Board Thread:Survivor 25: Resurrection/@comment-3276966-20170705225949/@comment-24808835-20170705232857

Hey Cali!

As outrageous as it sounds, I actually didn't know that idol was going to be played. You may or may not believe me, and that may make me look worse, but that's the whole-hearted truth. I'm fairly sure Charlie only told Zak about that idol, if at all, and that's another contributing factor to the reason my trust in Zak and Charlie dropped as the merge progressed. I said that to you well before results were posted, because I thought Zak was leaving and I wanted to mend that bridge with you going further. Then, it turns out the idol came out and I looked like an ass, so I apologize about that.

I also said that because right before that week, I did feel like things in our relationship were starting to head toward a positive note for us. I even mentioned wanting to "step up the conversation" and while we did talk, we just weren't ever able to really tighten the knot there, but because I thought you and I had been improving our relationship, I was surprised to hear that you were actively targeting me to other people, so I was just curious. I would never have said what I said to you if I had known that you were going to be leaving  that tribal. I was about as blindsided as you were, especially that an idol would have been given out as an auction item.

A lot of the reason I feel like we both had a hard time getting to know each other was we both knew we didn't have each other in our long term interests. As much as I would have liked to work with you, people had been throwing you under the bus hardcore, and me as well the tribal before with Joan. It's not like we didn't try, we both initiated plenty of conversations with each other, but nothing ever stuck, and that just comes down to us having opposite opinions on what we wanted to do with the game at the time.

I apologize for that statement Cali. Thank you for your questions!