It's Hard Not To Be Cocky/Confessionals

Day 6
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- I did awful on the challenge today. That's all I can say. I don't know at all what's going to happen because if 2 people did better than FOUR then I'm in deep shit (although one of mine I was incredibly pressed for time on and I somehow clutched the right answer so if someone else has that same problem and guesses incorrect than I'm good)

I mean it's entirely possible that everyone is just as bad as me and didn't get close to 12 but I seriously doubt it and I am quite a panicky force at this point. Eamonn and Nick are both sorta inactive but ik that Eamonn is working on it and I have no idea about Nick. That really worries me. I'm probably going to nail down an alliance with someone like Conch or Kamen who I think trusts me before tribal just so I have that extra layer off protection in the event I get targeted. Magnus has also moved way up on my list, they're a generally personable person who I can definitely also lock down an alliance with. But Conch will probably be my first choice.

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- I GOT INDIVIDUAL IMMUNITY HOLY SHIT

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- I kinda wanted to go to tribal tonight. All the inqctives are gone imo but I’d have to give up immunity and my parcel. I’m fine giving up immunity but I ain’t losing that parcel, I think that’s gonna be something BIG

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- I feel like my social game is okay-ish but I haven’t been as active as I’d like and I think it’s hurting me. Something that can help me tho is the parcel. I honestly think the ones with parcels are gonna be tribe leaders and pick tribes and I think it would be great for me.

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- The funniest thing to come of last nights tribal was that Eamonn is apparently playing 2 orgs at once and the other org also has someone named Izzy, so when he heard the vote was on Izzy in this org, he told the Izzy in his other org she was going home and freaked her out for no reason. I really came into this game trying to be humble, thinking I wouldn’t be a cocky player, but when you’re surrounded by people like that, it’s hard not to be cocky. Catnip, Kamen and I are playing chess, Ollie, Nick and Cole are playing checkers, and Eamonn is playing goddamn tic tac toe

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- I'm sorta nervous because I havent really made any alliances yet, and I'm worried that there are alliances going on around that I'm not part of. I'm hoping we get to split in tribes soon or there is a big divide in a vote so i can see where people's heads are at and use the opporunity to make alliances.

Day 7
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- It's finally the weekend which means I'm actually free lol. I have not been active the past couple days because Thursday and Fridays are the absolute busiest days of my week. I probably won't be on much those days for as long as I'm in the game, so I hope it won't affect me too much. I've not been a large factor in this vote, but from what Conch and Kamen have told me, it's almost a toss-up between Ollie and Eamonn. Kamen says he'd prefer Ollie to go, and Conch told me that it looks like things are starting to swing Ollie's way, so I'm glad to hear that there's continuity and I'm not being deceived. I definitely believe that along with Conch and Kamen, Nat is probably my closest ally. Although I'm in an alliance with Andrew and Logan, I feel much more comfortable sharing information freely with Nat and joking about blindsiding each other. I'm glad that everybody appears to want to keep the active people in the game, but I think it's really easy in anarchy to come to a consensus. A lot of people are probably cognizant of the fact that forming an alliance is a bit risky. For my Survivor Fanon Wiki alliance, it came together naturally rather than needing to ask everybody for permission. Still, if there are other alliances that I'm unaware of, I at least hope I'm an ally of there's if not directly involved.

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- Sending in another confessional to separate ideas...

So, the three top-placers in the immunity challenge get some sort of reward, and I'm really curious to know what it'll be. Andrew came up with the idea that the three will be picking tribes because we'll be able to split into 3 tribe of 5, and that would honestly be horrible. Andrew and Logan are in my main alliance, and they would both be captains. There's a good possibility that my alliance would be split up 2-1-1 between the tribes and at best one will be left out. I think I'll manage to get by at least for a couple rounds if my tribe goes to tribal council if this is the case, because I genuinely believe I've formed pretty decent relationships. I know I'm not as active as some of the others, but what is there to even talk about at this point besides the same "how are you" "good how are you"? My only worry being on a new tribe would be that others are closer to each other than me. I'm playing pretty lowkey though, so maybe people will overstrategize and target each other before me? If those three are going to be given an idol clue or something that keeps us as one tribe, then at this point, I don't really mind in the short term. I would at least like to know what they are given though lol

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- Did I already make one of these today? I probably didn't but uh if I did then this is awfully convenient. I'm listening to album that attempts to emulate what it's like to have dementia right now and it's REALLY fucking with me.

Anyways, despite getting 4 right I somehow got the second best score? Like if this was final 6 or 7 then I might believe that but we're at 16 players. maybe I underestimated how many people would struggle at question 2, idk Anyways I'm going to talk to a few more people once I'm done with this. My biggest mistake last time was not talking to anyone after I won and I already spoke to Gavin this morning. I don't feel the need to talk to anyone else besides Logan and Jason just to get us to theorize about what the advantage does but I'm going to make the effort anyways.

Wait did I I start 2 paragraphs in a row with Anyways? God, that album is really fucking with my mind. It's called Everywhere at the End of Time if you want to listen to it.

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- continuing on last time, I just noticed I'm literally the only one online. At 5 PM. This is freaking me out.

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- So, today was meant to be a relatively easy tribal. Eamonn and Ollie’s names were floating around. I personally would have preferred to vote Eamonn, just cause I know how much of a drama queen he was in Fresh Meat and that’s just very volatile and uncertain going forward. I must admit, I am trying to give him a bit of a clean slate and try to focus on what he’s showing me here in Meanjin. And if I didn’t have those prior opinions, he is talkative, and friendly, and he does seek for my attention, it would seem. So that’s ticking a few checkboxes. I did tell him I’m giving him a clean slate as such, though of course in reality it’s way more of a just an option to constantly have in mind and keep myself in check so that I don’t focus only on prior experience.

Or so I thought. A few hours later, I hear that he bloody pushes my name out, cause I’m such a threat (I was half of a bit of a beast team in there, tbh). On day effin 7! *sighs and rages* Why do always put my trust in all the wrong people, huh? The disadvantages of being a nice and friendly person, I guess. Magnus managed to convince him to not go for me in the end (Magnus is indeed lovely, aren’t they?), so it seems that it will turn out all fine? Bloody Eamonn though.

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- I tried making a move against catnip. Although I think I told the wrong person (conch) now it is me who’s on the block I really hope I don’t go this early.