I Hope I'm Being Smart/Confessionals

Day 20
"cerro"

- https://33.media.tumblr.com/5c4390dafb2f33ca3f910afa46b749d9/tumblr_nkz0hmRuLC1spym3no2_250.gif THAT TRIBAL LEFT ME WEAK............ XAVIER THOUGHT HE WAS THE SWING VOTE THINK AGAIN BOO! NOT MISS EVAN SCALPING US ALL BALD WITH HIS SINGLE BLINDSIDING VOTE WHEW. #DARKSIDEDALLIANCE FTW @ EVERYONE WHO HAS EVER TRIED TO GO AGAINST US: http://data2.whicdn.com/images/130213312/large.gif live pic of us on the feeds: http://www.bigbrothercanada2.com/wp-content/uploads/2014/04/easter-013.png also btw me af when i literally can't be on a winning tribe for shit; i'm fucking leaving. i don't wanna hear it. i'm–fucking–dont wanna hear this bullshit anymore this fucking asshole ruined my whole entire fucking thing. K? this is my dream too...fucking piece of shit...*sniffles* *breathes heavily* it's not the point it's not the ppoint it's ENOUGH what he does to me every GODdAMN day! OK? IT'S ENOUGH! EVERY GODDAMN FUCKINNG *SCREAMS* DAAAAAAAAAAAAY! leave me the FUCK alone *sharp intake of breathe* Nick wants me..........out? because i .....couldn't....participate in the ch allenge....... https://31.media.tumblr.com/84b0d3825821f11854b962c807031145/tumblr_inline_nln6nehT5L1say816.gif LITERALLY HEATHER/I IN THIS DAMN GAME UGH https://31.media.tumblr.com/4c29b2b5c940aef2c64380a18048ab36/tumblr_inline_nlzy6dkx8H1rpr127.gif FIRST WE END UP IN MINORITY ON PATOS, THEN WHEN WE FLIP TO CERRO WE THINK YAS LEGGO! BUT THEN WE'RE ON MINORITY BC FUCKING CALI LEFT. THEN WE BLINDSIDED XAVIER, AND NOW THE BOYS MIGHT BE GOING AGAINST ME AND I'M GOING TO HAVE A MENTAL BREAKDOWN T B H !Seth
 * 1) SEATHER IS WHAT IT'S ALL ABOUT

"cerro"

- FAUVASICJKHADBFHULADBGADFHJljHDAfdaJBGADHJFaDVKFHJGFAHDGJfvbaehdbgcVJUKADF CNVFGIDN OVHNGU( ISFDn RDFSNUCDnfCAN DHbkgv cSYAgshafbku eygfdz NOT MISS EVAN MANZIEL SAVING MY DESPERATE ASS

"cerro"

- So idk what the fuck Evan was thinking. The Smash Bros were in a GREAT position, all we had to do was keep new Cerro unified (Hey, a unanimous vote would've been great for that!) and he throws it all away. The Smash Bros just got meteor smashed into the blast zone with no chance of recovery. New Cerro is divided, and won't hold at the merge. Before, it was pagong old Patos, take out the straggling Patos mutineers, then take out probs Xavier (may have changed by that point) but now the road to the end will be a tough one. In order to get there things are going to get rough, and my playstyle is going to have to get sloppy! New plan: Work in progress rn, but I stay close to Jace, and win immunity to achieve a TylerP-less merge. Then, I use Patos's knowledge of Jessy's idol (Which I know is fake) to vote with them to take out Heather (Or if I'm unsuccessful in convincing them prioritize her, then Jessy). Basically now with no big majority to support me, I'm going to have to make myself the swing vote for the rest of the game. If I can find a sticking point somewhere where I won't be on the bottom, I'll ride it, but I know that chances are it wont happen. Things are looking unlikely now, but I'm not going to lie down. I was enjoying myself in safety, but I get to make things interesting!

"patos"

- Xavabitch is gone! (im sorry) now I don't need to work with you at merge! I'm so happy this happen because I feel merge is next and thats gonna be where all craziness happens. Im super excited

"cerro"

- Wow so um tribal sucked. I'm assuming Evan flipped because of his bond with the Patos people. It sucks losing someone I can fully trust, but at least I'm not a threatening unit of two anymore. I need to pray to make it to merge I guess. Nick is the next out I assume.

"cerro"

- also ima explain what happened on the Xavier tribal lol so basically I talked to Evan and he told me he was thinking that Heather wouldn't be safe w him so I talked to Heather and told her to b like "I trust Evan if my ass is on the line !" and sent it to Evan and then he flipped kiss emoticon pce Xavier !

"cerro"

- At its surface value, flipping to boot Xavier looks like a horrendous game move. However, I wanted to achieve a few things with this vote. One, I wanted to keep a bigger threat in this game. Xavier's a threat in his own right, but Heather just won the main org Chile and will always carry a larger target around her back. Two, Heather has the ability to flip Tyler P when the merge comes and that's extremely valuable in terms of gaining numbers. Three, I wanted to let everyone know that I can make game-changing choices and dictate not just my game, but their own games. Four, I get to have multiple options going forward - Jace and Xavier, while shocked by the vote, have no choice but to trust me for now. Heather, despite everything between us, owes me one. This vote was just one of many steps of my master plan, and here's to a clearer path to the end.

Day 21
"cerro"

- This may be goodbye, god I hope not, but this is bad

"cerro"

- THE POWER OF SEATHER IS SO STRONG PRAISE GOD

"patos"

- So Xavabitch is out of here which I can say Im pretty trilled about! I want to merge so badly though Ive been talking about it so much and If I dont make it I would be so sad but I feel like I will but nothing is what it seems. and Reed is out of Lagrossa <3 YAS

"patos"

- So Eden is saying my name in a alliance chat I mean atleast he told us but for real a lot of people are throwing my name under the bus... Kinda annoying

"cerro"

- me every conversation http://prntscr.com/6sp90n & me http://prntscr.com/6sqfs9

"patos"

- like Jessy called Tyler F out like what the fuck? That's so awkward I don't know what she trying to do and she called me "disposable" like what does that mean! But I gotta think what she is saying too, I don't want to look like a sheep and give Tyler F the win that's not how I play this game!

"cerro"

- So this is on my phone as I do the challenge on my laptop. I'm going for a million, but I'm not even halfway there and it hurts sooooooo bad. I hate you guys right now Well FUCK I lost focus Fuck me Lesson learned: no matter how much you think it might take your mind off the pain, do NOT write a confessional during a challenge

"cerro"

- I could use an answer. Like an idol would be really useful this tribal. Jessy and Evan are tight and are making me their third wheel, not even being subtle about it. They're going to talk to Seth/Heather and Jace to determine who to vote for (I have no say in this, nor am I included in the "we" of "we will talk"). If they vote Jace I need to get an idol to play on him. He's my only good ally left. I voted for Heather and she stayed. We rarely talked to begin with. Seth very openly said he would vote for me if the majority wanted to. Evan and Jessy pretend I'm with them, doing a shit job of it, I'm their pawn. What sucks now is I probably won't make it with Patos either. Tyler P is still there. We are not on good terms. I suppose he could be in a similar position to me if they haven't accepted them, I guess I could talk to James about that. So basically I'm making merge, but there's no good way to make it much farther. To think just one vote ago I was in a fantastic position. Fucking Evan. He screwed me over, himself over, Cerro over. And he still tries to defend and justify his move.