Board Thread:Survivor 43: San Andrés/@comment-38356764-20200522161503/@comment-26156957-20200522220943

Hello Abi! I appreciate your plesant speech and your kind remarks to all of us finalists.

Regret in general: This response is basically an extension of a response I had for Jay. I think I could’ve had more flexibility throughout the merge had I downplayed my threat level and appeared more open and not completely fixated to post-swap tribal lines. Winning the first challenge and idol speculation didn’t help with that, so if I had proved to nuSoacha that there were more threatening players than myself, we probably could have aligned with them to keep the target off us. Since there was always the perception of nuSoacha fans vs A/A/A, maybe we could’ve set our differences aside to focus on the real kingpins of this tribe being Jim/Mackie/Izzy had we realized it sooner.

Regret with you: I know you’re an exceptionally loyal person Abi, which is truly rare in a deceitful game like Survivor and it’s a testimony of how amazing you are as a human. Even though the A/A/A threesome was never an official thing, I should’ve been more realistic and honest with you about how I felt regarding my true loyalty to us three only much more early on. I was sure that Jim and Mackie would make a move against us eventually, but I didn’t want to come across as disloyal and cutthroat towards you if I pitched that worry. I think I let you grow too close to our 5 and when Jim and Mackie got the jump on us, you felt hurt because of it.

Thankful for: I’m thankful that I even received the invite to compete in this fantastic season at the perfect time. Survivor is one of my favorite shows and games of all time and I love the thrill of playing it online. My last few ORG experiences all ended on sour notes and I convinced myself that I just wasn’t cut out for this game anymore. Plus, with my real life in the world of college kickstarting just last year, I doubted that I could ever play one of these ever again. However, with my sudden free time due to the pandemic and Winners at War rekindling that passion within me, competing in this game is an experience I’ll always cherish. I think I redeemed myself this season as both a returnee and a Survivor player and I couldn’t be more proud of myself. Now I can only hope to top off this journey with the grand title of Sole Survivor.

I’m sincerely thankful that I got to share this adventure with you Abi and I hope we can stay friends beyond this game. Thank you so much for everything!