I Want to See Them Lose and Cry About It/Confessionals

Day 6
"ouani"

- "With a second victory in a row, I feel like things are slowing down a bit, and I don't like it. There is so much small talk I can entertain until I don't want to talk with somebody unless things get juicy, and I am hitting that spot with pretty much all my tribemates, starting with Austin, then Aro, then Zach, then Andrea, then Grace, then Vivor. It worries me that just like I am not starting conversations as often others are not with me either, or at least not as often. It's usually a sign that if they aren't talking with me they are talking with somebody else, which isn't great, but I do feel that Andrea, Grace and Vivor all want to ally me, and the feeling is mutual. I think it was Andrea who pretty much told to me that ""Austin did all the work for us putting together an alliance of us two, Grace and Vivor"" so that was pretty ballsy of her and made me a rather happy fella.

That being said, our tribe's performance last immunity was pretty bad, I was lucky, at risk of sounding like the pompous ass that I am, that nobody in the ORG rea tds good literature or plays chess. But I am worried that the fact that only me and Vivor did good is luring eyes my way, but then again Vivor kicked ass on his puzzle AND the tiebreaker AND the first immunity so I feel like he is a way better target for me, chess is such a niche talent anyways. Part of me wants to go to tribal because I know that a vote is the only way that I am going to be able to forge solid game bonds with the people I want to work with, and also because I really do want to get Austin out because his poor gameplay could screw me over in a swap, also tribes that retain all their members are always very flashy targets in three tribe seasons, and seeing how in this seasons connections are pretty lowkey, tribal lines might matter come merge as one of few straws to grasp.

I am nervous about the thought of growing complacent, so I am going to do the rounds just to nudge things so that they stay on the track I had previous set up. Austin has gone silent once again, so he might be digging his own grave further after that messy alliance he set up, so I am going to make sure that nobody else is talking to him if I am, and if I have to, talk to him as much as pretty much everything he spews feels like amateur hour that reminds me why he was considered together with myself one of the Japan goats. Honestly, I'd grade him a C+ for initiative and an F for execution. But yeah, I do want to step out of the current limbo of pleasantries, to start scheming with others about stuff beyond Austin-Is-Not-The-Sharpest-Tool-Now-Is-He, but I am scared that I might come across as if I am overplaying, so I just need to nuance it, maybe even introduce Aro and Zach to the Austin shenanigans, but that might be too risky. I just need to do something before growing complacent or bored."

"wanani"

- So I’m walking around treemail… and see a nice little treasure chest and somehow I got all the numbers on the lock correct and low and behold, a sis got a HIDDEN IMMUNITY IDOL! ABFHNDJMSKLKJGFNMDS I’m so so so so proud of myself for actually finding one, it was on my 703 bucket list for sure! In Byzantium, I spent so much time looking for the Edessa one only to find an empty chest so I redeemed myself here! I did play an idol on myself in Byzantium when Hannah passed the Edessa one over to me and we blindsided Claire, which like rip to that legend but that move was so fun to pull off so I’m sure the Wanani Idol will be used in a situation like that. I tend to go home with idols/advantages in my pocket and I really don’t want that to be the case here. In order to annihilate your competition, you need weapons of mass destruction to gain the upperhand and this idol just so happens to be mine. We’re locked and loaded for a win y’all <3

"wanani"

- Now that I have the idol, I did tell Rob that I had it after all! If that’s a good or bad decision is yet to be seen, but he seems like a somewhat influential player so I’d rather have him on my good side than my bad side. Plus, I just think he’s awesome so might as well earn the trust of someone when you can. My only concern is if people such as Tobi or Dani find out because then I’d be in some hot waters with them and the game is supposed to be smooth sailing… so yeah let’s hope this stays underwraps.

"wanani"

- Wanani like… NEEDS to win immunity for many reasons. For one, I have my hand in a lot of cookie jars and I want to keep all the cookies where they are for the time being (aka if we go to tribal, I have to betray someone and could potentially be exposed). Secondly, our tribe losing numbers is not good in case of a tribal swap at F16 since then I’d probably HAVE to use my idol… not a cute look. That being said, I hope my tribe gets second because if we get another idol clue, soon enough someone will realize that the idol was found and I’m not down for idol paranoia at the moment! All in all, I hope my tribe knows their Survivor facts/contestants :D

Day 7
"wanani"

- Yellow lost immunity and I hope alex vivor goes home.

"ouani"

- So sadly we lost the challenge, and at first i was nervous as hell because i could get target, but i’m quite confident about where the votes will be going. So luckily during my talk with Aro during the puzzle challenge he was wanting to talk to about game related and JUST AFTER Alex V won the tie breaker he ask me about tribal “boot wise” that leads me to think that he was thinking of booting someone. When i brought this to other people, he already perceived as shady and untrustworthy. So Aro will most likely be our first boot. Regarding idols, when i first built my alliance Grace starts the conversation of idol and numbers, now fully knowing that i guess 82 is in the combination, Alex V revealed that he had 32 is in the combination, so now i have two confirm numbers unless if he’s lying that i’m certain i won’t trust him, and he knows that so i’m taking this information to heart. Finding the last number. Which i’m assuming it maybe something with the number 2 because both numbers have 2. So this could mean something, maybe not will see.

"wanani"

- "ALRIGHT - SO we won immunity again!!! I am sososososossoso fucking happy because i am so busy with work this weekend that im worried that if we went to tribal people would vote me out for being “””inactive””” or something, when im always talking with Rob ab idol guesses and tobi and augusto about everythint and anything. Right now i feel really good on my tribe and i feel really solid, because i think its quite clear that pory/mihai are on the outs so far. pory was with brian and as far as i know, mihai isnt with anyone either. Either way, if either one leaves during a swap or whatever, i won’t be too bothered !

Rob and I are 1 fuckin idol number away from the code, and im so excited. I really wanna get this idol and secure it for me and rob, because I know if i have it in my hand, i’ll use it for BOTH of us, but i can not trust rob 1000% to use the idol on me, even if we found it together. I trust him the most in the game, but i dont want to potentially have my life in his hands and he ends up voting me out :( "

"ouani"

- "Well our luck finally ran out, and here we are at tribal. I'm pretty worried cause Austin's blatantly throwing out my name to everyone. But gun to my head? I think I might be safe. Grace, Andrea, and Zach have all reassured me that they have my back. Joan kinda grilled me about some stuff which freaked me out a bit. Alex is a bit hard to read. I know this is an All Stars season but I don't think they'd lie to me so much this early.

It's going to be super tricky if we lose again, cause Zach has mentioned the possibility of two overlapping 4 person alliances. One with him, Joan, Andrea, and Grace and the second with him, me, Grace, and Alex. The problem is he says NEITHER of the alliances have been made official, which makes me feel like its gonna get really messy if we go to tribal again. I just really wanna get my hands on this idol A.S.A.P."

"ouani"

- "hi we lost the chall and ive been busy and forgot most of what i wanted to write about

so like, yesterday i finally got alliance agreements out of both grace and andrea, and i genuinely think im not being lead astray here. like, i think theyre both closer to joan than i am, which worrys me cause all we need is another loss and joan, vivor, grace and andrea can just kill aro (who, i do believe, is the general consensus to go after austin, sadly.) i dont want that to happen by any means, so ive been focusing a lot on talking with grace and sharing info with her.

anyway tho, an alliance of me/grace/alex might come about, possibly with andrea, and one of me/andrea/grace/joan is definitely happening tomorrow morning. im just excited to finally be included in concrete plans. i just pray for a swap to save aromals life at this point. i wanna play the game w him, but i dont wanna compromise my own.

So yeah we lose the chall and instantly theres no doubt in anyones mind - austin is the vote. Hes been lying about Aromal and Grace, not talking to people (myself included) for upwards of two days at a time, and just generally sticks out like a sore thumb amongst the unity and cohesion that aro, alex, andrea, joan, grace and i have. Austin did try to make an alliance chat with Joan, Grace, Alex and himself, where he is targeting Aromal, thinking hes got me and Andrea on his side. If we're all smart, Austin just gets 6-1'd, but idol paranoia is always a factor. Joan did tell Grace that someone already found it, and i do believe him that it isnt him, and i know its not grace or i. I doubt its Andrea either, so the idol is in the pocket of Aro, Austin or Alex. I, of course, would love to see Aro with it, although it would kinda sting to know he got it without telling me, but i do think hed use it for me if i needed it. However, the most likely scenario is that Alex has it. Afaik, he and Joan had been sharing their guesses, and both were ON TOP of their guesses. thats not, like, the end of the world, but it deffo aint the beginning either.

Like, theres a LOT of headache over just a simple vote. I get it, idols are a fear, and i guess if i was the one receiving the vote id prob be scrambling for a backup as well, but i do genuinely think the six of us work together as a unit really well. Its unlike any other tribe ive ever been on. Maybe thats just the power of 703, but i rly hope we can win out or swap before we have to turn on each other. That would fuckin SUCK.

idk what else i was gonna write about its fuckin almost 2am and im nowhere near high or drunk enough to continue the rambles. "

"wanani"

- STKDGKGDKDYLLGDGGXHXXGZZKGZHDJVKVHSITTSKTKSYKSLYDYLULHXVXVMGXDGTSISITTISYDLFUTKjrRjzfxgchcigtzt I GOT THE CONBINATION FOR THE IDOL AHHHHHHHHHHH I NEED TO GET IT FUCCKK

"ouani"

- ANNIHILATION DAY 7

"ouani"

- "This is quite the whirlwind. My half-lies seem to have got Vivor and Grace to think that I really don't have the idol, and the main suspiscion has been put on Austin (who could've found it and felt cocky hence why he is running around as if he owns the tribe, alas fiction is more convincing than fact) and Aro (who is pretty sneaky and quiet). I even have Grace thinking that the idol could've been found by Vivor in a convoluted ploy to make it look like he did not find it all along by having me finding it was gone. The fact that I was lucky enough to be able to pretend finding it was gone and send them the messages the hosts sent me (including insults for added realism) feels like I really did play them both in that aspect, because they probably aren't even considering that I had the two numbers Vivor didn't have all along and found it even earlier than Vivor expected me to. However, the amount of strain that the idol has put in Vivor's envisioned alliance of me and Grace probably means we are not meant to last, and Grace seems to be somewhat annoyed at Vivor's shenanigans, and so am I if I am being honest.

Zach has seemingly come to play after all, as he said that he wanted an alliance with me and Andrea, and then added Grace to the mix. However, Vivor has been seemingly spreading dirt on Zach which might either be true or false. He claims that Zach tried to form an alliance with Grace, Aro and him or something along those lines, and earlier today he said something about Zach telling Austin my name but Austin reassuring that Aro was the target, which has me really confused. I don't know if Vivor wants me to hate Zach, or if Zach is really playing me, or if everybody is playing me and Vivor is the only one that has my back. I honestly don't know man. I'm suddenly in three different alliances started by Austin, Vivor and Zach, and I'm with Grace in all of them and both of us are sort of confused as to what the fuck is going on and why these people are like this. Alliances tend to be good, but this overabundance of them makes me anxious as fuck, and has me considering if word has gotten out that I have the idol (even though I haven't told a soul, and won't, when talking to others I literally am in the mindset that the idol was ACTUALLY gone, and I sometimes even buy into it myself and believe it until I am done talking to these people).

I talked to Austin, and he said that he only heard Aro's name and that's it, which means he is either protecting Zach, which is stupid because it doesn't fit into the ""alliance"" narrative he has been building for the whole game, and the fact that he turned on Aro without even giving a name. So Vivor was lying. My theory is that Vivor really wants me to stick by his side so he is making up dirt on Zach so I don't mutiny over to Zach's side. I really do feel that if my game was being spread, Andrea would come up running to tell me because I've had her back. I think Austin is too out of it to be able to join a blindside against me without fucking up the whole plan, and I think that if Vivor can spend all this time talking to me only to send me home before the messy inactive he is a sociopath and can go fuck himself, and I feel like Grace really wants Austin out. Aro talks far too little to join in on a blindside, and he barely is online at any given point. So that leaves Zach and potentially Vivor as people who could try voting me out, and I don't picture it at all. The fact that this is our first vote it should be a united decision, and I don't feel left out from the discourse, which is what tends to happen when your boot looms. I gotta remind myself that people have been coming to me, not the other way around, so I really hope that people are not putting that much work into a first tribe blindside. Additionally, I don't think others have mongered information between players as fluidly as I have (giving the impression that to whoever I am talking to is actually the person I was telling the truth) when in reality I've been building a cross-secition of the dynamics between the players and what they share and don't with one another. I feel that in order to get me out, these players would have to put in a lot of trust in partially exposing themselves to one another, such as Vivor exposing that he has been sharing idol guesses, Grace much of the same, and Andrea would probably reveal how much she was leaning into me. I don't think the other players are on the same page, so I have my fingers crossed that I am not plot-twist booted with an idol in my pocket in my very first tribal. I know I am being paranoid but the last time I grew complacent in 703 I woke up to a PM from Charlie saying that Cali and Nathan had turned the whole tribe on me and I proceeded to have a massive meltdown hours before my final high school exam. But yeah now that I've told myself the tea I think that all is good, and that if this plan goes according to plan I will be able to trust these people way more and feel less nervous, because whilst I feel that most of the tribe is playing chess, Austin is still out there playing checkers and setting himself up for a blindside that if it doesn't come through I'll be PISSED."

"wanani"

- "So Cycle 3 has come and gone. Honestly, once I saw the challenge, I was relieved but not completely. Through my connections to The Genius, I have determined the best possible way to blast through this challenge. It's the same principle as Truth Detector: Binary Search. Binary Search is pretty simple. You just halve the possibilities each time! That's the best strategy in truth detector, and the best strategy here. Yeah, sure, you won't get like, 8 by doing this. But you will never go over 12 if you do it right. By making a spreadsheet and sorting it alphabetically, I can roleplay as Thanos and snap as much as I need.

Now, in order to get the whole tribe to do this, I did have to go a bit ""armchair general"", which yeah I mean, being pushy with the challenge isn't what people want to see but it got us the win so I think people are willing to forgive it. The last time I started going down that path I was barely able to contribute at all, which... yeah. It did not end well. But here! Here, it is different. Here, I have managed to win the war of immunity. And, yeah, maybe someone in my position should not be doing this. But who gives a shit? Do you want me to risk tribal instead? Hell fucking no.

Meanwhile, on the idol front, things are looking quite grim. Now, I trust Tobi with my life, so I think he was telling me the truth when he said he didn't get anything. But, we're starting to believe we've been a bit bamboozled. In F R I E N D, we were giving what we guessed for the idol. And, well, as we know, Rob was not too enthused with the alliance. So, if he lied to us, I am gonna make sure he knows next time to bite his snake tongue before he speaks. Just like Shelly De Killer, I am not one who is necessarily fond of betrayals. All Rob had to say was that he forgot to guess. As for Brian, well, he was maybe a bit too committed to the alliance, so I doubt he would lie. As for what would happen if Rob was caught lying... well, he may have to face the wrath of an angry tribe :D

For the challenge, slightly sad Moya won. That means that Smocke is at tribal, which fucking sucks, and now Moya has some sort of morale. If they kept losing, their spirit would keep being crushed over and over again. It would be quite fun for me, not for them. Yeah, I love drew, and Loren seems cool, but let's face it, bloodlust outweighs love. I can be friends outside of the game. For now, I want to see them lose and cry about it on the results posts~"

"wanani"

- Raven Baxter is quaking because it literally all went how I saw it hghnfdjms, Wanani getting second was <3 plus Ouani is going to their first tribal which is exciting since it evens the playing field a bit more for all of us so yay for that! My hope is that one of the members I don’t know well such as Zach/Austin/Joan leaves (I’m sure they are awesome tho <3) just so that in a potential swap, I have some sort of connections to go off of idk. Also my tribe winning is good because recently Rob has been talking to me about Pory not messaging him a lot which has him worried so not having to deal with a potential Rob versus Pory thing is amazing for me. This round lowkey slapped huh hgjfdms