Board Thread:Survivor 22: San Marcos/@comment-26852922-20170210195606/@comment-27845097-20170210204156

Hey Jenna! First of all I want to apologize for calling you Jefra LMAO. It was honestly not meant in the way that you're percieving it, my basis for that comparison was in a Kass type of way where I just adored you so much, and if that was part of your strategy it was honestly great, because you were a social butterfy. When I call you Jefra, it's not in any way related to her game. I called you Jefra in relation to the way you were voted out, but honestly we can change it, because I wouldn't be claiming that you were my best move if I truly thought you were some useless girl like Jefra was. You were honestly a really important piece to the game dynamics at Final 7, so I'm sorry if it's coming across the wrong way. LIKE FOR EXAMPLE I made Shea Janu. I don't think Janu is anything like Shea personally, but the circumstance was just him quitting so.

I feel like your entire jury question is directed towards what actually went down during your boot, and I'm aware it seems like I'm contradicting myself, so I'm just going to clarify.

First of all, I don't 'regret' voting you out, but I was upset about the circumstances that led me to do so. I'll get more to why it was a good move later. Basically that round when Austin had left, when I was talking to you about the future, I wasn't planning to vote you out the following round, I was planning on going deep into the game with you and that's all I regret. It was regret on a personal level, so I had to seperate my feelings from my game. On a game level I did feel like we could work together, however I felt like you could also spin the whole goat persona on Chris/Claudia on top of the fact that you guys had preexisting loyalty. Taking you out was primarily a shot at Chris/Claudia. I knew the best way to mantain the middle position was pitting Tacana against Nat/Shea, and I know I've said a lot of things about you being a trio with Tacana, and although I do believe that, not to the extents where I thought you guys were inseperable, however I didn't trust Tacana as much as I trusted you. I didn't vote you out easily, I knew that we would've worked together if you would've stayed, but at what cost? I knew Shea wouldn't forgive anyone for voting out Nathaniel, and I just can't picture a scenario where Chris and Claudia would be working with me after they got what they so desperately wanted. Especially with me and Nick together (they'd almost certainly pick Nick) and even if you would've aligned with me, I doubt we'd want a situation in which we were drawing rocks. I say voting you out was a good move situationaly, not because you were Jefra, OR this giant threat, but because it kept me in a middle position on top of taking power away from Chris/Claudia because I knew there was still some sort of barrier between Tacana and Nat/Shea that would've prevented them from being 100% allies. Not that I couldn't trust you, but you had better connections to Chris/Claudia than Nathaniel did. I will own that it was a good move, and my move because I was talking to both sides at that point, and yeah I was talking to Nick, but it wasn't in some sort of way where we were talking about who we trusted and who we didn't. What I'm trying to say is, this move was made with the future in mind, and I think you believe that Nick took over the position that you were in, but when I was making that decision, I saw it as a way to navigate this middle spot without Chris/Claudia, because clearly, they were closer to Nick than me.

Also I want to address the comments about my social awareness. I never told Austin to vote Chris, that was a plan that "Catarina Alliance" - which was sort of a sham at that point, was telling Nathaniel. I think Austin approached you to vote Chris because he was paranoid about going home, and he knew that we were the ones mainly talking, so he came to you in a last ditch effort in case Nathaniel voted for Chris. Nobody was ever going to vote Chris if you were honestly going to vote Nathaniel with us, however that plan was fucked when we figured Nathaniel was lying to us anyways. I did have my doubts, but I wouldn't say I thought you were lying. Also the whole Jefra thing is being blown out of proportion. I honest to god cannot boil your game down to one survivor so that was honestly mainly compared to based on how I felt about you, not my perception of your game. I'd love to just throw that aside because that makes you one-sided, and I guess I was just being appreciative of how well you've treated me, because this game has gotten really nasty at times and it's nice to have such a sweet person to talk to, but again hopefully we can get to know each other better and I can see the #BadBitch side of you too LMAO.

About the Shea thing, first of all, Fuck Shea! he is delusional. Anyways, as I've constantly reiterated, I adore you Jenna and I don't think I've ever said anything about you behind your back out of a game context. I reached out to you in genuine hopes of an alliance, and I got to know this wonderful person, which was unusual because you were more welcoming to me than some other Quetzals and Tacanas, and even Catarinas LOL. That's the only reason I view you as this really nice person, but again, I have a lot to learn in that regard!

but thanks for this question Jenna, I hope I've expanded some more of my thought process and I would love to continue this discussion if you have any more questions about it. I don't blame you for any reactions you've had because I think I didn't clarify any of this before, so that's why I'm leaving this open to discussion, but that's all I have to say for now.