I'm So Confused Now/Confessionals

Day 24
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- Well, things worked out as planned, and we were even able to flush an idol. Now, things get more tricky. Erin and I got into another argument, which I guess was kind of disheartening. She doesn't believe me or Linh for some reason, even though we worked our asses off to make sure she survived this tribal council. However, I am going to give her the benefit of the doubt and put that all behind us. I was able to woo JT into believing that they were after him, which caused his paranoia to waste an idol for no reason whatsoever. So I know that we could potentially use him as a fourth. The swing votes, in my opinion, are going to be Shellie and Erin. I am going to try and lay down the groundwork, but I hope they will

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- No communicate. It's sucks. It's really badddddd. I hate this

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- The more I think about it, the more I realize that this is soooo not a good situation for me. Yet again, the Survivor gods gave me the short end of the stick, but that was to be expected. Now, I feel like people see Linh and I as too much of threats. So, I do expect my name to come up yet again for a target. However, I am going to try and appeal to JT and see if I can work any magic with Shellie. I really don't know if we could pull this off, especially with an idol, but I think it is a possibility. I am confident that their side has all of the remaining idols, which is very good for them. However, I am going to give it my all to make sure I am sitting here after tomorrow's tribal. In other words, not talking to Linh is killing me. She is hoenstly the only person in this game that I actually like at this point... I like the others, but not in a friendly manner. It feels much more forced. The only genuine friendship is with Linh at this point. I'm praying that she got something good from the auction, because we need it at this point.

Day 25
"saranoa"

- And suddenly Erin and I get along again. She said she will give me another chance, and all of that. blah blah blah. However, I don't know if I can trust her long term. I think it is the general consesus that Anh was tight with michelle and that he is too good in challenges. I was thinking that we could at least use Erin as a vote against Anh, and perhaps use JT as a long term ally

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- Ahihi a long day. Everyone seem splitting the vote between me and Fabi. And JT want to work with OG Kilimbit. Idk it's true or not, beside Anh want to flip to vote with me. They want voting for Julez, but my target is Erin. It's really hard because 2 my allys want vote for Julez and i want voting for Erin. I have to decide, i will voting for Julez finally. That's what my alliance want. I have 2 tokens and also can steal the vote from others. But i want to risk in this round, so i will not use it I hope this decision will not make me to leave the game T T

"saranoa"

- fuck. If Fabian gets the token I'l be super pissed,but well with the luck I've had this whole game I wouldnt be surprised IF I survive JT's ass is going home so fast we wont even need a tribal.

Day 26
"saranoa"

- I've recently decided to start conniving again... I honestly don't know what it is, but I can't resist lying, conniving, and being sneaky. It's just so tempting, causing all of the chaos and just watching it unfold before my eyes. I honestly don't care if it is bad or good for my gameplay, but it is kind of exhilarating for me tbh. Getting on in the morning, seeing messages in which people are paranoid are generally just upset with me is like waking up to present under the tree. As long as I am in this game, I don't think that will change. Chaos will reign forever haha.

"saranoa"

- Use...not use...use...not use....use....not use...OMG I'm so confused now

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- This tribal was a mess cause no one had the pants to take the leadership role. I'm sick of these people. Now I'll play like I want to. I don't need no idols, advangates or tokens. All I need is myself and my thirst for blood. I really hope I survive this round so we can get the game going…