I Have Been the Annihilator, Not the Annihilatee/Confessionals

Day 32
"ralfiki"

- I haven’t made one of these in awhile huh…. Well, let’s just say I’m somewhat surprised I’ve made it this far! I’ve been a walking target since the third swap in all honesty so I thought it was only a matter of time before I’d be yeeted out of the game but guess not! I honestly think I could win which like… is a lot to handle but I also don’t want to get my hopes up because what if I don’t, yknow. For me, my game has been be the annihilator, not the annihilated. (that probably made no sense ghfjdks) like I’ve constantly been a target but the shot at me has never been successful due to my social connections in the game. I’ve had an idol since like Day 5 and am still holding onto it somehow which is insane. I have like 2 final deals with Rob and Mihai, which isn’t too crazy? I’m def going with Mihai to the end if I can, but Rob is the tricky one for me since like… he’s had no votes cast against him and gets info a lot so that might be rewarded but at the same time, he hasn’t like… stood out. My main threats are my fellow winners Grace and Linus at the moment. Grace is such a good player and everyone like loves her on the jury so she’d def win and then Linus hasn’t exactly played the best game but him getting no votes against him and winning a lot could be respected so it’s tricky. Zach is also inch resting because while he hasn’t had any strategic power, everyone adores him. My main plan is to get Grace/Linus out within these two rounds and then see between Zach and Rob at F4. I’d love to use my idol at Final 5 to get to Final 4 since like… I feel holding onto an idol for that long despite being a constant scapegoat in the game would be commendable. Also this is too gamebotty of a confessional, fuckkkkkk. I honestly just really love this game and these people so much and winning would be the cherry on top of this experience. I don’t really see it happening but if it could, that would be amazing! I’ve put 110% into this and that won’t stop whatsoever, so let’s do the damn thing and slay the rest of this <3

Day 33
"ralfiki"

- Day 33 and I have some weird feelings. I did some statistics on how I am usually voted out in orgs and for me it is almost the same: I am either out in the first 3 votes, I either make FTC or I get 6th place and statistically speaking the times I got 6th place were most often. So, I expect this to happen tonight. I am always worried and thinking it could be because if I keep this alert state then I feel I can talk more with people and thus maybe survive. The plan for this vote is for everyone except Linus to vote for Grace, while Grace thinks that her, me, rob and augusto will vote for Zach. I tried to tell Grace that she needs to stay in the game because she is the only one who can beat Linus in challenges and we cant let him get to the end, but dunno it she believed it. I dont like her, but she is really smart and amazing at this game. We decided not to tell Linus so that Grace doesnt find out and also because the guys were scared Linus will play an idol for her which I doubt unless he has two of those. I have been trying for so long to take out Grace that I stopped believing it will happen, so I think she will find out about our plan and I might go home. Rob and Zach talking more than usually with me makes worried, it is like they are trying too hard to make me feel comfortable and that is smth I would do if I wanna blindside someone. So, I think I might be blindsided and that is fine, 33 days is more than I thought I would resist, I am not giving up and would love to make it to FTC after being a dead man walking for so long, but if it is me I feel like I did all I could have done.

"ralfiki"

- "If this is my last confessional it’s due to utter bullshit and cowardly gameplay

I know where Linus is coming from. I think I possibly do beat him even in a final two scenario. But the fact that he APPROACHED me saying he thinks he should vote me out because he’s afraid I’ll beat him in challenges is such a bitch move. Not even because he thinks I’ll win the game, because he knows his gameplay alone is weak, so he will have to comp beast it out.

don’t bite the hand that feeds you Linus Silversides, you’re in for a rude awakening if you fuck me over here. game on"

"ralfiki"

- "another qwik one. jsut wanna give yall something as opposed to nothing

So after the Nathan boot, I felt like my initial plan kinda had to go out the window, and I had to tweak it. Augus being in this game is really bad for my game, and theres nothing i can do about that because the numbers to take him out simply just are not there, at least not this time. Augus is a great social player and he could easily just take the win again should he get to the final. I know Grace, Augus and Linus all beat me, and I think I beat Rob and Mihai, so I need to do whatever I can to make that happen. This round its gonna be Grace, but Augus, Rob and Mihai all want Linus left out of the plan so she doesnt idol. I get where they're coming from, but Linus has uh, both idols. He came clean about yoinking the idol this round, but he did it by making me make a ridiculous promise with him. He wanted me to wager my jury vote that wed take each other to a tiebreaker in the event that were getting votes at f4. I kinda had to accept, but I think its really scummy and a really shitty way to play the game. I'd never do that personally. But like, hes gonna win the game. Hes guarenteed a spot in the final 4 and the only person who can beat him in a challenge is fuckin Grace, who also beats me. My best bet is him winning f4 immunity, forcing a tie on Rob w me (I think everyones plan is Grace then Augus) where I get in with Mihai and Linus and I make an argument about how hes only there because of immunity wins and that people wanted him gone forever and that he didnt play an impressive game or something. idk im coming to terms with losing this season and it SUCKS.

Back to this round tho, basically everyone wants Grace out, but everyone also wants it to be their own move. and its a headache. Too many egos. Add to that that Rob keeps getting snippy with me which is pissing me off, and Linus doing that stupid ass condescending deal with me, its got me pretty unhappy with my position in this game. If he loses fic (which he wont), im not goin thru with the deal - I will vote him out. Will it lose his vote? Maybe. but Im willing to take that chance. I think I'd have Joan, Aromal, Nathan and Augusto tbch. Drew, Grace and Alex will vote for Rob, and if Linus ends up voting for Rob, I guess i'll just have to live with that. I do think Mihai votes for me over Rob to win the game, so like, yeah, thats my only shot in this thing tbh. Im doin what I can. Voting out Aro was a mistake and I realize that now a lil too late. Shoulda gone for Linus at f8, it was our last chance.

Fug. Time to go take care of the rest of this tribal. Fingers crossed"

"ralfiki"

- "Did I somehow convince Linus to idol me after he said he was targeting me? Maybe

Do I know how? No"

"ralfiki"

- so it goes