Board Thread:Survivor 37: Egypt/@comment-30419050-20190129014554/@comment-33819352-20190130173955

OMG OK LMAO AFSKLSAFKFSA kinda love this speech because you just called me out huh? and rightfully so, so let's start.

'''this translates to you knowing i was leaving for at least 12 hours beforehand. throughout this entire round, you became my best friend. you and i had personal talks where you opened up about things that i obviously won’t discuss, you reassured me excessively that i was safe, and you made it seem like you had my best interest at heart.'''

Ok, so I would like to comment on this first of all. Yes, I was very much aware that I was already voting you out during those first 12 hours and I absolutely get why you would feel so fucking betrayed because we really did talk abt rly personal stuff that round. I would just like to say tho that the Andre that talked during those last 12 hours to you was Andre the person and not Andre the player. I'm not a sociopath to be mentioning all those things to you to rile you up and blindside you just like that for the sake of the game. that was me as a person talking to you in those last 12 hours because it was just a topic that came up and i like felt so compelled to talk to you abt it bc i was rly just that comfortable with you and i rly felt close to you as a friend. i had no one else to talk to about it previously and you were there and it kinda just happened unintentionally. it was not my intention at all to make you feel as disgusted as you are now with me, but i guess it ended up that way. nonetheless, im really sorry and i REALLY mean that.

'''do you know what emotional intelligence is? if so, how did you apply it to this game if at all? after reading this (and other) speeches, do you regret your extremely deceitful tendencies? justify why we, the jury, shouldn’t be upset with you for leading people on and being really gross about it.'''

Ok YES i know what emotional intelligence is, though it doesnt show huh? KFASLSAFKLASF I feel like I was able to apply it for like the first half in the sense that I was able to know how to speak to each person (as everyone has different personalities) in the best way possible to be able to make a connection w them. for the second half tho, no i probably didn't apply much emotional intelligence. my jury management with most of you sucked ass to be quite frank, and that kinda showed with how much i lied to a lot of you even though i was aware of the repercussions in doing so. after reading the speeches, i dont necessarily regret the very idea of lying because thats arguably a big part of the game, but what I do regret is how often I lied to people, at what point did i lie to people, and the level of the lies i told to people. you and sam were probably the two who I did the most dirty to and for that i do regret it because I really led the both of you on which I now realize must've been shitty to feel.

In all honesty, to the people i lied a lot to before they left, especially to you and sam as i said, you SHOULD be upset or you should've at least been at one point before now. You guys have the full right to do so and I don't hold any of it against you because I really was that bad in how I dealt with most of your eliminations. I think it's a room for improvement definitely with regards to my game but I can't do anything to change it now so I'll just have to live with the consequences.

ok cool(arguably) story!! for the f4 challenge, we had to analyze like music clips right and figure out who they were. so one of the songs i was like omg could this be this chick lana del rey everyone loves and i kept searching for some of her songs that had the word "god" in it and i ended up with "God Knows I Tried" and i kid u not i listened to it like maybe 1302419104 times because i was so sure one of the clips had to have been her (it wasnt :x), so yeah the tune is stuck in my head rn. and i like relate with it so hard because god knows i really tried to play well in this game...