Board Thread:Survivor 30: Legends/@comment-27636148-20180306084136/@comment-27482030-20180307014856

Hey, Alissa! Before I get to your questions, I just wanna address some things you said.

Firstly, I'm sorry about not really letting people get to know me. I feel bad about it too, I just... don't really think knowing stuff about me matters much, especially since I usually don't think anyone cares about what's going on for me personally because of my lack of self-confidence. But you're right that knowing people makes for better allies as well as making friends. Opening up is a little hard for me, and sometimes I wonder why people would even care about that kind of stuff about me, but I'm glad I was able to talk about things with you.

I'm really bad at confrontation, you're so so right about that. In actuality, I really was taking a shower and hadn't voted yet, but after I took the shower, I was talking to Fitz about it and I just felt too bad to talk to you because even if you did make a pitch, I might have still voted the same way probably and felt horrible, or I would've felt worse and instead voted with you.

I also want to apologize for it seeming like I was taking credit for the rock move. I do remember saying that had it not been for my allies letting me know where the votes were going (which were you and Fitz) I would not have been able to execute the move properly, but I'm sorry for not specifying or focusing on that point. I know that you know and I know as well that I wasn't wholly responsible for that at all, actually the only reason I could even claim it as my move is because I was the one who had the rock.

Anyways, sorry for that wfhjdg onto your questions:

1. What makes you a better player than Christine or Eva?

Christine: I held positions of power throughout merge as opposed to her... (but I mean I lacked in everything else)

Eva: I wasn't as savage...??

​​​​'''2. While i realise moving to a different continent is a radical change, did you not think your lack of socialising would end up costing you? How do you justify that?'''

So I was already doing pretty badly with socializing beforehand, and I knew fully well that lack of socializing would cost me, but I somehow thought that talking more to people would just make it seem like I was insincere because of how bad I already felt like I was. Now I realize though, that I should try to be more forgiving to myself. There is no justification except for that I've been feeling hopeless for a long time

Thank you for the questions