Board Thread:Survivor: Mongolia (Season 5)/@comment-25087748-20150201080106

Alright, first thing's first, I'm NOT going to ask for your vote.

I am completely aware that I am NOT winning this game, and am not even going to try. I don't deserve it, not doing that. I will just simply explain why things went the way they did.

WHEN I JOINED THIS, and throughout the entirety of the game I did NOT grow bored of this org. I was actually very excited throughout the entire game but dropped off due to personal events I will tell later.

Next, I'll explain my active times just because I feel like I should in my final hoo-rah.

In the beginning of this game, I was wanting to fight hard in competitions and have a good social game, which I did good at in the challenges and did okay at when it came to socially. Not the best, but I was able to work with two people having a two person alliances with; George and then one with Danny. My intentions were to drop Danny ASAP and go with George when the time came. However, we only went to one tribal council before the swap which is where things got a little tricky, but I was completely aware of my position in the game, and it was a good one at the time.

The tribe swap was no big ordeal, but I was seperated from my two final 2 deals I had with (George & Danny), and that is where Marty came in and I decided I would work with him. Straight off the bat, I don't believe I liked Marty in the beginning. I certainly didn't like him in the end either, but it was someone to work close with.

The rest is a blurb until Marty "tested" me out in the vote and voted out GEORGE. George was the person who I wanted to work with until the end, and Marty had lied to me about taking out Jace. Marty kept telling me Danny was the one being voted out, but I told him JACE would be better. He then told me I was mixing up my words or something along with lines, and basically blamed it on me which is where I was ready to flip everything and start up a new game from that point on.

I had so much evidence on Marty that I could have ruined his game, the dumbass even gave me screen captures and said "I wanna work with you, but if you want to ruin my game then here's screen caps to do it." WTF? However, at this very moment when I was ready to change the game, and is when I was messaging you BAILEY, was when I had to literally pack all of my things and drive 12 hours down to Ga to see my Grandma for the last time. Luckily, I was able to make it the day before she passed.

I'm not going to go into a sob story or explain it, but my grandma had passed away and there was SO much work I had to do in real life, and so many emotions as this was the first death in my immediate family. If you've never experience having to go through that process of getting EVERYTHING together from flowers, casket, room, grave site, burial locations, suits, telling family, time to process it, be there for my dad, aunts, and uncle who were all torn to pieces and so much more, you have NO idea how time consuming or overwhelming all of this you have to do in a short amount of time.

Unfortunately, I could not pull myself together to do challenges/vote during all of this. I decided to NOT tell anyone in the game because I didn't feel like it was right to tell strangers, but everything is peaceful when I think of her which is why I am able to say it now. (In fact, that is the reason why I was inactive during Kamchatka - Grandma was in ICU for 2 weeks and hospital before that very sick.) I had told the hosts of this org the minute I began packing my stuff everything that had happened because I knew I probably wouldn't be very active for the next couple of days (not knowing it would be weeks due to the planning of the events that followed.)

I am not writing this for sympathy votes, in fact, I don't want any votes. I hate that I was brought to the final tribal council and wasted a spot for someone who probably deserved it. I don't like Marty, I don't really know Kaeden, but I am disappointed in the fact that they brought me here to the final 3 for the "easy win." There are many people on the jury who deserve to be here, but not me. While I was in the game, I was very much a strong competitor and had everything worked out MY way, I would have flipped on Danny/Marty/Jace and voted with Bailey and his crew. Unfortunately, the timing was off and that was why everything in this game happened the way it did.

Long story short, I understand COMPLETELY why I am going to be 3rd place in this game and do not expect to be anything higher. Had I been active, things would be different and this final 3 would not be the same had I been active. I do not regret not being active at all, I am proud of the time I took for my grandma and would not give it up one bit. It was a lot of work an I could not commit to this game.

I will not be responding to any jury comments because I don't want to waste any of our time.

Thanks for playing, I enjoyed it while I was active because the hosting team for this org did an amazing job and was one of the best organized survivor/bb games I have been in for a looooooooong time.

Oh, and sorry for my confessionals ahead of time. 