I Want to Leave This Game With No Regrets/Confessionals

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Day 29
"yangra"
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- Well, I had to betray a loyal ally, and it sucked, and then he wrote an exposé about how I’m playing like a simp, and that sucked even more. I do think I had to make this move though. The irony is, Martynas accused Isaiah and I for perpetuating a pagonging, but a big part of the reason we ultimately decided to take him out was to prevent a pagonging in the other direction. It had become extremely clear that Nathaniel and Martynas were never turning on each other and no matter what they said, they were closer to each other than they were to me, so I needed one of them gone. I do think they were serious about wanting to go to the final 4 with me, but I’m not winning those final challenges against them, beating them in the end, and then I’m still just participating in a pagonging. And that’s not what I came to all stars to do!

Our 5 person Equuleus 2 majority is about to fracture, and this endgame is going to be fun and fluid, but that would never happen with Martynas still in the game. He was just a lightning rod for conflict, and I needed to prove CJ that I had his back, and repeatedly saving the person calling him out at every turn is not the way to set CJ at ease before I take him out myself. It’s clearer than ever that I am going to have to snake CJ, now that Martynas has put out this narrative of me as his loyal servant. I’ve been telling everyone that CJ and I didn’t actually meet up because I was still recovering from COVID (which I think is a pretty rock solid alibi) but my UTR behind the scenes gameplay has officially come to an end. Everyone sees the kind of game I’m playing now, and the kind of game Isaiah is playing, so we’re going to have to be smart about this endgame to make FTC at all, let alone make FTC in a way that the jury won’t eviscerate us for.

"yangra"

- GODD BLESS THESE HOSTS!!! A day off is much needed. The whole game has felt very heavy for me in a lot of ways so I am very thankful for that. However, I definitely need to keep a move on in the game. I understand my position in the game right now. I am at the bottom of the top and the jury doesn't respect my game. So, time to up the ante and take the mentality of No Days Off.

Day 28
"yangra"

- I have been putting in a lot of work with Nathaniel and Nicole. I have really put my trust in them with this. I think they realize that if they want to move forward in the game, they need to do something about it. They have both voted for me, but in the game we don't need to dwell on the past. It is time for someone new to take the reigns on this tribe. And I want it to be me.

"yangra"

- Originally, I was really pushing for Caeb to be in the alliance with Me, Nathaniel, and Nicole. However, I had some alternative motives for it. Nathaniel and Nicole seem to want to go after Caeb in this sense. So, they don't seem super keen on bringing him in. Which is exactly what I want because they think I am not as close to CJ as I am to Caeb. So, with me bringing in CJ into this, I can now solidify something good with them moving forward.

Day 29
"yangra"

- I feel like I have been putting in a lot of work these past few days. I hope it isn't going to bite me in the ass. But at the same time, I want to leave this game with no regrets. And up to this point, I don't have any. I hope that this move works out. But if this is my last day, then I know I at least tried to make something happen.

"yangra"

- oh BOY has it been awhile since I have given one of these. I have been extra busy between traveling and school, so I have a lot of catching up on. I'll start with the Okie vote and will likely send an entire influx of confessionals.

So FIRST, the Okie vote. This happened at the peak of my roadtrip lol, so I will admit that I did not initiate this vote or have the most push. Martynas tried to start a coup against CJ that I was informed of immediately. CJ at the time was one of my strongest allies, so there was no reason for me to go for him. At least it was too soon. I can see how big of a threat CJ is, but I knew that Martynas/Nicole/Nathaniel could end up becoming a very power presence in the game as the numbers began to dwindle. But despite all of this, Martynas and Nicole were still very close allies of mine and I saw no reason to take a shot at those 3 yet. Okie seemed to be poorly connected due to flipping to our side at the Catnip vote, putting him at the bottom of the totem pole with both alliances. He would've been my number 1 pick to leave that tribal anyway, so the fact that his name got thrown out made it easy for me. That alliance of me/Conch/Nicole/Martynas/Nathaniel/Caeb ended up being made with a split vote plan to take out CJ, but CJ ended up voting Okie which sent him out. Perfect for me!! That tribal went so smoothly. I managed to take out someone I had the leas amount of connections with, plus I was able to reinforce my relationships with Nathaniel Nicole and Martynas. I know Matty was pretty mad about being left out of the Okie vote, but he made it obvious that he want Okie to stay. Plus I wasn't online much so him being left out isn't on me lol. Not that I care too much. I like Matty, but he has been at the bottom of our 5 for awhile. Either way, this vote went great as I got what I wanted and didn't even have to do that much. WOOOOOOOO