Board Thread:Survivor 21: Kerala/@comment-5018496-20161208094228/@comment-1928659-20161208220132

Hello Julia.

I don' t know why you think my game was a mess. It was messy a lot and made the game more chaotic than usual, but I would not consider it a mess. It was actually quite well calculated and balanced among me keeping the Periyar group with a relative power, keeping Tucker an obvious target around, just enough to not be the obvious front runner and dragging a lot of info from him and at the same time entering the ranks of the rest of the tribe and forging legit relationships. I agree, I was portrayed as messy and fishy, I was very well aware of that, and it could have gone against me many times, but I always made sure that the people who were most likely to vote me out knew that if they did, they would be missing their chances too, probably Pagonged by the Periyar group. Now, you can ask me, why did the Periyar group didn' t vote me out. I don' t have a good answer for that. I was trying to get them to see that I was too much of a flip flopper to not piss people off, and some flirting and socializing made me sure in the process that they weren' t going against me directly. Even if they did, I know I had the potential to survive that, especially after the Anna vote that I had forged great relationships with Jake and Catherine and I knew I could survive a Periyar uprising against me.

I see a messing game, but not a messy game. The biggest flaws were my paranoia and my average jury management against some people. I don' t want to tire you all with repetitive information. If you see my answers to Daulton and Jake, I can explain why I ended up being paranoid. I agree. That was too much. I should have kept it under. But I can' t say I regret it, since many times it ended up showing me things I didn' t know about. In relation to you, it was obvious to everyone I think how close you were to Tucker. In some of my attempts to see how information circulates it became apparent. So I couldn' t give too much info to you not could I let the Meme alliance get Violet out early because I had to keep the threat of the Periyar alliance alive.

Also, about why I tied the F4. I legitimately thought that I had the game to claim a win against Tucker or Jake. Not 100%, But you have to admit that it is not impossible. I do believe though that I would have a better chance against Jake since both you and Catherine made it very clear to me that in the last staged of the game being a little more comfortable, I may have had lost a little of the momentum I had earlier. My initial plan as you know, was to get both Jake and Tucker out and sticking with you but since that didn' t work out, I claimed the role of the rebel.

I think you can see what I was doing. I do beliebe that I had a good social game and that I would be still safe even without all the powers. I didn' t need the immunities, the shield of deception, the HII or the Shield of Deception. I played the game like they weren' t there. They just came to keep me more comfortable towards the end. And I am sure you guys could see me being less paranoid after the F6.

PS. I know I sound cocky. I am only averagely cocky. But I think this FTC is the battle of the cocks (the measurement of cockiness is in cocks in SI) and I needed to bring up all the points I was trying to hide all game long.