I Want Lightning to KACHOW/Confessionals

Day 6
"edessa"

- God this is just one of those days where I want lightning to KACHOW until I explode. But hey at least there's gonna be a snow day tomorrow. Anyways onto the confessional. Yes I still really like everyone all my tribe and all that shit but nothing is going on when your tribe hasn't lost a challenge so that's not saying much. Hannah is my closest ally right now, followed closely by Luca. I've talked with both of them a ton and genuinely like them as people. I think the three of us are on the same page and think the same way on a lot of things and Luca being a former winner is gonna be a huge target later on, which can be worrisome considering but if I trust him and he's on my side it's great for me so I'd like to go far with him. Honestly aside from those 2 I don't really care. Like I can't this tribe to stick together but theirs no one else I really want to work with. Adam is someone who seems very loyal which is always good. Augusto is easily manipulated and if we do loose it's probably gonna be Nicole going because I think a lot of this tribe is less close with her then anyone. But at this point this is all speculation and doesn't really matter because i won't really know what these players are like till we go to tribal. But no matter what, I got a nice idol in my pants to keep me comfy and that's making me very happy.

"edessa"

- So some screenshot messiness lead to a self-vote whenever I go to my first tribal council and like… I really have no one to blame but myself. I for sure need to go look at the rules and read them a ton more times because a mistake like this should only happen once. I do feel a bit embarrassed for myself and even the season cause things of the sort shouldn’t be happening, so yeah… I feel awful. That being said, I still have a game to play and I can only go up from here.

"edessa"

- I’m in troubled waters somewhat because obviously my fellow tribemates want to know what the screenshot was about, but my lips have to stay sealed cause it’d out my alliance with Luca and Adam. Plus, the incident could ruin any sort of credibility I have so I need to tread lightly and try not to play with fire or else I’ll get even more burned than I might already be. I am thankful for my tribemates though because no one is outright being mean to be so I’m really happy about that <3

"edessa"

- After days of searching for the idol, I stumble upon a treasure chest. I look to my alliance to help me solve the clue to open it and it actually opens! I’m so looking forward to having an idol in this game cause it’ll get me and my alliance out of any sticky situation. Well, that’d be the case if the treasure chest wasn’t EMPTY! I really screwed the pooch there, didn’t I? So yeah, the idol was found by someone and out the window it goes. I do have my suspicions about who has the idol but pointing fingers won’t get me anywhere, so I’m going to wait for someone to hopefully spill the beans and share some tea with me.

"edessa"

- After my little scandal, people are talking me a bit more for whatever reason. No clue as to why, but I love talking so ghnfdjmska. Anyway, Hannah lets me know that my self-vote probably won’t be much of an issue and hints at the fact that BSam could be a juicy target. Thankfully, my ideas are just the same as hers because that’s who I would want to go home if we do go to tribal. Liam also comes to me later on and reconfirms our alliance together and says he wants to go super far with me. Am I sold on this alliance? Ehhh, but I’m in a vulnerable position so any protection is good protection.

Day 7
"trebizond"

- After my little scandal, people are talking me a bit more for whatever reason. No clue as to why, but I love talking so ghnfdjmska. Anyway, Hannah lets me know that my self-vote probably won’t be much of an issue and hints at the fact that BSam could be a juicy target. Thankfully, my ideas are just the same as hers because that’s who I would want to go home if we do go to tribal. Liam also comes to me later on and reconfirms our alliance together and says he wants to go super far with me. Am I sold on this alliance? Ehhh, but I’m in a vulnerable position so any protection is good protection.

"edessa"

- Milke sadly had to quit the game and my heart goes out to him, so I hope whatever he’s going through at the moment gets better <3 The Brawns really seem to be at a numbers disadvantage at the moment with them only having 5 members compared to my tribe and the Brains having 7 each. I tend to root for the underdog in my daily life and while I do want the Brawn to succeed, I do want me to succeed as well.

"edessa"

- Wow. Liam. Just. Told. Me. He. Found. The. Idol. SHOOK. Because "trust." Survivor 101: NEVER tell anyone you have an idol. It will bite you in the ass. But Liam's in luck, I'm not going to throw him utb. We're actually really close right now and I genuinely want to align with him, so the idol will stay a secret between the two of us. For now, at least. If he ever tries to turn on me down the road, I have leverage. I could expose his idol if he tries to get shady.

My "dream alliance" on this tribe would be Luca Augusto Liam and myself. I like everyone so far, but those three are especially iconic. Literal kings. The bad news is Augusto is probably going to get thrown utb for his screenshoting incident and receive some votes, which sucks because I really want him to survive. But BSam screenshotted too, and as I said in my previous conf BSam already has a worse social game than Augusto, so I will definitely throw BSam utb if I need to do it to save Augusto.

"edessa"

- There is one person who I really hope I do NOT get swapped together with, because he's certain to want me out. Justin. He has massive past beef with me. He hates my guts, and had me blocked for several months. He eventually unblocked me on FB, but I'm still banned from PMing his Twain account. But the thing is, I'm not mad at Justin. I was quite frankly a total mess dick to him, and he could've done bad things to me, but he didn't. I have to give him credit for not doing the bad things he could've done, I'm genuinely thankful for that. And I honestly feel guilty over being such a messy dick. If we get swapped together, I would want to make amends with him. I would want to work with him. But I'm sure he'd only want to get rid of me.

"trebizond"

- So let's be honest here, we're probably going to tribal council this round. I have no faith that we're going to beat TWO tribes in this game but we'll see I guess. In any case I'm trying to prepare by reestablishing social bonds with people, no matter how small because anything can help. I sat out this challenge because no one else was going to and Zack got kind of upset that we sat him out last challenge. Actually, he probably wasn't even upset that just might be how he types.

In some ways I welcome the incoming tribal because then it'll break the monotony. It's so boring talking to people about weather and shit. Like, both people in the conversation know that it's the most mundane stuff ever but they also both know that the moment someone starts talking game, they're like overplaying. But the other part of me would rather not go to tribal because I don't feel safe. I have no idea about the social dynamics because no one really brings up anyone else, and I assume that goes again with the overplaying. I forgot how stressful ORGs were in the sense that any little thing you say can be used against you. I don't know if the amount of social interaction I'm giving is enough but hopefully it is.

In terms of game plan right now, I'm still brainstorming. My plan going into this game was to get on everyone's good side, or at least stay neutral. That way, I'd become included in at least one plan. I would stay in the background until the time called for which usually means when I'm in danger. And again, the whole no obvious social dynamics thing kind of throws a wrench in that. I feel bad naming a target in mind right now, but if I had to choose someone I'd be okay with going, I'd probably choose Hesh. My conversations with him don't really go anywhere of interest for me, and that's not his fault since I'm sure he's a good guy but I don't know. I imagine his name will be brought up during the vote but hey, maybe I'm the only one who sees him in this light.

"trebizond"

- https://youtu.be/xfqkjRXe89Q

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- https://youtu.be/gVXMy-JawoU

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- https://youtu.be/4BWZFZ4jG9o

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- https://youtu.be/cdo4KpN52TQ

Day 8
"trebizond"

- Well we lost and still no one feels like the obv first boot still praying my endurance score lets me make it another day time to sit back and just wait for a name so this could be one of those last minute votes

"edessa"

- im boned im being asked into another 3 person alliance im getting voted out for overplaying soon-ish we won't be winning challenges since there's a big chance our best challenge player is getting voted out

"edessa"

- I don't want to vote anyone out. They've been great tribemates, so all i can do is look at results in the challenges at this point. Liam was the first out in endurance, Hannah lowest in Axon and Augusto in Cows. But if I don't push for one of those, then it could be me :O I don't want to go yet.

"edessa"

- I'm fucked. I'm in two three person-alliances on a tribe weak in challenges and I don't have a tight two to hang in the middle with. It's like me/Adam/Augusto and me/Liam/Hannah. I'm aware that Liam has the idol and like this is so ugh. BSam SEEMS to be the name people are going for, with Nicole next in line.

Tribal council is annoying though since BSam socially sucks but he's good in challenges. He's like logically good to keep around but i'd piss off four people by keeping him in so there's no way he's staying.

"edessa"

- Adam told me that the square D5 had the idol and it was gone, i didn't fully believe him so i guessed the square and tested it out. He passed, maybe hes really good at guessing but i'm trusting him for now.

Sam told everyone that he heard Augusto and Liam, this obviously pissed them off. Adam threw Sam's name out and everyone just hopped on so if he's dead that's why.

I then thought about idols because it is out there, I thought about throwing a vote at someone but then I remembered Augusto has to self vote xd.

"trebizond"

- So me and Tyler are tight, and I think me an Andre are too, Claire said she's not writing my name down and so did Madison, so I feel like I'm safe. Honestly it seems like everyone wants to work with me, which is great. I just have to be smart and take it slow. I think the core alliance will ultimately be me, Tyler, Andre, and Konrad, but well just have to wait and see how the first tribal goes as you never really know until the votes are placed and people are voted out. So until then I am on my toes.

"trebizond"

- CLAIRE WHEN YOU READ THIS JUST REMEMBER THAT YOU'RE A GOD DAMN TSUNDERE MWAHAHAHA

"trebizond"

- For real though, we only have like less than 3 hours left and NO ONE has solidified any vote. Tyler and I talked last night about maybe picking up Claire and Maddie and pulling something there but like, those are just words for now. We don't even have a target. Claire said she'd want to get Andre out and as much as I like Andre, I would be okay with voting him if it means having a friggin' name to put down.

"trebizond"

- Okay so according to Claire, Maddie mentioned that someone brought up my name as a target. That is a HUGE red flag because that means I'm not in the background like I would've liked. Even if Maddie was lying, I'm on SOMEONE's mind. I'm tempted to use my idol but I would love to save it for later. I'm confident I have Claire and Tyler's votes. We just need to find one more person who won't flip on us and we're good.

"chalcedon"

- OMG I ACTUALLY FOUND THE IDOL WOOOOO. I'm so pumped like it's insane. and im not telling a SOLE about this idol until the time that i actually play it. cause lets be real that never works out well no matter how much you trust someone or people. this could be either really big for my game or ill just get voted off with it. pray to god it isnt the latter

"chalcedon"

- Hi... I have seriously been slacking in these. Sorry! Not too much to report anyway. I am still in the same alliance of kings with Justin, Linus and Sam. Still really disappointed that Milke got medevacced. I think we would have been good allies, but family comes first!

Buzzing off winning the last challenge of course, and btw I'm predicting a swap at 16. Need to win the next challenge to keep our numbers around as I think OtherCharlie will stay loyal to us. Could be a swap at 17 though, who knows :o

We're all sharing idol guesses... who knows if someone will reveal if they find it, I'm not sure if I would. I think it's always best to keep these things to yourself, I would help an ally with it but I wouldn't tell them until it was necessary. I may use it as a tool to gain trust if I do find it.

Finally, gonna give you my thoughts on each of my tribemates:

Sam- Probably the person who I trust the most. We've worked together well in orgs before, and even though he did screw me in one of them, I still want us to be a tight twosome. I am obviously a bit wary of him because of that but I get on really well with him as we're quite similar tbh, and he is the one person I would tell about an idol if was going to tell anyone. It was actually thanks to Sam that I wasn't taken out pre-merge in Tahiti ORG, which eventually led me to winning...

Linus- I was initially fearful of him coming into the org, since he is a champion. But I get on really well with him and we have nice chats. I have also learnt that it's better to use strong players to your advantage as oppose to voting them out. Come any swap or merge, Linus will be targetted over me if my alliance is in the firing line. And that obviously is a benefit to keeping him around, on top of liking the guy anyway. I trust him and wouldn't vote him out unless absolutely necessary.

Justin- Me and Justin are very different people, but I really really like him. He's so sweet and nice, and is someone I can definitely see myself becoming closer and closer to as the game goes on. I do feel as though there is a dangerous player underneath that sweet exterior though.

Charlie.P- The person I've talked to the least, and he is on the outside of our alliance. Despite this I really like him, and I feel like he could be someone who will stay loyal to us later down the line.

"trebizond"

- Okay so long story short, the vote switched to Maddie instead of Andre. Hesh got really fired up after Claire brought up that Maddie said he brought my name up. So noooow, the easiest vote is Maddie. I like Maddie. I woulda preferred someone else get voted out. But, I have to be selfish here. I want to go for this guaranteed vote instead of risking someone flipping because I REALLY want to save this idol. I don't want to bust out the idol too early because then Claire won't trust me, which is super important this early in the game.

"edessa"

- Don’t wanna have a cow or anything, but I totally think Edessa is going to win this immunity and I can’t have it! My self-vote needs to be taken out of the game along with someone like BSam, so I’m not trying super duper hard in this challenge to ensure that happens. If we win, I gotta try to lose the next immunity somehow (if we don’t swap, of course). My physical ability is literal trash anyway, so my score would be believable.

"edessa"

- Edessa ended up losing and it’s bittersweet cause everyone here deserves to stay, but the game’s gotta keep moving and I wanna move with it. I mentioned BSam potentially leaving to the River Vixens and they are all aboard the “vote out BSam” train. The thing is I’m not sure how to pull in Liam and/or Hannah or even Nicole without seeming too obvious. When talking to Liam, he mentioned the fact that we should take out a threat and I immediately thought of Luca which I obviously don’t want to do, so I hope something can change that idea.

"edessa"

- Loose lips sink ships and the S.S BSam doesn’t have much left in it cause he is telling people to vote for either Liam or myself. I fully expected him to say my name and it doesn’t affect me too much, but him saying Liam is amazing cause now Liam has a reason to vote for him and hopefully others will follow.

"trebizond"

- https://youtu.be/NDfnTSKHnlA

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- https://youtu.be/KB3R3icxYu8