This Is the Stupidest Decision You Could Have Made/Confessionals

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Day 26

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Day 25
"yangra"

- Okay... i don't even know where to begin. 1 hour passed since the tribal, i am close to tears (of gratefulness), hands are shaking. I just opened jack daniels + cola cocktail to celebrate the vote. even if it didn't went too perfectly. but.... daaaaaamn what a vote.

it's 3:10am, but i'll try to review this while it's fresh on my mind.

- ok, so, after last vote, me, Nathaniel and Nicole are feeling on the bottom, and nobody is talking game talk with us. 3-6 - not cool.

- i still have a pretty solid alliance with Conch and Isaiah who are super powerful players, and both are promising me to watch my back, but none of them are offering me any ideas for the move.

- it's basically "yeah, they might watch my back while pagonging my friends Nicole and Nathaniel, and then use me as their goat to make a move on someone". as i wrote in my previous confessional - "Mongolia Marty would accept it, Supernova Martynas wants more".

- 19 hours passed, still silence and no names named. i am talking with Caeb, to who yesterday i pointed out that we might be able to reconnect Mono 2.0. if we all make F8 (Caeb, Conch, Isaiah, me, who as i wrote few days ago - used to be kinda of my end-game plan)

- so, i talk with Caeb and think.... screw it. let's gamble.

- i pointed out all CJ's threat levelness to him. Catnip's last message during vote read to me was "someone has OG mono idol, so be careful" - so i say to Caeb - "if you have it, i am happy for you, if CJ has it - it's scary!" he assures me that he doesn't have it. Plus i tell him that i found a place where merge idol was hidden - CJ had the most extra clues to it. he has the most chances to have it. so it's big chances he has 2 idols + is extra likeable to avoid votes + is super strong in challenges. so if he survives this round - he can start writing his FTC speech.

- Caeb seems totally understanding the threat level. i can get bottom people (me/Nathaniel/Nicole) and Caeb can get Okie.

making it 5-4 silent plan ok CJ.

- couple hours after it was agreed, Conch approaches me saying that they heard about my plan on CJ and is trying to save my ass. we ASSUME Okie spilled the vote.

- Conch totally understands my reasoning, Isaiah comes online, i include him on what is happening, he also understands my reasoning. so we kinda have a group of 6 understanding CJ's threat level (see? with talking alone i think that i got from 3-6 to 6-3)

- we decide to split the vote. 3 on CJ, 3 on Okie, 3 (most likely) on me. Me/Caeb/Nicole votes CJ, Nathaniel/Isaiah/Conch votes Okie.

- when there's 10 minutes left until deadline i am starting to write Okie to vote CJ (as there's 4 people voting for you!) (in case CJ gets involved to this plan and throws a vote on Okie to survive without using idols). However, while i was typing the message, Nathaniel messages me that Okie is trying to get a vote split on me and Nathaniel, so i stop from typing. with 5 mins left until deadline i finish my message to Okie after all. he says that "if i had written 10 mins ago, he might have done it, but now it's too late for him to check.

- so........ all this amazing plan was too much reaching. Caeb deserves an oscar - he was never with me. he voted me, and was waiting to see my boot in 4-3-2 fashion.

-but.... while i was being stupid in trusting incorrect people...

Conch and Nathaniel had convinced CJ to vote Okie instead of me. so instead of 4-3-2 me going home, it was 4-3-2 Okie going home.

yeah, a superplayer with 2 possible idols might have stayed with same 2 possible idols.

yeah, Okie might had went home if i had been stayed silent all day

yeah, i now am forever grateful and ready to hug and kiss Nathaniel and Conch for this masterpiece.

but heck yeah, it solidified some bonds. and showed me who i can't trust. you can ignore my "ideal boot list" from couple days ago, all my loyalty is to Conch, Nathaniel, Nicole and Isaiah. I don't see any problems to lose to any of them at the end if needed. i learned my lesson, i am humbled, and i just survived so exciting tribal council.

how funny is it that with all my tries to revenge Gevonte - the one who is next on revenge list goes home instead of the ones i targeted originally? :D

"yangra"

- Hot damn, that was a spicy vote. My allies are fully at each other’s throats now (which I suppose makes sense considering literally everyone left in the game is aligned with me). It’s about to start getting really difficult to continue playing the middle, but I’ve positioned myself unbelievably well so far and developed a few extremely strong relationships, so at this point it’s just a matter of holding on for dear life and not letting go.

I think CJ, Caeb, and Isaiah all consider me their closest ally at this point, and I’m high up the trust rankings of Nathaniel, Nicole, and Martynas. Matty probably trusts me less after this vote, but I’m not sure that ire will be directed at me specifically, since basically everyone in our alliance but him wanted Okie out.

The TLDR of that vote is that I’d wanted okie out for multiple rounds now. We just didn’t have as strong a bond as I did with the rest of this group, and he’d positioned himself as the rogue mercenary who people could come to if they wanted to make a big move, and that kind of player is extremely dangerous for the game I’ve been playing, if my allies are coming to him when they want to make moves instead of coming to me.

Which is exactly what happened this round. I’d laid the groundwork with both of my alliances for an easy Okie vote this round - and then Martynas tries to coordinate a fucking CJ blindside, doesn’t tell me or Isaiah about it, and tries to loop in Caeb and Okie! Ok, ok, I know that’s basically the same thing Isaiah and I did when we left Martynas out of the Catnip vote, but it’s ok when we do it, because Isaiah and I actually know what we’re doing, and are positioned well enough to have the intel on where people actually stand and who will and won’t be down for what move. And Martynas, you big dummy, Caeb is not going to be down for a CJ vote!! If you’d just come to me and tried to pitch this, I could’ve told you that!

The moment Caeb tells me about Martynas’s plan and that he’s, as expected, not on board, I know shit’s about to hit the fan. And Caeb immediately starts telling me about how he was down with an Okie vote before, but now he wants Martynas because he’s being shady. Which he is, it’s true, Caeb is absolutely right. Goddamnit Martynas, literally all you had to do is keep your mouth shut and you would’ve been fine, but instead now I have to save your dumb ass.

I know that if Caeb hasn’t already told CJ that Martynas is gunning for him, he’s about to, so I know I need to get ahead of the curve. So I tell CJ that his name is out there and of course I throw Okie under the bus as the person who initiated it. And that’s actually a pretty believable lie because Okie has spent the round pushing for a swing vote, and everyone knows that if you’re pushing for a swing vote at the final 9, you’re trying to make a 4-3-2 vote happen. So okay then Okie, let’s turn those tables.

The problem is, CJ then asks me who I heard this from, and I’m not gonna tell him Caeb, because then CJ and Caeb can just compare notes and figure out I’m twisting their words to push an Okie vote. So I tell CJ that Martynas told me Okie was pushing this vote. And maybe in retrospect that was a mistake, and I should’ve gotten on the same page with Nathaniel or something, and tell CJ that Nathaniel told me, since I know that CJ trusts Nathaniel a lot more than Martynas (although that may be in the past tense now). But yeah, CJ deduces with his big detective brain that Martynas is actually the one who wants him out (ding ding!) and of course wants to gun for him. And meanwhile Isaiah and I are just like god fucking dammit, why can’t we all just vote Okie.

Also, while all of this is happening, Matty decides to make a fucking 6 person alliance with Okie in it (???!!!?!) because he’s on another planet and not on the same page as the rest of us at all. So yay, good job Matty, guess who’s definitely not getting looped into this Okie vote now! I’m trying to just have a social day with friends while all of this is happening. I’m finally out of COVID lockdown and just want to have a real ass life, and these messy players are out here ruining my day!

I’m barely even looking at my phone at this point, but thankfully I’m hearing about absolutely everything that’s happening because everyone still trusts me for some reason. But whenever I’m online long enough, I try to redirect all this CJ vs Martynas drama towards Okie. But Martynas can’t leave well enough alone, and still has it in his head that he can flush CJ’s alleged idols (and maybe CJ really does have idols, but I don’t care tbh, CJ trusts me and would maybe even play an idol for me if it came down to it). So he proposes splitting the vote between CJ and Okie, and at this point I just agree to that because time is running out and I’d rather have Martynas telling at least some of his allies to vote Okie rather than telling them all to pile it on CJ.

Nathaniel and I, being smart players, have both realized at this point that Martynas is dangerously close to getting himself 4-3-2ed out of the game, because he just doesn’t have some of the votes he thinks he has. And honestly at this point Im almost hoping for a timeline where Martynas does end up being the 4, and I vote in the 3, so I can tell our allies I followed the plan, voted Okie like I said I would, and Martynas was just an idiot who got himself voted out. But Nathaniel is a hero or something and somehow manages to get CJ to vote okie at the last minute (?????) even though CJ is the one who wanted Martynas out more than anyone, by just stirring up fear in CJ that voting Okie is the only way to save himself.

CJ reaches out to me before the vote and tells me he’s voting Okie to prove trust to me, and I’ve been wanting Okie out all round, so I’m not going to talk him out of it even though I know it’s just because Nathaniel has been playing with his head. But I guess CJ is so busy telling me he’s voting Okie that he forgets to tell Caeb, who he made promise to vote Martynas. So now Caeb is pissed at CJ, rightfully so, for making him look like a snake to Martynas.

Basically, that round was a hot clusterfuck, but it ended with my ideal target going in a fun and flirty 4-3-2, and now everyone is pissed at each other, with Isaiah and I somehow both staying squeaky clean. CJ wants Martynas out so bad now, and keeps telling me how much he’s willing to lie to his allies (no, that’s me, but go off king). I’m frankly frustrated at Martynas too for playing so damn sloppily (why are these former winners playing like fucking amateur chaos goblins???). But Martynas knows he’s still alive because of me (and Nathaniel) so he’s feeling good about me I think. CJ knows Nathaniel played him a bit and trusts him less now. Nathaniel thinks Caeb is a huge snake now. Caeb is angry at CJ. Matty is upset nobody told him what was happening. Nicole is chill, despite losing probably her closest ally. But otherwise, this next vote is gonna be such a mess that I’m frankly just hoping that some sort of exile twist materialises and I get to fuck off for a round, because I’m about to have to show my cards, and I don’t want to! It’s going to be some hard choices from here on out.

"yangra"

- What the actual hell. The last minute scramble was upon us, and I am shocked to see Okie go. Kinda mad because CJ was in on it. To be fair, he was trying to save his ass because he was on the block a lot more seriously than I thought. BUT, I am now almost 100% positive that Conch and Isaiah are for sure running the game. If my voting history that I've kept up with is correct, both of them are for sure the only ones left in the game who have voted correctly at every tribal thus far. I'm on a warpath now, folks.

Day 26
"yangra"

- My plan right now is to get Martynas out. Is this simple? Yes, he isn't a threat to win imo. BUT, he creates chaos that I don't necessarily want. He tells everyone everything and I am sick and tired of it. Plus, Martynas being gone will free up Nathaniel and Nicole up to be working it out before then. I want to be able to set myself up well, and I think my connection with CJ and Caeb could allow me to take control at the final 7...I hope.

"yangra"

- Conch came to me and they were definitely trying to cover their ass in my eyes. They at least owned up their vote to me, unlike Isaiah. I understand what they were trying to do. But they do not have me fooled. I am so moved by them in so many ways but also like...I see them being a HUGE jury threat in the game right now. I'm like a snake in the grass, it's just a matter of when to strike.

"yangra"

- If i am voted out because my fat fingers can't press correct button in chess notes, it will be the most awful way to be voted out. i'd much rather had gotten out last round in an epic way, than this round this epic fail. if i am out - i will change my server name to Fart-ynas.