Board Thread:Survivor 25: Resurrection/@comment-27305210-20170704155937/@comment-24808835-20170704210339

Hey Aren!

I don't disagree that there are people more deserving than me on the jury. But hey, part of the game is voting out the people who are more deserving than you, so you become the most deserving person yourself.

This title means everything to me. I have been playing ORGs for almost three years and have yet to win one. So that definitely made me a little hungry for this. However, it's more than that. I hate failure. Last time I played on 703, a year and a half ago or so, I got booted early, majorly for having connections and friends on other tribes. Time after time again since my first season ever in this community, this has happened to me, and whenever I play with my friends, I always get targeted the soonest out of them, for being the biggest threat. I was ready to have MY moment. I was ready for Trent's game (in the words of Monica Culpepper herself.) I have been waiting, CRAVING, even, for the chance to play this game as myself, and not as Dani or Chris' friend. I've been ready to show the community the damage that I can do. And even seeing the negative reaction to my game now, when I feel like I've killed this game, KILLS me, even if you guys are telling me I'm probably going to win. It breaks my heart to know that I played this game and didn't do it in a way that you guys would be proud of coronating me for. It destroys me to see that people think I wasted everyone's time. I brought my fire and passion to this game. There were times when I was sitting in my bed just in tears and I wanted to quit because I had people shoving it down my throats that I was terrible and never had a chance at this game, and on top of thay having to deal with some very serious mental issues that I've opened up to a lot of you about. But I respect this game too much, and this game helped pull myself together, even if it was just for a couple hours at a time.

I've watched Survivor since I was 8 years old, when Survivor: Gabon first came on. Since then I've seen every season at least once, some even around 5 or 6 times. I have a buff collection. I love this game so much, and I've known that this is what I've wanted to do for a long time. However, as a seventeen year old boy, I have to take the opportunities I'm given, and this is what I'm passionate about right now. I take hours out of my days that I could, no, SHOULD, be spending studying or being productive to play ORGs, especially this one, with graduation coming just around the corner when this started, and it's because I love the fun of it. I love the challenge of trying to manipulate other people. I love the feeling of surviving a vote by a one vote margin. It's almost like an Internet adrenaline rush. I even wrote a college admissions essay on my passion for Survivor, and how this very community has helped me grow as a person.

I cared about this game, and I wanted to win just as bad as you did, Nathan did, Zak did, and anyone else that you felt deserved it more than I did. But I'm the one that got to the end, and I know for a fact that I've earned this win, after almost three years of hard work to get to the end, and I crave it so bad. It's been my entire life for the past few months, and I'd do anything to do it over again and show you exactly why I deserve this.

Thank you, Aren.