Sugma Can Sugma/Confessionals

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Day 20

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Day 18
"yangra"

- I'll write about merge a little later, but i just wanted to rant a little about Catnip now. On the day of 2nd swap she manipulated me into giving her more info about the game, now she is manipulating again by acting all insulted by my bad joke? We were chatting for several months, in that time i made PLENTY of bad jokes - and nothing. But noooooo, now a bad joke means i am evil, now it means that i must be in her pocket to redeem myself for a bad joke... she insulted my humor skills by saying "bad jokes makes catnip go away" i reacted by continuing joking of "I'll use that strategy if i feel like i am losing a discussion to you" - and then boom. I am the devil who makes fun of poor Catnip. Not cool Egle, not cool...

"yangra"

- Like corporate entities being bought out by one super techno-dystopian conglomerate, the two constellations have merged. This is the most exciting part of the game, and where things will most certainly start heating up. Coming in to the merge with numbers from Monoceros 3.0 is certainly a good thing, but I feel like tribal lines are going to start to get blurred very quickly, what with everyone having existed on three different permutations of tribes and forming who-knows-what untold connections.

The first vote after the merge is so important - it sets the tone for everything that comes afterward. And while I would certainly like to grab the reins and steer our spaceship in the direction that I want, certain things are making me pause. The first is that everyone seemed to be hesitant to talk game night 1 after the merge. I don't know whether they just wanted to keep everything close to the vest, or if they're afraid to be the first to say a name, or if they legitimately just wanted to relax and enjoy the accomplishment for what it was. I share many similar concerns, and in a 12 person merge I don't know if I want to be seen as the vote decider right away, even if I get my way.

This game so far has been a game of gun-jumpers getting thoroughly punished. AT and Byron both took bullets for trying to corral votes too early, and the other votes seemed to have boiled down to who was the least connected. Less people taking the reigns and steering votes and more people following the current to an inevitable conclusion. This will work for me for now, as I feel like I'm fairly connected. Let's go through said connections, shall we?

Loren: While I've been worried that he might be too well connected and have more number than I do, I've cooled on that a lot. Having the perception of him as this big powerhouse on OG Monoceros (thank you AT for proliferating the Church of Loren of it all - this is a phrase I've heard multiple times, even from people who weren't on that constellation) is helpful to me because it makes him the more obvious target if sides do eventually emerge. That being said he's also very smart and strategic and views me as a close ally. A good person to have in my entourage.

Cat: Also very smart and can be dangerous in the game. I've been trying very purposefully to whisper back and forth between Cat and Loren in such a way that they'll be mistrustful of each other and be more reliant upon me. Her absolute dominance in Only Connect has also raised her profile by a substantial degree which always helps. Her connections on Equuleus 1.0 are the only question marks for me. She could have some strong bonds from there that I don't know about.

Martynas: One of my number one's for sure. Marty has the great quality of being extremely likeable, consistent, and loyal, while also not being overtly strategic or outwardly impressive. He's the kind of person I'd love to take to final 2 because I feel like he would take me, but also lose to me. We were also day 1 buddies, so the story would be a good one. ALSO, we're the only two winners left in the game, so I've been playing up the "We need each other to become the next Linus" of it all.

Conch: My other number one. Out of everyone on the cast, I've clicked with Conch the most on a strategic and personal level. There's just something about them that works so well with how I approach the game. They're definitely the kind of person I want to work with going forward in the game, but unlike Martynas, I see them as being slightly more capable of cunning and guile.. They're super smart and would know to cut me if they wanted to win. In the meantime I'm going to keep them close.

Caeb: A super fun dude and my go to person if I just want to shoot the shit and be silly. We bonded a lot on Monoceros 2.0 and I was one of the only people who gave him the time of day on Monoceros 1.0. A person who's likely to be overlooked by some, but a valuable player for my game.

Isaiah: Out of all the people on Monoceros 2.0, Isaiah was the one I was least close to, but he still seems to want to work with me. He's the kind of person I find hard to read, which gives me pause as to how much information I should trust him with. But as someone who is part of the Monoceros 2.0 group I feel like I'll have to trust him with a certain amount of stuff because that group seems like it's going to be pretty instrumental to my success. Worried about potential connections elsewhere.

CJ: CJ and I connected really well on the original Monoceros tribe, but we spent the whole swap section of the game apart from each other, which means that he probably has lot of other connections, with people he's probably spent more time with than me. That being said, he was my number 2 on the Original Monoceros tribe, and I do feel like we have similar strategic minds. That could be an asset or it could be a liability.

Okie: Loren threw out his name as the potential boot from Monoceros 3.0 when we swapped, but we never had to go to tribal so we never had to cross that bridge. So in the intervening time, I put in work to see if I could bring in Okie as a piece for me. It took a bit, but I was eventually able to get him to open up and agree to work with me in some regard. I've touched base with him since the merge and he seems amenable to working together, and he might be my bridge to be able to form something with Matty.

Matty: Speaking of Matty, he's the only person I hadn't met before the merge. As such I really have no idea what to expect. He did survive the Equuleus tribals, so he must have connections on that tribe, but luckily I know most of the people from that tribe, so it could be something I could work.

Nathaniel: We've played together on The Genius IV, so there was some kind of preexisting relationship there. That being said, we didn't work together at all really that season, and we were only on one premerge swap tribe, so our mileage may vary. We had some good strategic talks on that tribe where he was surprisingly honest about how he was the kind of person to keep information close to the chest about his strategy. I mean, I guess it's better to know that to not, but it makes me feel like I need to be careful around him. I won't trust him with anything important.

Nicole: No real strategy talks have happened between us, mostly due to timezone shenanigans. This is unfortunate, because I've managed to have good strategy talks with other weird time zone people (Cat, Marty, Nath), so I don't know if she's just got other thigns going on or what. Near the bottom of the list of people I trust.

So there you have it. I feel decent with most people in the merge, and good with a few. If the game is "who was the least connections" I feel like i have a decent chance of being included in potential plans. But then again, idols could start flying and shenanigans could happen. It is survivor after all.

"yangra"

- i am not sure anymore if my morning's rant was correct one. i thought about situation more, and apologized to Catnip for making fun of her reaction. i wasn't 100% in the wrong there, but even in 50/50 situations - apology was needed.

soooo... the merge happened. one of the players didn't wanted any celebration and instantly went to game talk. you want to guess which one? yeah, Devin instantly suggested "should we target Nicole?" and he instantly deleted that message. if i was smart, i would had acted like i didn't saw it and held this fact against him, but in a heat of the moment i asked him "had you deleted a message?" and he repeated this idea about targeting Nicole. no, DUDE, that's not going to happen. i mentioned him that "we should try to find people to work WITH at first, and only then talk about who to play against.".

i got an opportunity to reconnect with Conch and Isaiah, who both are fantastic, and i can only hope that they will accept me back.

i changed couple messages with Matty and Caeb, who both are a little busy today, hopefully we will have a chance to talk more in the future.

I am having an absolute blast chatting with CJ. He is 22 and he plays ORGs for almost 10 years? how impressive is that! strange how our paths didn't crossed during the peak of my playing in 2015-2016, but i am happy that i got to meet him now. Great guy. and Conch confirms that CJ is a great guy, and differently than it was with Devin - now i don't need to blindly trust Conch's opinion, as my opinion is the same.

and how about people in Mono-stereo 3.0.?

i am OK with Okie, and i hope that we will be able to work together for couple rounds.

I get super well with Nicole. we had soooo much talks about life/pop culture that it built a strong bond when whenever is needed - we can switch talk to game topic, be completely open about game WHILE still having a topic about life going at a different "reply" message group :)

i fully trust in Nathaniel. he's a great guy, and i have no plans to turn against him. Hopefully he thinks the same.

Catnip.... oh i believe i talked about her a lot!

i adore and 100% respect her as a person, but i am still not sure of how much i can trust her. before playing here, we were sharing "org stories" and she kept mentioning about how good she is at seeing opportunities to trust on her close allies to get the numbers for the endgame... that simply... keeps me on paranoid level...

Loren is here, but he is having a difficult time to get online this week. or he is managing his threat level, one of these 2. Devin said that Loren is "super powerful and popular player" while we shared like 15 messages in 5 days since the swap. definitelly the weakest bond in the game.

and Devin... well, you know my opinion about Devin... i am sure he is a great guy outside of ORG's, but in the game... i don't feel the click with him. but as Conch said - me and Conch might be the closest people to Devin, so it would be nice if he didn't went home too early, but stay around for couple more rounds. If everyone will be against Devin - i might suggest that "everyone dislikes him, we will be able to take him out later" but if there will be a lot of people REALLY wanting him gone - i won't overwork myself at trying to change the target.

"yangra"

- MADE THE FREAKING MERGE!!!!! Wow, I really am shocked to be here. I came into Supernova with something to prove. I was one of four Lithuania returnees. The winner, the Player of the Season, The Player of the Season Runner-Up, and the Fan Favorite. And yet here I stand as the only Lithuania alumni left here. My game thus far has been super social and not a ton of strategy with the straight forward votes. But I'm ready. Game on, snitches.

Day 19
"yangra"

- Your honor I'm slaying. Of the three games I have played, I would say that this was my strongest pre-merge yet. I built up a solid amount of very strong allies around me, I successfully navigated both swaps and either created new bonds or reinforced old ones, and I had a driving hand in every single tribal I went to. As for the 3.0 tribe, Receiving a vote from Pendant was sad, but it seemed he threw out something random more than anything else. I also managed to get votes on Natalie as I felt the least comfortable with her out of everyone. Mostly just because I had the weakest bond with her and I felt very solid with everyone else. I feel like I have a lot I want to say but I'm not even sure what. I just feel proud of myself for navigating the entire pre-merge so smoothly and successfully. In Age of Victoria I had lost multiple allies and had to scramble at the merge, and in Mount Vesuvius I did alright socially but never really had a had in anything that happened, basically leaving my self in UTR irrelevance. This time I actually feel proud of myself, there isn't really anything I would change about my pre merge game, which is something I could not say the other times I played. I came here to fix my mistakes of when I played before, and being proud of my pre-merge performance is such a huge step. Now onwards.

"yangra"

- I was THAT close to immunity. Sugma can Sugma.

"yangra"

- Coming into the merge, I am pretty confident in my relationships with most of the tribe. I am meeting Devin and Loren for the first time. But with the other nine people on my tribe, I feel as if there's a possibility of a working relationship which is nice. My current allegiances are for sure CJ, Catnip, Isaiah, Conch, and Okie. My ultimate goal would be to create an alliance with all of them. However, idk if there would be a possibility of that since most of the time Okie is going against with what most of the tribe wants. But only time will tell.

"yangra"

- Ugh, I love CJ so much. We have had such a genuine, honest conversation about beliefs. I feel like this is the first time in my ORG career where I have been open about being spiritual. I have felt like there is a preconceived view in the ORG community about religion, so I have usually kept my mouth shut about it. But I feel like CJ has really allowed me to be open and I have allowed him to be open about his sexuality. My biggest worry was offending someone or not making them feel like they could talk to me because they would be afraid I would judge them. That's just not how I see it. But CJ really does make me feel like I can be 100% honest with who I am and what makes me me. And I hope I can do the same for him in any capacity that may be.

"yangra"

- Now that we have reached the lovely merge (and I have done it for a 3rd time now!) Let us get an overall trust ranking:


 * TIER 1** - MAIN ALLIES

1.CJ - I have bonded with CJ so well. Like I said, we have so much in common and talking to him feels like talking to someone I've known for years. We kinda made an unofficial alliance to stay loyal to each other to the very end, and I do plan on sticking to that. CJ is my #1.

2.Conch - I have spent the entire game with Conch and I feel that I can trust them with anything. The only reason that CJ takes my #1 spot and not them is that CJ and I frequently dm on the regular while dms with Conch are a bit more rare. But I also feel we have the type of relationship where we don't need to dm all the time and we still trust each other. We have a few different alliances we are in together, and I think that I can trust Conch with whatever I need. They mention that our games have been mirrors of each other so far, and I tend to agree. Exact pre swap path, same alliance, same standing with the tribe? Interesting.

3.Nicole - I originally had Nicole at 4, but I decided to move her up. We have some detailed and hilarious conversations every single day, and she is such an entertaining person to talk to. I find her so interesting, and I'm glad we were able to revive our bond at the merge.

4. Martynas - Martynas was originally at 3, but some evaluating makes me feel like she is a better 3, solely because I have talked to her more than Martynas since we have merged. Though, Martynas is someone who I have always gotten along with, plus we have our alliance with Conch. I trust that he will have my back, though I know he has more going in the game outside of me, as I do him. I do wonder how close him Catnip and Nathaniel are, an alliance there would not be shocking at all, especially since when he told me Devin group me with Catnip and Nathaniel, his response was something along the lines of "I told Catnip and Nathaniel but forgot to tell you". Hmmmmm

5.Matty - I like Matty! We have an alliance with Conch, and we seem to have gotten along well since our original tribe. He is a bit of a question mark for me because he has to have something else going on outside of me and Conch right? I don't know. I would think so, but whatever that is tends to puzzle me. I trust that he trusts me and will keep me safe, but I don't have as much faith in him as those above.

6.Caeb - So I currently have a couple alliances with Caeb, and we have gotten along so far. The only thing is that our conversations haven't been insanely long or too personal. I have noticed that his activity levels may have dropped a bit, so that is probably why. I know that Caeb is a great player, and I have my eye on him.


 * TIER 2** LIKED / NEUTRAL

7.Nathaniel - Nathaniel and I have bonded and we seem to be on the same page tribe wise, I just feel that our connection isn't too strong. This is probably a time zone issue, which is fine. I wouldn't necessarily want him to go, but if my allies want him out, then I won't stick my neck out.

8.Okie - So I vibed well with Okie before the Pre DoH Era (death of Hickman era), but I know that I left him out of the Hickman vote so I am not sure of his true feelings about me. I would like to work with him moving forward, but Idk if he trusts me like he did before we killed Hickman. hmmm

9.Catnip - I am fond of Catnip outside of the game and she is someone I admire, but we did not cross paths at all the entire pre-merge. Now that we are just meeting up, I fear she wouldn't hesitate to yeet me. I also know that she is an extremely strong player, and I worry if I am true about a possibly strong bond with Martynas and Nathaniel. I like her on a person level, but I would not be against her leaving soon.


 * TIER 3** HMMMMMMMMMM

10.Devin - Told me he wanted to stick with Purple Unicorn Tribe 2.0, but I also heard rumors of him throwing my name out and grouping me with Catnip and Nathaniel. That along with his idol clue shadiness that Martynas and I discovered make me want him out. Soon.

11.Loren - ??? I hope you are doing alright.

Day 20
"yangra"

- CJ winning immunity is absolutely perfect. I think at this point, the safest option would be Loren. He has been MIA....the whole time. I mean Okie told me he works nights and I'm sure sleeps some during the day some....but he has been invisible the whole time I have known him.. But I don't know him because he hasn't DM me back RIP.

"yangra"

- Ok sooooooooo this new idol search is pretty much having everyone share with each other their letters they have. But Okie has once again caught himself in a troubling hand. Catnip apparently got a letter from Devin, then immediately got one from Okie.....the same one. That is super worrisome for me because

1) Okie told me he had nothing solid at the beginning.

2) Martynas told me Devin was a big antagonist for those who competed and/or hosted Lithuania. Martynas also was worried he'd be targeted because he's Lithuania. I find that humorous but anyway.

SO now the question is - do we keep it simple. or take out a threat to my game???? This vote just got a little more interesting.

"yangra"

- i might write more about vote later, i might not. it's between inactive Loren and sneaky Devin. at this moment looks like it will be Devin.

However, what's more important... i am in situation what feels like all these marvel movies - characters from one movie-alliance interacting with characters from

other movie/alliance with including new characters in these new movies/alliances.

change all words of "movie" to word "alliance" while reading text bellow.

like... i was in "movie" with Gevonte and Nathaniel. The movie dominated in box-office, sadly we lost Gevonte 30 days too early.

in other "movie" i was with Conch and Isaiah. The movie was a little shorter but super successful, having IMDB rating of 8.8

in the 3rd movie, i reunited with Nathaniel and we included one of Gevonte's "assassins" - Catnip. Giving her a chance for redemption, but at the same time "keeping friends close, but potential enemies closer".

and what's happening now? this is a trailer of upcoming new movie. which includes everyone's favorite characters from previous movies, and previously unseen your star. Me... Nathaniel...Conch....Nicole! in the cinemas near you! (Conch asked if we should make a chat with Nathaniel to talk about game, i suggested to include Nicole too)

"yangra"

- FINALLY, we have some good news in this trip through time... we merged!! It's a gigantic relief to have made it to this point and cement that I'm not gonna be a pre-merge flop for a second time. At this point my focus is not to switch things up and start controlling the flow of the game; my priority is still to maintain my position within the majority. As it stands, I have a 4-person core alliance of Caeb, Conch, Isaiah, and myself, in addition to a 3-person side pact consisting of myself, Matty, and Catnip. Catnip also has close connections to Martynas and Nathaniel, and Nicole by association (all of whom seem pretty nice). I did also have solid connections with Devin and Loren from OG Monoceros but my gut tells me I can no longer rely upon those. Loren has basically disappeared into the void since the merge began (hoping he's alright), meanwhile Devin has proven himself to the shadiest person with his idol strategy--rather than sharing his coordinates with others, he's been sharing other people's coordinates as though they were his own, aaaaaaaaand he got busted!! So one of those two are definitely getting the boot tonight which is fine by me, as long as I'm not the merge boot then I'm good. This is probably as easy as merge votes will be so I'm gonna sit back and enjoy it while I can.