These People Give Me A Brain Aneurysm/Confessionals

Day 4
"messana"

- I finally made my choice - I decided to share the idol clue with Aras. Not sure if it's a good choice but if it could help deepen my game relationship with him, I'm all for it! In other news, Toby scares me as a player but those Bora Bora parchments were really ICONIC.

"yaknad"

- My examination of the game thus far: 5 of 4 tribes is a freaking scary format and it makes the strategy more intense right from the beginning. So my strategy is to make sure that I'm in the position to last the longest on this tribe, on the off chance that we don't swap for awhile and lose challenges. After talking with Jenna for 2 days, we have rekindled the tight alliance that we created in San Marcos and are going to stick tight as a 2 when our first tribal comes along. The plan is for us to convince Nathaniel that Hannah is the most strategic option for the group. And although I do think that is the best option for the group, it's not the best for Nathaniel. If Jenna and I are 2 votes going into a 3 person tribal council, he's toast without an immunity idol. Hannah is the weakest in the challenges and is the easiest to beat in a tiebreaker challenge in the event that Nathaniel makes his best strategic move and aligns with Hannah for the vote. But even then, it would be most strategic for Nathaniel and Hannah to put Jenna in the tiebreaker, but anyway it's still the best move for me. I don't want to lose, but if I do I've really got a plan I think will get me all the way. Having Jenna and I be the tight 2 on this tribe is most beneficial for me because: 1, I trust her the most by far, and 2, on the very off chance our tribe lost 3 challenges and Jenna and I were the last two members on the tribe, I could beat her in the challenge to be the sole Yaknad member. This is the plan I have to stick to if I'm going to make it out of this mess.

"messana"

- To help Thotemanu, I shared my base Survivor boot list spreadsheet with Toby in order to make him feel I can be depended on. Which helps me because I see him as a threat because he's so smart and I'd like him to trust me, even feel vulnerable around me. Just like I've given tips to Chaos tribe to find the invisible cows more easily, just so they could depend on me more and trust me as an valuable ally for swap and merge!

"kesha"

- These people give me a brain aneurysm. Im already stressed enough as it is, and now these people don't know who they want to sit out, had to make the decision for them smh. Gonna go through a brick wall head first.

"messana"

- I don’t know what day it is. I’m the biggest flop I’ve ever met lmao all I know is my name Jeff and my tribe keeps winning. Once we lose I’m gone and it’s ez rip but the game has been quiet for me anyway not much to report

Day 5
"messana"

- Wow I really have been INV this ep huh. And I didn’t stick to my idol guess plan at all lmao…I regret it so much, since I’ve heard Hannah Banana is in danger :( She told me she’s going for sure, I’m devastated. I wanted to play with her so much… I’ve got one more idol guess before the deadline if I somehow luck out and pull a HvV2 Roisin finding the idol this early then I’m totally transferring it to Hannah, she doesn’t deserve this.

"messana"

- This is like the fourth or fifth time someone brought up my Carthage win. I'm aware of them knowing about my track record, but it does add pressure to me to do well. When they're doing it, I have to be really modest about it or try to change the subject to be about them, not me.

I often worried about having to do well in orgs because as an Asian I have to have good grades. But after a long time, I realized the most important thing is to feel free and always have fun! Takes away stress from it all.

"yaknad"

- So we lost the challenge... Hannah's probably going, which is a shame, but it's the best option of four bad ones. I just hope a swap is next, so we won't have to face tribal again.

"yaknad"

- Alright we lost. I've done well with keeping up my social bonds with the other three members of my tribe, but my plan only truly requires me to have a good relationship with Jenna and Nathaniel. Hannah is a wonderful person and I know that'll she mad about this decision but I have to do what I need to survive around here. Jenna is 100% voting with me and I'm truly thankful for that, I love her so much. Jenna's vote makes my plan almost full proof, as it allows me to guaranteed have a chance at a tie breaker challenge with Hannah, and have the odds in my favor during that challenge. I've kept up a great relationship with Nathaniel as well, mainly because his allegiance will prove useful to me later down the line, as well as the fact that he's a nice guy and easy to talk to. He luckily thought his best move was to vote Hannah out, and that's probably because he thinks I'll stick with him if we go to tribal with three people. That is great, but unfortunately for him he doesn't know that I would stick with Jenna and vice versa. This vote will be relatively easy because of Nathaniel's decision and that really eases things for me so far.