Board Thread:Big Brother 5/@comment-24535117-20171218151727/@comment-24642146-20171218185208

Hello Miss Natalie,

You hit the nail on the head with that first statement. The moves i made against you were super personal. I took my past experiences with you in a previous org, and used that knowlege here. I know that you are a super subtle player, you can play all sides really easily (and really well) and you have the potential to go super far in the game. So, coming in i said im not going to trust Natalie this time, and im going to take her out asap because of those past experiences. Some may call that overly personal, i call it learning from experiences and not making the same mistake again.

I love that you bring up Paul's BB19 game. I think the difference between me and Paul is that he actively tried to control the opinions of the jury. He hard core believes in jury management, and changed the way he played because of it. But over half the jury still didnt like him enough to vote for him. I think if you play this game for other people, you lose track of your own game. I wasnt playing so you all would like or respect me. I was doing my absolute best to make it to the end and to have as much fun as possible while doing it.

If i lose this game..... actually now that you've asked this question i think our definitions of jury management are slightly different. But on the whole i still dont think there is a way to manufacture other peoples opinions of me. Could i be nicer? Yes. Could i have been less of a bitch? 100%. But that wasn't the game i wanted to play. I was in 4 orgs at the same time, so here i wanted to play it up and go much bigger and crazier than i have in other orgs.

Also Santa is a westernized, capitolistic branding name for Saint Nicholas, a christian saint who lived and died between the 200s and 300s AD. I only bring this up because i did a project on him a while back. So, in a sence i believe santa clause exists in the same way i think George Washington or Frida Kahlo exist XD. While jury management is a field of thought that in my opinion cant really be mastered or proven. I cant control what others think of me, so i may as way be my most authentic self (or version of myself) and deal with the consiquences later. So, not to be a smart ass, but in a very true sence i believe in Santa more so then i believe in jury management. And just like i said before, i played my game, had my fun, and now im accepting my consiquences like a big girl XD.

As for the burial of the hatchet. I got my anger out, and i got some revenge this season. I owe you a big appology as i've said in other statements. I was a royal bitch to basicslly everyone, but i was especially cunty to you because of how i was eliminated from BBUK. I harbored so much resentment. And it was one of those things where you have a negative opinion of someone and literally anything you did would got on my nerves. That wasn't your problem, it was mine and im more then happy to offer an appology for all of that now, and im happy to offer it after the game ends. I dont think you are a bad person, i think i am and i dont let things go easily. HAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAH AND YOU ARE CORRECT, YOU WERE VERY RELEVANT IN MY LIFE LOL. But i think Willam Belli said it best, "Indifference is worse then hate." And you made a big enough impact on me in one game that i couldn't bring myself to be indifferent towards you. So, good on you girl, in a big sence you had power over me in 2 different shows.

So, ending on 2 personal notes. I was a bitch to you directly after you left the BB house. I said you had no personality, and you shut me the fuck up with that video. I think you have an amazing personality now, and maybe it just didnt come across through text. Because as you were dragging me i couldnt help but cheer you on saying, "YAAAAAAAS, Drag her and snatch that bitch BALD."

Second personal note. If you want to vote for me, thank you, and i respect that decission. But im not asking for your vote in all good consious. I was nothing but a fucking cunt to you all season. If these roles were switched, i wouldn't have even asked you a jury question. So, im not expecting your vote, and i think you are a much bigger person then me for even talking to me right now.