I Don't Think I'm Long For This World/Confessionals

Day 32
"katzole"

- Waking up on Day 32 with Ryan gone means that I am in the perfect position in the game. Nemo needs me because his biggest ally is gone. Samb needs me to help him take out the P-Twins. And I think the P-twins need my vote for final four if it ends up being Samb in there with us. I think I have a good grasp of what is going on in the game. I know where most of the advantages and stuff remaining in the game. My game has been super UTR and I really don't know if it is seen by the jury as such. However, I still have a lot of work to do to get to that F2 spot.

"katzole"

- I needed to do MAJOR damage control with Nemo. He was left in the dark from the vote and I do feel so bad. I have had my rocky opinions about him but I do genuinely like him as a friend as well as a player. We both kinda just started spilling the beans with everything. I called him out on the alliance he had with Ryan and Samb. I had a feeling for a while that was a thing, which was exactly why I wanted Ryan out. Ryan was the glue holding them both together. Nemo also tells me he has an idol and is willing to use on me if he wins immunity. We really bonded over a lot of the game and the fact and I do want him to stay. Because I think I'm his only real option at this point.

"katzole"

- What a way to start the day! Finished the challenge a bit slower than I hoped, but I tried not to go past five minutes this time around. The story was pretty easy to follow; glad there weren't too many names I had to memorize. Tried to remember as many details as I could, but I'll admit that my memory is not as sharp as it used to be. I think the hardest part for me was the fact that I was imagining a tiny bear telling the story to a confused turtle throughout the challenge. My imagination wandered for a bit, so I think I missed out on a handful of details. Oh well. I know I'm technically safe this round because the merged tribe idol expires, but it would be nice to beat the mercenary and head into the final four with an advantage.

On the note of advantages, I still find it surreal that I took Ryan out like that. I don't think it was worth the two days of agonizing and panicking, but I think things are falling into place right now. Piper apparently has a steal-a-vote to play (I'm guessing she opened the three urns during the Royal Family challenge...) but the Holy Water should hopefully negate that. Still can't believe it's been a whole month since the game started. Didn't imagine myself in the final five, let alone with a clear shot to the final four, but I think with the game picking up, I've got a clearer head now as compared to the whirlwind that started from the beginning of the Eurovision challenge to when the fourth Ryan vote was read. Ups, downs, side-to-sides, all sorts of emotions (both fueled by the game and IRL - but that's another story)... but I need to stay focused and remember that while this is just a game, I can still have as much fun as I have throughout this season in this last week or so.

Day 33
"katzole"

- The only scenario I want to happen with this immunity challenge is that Pendant does not win. He is the only one in this game that would not want me to go to end with him. So, I want to make sure that I am all clear to the end. If Nemo wins immunity, he will use his idol on me. If Samb wins immunity, I think he will use his idol on me. Sooooooooo yeah I think I'm in a pretty good spot.

"katzole"

- With this vote, I think I am going to have to really push for everyone to vote Nemo. I think Piper is going to use her steal a vote and use it against Nemo. I pray that she doesn't use it on me and I am hoping I can just throw my vote on Pendant just to ensure that he goes home. I am hoping I am not getting played here. But, I think this is my only option when it comes to what is going to get me to that Final Four.

"katzole"

- Wow! I sure have not been speaking here lol. Well, played my advantage tonight. Spreading one vote to Nemo, one vote to Matty. Gotta try call a bluff and pray neither me or Pendant go home. I don't think I'm long for this world though haha.

"katzole"

- Good things come when little bears tell panicky turtles stories 🤠🧡

I was so embarrassed after the Eurovision challenge, and I panicked during the movie challenge, but I’m honestly really glad I won this one. Heading in with the only “advantage” at the final four, it feels like the end is in sight, but I’m not going to rest on my laurels just yet. A lot can change, and a lot can happen over the next few days. Obviously, there are mixed feelings knowing that Nemo will also make it to the final four. Part of me knows that whatever trust we had this season isn’t going to be the same as what it was like at the start. But fingers crossed - he honors the deal we made at the start of the season to go to the end together. But right now. I’m going to go along and act like I don’t know about the Azuolas idol. I’m playing my idol on Matty tonight. In fairness, if I didn’t win immunity, I was going to use the Holy Water on him as well, but I’m glad I can give this gift to another strong ally. I’m surprised that I still trust Matty this much and that I’m bringing him to the final four, but there have been a lot of opportunities for him to sell me out, especially when I’ve been very messy these past few days, so I’m grateful for the loyalty. Piper’s Vote Steal… that does make things a bit interesting, to be honest. I’ll admit that I’ve only had one conversation with Piper all season… not fun. I’m also a bit skeptical about the “vote me out at four” plan. Like, I wouldn’t be surprised if it’s just a ruse to get one of us to go to fire. But I’m going to use the Holy Water wisely… probably will use it on her just for the heck of it, but we’ll see how everything goes. Pendant should be going tonight. Don’t really know how I feel about that, but that’s alright. Apparently he knows about the idol, but yeah, there’s no use in hiding it now that it’ll show up tonight. So sorry, Pendant. Glad I could break your duo up before the final four. There’s also the rumor that Pendant could have gotten an idol nullifier as a result of the three urns twist, but since Piper found the vote steal in the third round and I found the extra vote in the fifth, I really don’t see why Pendant, who opened the urns in the second round, would be in possession of a nullifier so early in the game. This is a long shot, but imagine if all four votes go to Nemo, Nemo idols them, I use my idol on Matty, Nemo votes for Pendant, and then I use the Holy Water on Pendant. That’s too much showboating for me, but that’s still an amusing scenario 🤠 All in all though, it feels great to know that I won’t need to be too emotionally invested in strategizing for tonight’s vote since I know I’m going to be safe this time around and I have a good sense of who else will stick around tonight. But the finale’s going to be a different story, so I guess I’ll enjoy the time I have now and just hope for the best once another torch is snuffed.