Board Thread:Big Brother 5/@comment-26479581-20171218041824/@comment-24642146-20171218054413

I think cold is definitely a word that has been used to describe me. I am not a warm fuzzy person, and i won't ever be unless i have kids. So, perfectly fair. I definitely wouldn’t call me uncaring, but i will admit in this game there were times when i was busy i didn’t give a crap about getting to know people, which is a very valid reason not to vote me to win.

However, i do apologize if i come off as not caring for you. As an ally you are amazing, and as a person i think you are one of the kindest souls in this game. Part of the reason why i was so quick to jump on trent when he came for you in the endurance comp was because i do care for you deeply. If there is one person who deserved to be belittled and cursed at, that's me and not ever you. Im sorry if i did not go into more detail about the complexities of our relationship in my previous answers, but i'm more or less trying to custom each answer to that person. But i think you were an amazing player, ally, and confidant. And i think you could have very well beaten me and been in one of these 2 seats had it not been for Emma’s return.I truly appreciate everything you did for me this season, and how much of my bullshit you tolerated. You stood up for me and fought for me when i had all but given up on myself and for that i thank you. Basically, if its Ali’s question i didnt want to focus too much space on why i think Dom was a great ally. But that may have been a big mistake. Maybe mark that up as one of my regrets XD

As for other regrets in this game, where do i begin. In the beginning i think i made the decision that was going to go crazy this season, just play a totally instinctual game driven by my passion and emotion. I do NOT regret that because this was one of the funnest most dramatic seasons ive ever been apart of and i lived for every moment of it. I will say however there were some moments where i took the over the top-ness too far. I regret Alex’s infamous cock teasing. I regret the level i took it to when i came for trent at the endurance comp. I wanted to come for him, but i went way off leash and threw every insult in my arsenal at him. I think i verbally attacked him beyond any reasonable limit. So i am sorry about the extreme i went to. To round it off i think i regret how mad i went around final 5 ish. I just wanted to keep playing so badly i was trying to force moves and deals that were not going to work rather than making a decision for my own benefit and no one else's.

But i think playing a game where you crank every reaction, emotion and move up to 12 leads to stuff like that. I hope yall can respect the persona went for here. The BB psycho erin is very much apart of me, but it is just one part my personality. I got to have a lot of fun playing BB this way and making it all the way to end is just the biggest shock and the biggest honor. So ya, overall there are plenty of regrets but on the whole im still proud to be here, and i had so much fun going Alice in Wonderland level crazy.