Epic Blindside/Confessionals

Day 26
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- Damn willow found the merge idol!!!! I just missed it! I'm the target now and i get no power in my hands! It sucks! My bad luck this season. Damn, i hate this world!

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- "Shock waves were sent last tribal council! I was left completely in the dark for the Thomas blindside, and it didn't sit well with me whatsoever. At first, I felt very hurt, especially by Anabel, who I had thought I had a very good bond with. To have her lie to my face for 24 hours means that she is extremely good at it, and now I know I'm gonna need her gone soon.

During the aftermath of the tribal, Anna and Felix quickly snapped and went into the tribe chat just waiting for confrontation. I feel that it was a pretty stupid move because then it just makes us look aggressive and stuff. I decided to refrain from doing so, because I didn't want to be involved in that, so I just stood by and watched and waited, for nothing to come of it.

In our direct messages, Anna quickly organized a chat between herself, Felix, Matt and I because at the moment, we are the minority. We vented for a bit and then decided that we had to stick together going forward. It sucks because I don't want to bring Anna close to end because of her tendency to win in other games, but I'll have to take what I can get from the position I'm in.

Following this, Chari popped off in the main chat, calling out Nora and Anabel, which is great because that means that Chari is most likely to flip to the minority, and we can get revenge on Anabel and Tobi for excluding us from the vote. Both of their excuses feel a bit off and I don't get what the point of doing it to prevent ""messiness"" when I literally would've gone with them, but they are definitely gonna regret not asking me to be apart of the move!

Going forward, I want Tobi out of this game. I do not trust him that much, and from that other side, he's obviously in the best position, so I think that him going would be my best bet. Like, Anabel's reputation is ruined, Nora is seen as annoying by many and Willow is also a threat, but not as much as Tobi. Tobi has a good social game and he hasn't seemed to piss anyone off just yet, so I'd like him out next. The only problem with this plan is that Chari wants Nora out next, and of course we want her on our side to regain our footing, so we may have to vote out Nora, despite her posing literally no threat at all to me. I hope I'm able to convince Chari to get rid of Tobi, but she's obviously unhappy with Anabel and Nora, so it'll be tough to try and convince her.

I'm really hoping that after the mess that was last tribal council, I can try to regain my footing, make a move and find myself in a good position once again. Anabel will definitely pay for not including me, I can forgive, but I'm definitely not going to forget."

Day 27
"einigkeit"

- So i threw anabel under the bus last tribal: it was risky but i needed to make it to avoid that majority stick back together after the vote and just use us as numbers to vote Thomas. I trust anabel a bit but not Tobi. Everyone was mad at me that i messed up the plan or my chance to survive blablabla but hey folks, i am in the minority until i see the opposite and chaos and risk are my only weapons! By throwing her name, i hoped she will stick with us this tribal for his safety if she is feeling unsafe with anajane and felix. Well, i have to admit that my move can kill me if anabel is upset enough to vote me but it's a gamble i took. I tried to make damage control with her and tobi and chari saying that it was an accident and i was a mess. The answers of the touchy subjects are the consequences of my acts, people are perceiving me as a messy player who have no chance to make it far!! thank you! it hurts but guys, carry me to the end and i will open your eyes about who i am and what kind of game i've played. Safety isn't an option for me, i don't even know what that means since a couple of rounds. It's kinda cruel for anabel that i really appreciate but only time will tell if i was right about that move or not. And i will accept my fate if it backfires on me this tribal! OMG I can't believe they are thinking that Chari is a goat lmaooo for me chari is one of the brilliant players actually in the game <3

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- IM SO TIRED BUT I FOUND THE IDOL EARLIER TODAY WHICH IM ECSTATIC ABT BC ITS MY FIRST IDOL EVER, also since AJ has won like 50 challenges everyone expects she has it even tho it's actually me hehehe also last round was wild but it's 4am gn

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- I’m going home

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- "Alright so, i got completely blindsided last round when they sent Thomas home... Anabel, Tobi, Nora, Willow and Chari (literally what a group of misfit toys) grouped together and finally started playing the game LOL im salty af because i trusted anabel with my life... but if she wants to have a pissing contest im down

i got all the threatening things in touchy subjects... including most arrogant LMAO

im playing really well and im aware of that, im literally a social g o d, ive been playing games thinking ""what would elmo do"" and ya thats why im social. i hate all these people but i will fake it till i make it

i dont know what we are going to do, i think chari is with me? i will probably idol out of fear tonight and to lower the target on my back...

matt and i are close to getting the merge idol, we should have it in 24 hours at least

i only trust matt thats it everyone else can seriousyl fuck off"

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- "ok so sorry i haven’t explained everything u all, this might be like the longest thing anyone has ever seen but like u know what?? at least im spilling tea lol

so i pulled off an epic blindside w my macatobi and the three girls who were on the bottom. i expected to have ppl mad at me, especially anna. what i didn’t expect was ppl being sad. i didn’t want ppl to like cry over what i did but apparently there were some tears and honestly i cannot deal w that. anna and miles are two of the kindest ppl i have ever met in my life and i honestly can’t believe that i, anabel wentworth, DID THAT. am i proud that i made a move? fuck yes. am i proud of the way i did it? god no. winning this is NOT worth making two of the ppl i love most in this game upset and honestly i feel like i should’ve told them.

enough ab last tribal let’s talk ab this round. so it started w anna talking ab how bad of a decision it was to not tell her ab the thomas thing. i agree w her, but what’s done is done. in the touchy subjects answers i got like a lotttttt of bad ones which is scary yah but like totally expected. i would also not be surprised if i went home this round w how chaotic everyone is. like i think felix and matt are voting me for sure, most likely miles is as well, anna is undecided, the girls are voting for felix but i think felix has an idol so im HOPING that anna tobi and i can get together maybe and do something. but ive already done so much. im just so scared u know?? like i get that the move i made put an enormous target on my back and that target likely won’t go away for a very long time and that’s fine but i really, really don’t want to go home. not after everything ive done to try and stay!! i wrote a literal ESSAY to anna asking her to save me and im just hoping for the best. this is literally the most nerve wracking thing ever. i bet it’s me tho..... which sucks but like i lowkey brought it on myself....

also tobi and i have an official alliance name now lol, it’s macatobi and cheese which i think is SO CUTE!!!!! like when will ur faves ever?? literally tobi is everything i want to be in life and like i love him sm lol he’s adorable

ok i think im done but thank u for listening to me i appreciate it hehe, goodbye "

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- Survivor Rhineland - Day 27

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- "YALL i was loving having an idol for like a hot min but now its stressing me tf out and causing more paranoia than is necessary bc everyone is QUIET this round and im ovethinking AF like okay so in a hypothetical what if AJ is fake being mad abt Anabel flipping and she was in on this move the whole time to make them not seem close since before that everyone thought they were ride or dies also i think its smarter to vote Miles in case of AJ having an idol, bc we're telling everyone we're voing AJ (even tho we're actually voting Felix) BUT i know AJ and she's smart af so she probs know we're telling her that its her name but actually voting Felix bc this almost exact same situation happened in rebirth and i was idoled out bc of it, so like she def wouldnt expect us to vote Miles so she wouldnt play it on him NNNN tobi is especially being quiet and hes like supposed to be w us and everything, anywayyssss AJ is probs gonna play her idol on felix if she has one (but maybe shes hyping up the fact that she thinks she has one just to throw us off and vote felix??) there are so many possibilities AND IDK WHICH ONE IS GONNA PLAY OUT maybe im also overreacting and felix is gonna leave no problems, but im smarter than that I know its survivor and that I shouldn't feel comfortable and that I need to expect the unexpected. part of my instincts are telling me to play my idol tonight bc maybe they're bamboozling me once again but this time I'm on the receiving end but at the end of the day i dont think i will??? bc i rly dont wanna waste it and i want to believe that everything is okay! also i typed this fast and im nervous rn so excuse any typos, until next time!!"