Big Brother 10/Week 5

"yaknad"

- I survived. But it sounds like barely. Thank Natalia had my back! But what's sketchy is I'm hearing it was Morgan campaigning to flip the vote onto me but he was the firs one to message me being like "You're staying. just wanted you to know. They want Trey. I tried to flip it onto Quintin and save you both but it didn't work bah blah lies blah." Like he really is a straight up SNAKE. I LIVE IN A HOUSE OF SNAKES! And I can't even properly mourn the loss of my best ally because I have to hustle to make sure I'm in a good position. I'm still staying loyal to Sam/Q/Abi but I'm also still clinging to Natalia, and Bradley has proven to be a worthwhile ally. He won't take me to the end but he's solid at this stage of the game. I've got a lot to think about. And I have an ally to avenge!

"yaknad"

- I...don't think I want to win this...I think I'm going to go back to my Week 1-3 strategy of just making sure an ally wins. I want to go after everyone on the other side, but I made up with Szymon and on a personal level don't want to nominate him after we just made up, I don't want to nominate Bryce because idt he knows im onto him and I want him to be on the jury, I lowkey promised Yoni I wouldn't target her which was dumb, and I want to get Morgan but he does sometimes have my back at least when it's convenient. I'm still going to try but I don't think winning this is do or die as long as Bradley/Sam/Nat wins it instead…

"yaknad"

- I'm so pissed that Trey is gone. Like a whole is in my heart. HOWEVER. The good news is that Quintin, Sam, Brad and I seem to have a core understanding. And the each of us has friendly relations with some outskirt people. So far we are kicking ass in HOH, so I hope to hell this week goes better than the last two. I just wish someone good could get mvp this week too.

"yaknad"

- https://youtu.be/r6HNaHU4i80

"yaknad"

- Wow this really is going according to plan! Abi and Bradley are killing it. We've knocked out everyone that is a lowkey threat. We just need to bump Morgan out and then I guarantee someone I trust wins HOH! And I haven't had to do anything!

"yaknad"

- THIS IS PERFECT. I'm shook. Bradley and Abi picked off everyone else and then messed up and got themselves eliminated. Obviously I trust them both but I trust Sam and Q even more! This is so good.

"yaknad"

- so last week definitely wasnt ideal... i lost an ally and ofc voted solo lmao. but i guess thats what happens when you're so busy in life moving back to school, catching up with all your peoples and what not, you lose track of the game so easily. but im still here still kicking, and still in a great spot socially in this house. and im also gonna use the whole "ive been so busy at school, sorry for being inactive" card to try and get people to sort of trust me by default since im intentionally not winning challenges to not piss people off to stay in their good graces and not give them any reason to trust me, cuz for now i think most of the house does trust me or want me as an ally in some way and i wanna keep it like that for as long as possible, using that card to try and slide thru more ya knowwwww. anyways ya it isnt very fun to vote solo and ofc i had to talk to sharky afterwards, and we seem to be still good but ofc im still very weary of him cuz he can just easily go "sam voted me hes done, but ima make him believe i still want to work with him" but i did have to pick between 3 very close allies and im sure he can understand that. trey going is a huge loss for me in this game, cuz he and i were very close, even tho he had a ton of deals going on in this game but he always told me about them personally. ima do my best to avenge his undeserving early death in this game because i do miss him dearly :(.

"yaknad"

- also lets talk about morgan... dawg you aint sneaky LMAO. this dude is trying SO damn hard to play the middle of the house and be some sort of mastermind n shit and hes not good at it LOL. like szy and i are very close and when he goes to me talking about how one of us needs to win hoh or else we could be fucked, then goes and makes an alliance chat with bryce and szy saying they gotta win hoh to have a chance... just isnt cute and i cannot WAIT for his ass to go out the door. only one dude can play the middle well here!

"yaknad"

- also Q winning hoh is very fucking good for me, he can go ahead and put up a threat or 2 and get blood on his hands, and maybe one of them will leave and all i gotta do is vote in the majority, cuz i think bryce is the main target and probs the biggest threat in the house anyways and he isnt my main priority over on the "other" side. so i think this could be a very solid week for me! and im PRAYING that jury is next and that means no more mvp twist! (i fucking hope)

"yaknad"

- I guess it's time for a little update, shall we?...

You know, I've been feeling very lost and discombobulated in this game. I think the reason behind that is because I know that there is something going on that's greater than what I'm witnessing but it doesn't seem like I or anybody else who's not apart of it can crack it.

Quintin won HOH and if you had asked me 2 or 3 weeks ago if I felt good with that, I would've told you yes. But with the way that the HOH went down, I'm pretty damn sure that the girls are in trouble. I don't want to throw out accusations or anything, but I find it a little bit weird that the guys were not eliminated in the first couple rounds of the comp (based on the limited info I saw) and that Abi was also the one who was eliminating primarily girls. I do think that Abi is apart of the guys and wants to work with them more so than she wants to work with any of the girls. Case in point, the HOH last week where she botched an otherwise easy HOH to do well in.

I don't want to act paranoid or be mad about my position because I think I have every right to be here right now based on how poorly I have played the past couple of rounds. I've been busy with work and have thus neglected to be around and play the aggressive social game that I wanted to. At the same token, I don't see myself as a threat nor do I see myself in others as someone who they need to get rid right away solely because I'm not at competitions and I'm not really on anybody's side. I think the guys are probably a little mad at me for getting rid of Trey, which by the way, I still do feel about but at this point, I had no other choice but to do what I did.

I'm not sure if I should be worried about getting nominated since I always have a chance to campaign for votes and fight for Veto so I'm just going to take it in stride and see where things go from there.

"yaknad"

- this is worst week ever. like im so over JKFHSKDJ so sad. quintin is so dumb literally no brain and like unless hes lying to me about his reasoning hes just so stupid it boils my blood JKFHASKDFJ! but who cares about all the dumb ppl who i hate abi. SZYMON AND NATALIA are so cute literally why are they so cute why are the best ppl ive ever met in my life. Like they try so hard to get us through this week postiively i just love them.. they are so nice and have my back and i rly hope i can survive so we can be f3 id happily vote either in ftc i just LOVE them

"yaknad"

- So during this week, I made an alliance with Abi & Bradley just for the sake of knowing where their heads at, I feel like this would solidify my position in this game. My ride or ride alliance is with Szymon and I'd never go against it.

"yaknad"

- NNNNNNN so apparently szy is now confronting Bradley about what he's been saying to him (that he wants to work with our side and he's not targeting Bryce blah blah) to basically not get put up on the block as replacement nominee, and he's been backpedaling, but anyway, I might use this opportunity to put up Bradley because here's my logic.. Bradley been knew MVP is one of my people (because he came to me about it last night and even though I told him idk who it is, he told me that he thinks I do know but I'm just not saying) so I'm thinking his top two suspicions are me and szymon for MVP. If I put him up I think it's gonna look like szy put him up because last night when Bradley was giving me the same sob story I played along and said that I wanted to work with him blah blah. Which at the time was true, but now that I'm hearing he's telling the same thing to szy, it shows me he wasn't relaying any special information with me, just acting like it. But back to the logic loll, in case Bradley doesn't go home, he's gonna be gunning for who he thinks have been the MVPs to put him up (szy and Bryce) and not me. I am hoping at this point that Bradley does get voted out bc he's playing very sneaky and smart.. he tried to play me with this sob story last night about how he's at the bottom and nobody talks to him, and tried to manipulate me bc he knows I know who is the MVP ( it's me bitch, surprise ) but really all he has done by asking so many questions about mvp is make himself a target because he knows too much. It's like in the movies when the bad guy kills someone and any witnesses lol. To top it off he's going after my closest allies so.. if Bradley hadn't been doing so much trynna make his sneaky moves and fishing for information so much out of nowhere he honestly wouldn't have been put up cuz I didn't want him gone. But now with this fishy behavior... Yikes

"yaknad"

- so far ive been mostly trying to adapt to the format, cuz im totally not used to a big brother game. but... this week isnt that stanworthy with morgan winning veto. at least the target on his back is just going to grow now moving forward, so thats always a target ahead of me for future week/s. i do however refuse to let bryce go pre-jury especially in the circumstance of those final noms. anyway stay tuned for a part2 of this conf

"yaknad"

- I hope either me or Bryce can be saved this time. Wish us luck!

"yaknad"

- okay i lowkey pushed bradley rlly hard utb to natalia so he can be nominated instead of abi/sam. i do believe that bradley is playing one of tue best games in this season but hes also very bland & easy to reas with it at the same time. hes also ome of very few people that give me no info so him staying has 0 benefit to me tho im fairly aware that its still gonna be hard to get him out now

"yaknad"

- Okay so even though I would prefer Bradley gone I've also decided that since last round I had to push so much for Trey to go, esp bc there was a whole save Trey plan going which is what caused Sam to be the only vote for Skarky that round (rip), this round I dun wanna be all up in everybody's PMs against because I don't want to bring attention to myself lol. I know once in survivor before, a while ago, I've had somebody say that it was becoming hard working with me because I always wanted the votes to go my way, so this is something that I've tried to watch since then. I know with Bryce and Szy I can be 100% honest, but I have to watch my relationships with people like Maya and Yoni. I don't want then to feel like I'm always telling them what to do. And that's not fun for me anyway either lol. So I've been taking a backseat a lot today and I will try to as much as I can tomorrow. Let everyone else do the grunt work and I'll just vote with majority hopefully. Idk how many more weeks I can go not being put up as a target loll hopefully I can blend into the background enough this week to continue slipping by 🤷‍♀️

"yaknad"

- uhh if only morgan didn’t win the veto his ass would be gone this week oh god. since he won it and the nom changed to bradley. i feel close to him but i would never keep him safe over melanie & bryce.

me and szymon really want him to go because he’d target him and that’s very alarming. we knew that hes only trying to be friendly to gain some info and that’s concerning. if we were to get him out we would need 5 but i doubt we can get 1 more person.. and also i don’t want to draw the lines yet like i would want my position to be vague and not associating myself with szymon because people already talked about us.

so now the only option that we have would be to evict melanie and go with the house.. ugh that sucks i love her and shes very loyal but i dont want to jeopardize my game to save her too.

"yaknad"

- So a bitch took a break and everybody's just going for the easy vote Melanie, boring, but also ofc I'm gonna go with it bc it's the best thing for my game rn. Like I said, I want to go back to being a background character, especially with a possible double or triple eviction coming up. And I oop-

"yaknad"

- This week has been pretty slow, and inconvenienced by my lack of a mobile device. Luckily, it's been fixed, so I can now be around a little bit more and be able to communicate.

It seems as though people want out Melanie, which is more than okay with me. She and I really don't talk, and I think it would be wrong of me to vote out either Bryce or Bradley who have been here willing to fight over her who... just hasn't been around or active.

Moving forward, I've just decided to stick to a floater strategy. I want to try and get close to as many people as I can and strategically position myself where no matter who wins HOH, I should not only be safe but I can make THEM feel safe to the point that they feel like they need me.

"yaknad"

- ok this week has been a nightmare like sjsksks one of the few men I hm. I wouldn't say like but one of the few i can stand noms me. all b.C Bradley asked him too while we were fighting and he doesn't wanna go back on his word like.. shut up hag. I'm JSJSJSJ but I did make up with Bradley so that's cool i guess although everyone says don't trust him so yikes. a good thing from this week is it showed me how much I love natalia and szymon like they are angels and I feel like I say that every round but i rly mean it sksksks I love them so much and we better be f3. I want to win this game but I also want to go to end with them so I guess i gotta figure out a way to do both cuz atm I feel like both played better than me. ALSO so apparently sharky went around saying me and szy are a duo bc he drafted me in louvre sjsjsjs like girl I spoke to szymon for maybe 2 weeks before this game started we were not some duo sorry that he just is an amazing funny smart person who I like working with

"yaknad"

- Super easy breezy beautiful covergirl week. Quintin took the HOH. None of my allies were nominated. And frankly I had a lot going on IRL so I did what I could to just fade into the background. I popped on a bit at the end once Bradley was nominated to say my piece and push for Melanie to go. Turns out everyone also wanted Melanie out. Which is great for me because she was the main one I couldn't see voting for me in the end. I do have a slight worry that I'm becoming a lock for second place. I have decent relationships but idk if I've done enough to seem impressive if I make the end. There's still a lot of game left to play and HOPEFULLY I can pull of an HOH win with this Speed Week because frankly I need to build my resume now that I've made it to the jury phase. The wheels are turning babes.

"yaknad"

- https://youtu.be/RlXzwDihgVg

"yaknad"

- Okay....let’s talk about Double Eviction. First and foremost, Szymon nominated me AGAIN. Not a good look. I thought we had mended things since his last HOH but guess not so now he’s on my list. Maybe not target #1 but definitely tely up there. But let’s talk about the bigger issue: Morgan. I haven’t trusted Morgan for weeks. He was aggressively playing both sides and that’s supposed to be my spot. I told him I was voting to keep Bradley and he immediately throws Bradley under the bus as the mastermind behind trying to get me out. NEWSFLASH: I don’t trust Bradley that much. I just trust him more than you, Morgan! But in the way out he supposedly also tried to throw Sam and I under the bus which pisses me off. Proved we made the right decision. Then on the way out he also tried to “out” Natalia as a big threat. Yeah we know! Obviously Natalia is a threat! Social Game for days. I hate when eliminated players try to act like we’re dumb on the way out. Just because we voted your ass out doesn’t mean we don’t know what’s going on! I fully know who is a threat. But you beat damn well believe I’m going to ride Bradley Sam and Natalia for a few more rounds before I stab them in the back.