I'm Still Running Everything/Confessionals

Day 23
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- I'm so mad LMAO dusk just basically said I was Szymons goat I guess no matter how much I try in any game I'll always be viewed as Szymons Goat.... It's so draining I am here to improve and of course these people just assume things!!! Like.... I mentioned Eva to Szymon first and it was passed around and I'm about to make a plan to flush Soras idol!!! Do I wanna vote off Szymon out now??? Nooo the merge is where I prove myself and I don't care what other people think ill keep on making moves to help my game but mentally I'm really weak right now and unlike some of these people I get sad when somebody tells me something rude Infront to my face or behind my back :( and I just I don't know I'm a mess right now and i wish I can just be proud of myself for once. It sucks being told that u can't see that somebody is running the game it's like having somebody telling u that u can't do anything like no tea no shade Miguel is basically relying on idols, Idk what dusk did yet,Bryce basically is the weakest and pissed off the villains and Bas is just so sketchy but his ass is on the jury and Sarah who is also on the jury was basically Eva's side kick. I don't have anything personal against any of them I love them all but once Dusk just told me that I can't see that Szymon is a threat it just wants me to bring out the fire out of me I'll write more after Dinner....

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- Honestly me and Dusk made up fast!!! That whole thing was random but honestly no matter what I'll always think Dusk is amazing and Miguel Bryce and the Heroes. I am not gonna fixate on making a huge move like nobody here is the obvious threat like Perry!!! There is a lot of people who I can see be very good and winners it feels great playing against good players. I am also in a good spot im still trying to fix trust with Bryce and Miguel and I also have my utr alliance with Eddie also Sora told me about his idol which I need to think how to flush. Anything that happened today I should get over it I'm just going to say I can and I think I'm playing a better game than resurgence. Also when I say there isn't no obvious threat there are some threats I still need to get rid of. I feel like I need to try to get rid of a villain this tribal!

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- Thomas is honestly a pain to deal with. Not only does he spill the beans on everything all the time, but the moment he gets a little bit of power he turns into a Boston Rob wannabe and I'm done with him.

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- Nothing good ever happens to me in this game i swear and i do really regret voting for Bas i thought he could of flipped. Why did he had to be so untrustworthy??? Im still working on getting miguel and bryces trust back a bit but ugh it just feels everything is so draining and also ill make 100 days soon i,ll be pissed if i dont make it this tribal since if i dont i wouldnt make it 100 days :((( Right now im just really drained from this game.

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- Well that fucking sucks. This is how I lost in IDS. Because the wiki said I was a minute early or a minute fucking late almost every post AND LOOK WHAT HAPPENS HERE. LOOK WHAT HAPPENS HERE. I cannot STAND THIS GAME ANYMORE.

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- So I think I won't win immunity but I just made a deal with jen and she's gonna share her clue with me and only me and it'll be our little secret

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- What the actual hell just happened.

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- I am seriously so pissed off right now you have no idea. Like are you freaking kidding me. We are voting out a hero this early after gaining the advantage. How stupid is that. I'll admit, I wanted to get Bas out eventually but I wanted to wait one more vote so we can ensure our safety after he left. NOW, we are tied 5-5 and we are supposedly five strong to the end. I am looking ahead in the game and I honestly am so mad at what might come out of this. Pure Disaster.

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- My alliance says that they didn't tell me because I was 'Dead set' on Sora. That might be because NO ONE MENTIONED BAS OR VOTING BAS OUT OR NOTHING. I am starting to think that my alliance might not trust me. I would not have cared if they were like 'Hey we think Bas is a threat, here's why, and here is how we are going to get out of the rabbit hole when we do vote him out.' Then everything would have been Sunshine and Rainbow. BUT NO, everyone has to be manipulative and screw me over.

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- This is just one big mess now. But this is what happened in IDS. So I just need to adjust. Which has been so hard for me to do here.

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- I think this is the end of the road for me. The chapter of 703 ends. No doubt I had a good time. I outlasted 12 people. Im proud that I at least finished top 10. But it was the same story as the last two games. I was my own worst enemy. I had one hell of a time and it just wasnt meant for me to win this game. And I absolutely come to realize that and accept that. Ive made some good friends because of this game and I played as hard as I could. Thats all anyone can ask for.

Day 24
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- Heading into this immunity challnege, I want to appear so weak. I want to appear that I am a loyal puppy dog that sucks at everything, so I can stay in the game. Then when the time is right, I might need to grab a villain. Do I think I will do that, no. Mainly becasue I highly doubt that is going to happen at this point. Becasue I am low man on the totem pole right now. And I don't really know what to do.

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- Why are people tryin to talk to me when I'm at school I'm trying to get out of high school.

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- I love how Miguel wants to keep this Hero Alliance and be the most "Heroic" person when he schemes to Thomas like crazy. smh what a shame

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- Me waiting for Miguel to get online so the tribe chat can explode Jeopardy theme song 10 hours

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- Update: I'm still running everything

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- I feel like ive been making confessinals so much lately but so much has been going on i was suppose to sway miguel to vote for thomas which i was thinking of doing for awhile (ive been wanting to vote off thomas and the heroes seemed so deadset on it but ofc bryce and miguel wanted to do their own thing)but of szymon did it while i was in the kitche @ school but that ended horriblely because miguel when to dusk and ranted about him and now i feel like a dick also thomas is targetting me and szymon so thats fun :))) along with miguel.. sora, eddie and alissa all told me this huh. like can i just have a day of peace and not hurt somebody or make someone mad @ me. If there is some how an idol played ill feel so bad :( "terra"

- Jennifer wins immunity. I am not surprised due to her time advantage. But now we are in the point in the game where we need to make moves. I'm not sure what that moves I need to make, but something needs to happen tonight.

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- Thomas comes to me with an offer I can't refuse. He wants me to flilp to their side and turn on my alliance. I am not sure what to do at this point and I'm honestly scared to death too. I have no idea what is going on in this tribe and I am so scared right now. I have no idea what I'm going to do...

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- I have two options in front of me. No matter which side I take, I will get screwed over in the game. I will either stay with the Hereos and get 4th again or go with the Villains and risk everything. I am not sure what I am going to do, but no matter what I do, my fate will be sealed in this game.

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- I have changed my vote like fifty times. I want to make a big move, and I don't want to be that guy to flip on the alliance. AHHHHH I CAN'T DO THIS.

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- I'm really really worried about the sora-alissa-szymon-emma alliance, not only do they have Eddie but I think they have Dusk too omg I tried to make a move this tribal and was gonna get Jen, Bryce, Dusk, Thomas and I to vote Sora but Thomas is a literal dumb ass and kept ruining everything, and then after ruining everything for him and the alliance I was trying to build, he started getting ME into trouble, telling Szymon I was targeting him, and other people that I was feeling on the outs on the heroes alliance, and Jen told me he asked her to vote for me. This kid is really insane! And I'm really nervous that people believe him even tho there is some truth to what he's saying but still, I hope he goes home tonight, he deserves it for being a stupid ass, loose lips sink ships Thomas, but your ship just hit an iceberg and sank all in the matter of minutes, goodbye and goodluck in life. Wish me luck while I try to survive being on the bottom and powerless rip.

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- Update #2: Ok time to air things out. So where I last left off, Chris has sadly been idol'd out of the game. But fear not, just because I lose a friend doesn't mean I don't know how to survive on my own. As soon as it happened I immediately went to Emma and made things better with her with everything and Dusk as well. So bridges are built there. Next I start planting seeds about Bas, because I need to keep the villains even with the heroes for now for the time being and he's the easiest one to get out. Him and Jennifer could not make their 'secret' alliance any less secret, somehow Jennifer knew Chris was the one getting votes, and then somehow knew this round people were going to vote for Alissa, so lol. Speaking of Jennifer, she's been such a shadster recently. Like after the auction she lied about having the necklace (for some reason???) and even lied about passing it?(Or she just didn't know??) But ya and she won't tell anyone what her fckin dream catcher does, so I'll have to deal with that when her time comes, because she's been immune for the past two rounds and escaping her death. But w/e plan goes into action, get Bas out and of course Jenn doesn't want that, so ya she gets left out lol and Tom/Eddie/Alissa and me team up with Szymon/Emma/Dusk to get rid of him, AND I used a steal vote even though I didn't need to but I was just using it on Miguel to tie the vote incase he idol'd Bas. It also makes me less threatening since they know I don't have any auction item now, and more importantly it pisses Miguel off. My original plan was to idol Miguel out at the final 9 sending him home on like 2 votes or something, but now I have a new plan. I really don't need to do that (not that I had to before), and I have two idols, OH YEA IDT I MENTIONED THIS IN THE LAST ONE BUT I FOUND THE MERGE IODL ON MY FCKIN 3RD GUESS LOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOL, SO YA I REALLY AM IN CONTROL AND RUNNING SHIT WITH TWO IDOLS. So I'm probably gonna save my idols, it would be cute if I pulled a Parvati and used both of them at one tribal but we'll see what happens. It's smarter to save them incase you need them then try and be flashy with them anyway. SO ya Bas goes and for some reason Miguel and Bryce don't immediately flip to the villains but instead go back to the heroes knowing their at the bottom? Makes sense and makes my job easier. So MS JENNIFER wins immunity and escapes elimination, I really woulda pushed for her to go too and I think it could've happened, but alas time for plan B. It was originally between Tom now and Miguel next or vice versa, but Tom started going like OTTN5 crazy because of shit Miguel told him and like, if you're that easily influenced, even by an obvious lie, you're a liability to my game so, sorry Tom I do feel rlly bad about this but ya I have a job to do. Although you did successfully call out the Sora/Alissa/Szymon/Emma F4 alliance to me privately before I shut it down. His last stand included trying to call out Miguel and then changing to calling out Szymon and so ya bye Tom! Oh and final update, Jennifer decided to talk to me now since the results and she didn't deny her alliance w Bas but was never snippy with me so, good job working your way into the group again, because after that all she did was more passive aggressive shit to try and intimidate me or make ME feel bad about this, when you literally did this to yourself. *Cydney_Bye.gif*