This Chaos Is Making for a Good Birthday Present/Confessionals

Day 23
"hakra"

- Fuck this, every single person in the game has blindsided me. All 9 of them. I think I may be in trouble, but not really since I was just going along with everything. I mean, Lex and Adam were both my idea but people said yes...

This Mound of the Dead could be a lifesaver. None of them have blindsided me, or proclaimed that they don't trust me, or anything. Literally no matter who it is I'll make sure that I'm their number one. I have no allies left, I'll need all the help I can get lol

"lothal"

- Not liking this twist AGAIN. If someone's really coming back then it has a higher chance of biting lex, courtney and me simply cause we've had to vote out more people. At this point, i'm just hoping vi's coming back or jacob or matisse maybe. This game has been a real rollercoaster, big highs and big lows. Hopefully, i'll get through it.

"hakra"

- Did I mention already that I hate Survivor? I really, really hate Survivor.

Due to past experience in Survivor ORGs, I have come to realize that I have a fear of seeing me voted at a tribal council.

In previous games, the ONLY time I ever hear my name as a vote at tribal... I hear it again. And again. And again. And I'm out. With me not knowing I was even gonna get one. I know that's part of the game, but I'm so frigging use to it that....

seeing a SECOND one voter for me freaked me out, just like the last one did. I'm so use to getting blindsided like I do that whenever I see ONE vote I'm like, ah this is it. I'm leaving. And I break down before I can even get to the rest of the votes. Thankfully it hasn't been the case for this game. It's still very unsettling to have these votes in my record going into merge, though.

Since Jacob and Vi are both out I'll just say it was because my name is the top of the alphabetical list right?? I really hope that us and this returner get jury lol. I'm pretty paranoid right now what could happen.

"dholavira"

- okay so I have good news and better news

Chieko actually did ask me to vote for Vi I just didn't believe her because I thought she was joking. Yay I wasn't arbitrarily targeted!

So yeah this did kind of hurt my standing with Adam, Chieko, XFire, Zack, Mark, and Ace, and on paper it puts me in a tough position. But it was the final clue, I have now deduced that Chieko and XFire are working together.

First, when I mutinied over, who was it that hammered it into my head that Hakra has absolutely nothing going on? XFire and Chieko. Who ironically starting targeting someone for overplaying on "a tribe where no one does anything"? XFire and Chieko. They called each other out at the same time, you think I'm not going to notice?

The final straw was when I saw everyone's "I thought you knew" messages where they explained why they thought I knew. Chieko organized this, and XFire was the most hardcore Adam voter.

Now, everyone kind of owes me one. I got "blindsided" out of "nowhere" and now they're going to try and at least win my jury vote I'd hope.

I've gotten back with Lothal 3, and the 4 of us along with Ace and Mark or Zack are going to hopefully try and take down "XChieko". Hopefully.

"dholavira"

- Wel wel well my paranoid ass survives another Tribal council, I gotta give credit where credits to and say thank you to Zach and X fire because without them sticking with me I would for sure be a goner, but I’m not and now, now I’m ready to turn the fuck up I have been maintaining an extremely low profile and have been appearing like a jack ass in challenges so I feel now I can start making maneuvers in this game. So this is how I see it Myself Lex Antoine and Ace and Chieko I guess will most likely be looking to be the majority I guess with Courtney because we’d have to but my point is I feel my path to get far is to vote with them on this first vote and take out a huge target in XFire and then look to swing at Chieko I wanna basically try and play the middle btwn the two groups and stay afloat that way but I know I gotta set myself up to be next to a goat to win this. Game not because I’m playing a really bad game I’m just trying to play an extremely low profile under the radar game and I feel I have done well but now i gotta start swinging and being bold and take some shots. I feel that I can make it even further in this game now that I’m here and I legit I’m not gonna give up until I get there.

Little recap about the vote Vi:5-2-1

So obviously Vi went home and Hakra 2.0 stuck together well kinda we basically sacrificed one of our one. Chieko told me that it was basically so I didn’t go home but I really don’t believe that. I think what happened Was X and Zach knew that with merge approaching they need to stay good with a bigger stronger group of people (Chieko,Ace, Myself) but they were more connected to Mark and Nick so they had cut Vi if they were to cut anybody because now they have their tight group of four looking to bring just one in for a tie. But that’s where I gotta get crafty and make sure that if X and Zach flip that A. They ask me to flip and I sell it that I am or B. They don’t ask me to flip I gotta make sure to hell its not me

This game just got so much more interesting though I do know every body on this tribe I don’t believe that it is actually a disadvatante but I have a grasp on how everybody is playing and what and I clearly see who the three biggest threats are XFire Zach and Lex. this merge is gonna be thrilling and exciting but most importantly it is gonna be fun!

"dholavira"

- Woohoo! I made merge, that is good. Now the game will really light up. So... there's already plans to blindside Chieko. One side wants to make moves and the other side seems to just want an easy pass thru into the end without making much big moves. Sorry, but this game needs big moves and I need to be there to pull them off. Chieko and Xfire are huge threats, both could win this game hard core. Considering they might have an idol, we'll see where this goes.

Day 24
"dholavira"

- Well here it is! Merge. I don't know how to feel...probably terrified? TECHNICALLY everything should be okay with our alliance of 4 plus Adam making most of the votes but OG Hakra having 6 to 4 numbers advantage is kinda worrying. Especially considering I can't really connect to those who came from Lothal V3. Ant's timezone does not mesh with mine AT ALL. Lex feels somewhat distant. Courtney is okay I guess but she also feels like an easy vote out so idk.

I'm constantly getting worried about Chieko - I'm not giving her any reason to flip on me, I've been loyal to the alliance through and through but every moment I'm dreading the moment she is gonna backstab me. If that even happens. I have an idol to protect myself against that but it is only an one time protection and it could only protect me if I happen to see that vote coming.

I guess ideal move for me here is push for the pagong of Lothal V3 - even if it is super boring to do it feels like the logical move. Let's see if I can manage to pull that.

"dholavira"

- Wooooooooof so we get the results from our first individual immunity challenge and the person that I was hopefully going for in XFire won immunity now before I said that I would want either X or Zach to go but the more I think about I’m unsure of what I actually wanna do because those are the two Lothals that I came closest too but they are two of the biggest threats in the game as a whole. I’m hoping that whatever happens I stay on the majority side of this vote and somebody that I’m not totally alignied with goes home in a perfect world that would be Nick or Mark, but this is survivor so it’s not also not that simple. Because word was Byron got voted out with an idol so with that said he could have easily told nick and mark who came over and snagged the Hakra idol. So yeah I’m gonna need some time to chit chat and figure out what the best option for myself is at this point

"dholavira"

- Chieko, X and Zack are targeting me, probably because of small little reasons here and there that make me a better target than Ant or Courtney. Thankfully, I’ve gathered up my troops as well. Courtney, Ant, Ace, Adam, Nic and Mark all supposedly are voting Chieko, because dammit she’s a mess. So unless an idol is played normally I’m staying.

Day 25
"dholavira"

- Ah.... X and Chieko.... yall aren't being completely honest with me aren't you. Well, because of that, everybody has caught me up in your shenanigans that you didn't tell me you were pulling. And then Chieko, you end up trying to tell me "they" are voting Lothal 3.0 when YOU were the one who tried planting those seeds in them. You've gotta be kidding me. I guess... I'm gonna have to pull something off to make you trust me more...

Let's make this game interesting for a little bit. Xfire, Chieko, one of you better have an idol. Cuz there are plenty of fish to blame for what's about to happen tomorrow night. Time to play, "Who Snitched?"

"dholavira"

- Okay, I think I have a group of 7 on Chieko? Me, Lex, Ant, Courtney, Adam, Ace, and Mark should all be voting for Chieko. She's just acting super weird.

She directed me to a fake idol planted by Byron and said that someone had found it. What? It's fake, it doesn't matter. I'm guessing she knew it was fake and was hoping I'd be too lazy to confirm what she said, but I do my research. Actually I told Ant about it and he found out for me but the point still stands.

She told Adam that I would tell him what we were voting tonight. Well, at that particular moment Adam and I were discussing our plan to blindside her, so in a way she was right? Why would she tell such an obvious and easily disprovable lie? I almost feel like Adam's lying which would suck but we still have 6 so eh, if an idol's played it's still 5 over 4.

Adam is on the bottom of the "XChieko" alliance, it's pretty obvious to me. Mark, Adam, and I are all on the bottom, and Ace is 4th in command so he flipped too. Hopefully everyone who says they flipped did flip, I'd like to have a vote actually go well for once.

"dholavira"

- Holy shit. First of all, I'm so fucking surprised that I found the merge idol after when tge Tribe category was made on the Wiki, without looking at any clues and even using my ESP mind on finding it quickly. But what's more surprising I'll bet everyone attempts to find the idol on the same page, only to realize someone like me took it faster than these greedy people who are deseperate for an idol. Can't really wait for their reactions on it, and I'll be laughing at them when they suspect each other on who took it. We love some early paranoia.

Well, that's solely revenge for whoever who took the Hakra idol, because I doubt that Nick helped XFire to find it.

"dholavira"

- In another words, I am currently planning on blindsiding Mark just as I always wanted. I've fooled Nick thinking that we are going to vote for Lex, but it seems he was okay with it, so he went for it. I find him and Mark to be very close with each other as they escaped from Lothal 2.0 when they found out to be in the minority, and were worried for their future on staying anymore. By that means, I'd really love to see Nick crying after his close ally got voted out and he got tricked once again. Maybe I feel bad for him for letting it be in this way, but that's probably going to happen in any moment right now.

"dholavira"

- So, we've officially merged and had our first reward/immunity challenge as a merged tribe. It's exciting for sure, but also a bit worrying, as I've been struggling to stay on top of everything. Right now things look positive, but I do worry about the next few tribals. I need to really try my best to win immunity as much as I can.

"dholavira"

- I was gonna do a video but I gotta move around some storage and shit and I don’t wanna keep you all waiting on point of view as to what occurred last night, after the results case through and XFire win immunity I knew my options had changed and well they really did after two conversations one with Nick and one With Lex I realized that a Chieko was so tight with X fire that I’m virtually in the bottom of Hakra 3 so why the fuck would I join them and take a shot at The Lothal 3 when I actually really like those people so then I was like why the hell don’t we just vote out Chieko!? After a conversation with Nick I realized that he is just as willing to make a move as I am so it’s basically now or never, after that conversation I lined up my troupe Ace and the Lothal 3 and let everybody know the plan and also to let them know that I’m doing this basically to save them which is kind of shady but I kinda want them to know that I’m choosing to flip to work with them. I’m hoping that if Chieko goes I’ll be able to tell x and Zach that hey it was me but I didn’t have a choice I was threatened with an idol or something

"dholavira"

- What the fuck just happened? Somehow both sides are 100% convinced I'm with them. Good for now but after the votes are read, someone's going to be upset. Oh well, someone will just have to feel like I felt after Byron and Vi.

Apparently, everyone now knows that Adam flipped. How? I have no idea. Adam is at least pretending not to know. XFire was the first to tell me, so I think he's the one who uncovered this first. I mean, after me of course.

Okay, so Adam's now their target. Zack also tells me this (wow he actually told me what's going on I almost feel bad about leaving him out), so I decide to ask Chieko. Chieko starts freaking out because Adam picked this exact moment to ask her why he's the target.

I hadn't actually told Adam he was the target yet, it was on my to-do list but I didn't say anything yet. I asked Adam, told him he was the target in case Chieko lied about it, and he said Zack told him first. Goddamnit Zack, I no longer feel bad about leaving him out of the true plan.

Adam is now "scared shitless" because he knows he's receiving votes tonight. It's probably a lot scarier when you're the one who could be idoled out. Chieko is now "sweating blood" because somehow information is shifting between sides. There is a double agent somewhere, but who?

Oh well, I can't see me going after all of this. All of this chaos is making for a good birthday present.