She Gets To Live For Now/Confessionals

Day 33
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- Day 33 and finally i feel some hope in this game... I am not holding anything back of course i just need to get rid of jennifer and sora. Honestly if i get out im probably not voting for jennifer ever i do like her better than i did in bb5 but i dont even think she is playing a good game she is just depending on immunity wins. She would be playing an amazing flawless game if she had a social game or a strategic game but she will probably get votes at the end and Sora is playing a great game too!!! Im gonna make a confessinal later on what happened last tribal i am getting sick again also dusk is a lil bitch but i am here to honestly make sure we both make it to the end!!!

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- YAS YAS YAS YAS YAS YAS YAS YAS!!!!! Lol I wish I could say I knew it was fake but that would probs get me yelled at soooooo we will keep it a secret. Jennifer is a life saver tbh. But hopefully we can cut her next round RIP to help us get the other two out of the game. Praise the LORD!!!!!!! <3

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- Literally I am probably going to be in the Final Three and not get a vote this time around bc no one respects my game to the slightest. Esp. Eddie. I think he may be slightly bit salty that his girl went home and now he is mad that I am still here. But I honestly don't care. I really like Eddie. But he obviously doesn't like me. It is totally okay tho. I'm the kind of person where you either love me or hate me. It is hate most of the time tho.

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- This reward challenge going to Sora freaks me out slightly. He has an advantage, and I would really prefer him to go home next round over Jennifer anyhow. Mainly because she is a HUGE threat. I mean GIANORMOUS. I think she knows that and is aware of that too. I just hope that I can make it to the Final three to get yelled at by the jury. At least it will be entertaining.

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- IM STILL COUGHNG MY BRAINS OUT AND FEEL LIKE DYING BUT HERE IS AN EXTRA LONG CONFESSINAL!!!!

Alissas boot!!!

I honestly had the idea of putting all the heroes together so i made an alliance with me dusk and bryce. That was also the worst thanksgiving ever because i felt so sick to my stomach since i was afraid if bryce or dusk goes.... Its all on me. Dusk made a plan to get out Alissa i was like sureeeee i wanted sora gone but of course he had an idol and i am so salty because i almost made him play it ASDFGHJ...

At the vote when Bryces idol was known to be a fake idol i felt defeated and stupid thinking that i fucked me and dusks game the last thing i really want to do is lose the game for any of my allies or ME of course.

After Alissa got voted off (long live the queen :' I was SHOOK THAT JENNIFERSUS CHRIST FLIPPED AND KEPT BRYCE IN THIS GAME WHEWWWWW..

I felt bad after lying to eddie and sora since i do love them as people and of course i play with my heart which isnt the strongest thing to do but i do have a reason why i vote everyone off i just dont do it because i was told too.

TODAY

wow i thought my score was amazing but everyone kicked my ass in that challenge besides Eddie!!! God damn

YESTERDAY

Sora talked to me and was like jennifer and bryce could be jury threats ye i believe jennifer can be because she is good at challenges but bryce what did he do?? " "terra"

- I haven't done one of these in like 2 episodes so I figured I might as well do one now. So short recap, my 2 biggest allies just died back to back in a row. Szymon got mercy killed and Alissa kinda got blindsided because of me. I'm sure Emma and Dusk would've done me if I didn't go to Emma (WHO ILL GET TO LATER) and be like "Ya I know we're all voting for Bryce, but the rumor he has a merge idol is wild so I'm gonna play my idol on me just in cast lol" I did it just so if she was thinking of voting me out she wouldn't and it worked, just not how I wanted. They went for Alissa which was soooo dumb of them. They should've just gone all the way and went for me or do Eddie who I'm getting honestly really scared of. But for more recap, Emma decided to ~try~ and finally make a move in her 703 career and tell everyone about my idol???????? I was honestly dead set on going to the end with her and being so loyal to her, and if I didn't think I could still beat her I'd get her out asap. So ya she gets to live for now until I think of a better final 3 scenario, which right now is Emma and Dusk or Emma and Bryce. I'm not sure who the jury would be more likely to vote. I feel like all three of them really shouldn't win against me (sorry if that sounds cocky) but Emma and Dusk could be seen as goats and like a Spencer/Tasha, but Bryce is equally as awful at this game but I can see bitter jurors trying to make a case to vote him because they don't wanna reward people who outplayed them. But this is a crucial round since now I have to decide who to get rid of Dusk or Bryce. Jennifer has to die as soon as she's not immune but she'll probably be safe this round because of her item, so I'll go balls to the wall to knock her out next. if a final 4 consists of me eddie emma and bryce/dusk, I think I can easily win final immunity and solidify my spot in the top 3 and try and think of some way to let Eddie down, I can't let the same thing I did in Tokelau that I did here, Eddie is the biggest threat left after Jennifer. His social game this season has been amazing and he really hasn't made any enemies on that jury (besides M***** but who cares about him). Tonight it all comes down to who wins immunity, I STILL have TWO immunity idols and it's the last night I can play them, so I figure why not do something crazy because I feel like this is the last chance I have to really make a big move to the jury and show them that I am a gameplayer and I am here to win again. I don't wanna play as hard as I am but if I wanna be Sandra I have to do things I'll want to regret as I do them.

Day 34
"terra"

- I'M SO FRUSTRATED RIGHT NOW. This Dreamcatcher might actually screw up my whole fucking game. It was either supposed to be Bryce or Jennifer and it could be Sora but he has the idol ;-;. UGH, I swear if a stupid auction item screws up my game I can''t wait to tomahawk someones ass like omg. This just sucks, I just want to win this game like so bad and goddammit, I have butterflies in my stomach right now, but it doesn't mean I'm gonna give up, I'm gonna do my best to survive this tribal. Jennifer played a damn good move and I respect her so much for that like holy shit. Bryce just made a really awkward comment in the chat for whatever reason just wanted to point that out idk why it was funny. And yea, as much as I love everybody in this game to death, this just sucks for me right now and I hope my game isn't screwed cuz of this ;-;

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- I am determined to stay and win. If i go i die a hero :'] but there is no way in hell i want 6th again history cant repeat itself.

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- Heading into the challenge, I don't want to win. No purpose to win. I am in a good spot in this game and I don't really want to put a target on my back. I am already the goat to the finals. Why make me even more of a lamb ready to slaughter?

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- Jennifer wins immunity. AGAIN!!!!! Like what is in her rice that is not in mine. I mean. I didn't necessarily try to win. BUT, I got two right. TWO. T W O. And this girl gets eleven right AND beats Sora's advantage. I am really excited she did give me the dreamcatcher. I guess it is worth it to only talk to the people on the outside. Things are made.

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- The only thing that is slightly concerning to me is that the fact that I am not even attending this tribal. I won't have a say and that really scares me. It gives the Villains a chance to reunite and take out the rest of us. It really scares me but it is out of my hands and I can't do anything about it. I just hope and pray that everything buffs out with this vote.

Day 35
"terra"

- I'm so freaking out right now, everyone is offline, I'm so paranoid, and ughh, I've been so down on everything. This dreamcatcher and Jenn winning immunity fucked everything up omg. Alright, I need to stop bitching tho cuz that ain't gonna help. So yea, legit, my closest ally Emma and my second closest ally, Eddie are pretty much the targets plus myself. So ya, the final 3 thing is not gonna be existent anymore considering one of us will be going home, and I'm still gonna work my ass off to try to stay safe and as much as I would hate it, I might have to vote Emma or Eddie which is truly upsetting cuz they are so amazing. But yea, if I go home, then I walk out with respect to the people left in the game for playing amazingly and I'm not a bitter person so yay. The only thing that won't be fun is going into the jury house, and I obviously know people are going to be bitter af and I'm thinking that Miguel and Thomas will definitely be, but if I do, I'm just gonna act mature about it and see what happens cuz I still respect them as players and people even if they don't respect me at all lol. This sounds like such a weird ass confessional but I'm just typing what is going through my mind right now and I'm just freaking tf out. I just really need to calm down.

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- My hope is slowly running out... Even if i go ill put my head up high and tell myself i did better in this season than i did in resurgence and in italy thats all that matters :) I played like a hero and ill go down as one... I really dont want to go get voted off yet i am waiting for jennifer to get online and hopefully sway her!!!

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- I know im going jennifer told me i tried to convince her that ill try to make her go far since ik she will just be cut by everyone but she already voted for me probably im really upset since i just want to make it to the end. It sucks on how much effort i put in just to get 6th again and probably having the jury probably gonna roast me....

This sucks :( if i dont go ill be so happy!!! " "terra"

- Jennifer has SOME NERVE trying to guilt trip me and question me on why I never told her about MY idol. Hm I don't know maybe because YOU HAVENT BEEN WITH ME LIKE THE ENTIRE MERGE AND WERE SHADY AF THE ENTIRE TIME YOU PLAYED THE GAME? It really pains me that people consider Jennifer a threat in some way other than immunity wins, like if the final 3 is her Bryce and Dusk she'll probably win, but I REFUSE to vote her. Eddie or Dusk would have my vote before her, she hasn't been playing the game other then 'let's win immunity so I don't go home' in my book if you even need immunity more than once in this game you fucked up and lose a lot of points in my book, BUT TO NEED IMMUNITY FROM THE FINAL 11 ONWARD? I don't think so. That's impressive that you won all those challenges, but ridiculous that you needed to. Her strategic/social game isn't much better. She turns people off when they talk to her and she's very quick to throw out accusations and not subtly target people. That in my book is not a winner and I don't know if I would ever feel good about voting her to win. So yeah, I decided tonight since Jenn and Bryce were off the table I was originally gonna vote out Dusk. HOWEVER, then Emma starts targeting me and telling JENNIFER and everyone else about my idol, and it's just becoming more and more apparently obvious that Emma has no intention of wanting to go to the final 3 with me in any circumstance. So I made a deal with Dusk, I'd save him if he saved me final 5 against Jennifer if I don't beat her, even if she wins immunity I think I have a good case to save myself to Bryce as well. I CAN'T go to final 3 with Eddie and Jennifer because I think they'd both beat me with this kind of jury, Eddie has done really well socially and hasn't pissed anyone off, and same goes for Jennifer and it kills me. "terra"

- This... sucks. What a Visayas throwback, on the outs AGAIN and it's not even my fault, I'm just naturally on the outs LMAO, I just don't even know. They are probs going to goat Bryce's ass to the end which is purely disappointing although I know Bryce has a lot of game in him. All I want to say is Emma is just amazing and I'd rather have myself go out before her and her to win then have this shit happen ;-; Emma and Szymon were my closest allies since Day 1 and I'm so happy I met them and when we had the best skype calls evur, so amazing! Whatever happens happens I guess and I want to congratulate Jennifer, Bryce, Eddie, and Sora for making it this far, hoping for the best! And am also hoping to win this game!