first move on my side by initiating a plan to vote out Jason with Morgan. From my persective, Andrew, Gavin, and Morgan are all on board. I'm positive Nick will be on board, and I'm really hoping Tal with have it in his heart to work with those who voted him out. I'm voting for Jason because they're the least risky person to initiate a plan against from the Dumb tribe. They're boring, and I can't imagine myself ever working with them, sorry. Up until now I've been 100% honest with Kamen. Gavin told me that Jason was targeting Andrew, so when Kamen was bullshitting me I had to call him out. We're not gonna be able to work together clearly, so I will likely start feeding him lies instead of the truth. I don't care enough to talk to Cole or Jason, but I might try to talk to Catnip about it. I doubt it'll go anywhere, but I'll try. I trust Ngau'u. I genuinely like Gavin and Morgan as people, and I'll include Tal in that bunch. They've shown my friendliness and have been open to strategy with me. I don't know if Kamen's beat me to them, but if Gavin being open about Andrew being targeted, they might go on my side. I'm making sure I express to them that I would love nothing more than for Kappolla and Ngau'u to work together. I'm praying that they're on the same page. I'm sure I'll submit another confessional before the deadline, but there's a very good chance I'll end up getting the boot. I'd really not like to, but I'm playing pretty risky right now. Fortunately, my side is pretty clear at this point, but whether or not people are gonna be on the same page is up in the air. So if I get voted out, I won't be blindsided FYI. I will be humiliated, however, to leave the game before Cole and Jason. If I get voted out I hope I'm on the jury and can be the King of Ponderosa (insert sunglasses emoji)

Day 23
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- It’s been a while, hasn’t it?

Anyways, the fact that I’m at a 50/50 chance to go home really should terrify me, but it doesn’t. I did my best to stay alive and now it’s up to the others to determine whether I was right or not. But to clarify, Jason wants me out hard. Everyone has admitted this to me. Kamen is spreading lies to stop the vote from imploding and hopefully he’ll be convinced that Cole is the real target, but I have no idea. And that’s about it. Jason will probably get 5-7 votes, and I will too. Just a matter of majorities and idols.

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- This tribal was scary, but I’m happy this move worked. Now, it’s time to make Morgan flush his idol.

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- Andrew was voted out at tribal council, and I feel so bad for Andrew. Not because he was voted out but who he was voted out before. There are several possibilities as to what actually happened with the vote, but I'm gonna vent about something that really pisses me off.

Why do people lie about who they voted for? They will get caught at one point or another, and if I'm the next to go home why lose my jury vote? That's why it's pretty much personal with Magnus at this point. I've been so kind and tried so hard to convince them THE GENUINE TRUTH that the move to vote Conch out was not against them. It was a bad and hasty move on their part and they will likely pay for it. Unless Magnus ends up winning, but that wouldn't be on my accord as of right now. The Dumb tribe members are as, well, dumb as ever. Kamen "feels bad" for lying to me. Yeah right. Cole and Jason are walking robots, and Catnip at least has a personality but we're the least likely two to ever become allies in the game based on the current position. I personally prefer to play the game with real people, but if voting off real people is the way to go, then I guess it's a lesson learnt for me LMAO. I guess to return to lying about the vote, I think I can believe that it was Magnus and Tal who voted for Andrew. If they think they know what they're doing, good for them. They might beat me and Nick (and maybe the Ngau'u members if this season is that boring) but Kamen's taking his herd of goats to the end with him to the end. I must admit that I am going against my promise to not take this game seriously, but I feel that venting my current emotions will help illustrate this season (you're very welcome hosts and audience) and also help me realize that it's just a game. 3/4 of this confessional wouldn't exist if people could just admit who they voted for and why, but people think they can live in their lies for ??? reasons. My plan now? Well, obviously my hopeful plans from the merge went out the window. Unless the Dumb people are that anxious to play the game, I'll probably be leaving next. I'll just be passive and not force anything. If I'm meant to be in the game I'll be meant to be in the game. If not, it's been a fun way to make this semester go by quickly.

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- Ah, the merge tribal. The chaos and the forming sides and what have you. Andrew vs Jason. Jason vs Andrew. I did like Andrew at first, we seemed to have a bond. But then it seemed like he was talking to me only if he felt it was needed for the game. Going forward, he‘s definitely gonna try and run the game and he would be successful to a very reasonable extent. So it makes a lot of sense to get him out earlier than later.

The thing is, I haven‘t properly bonded with Jason. Bringing them into the alliance was highly Conch‘s idea as well. We used to chat a bit pre-alliance and some during it still in Anarchy, but when we got to Dumbripi, the DMs were... one of those awkward ones. Someone described such convos as dry, I think that‘s apt.