The Dinner/Confessionals

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Day 24

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Day 23
"yangra"

- PHEW THAT WAS SO CLOSE. I feel super drained after this round for sure. I hated the way Catnip and I butted heads the last minute but she was coming after me and I was luckily able to pull in Okie and try to create a new alliance. I also was a little upset with Catnip because of the way she said she was honest, when all day she was telling me Caeb and Okie. I find that to be super frustrating from a player perspective. But, I mean she did play hard, I respect her. But the way she went out left an icky feeling in my stomach for sure.

"yangra"

- CJ comes to me and tells me that Catnip felt like I was telling her how to do the last immunity challenge. Which was not my intention at all. I wanted one of the three of us to win immunity, which happened. I did not want to force anything upon her and it does make me upset that she felt that way and didn't say that to me. I never come on these games to be the typical males you see on Survivor and I didn't want to steam roll. Feel like I'm trying to do the right thing, but keep falling short....

Day 24
"yangra"

- Is this a deja vu of Mongolia? whole premerge and merge boot going smoothly, and then boom - bottom without any hope? i hope the game evolved enough in 7 years to avoid it... let's see how it goes.

I am very sad for Catnip, i know how much she gives to these games, and it s*cks that she is always targeted at this spot. but now i need to find a way how to survive myself... Wish me Luck!

"yangra"

- Well, I think it's safe to say that everyone has fully seen through my disguise as a humble flop who doesn't know how to play Survivor. I was an integral part of the blindside of the season, and I just Ozzied the shit out of that challenge. Going from 0-10 in threat level in one round is a tried and true way to get blindsided so I need to cool off fast and play really subtly and smart this round, while still making sure that whoever goes this round won't fuck up my game.

I'm insanely well-positioned right now, where I'm allied with literally everyone but Okie. I've been planting seeds that Okie won't stay loyal to us, and he just wanted to make a big move, and would happily make a big move against us if given the opportunity (and to be fair, I think that's absolutely true). So hopefully he goes here and I can have a nice relaxing round of pissing nobody off.

But my amazing position is both a blessing and a curse, because it's only a matter of time before people realize just how hard I've been playing every single side. I'm in an alliance with the 3 people who were on the wrong side of the numbers last round, and I don't want any of them going just yet. But also I think my time of being able to play the middle is rapidly running out, and sooner or later I'm going to have to pick a side or everyone's going to band together over how big a snake I am.

I think I ultimately do feel better going to the end with my Equuleus 2 group, because I just see Nathaniel, Martynas, and Nicole as all being extremely formidable players. But I think I need to find a way to get out 1 or 2 people in my Equuleus alliance before going to the end, because pagonging a group of people I consider allies is not the way to get anyone's jury vote. Plus I think I'd get cut at 4 or 5 once for being too damn friendly, without some serious shields, and that's where my best place on discord alliance comes in.

CJ and I just met in real life, since he's visiting Boston, and it was lovely! He's a big sweetheart. He's also probably the only person who may be playing even better than I am right now, so that's something to keep an eye on. But he is probably my closest ally at this point, since Caeb has just been so MIA. I've never met an ORG player in real life before, so it was a cool and kind of crazy experience. More than a little awkward, but it was still a very nice time and hopefully locks down trust even more than it already was.

Wish me luck! I'm about to start having to execute what will inevitably be some pretty brutal betrayals, and I think there's a very real possibility everyone will go from adoring me to hating me within the span of a round or two. But this is my redemption arc, and I need this redemption more than anybody else here, so it's time to be a cold heartless career gal and get what I fucking want.

"yangra"

- Boy oh boy. Revenge for Catnip and Revenge for Gevonte can be achieved. i got tired of waiting and hoping it's not me. 3 bottom people (me, Nathaniel, Nicole) + Caeb + Okie might make an all time move. Or as i sold it to Nathaniel - "one last hoorah!". Either we pull and all timer move, or it backfires on me, as i am the one whose name will be told as planning it.

there's huge possibility that CJ has 2 idols. i told that to Caeb with all the reasonings. (thank you, Catnip!) Plus being super likeable to avoid being targeted too soon. Plus CJ is a challenge beast. plus, i hadn't told that to anyone yet, but CJ was having an irl lunch with Conch this week, who knows what they agreed during it.

Caeb either deserves an Oscar, or he seems to be totally in the idea to blindside CJ. we just need to pull Okie in. Okie said that he wants the game to be more fluid without Catnip, this is his chance to prove it.

of course i could sit in silence, hope that Conch and Isaiah watches my back until they decide they needs me for a move, but that's Mongolia Marty. Supernova Martynas has more experience to just try to pull another immunity run at the end.

Stay tuned for the fireworks

"yangra"

- Feel like everything is pretty simple and straightforward here. I would love to see Martynas go this round. He just is so shady. He also blames me for our relationship changing from the pre-merge. Which, I do take some blame. However, he continually leaves me on read or doesn't respond to my messages or ends the conversation while he is still online. So, I do like him a lot as a person. But communication is a two way street here, folks.

"yangra"

- I hate weekend tribals. I'm in DC, everyone is so busy, and it just makes it really hard for a vote. I am hearing that CJ and Okie are on the block, but I think that the split vote plan might have to just go to the wayside. I feel like a unan vote on Martynas is risky, but I also don't expect him to have the idol?? Not totally sure.