Board Thread:Survivor 31: Byzantium/@comment-5001881-20180418094927/@comment-19601789-20180420051609

The relationship I had with you or frankly, anyone for that matter was not fake in the slightest. In fact, I did feel like I had the best personal connection with you just based on how fun and lighthearted our conversations were. During the time of your boot, you told me that I could stop messaging you and stop being fake with you, which seriously affected me since I never saw myself doing that to you. I also did not want to go into intense detail about our relationship during ROP because I didn't want it to seem threatening to anyone, especially since any situation could've been spun against anyone at that stage.

The boot order was something I think I had more influence over than Andre. During the Charlie vote, I told him that we had to make sure the next two leaving were yourself and Luca, no matter the order. I was indecisive about which one should leave first, but it was imperative that the other leave right after. There were pros and cons about the both of you going and that was talked out amongst myself, Andre, and Hannah. I did plan for Hannah's boot since I had come to Priscilla about the idea of taking a social threat in Hannah out to convince her to flip and hopefully work with her for that next vote. Obviously, Andre did this as well but it seemed more of a last minute thing on his part whereas I took the time to plan it out with Priscilla beforehand. With the Priscilla vote, I wanted her out heading into that round and I do think the words I said to Andre convinced him to write her name out over mine, especially considering how split he was about the situation.

I didn't mention it in my opening speech because I wanted to address that in this one. I did talk to Nicole about you in that manner to convince her to flip since I was not sure if it would go to rocks or not. I wouldn't go as far as me saying you were shitty or anything like that, but I did explain to Nicole about how Andre told me the idol situation went down between you two and explained it the way he had previously told me so the story would match. I also explained to her how much of an overall threat you were to her, myself, and just about everyone in that game because you could've and would've won had you not been out. While I was talking to you, I was being honest about the factors that crossed my head about the vote. I did want you to go home because you were a threat and I didn't know what the rest of the game could've looked like with you there. That being said, I was concerned about going to rocks and was nervous about Andre's untrustworthiness and the fact that he could've taken a spot I wanted at FTC. I know the way I handled that was shitty on my part, but that's the way it went in my head.

While I didn't know you threw Andre under the bus because he wanted you too, it was to be expected. I know he would relay information back and forth and told myself and Hannah all the time about what you guys said and vice versa. The terms of the alliance were built on that somewhat, hence the name "The Tea Party". Andre being the source of that was not to my knowledge, but I knew my name was out there to begin with along with the numerous amount of times it was thrown out at the votes before.

Personally, I think you should vote for me to win because I was a target in this game that never left despite a numerous amount of people wanting me gone. I do recognize that my game left for more to be desired, but I was able to have a stronghold of the end game due to my connections to Hannah and Andre, even my relationship with Nicole and Priscilla helped somewhat. I do feel that I'm aware of my flaws and mistake that I've made, but they shouldn't be the emphasis of my game. I didn't play the best this season, but I made the most of what I had and it got me here and hopefully gets me your vote.

1 - I learned that you work at a convenience store (don't want to say the name in case people want to track you don't for whatever reason, but it starts with a w) and go to school, which showed me you are a hard worker who strives towards success.

2 - I learned that you loved trashy reality tv shows like Love and Hip Pop, Bad Girls Club, Flavor of Love. You also were a big fan of Charmed, so you have good taste.

3 - You also told me you have no ass just like me, so that's nice.

4 - We talked about languages for a quick second and you mentioned the fact that you are taking Spanish and used to take Japanese in high school.

5 - I then mentioned I'd love to travel to Japan and you then said you'd want to go to Japan, China, and Rome. You said you were going to go to Rome last year as well, but rip that.

6 - In your senior year of high school, you went to every dance, game, club, play, concert, etc. This was all because you wanted to make it a year to remember for the rest of your life.

7 - You also said your mom helped pay for everything and that she was so involved, she even stopped working. (When you said this to me, it really touched me because I also learned that you and your mom have such a special relationship)

8 - You usually get sick during the winter, but it rarely ever happens... just like once a year. It sadly lasts 2 or more weeks.

9 - Your celeb crush is Jussie Smollett who as you said made "the thot hop right out of me".

10 - We always freaked out about music where you said BDay was your favorite Beyonce album, you also listened to The Miseducation of Lauryn Hill with your mom which was sweet.

1. Luca was the most threatening as he was someone who everyone trusted at one point in the game because socially, he was that good. He played an amazing strategic game as well as he usually got his targets to go home and was also set up to potentially play the middle. His winner status coupled with his game would've been deadly.

2. Tyler was the second most threatening because you, much like Luca, were amazing in the social and strategic aspect. I think you are a respected person and name in the community as well, so I could see people rooting for you whether they be in the game or outside of it, which is threatening as well.

3. Priscilla played a super solid UTR game that was undetected until the last possible moment. She is articulate enough to explain her case well and for that, coupled wih the fact that I found no real flaws in her game, she would have secured a win for sure.

4. Hannah to me was a major threat for my personal game and likely those of my fellow finalists only because she never had to get blood on her hands as directly as Andre and myself did, which can be attributed to the social game she played and her passivity.

5. Charlie is a wildcard for me because I think he was set up well after Sam's elimination that he could've really made it to the end. He was a kind person, he was able to play the middle, and had some strategic sense that eventually got him targeted.

6. Claire is someone who was a little awkward for me socially, but that's honestly just her wild personality. Once you understand it, the more you are drawn in. She was also a very strategic person who thought well about scenarios and she also had a very good BS-dar, which is good.

7. Sam was playing an awesome game, but he made it too visible which made it easy to target him. His path to the end would've been rocky and perhaps unrealistic just based on what people thought of his game.

8. Liam did leave too early in the merge to really be seen as threatening, but from what I saw he was a bit emotional and erratic which would've bit his ass most likely.

I'd like to continue a friendship outside of this game, but I'm not sure how close of a friendship it would be. I see myself messaging you when fun/iconic things happen (like I did for Beychella) just because you have a very fun energy that helps hype me up. Outside of that, I'm not quite sure only because I'm not someone to go super duper in depth about myself and I wouldn't expect you too do the same, especially since our friendship is realtively new so yeah.