The Power of Influence/Confessionals

Day 25
"jigme"

- So yeah somehow I fucking survived. Holy shit. I have no clue where to go from here tho. Marty and Lexi are still def with me, and I think Seamus and Liam are still open to it. JP just goes wherever the majority is, he's lame tbh. Think for yourself man, ugh. Vincent, god knows man. Big Z voted against me and lied about voting Seamus so like meh idrc about his ass anymore. Damien voted for Tyler but like idk where he really stands with anyone, he's such a question mark for me IMO. Meanwhile Tyler just had to go nuts on his way out, like chill bro. Dude called out a lot of people for really stupid reasons. Like umm what was the reason for that? But whatever, I just gotta be social here. Maybe try and win this immunity, who knows. I just need 1 tribal of not being the target to live here. I think I can convince these people I'm enough of a "goat" right now to keep me over others. I mean am I really a goat? I doubt it tbh I think I still have a solid shot despite losing my marbles. All I know is that I should be stable again by the end of this tribal. As I said, when I get down, I'm never going to stop fighting. I'll cut everyone to make it to the end. Whatever it takes, I'll do it. I'm at my strongest right now, like I can feel the fire coming back. There's gonna be hell to pay for some of these people, and they will know they fucked up. Idk what exactly is going to happen next, but whatever it is, this will not be the last people have seen of me. I will not be 9th.

"jigme"

- Wow, Final 9... I mean I knew already I was making single digits with my immunity- but now it's official. This last tribal got kinda hectic and I was at work for it. But basically, Pory made multiple alliance chats over the last few hours and people ended up kinda thinking he was insane and turning on him. So right before I clocked back in from break, it seemed like the vote was Pory- and he gave me his permission to vote him if it was a clear majority. Which was nice, and I want to thank him for that- even though I feel I would have regardless.

Then I got off work, and heard the vote had changed to Tyler. I spent 30 minutes sitting in my car in the parking lot double checking that was correct before voting and driving home. When Tyler started messaging the tribe chat, I pulled over to see what was up, and I messaged him to say I did vote him and that I was sorry and I kinda explained my reasoning.

BUT CAN I JUST SAY- I AM SO HAPPY THAT PEOPLE AREN'T JUST CONSTANTLY LYING TO ME ABOUT VOTES THIS GAME. <3

"jigme"

- Last night blew up, wow. Luckily for me, I figured out there was speculation amongst the tribe that me and Tyler were close, and because of his final words to me which he uttered in the tribe chat, I was able to quickly deny any sort of rumours of us working together, so thanks Tyler! He had a point though - I think I do need to start taking the driver's seat and start working on more strategies instead of leaving everything to be dominated by everyone else. I need to make moves to reinforce why I should win at the end after all, should I make it there that is.

It's funny too, because I got leaked the Tyler vote before tribal council but I presumed it would've been too big of a move for Pory to pull off - but here we are. I guess if I need to, I can use that information as well if I feel unsafe at the next tribal council or two. The game's definitely not over for me yet!

"jigme"

- That was like the craziest tribal ever. I arguably played the single largest role in creating all of this chaos.

At first, the target was on Seamus. I mean, it hadn't been discussed in any alliance chats, but everyone was talking in PMs about that and it seemed like we were going to have a calm vote after that chaos. However, Pory literally created 5 alliance chats in one day and I realized that his strategic game was insane, and I suddenly had flashbacks to Kariba and I thought that if I didn't do something, he was going to take me to the end and I was going to become a 0 vote finalist again. And really, my only goal coming into this game was to not be a 0 vote finalist, so I kind of freaked out.

I spent literally hours debating with myself as to whether I should go ahead and mix things up. I mean, common sense would say that I'd be the obvious target next, but I had an idol, so I thought I could maneuver my way out of that one. I almost wasn't going to do it, but then I remembered how many times I chickened out of making a big move in Kariba, and how I paid the price for that later on. (I'm not saying that big move games are objectively better; but I've tried the UTR approach and I just can not make a good case for myself with that playstyle, so I had to switch things up to fit my strengths). So out of no where, I PM Seamus and tell him he's being targeted.

I don't know what I was expecting, but for some reason I was surprised when Seamus did the most predictable thing ever and told other people, and then Pory found out. Every alliance chat I had with Pory was essentially useless, since Pory obviously couldn't trust me. No matter how many times he told me that he thought Tyler or Big Z had been the leaker, it was incredibly obvious that he knew it was me. Two main reasons:

A) He had literally heard that I was the person who had leaked to Seamus, and he actually mentioned that to me. He then tried to pretend that he thought someone was just trying to throw me under the bus by accusing me.

B) He asked for my idol because of some dumb reason, like 'it wouldn't look good if [I] played it'. It felt like he knew he screwed up with A), and this was his way out of it. I gave him a fake idol, which was definitely a mistake since he wouldn't have cared nearly as much if I had just pretended to forget to give it to him.

(Fun Fact: Marty later told me that Pory had been gunning for me, so my instincts were right.)

I was able to get 5 votes on Pory: me, Seamus, Jp, Marty, Damien. Eventually, I got cold feet and wanted to back out. Just the thought of backstabbing my former number one ally didn't sit right with me. But I had to keep going. It was too late to turn back now.

Or was it?

I realized that Pory was at no where near the power of influence he had held less than 24 hours prior, and that this wasn't the right move at the right time. He came to me, desperate for a way out of this situation. It was at this point that I realized I had an edge over Pory. It was at this point that I realized that him beating me at the end wasn't the forgone conclusion that I had believed it to be. It wasn't the right time to take him out. I had already demonstrated to myself that I had the ability to rally up numbers if I had to; I realized that I was a much better player than I had given myself credit for. I still stood a chance against Pory, there's a lot of game left to play and anything could happen. So I set out to work.

Literally two seconds after I made this decision, Marty messages me. He has come to a similar conclusion, that Pory isn't holding a lot of influence anymore. We had both realized that we didn't need Pory gone, we just needed to get him out of his power position, and we did just that. At this point, we could focus on taking out a UTR player, someone who could really benefit from this chaos. Marty said Tyler's name, and honestly that was good enough for me. It was a huge risk, but it paid off. Tyler's understandably upset, but the good news is that he's annoyed with so many people that it won't be a major factor on who I bring to the end with me. (Haha, as if I have a chance of winning FIC and controlling my destiny there)

Also Pory told everyone about my idol, so now I'm in a precarious position. I'm much more susceptible to blindsides now, so I'm going to have to be much more careful in the future. But that just makes the game more fun, right? ;)

Day 26
"jigme"

- So yeah like this tribal should be fairly simple but so should have the last 2 and we saw what fucking happened then too. Good christ these people couldn't calm down for a minute. But, things seem mostly OK here? I think I'm still good with Marty Vincent Lexi, and that means 1 more is needed, right? If so, I should be away from danger for now at least. Talked with Marty a bit, the guy seems to want either JP or Big Z out, but right now everyone is terrified of throwing out a name and it kind of pisses me off. Like come on man fucking do something! Say a name! Meanwhile Liam continues to just goat around and do nothing the entire fucking game and JP considers every god damn parchment to be a death note "idc as long as you don't write my name down" like bitch cool it you won't die I got my name written down 4 times last tribal and I'm still fucking here damnit. Damien is just also kinda there, he doesn't do shit tbh, and um Big Z yeah kid please like be less shady. You blatantly lied to me last vote and you have no one who will save you. So like, if fate decides to send your ass home, good fucking luck finding someone who can save you. The Lhoste idol is also likely gone unless Seamus or Liam fucking have it and good lord knowing my luck Seamus has it doesn't he oh my please shoot me JESUS. WHY THE FUCK DO CRAZY PEOPLE GET IDOLS. IS IT A FUCKING REQUIREMENT TO HAVE NO BRAIN TO HAVE AN IDOL? GOD! But ugh whatever I'll keep on living ig. Time goes on and everyone gets voted out or wins at some point except for irrelevant 2nd place bitch.

"jigme"

- I’m tired

"jigme"

- Ugh so this is gonna be i guess 2 parts, 1 explaining last rounds tribal and then 1 explaining my thoughts going into the next one!

so last tribal i thought it was me vs pory. but marty and damien are liars let me just start with that. marty was so paranoid that tyler was gunning for him he lied to half his allies in order to get tyler out. trust me i wont forget that. so him pory jp damien lexi vincent voted tyler out. that left me zach and liam on the bottom. trust me i was well angry, and i explained to them how it makes e doubt our alliance if they leave me out. i wanted them to feel guilty, as they should. also i cant work with vincent. the only things that come out of that boys mouth are lies. he is so paranoid that he is gonna be a goat that he just lies and lies and lies and tries to go for "big moves" but burns his relationships in the process. love his personality, but his game and mine dont match.

as soon as results occured jp and i started messaging and we immeditely decided we needed a new group, i want it to be me liam jp zach. but i also have the operation alliance which i have 0 loyalty to.

i told jp as soon as tribal ended that i was gonna win immunity and i did so :)

"jigme"

- So Pory is bringing my name into the fray. Part of me wouldn’t be too broken up about being voted out as I’m about to be on vacation, but I also want to win and not die. So I’m going to try to do all I can to take him out first.

"jigme"

- so now onto tonights vote. i want one of these 3 to go home, vincent lexi or pory. preferably pory or lexi because they are better at challenges. pory told everyone that vincent has the idol so splitting is the best option. but im worried marty and damien are now alligned with pory and wont send him home tbh. my goal for this round is get one of those three out.

my strategy going forward is kinda simple. i wanna solidfy a me liam jp zach alliance. i want marty out, i think he is the biggest threat in this game, and he is a liar. and yah :) if lexi and pory go my chances of winning immunity goes way way up.

"jigme"

- Well you know how I said this should be simple? Think again jackasses we're heading dead on for a 4-3-2 vote. Or, a 3-3-3 vote. I don't know what is going to happen tbh. Marty is saying that everyone but me vincent lexi are supposed to be splitting it 3-3 on Lexi and Vincent, Vincent bc he has the idol (my b) and Lexi bc she's more threatening. (Those are just my inferences, Marty did not directly tell me those). Marty then told me that he would be flipping to us, and voting for big Z. Meaning, Big Z **should** go 4 - 3 - 2 Big Z - Lexi - Vincent. He also told me straight up that I was definitely not getting votes and that I should be safe here. So, this means one of 2 things. 1: He's actually just told me the truth or 2: I am getting votes and this is so vincent does not idol me. But here's the thing: by what he's saying, we won't need the idol. It would be a 4-3-2 vote we have the plurality here. So if he did turn his back on us it would be a 3-3-3 vote where Big Z Lexi and Vincent tie. And in that case well at least I know I'm safe. Buuuuuut that means Vincent is gone so like that would kiiiinda suck. Meanwhile here if he did take me out that would be very stupid, same for Lexi because why blatantly lie to us for an entire day and then turn his back on us just to get rid of someone without an idol, right? It makes too little sense. Even if I'm the "safe vote" Vincent is 100% not playing the idol this vote, so he can be taken out with it. If he wanted to flush the idol and take out one of us he would say that we couldnt get them to split and Vincent will have to idol someone, which isn't happening, so I should be safe? But who knows bc I'm still worried af.