Dicked By The Minotaur/Confessionals

Day 16
"mytikas"

- PRAIIIIIIISE THEEEEEEE LORDDDDDDDDD "mytikas"

- Sammy's finally gone and I would be nice but I'd rather say good riddance! He was very rude to me out of nowhere and you can't just do that here and then say it wasn't personal he talked to be in such a rude way lol so that's one less person at my throat lmao. Anyways now this swap. I expected this last round and not this one so I'm a bit nervous. I'm thinking two things. Either this will be a three tribes of 5, or two tribes of seven and have one join the losing tribe. I'm very nervous because with a tribe of five, if it doesn't go right I could fucking go home right here on this round, but with my method of playing so far, I'm hoping I can make it work. Please no Emily on my tribe I literally think she has it out for me, and hopefully I'm with people that really don't think that "alliance" ever existed. Hoping for the best Survivor Gods! ""mytikas"

- This is either my dream scenario or my worst nightmare.

I know I voted against Gevonte and Charlie last tribal, but they both seem keen to work with me. This could end up being 3-2, or 4-1.

That being said, 3 OG Mytikas is still a bit worrisome. More details soon. "				"mytikas"

- Two people from ES making Final 15? Resurrection is SHAKING "mytikas"

- we swapppppped finally :-) I was ready for a shake-up tbqh. I initially feel really good about my new tribe... I'm on Kakalos which I'm hype for bc the pink is cute; and I'm here with Cammy who I trust from Mytikas 2.0 as well as Elizabeth who i've been building a really good game relationship with the past couple weeks ¯\_( ͡° ͜ʖ ͡°)_/¯ sooo I feel like that might lead to a 3 person majority if we ever go to tribal hehe. The other two are Konrad and Brian, both of whom I really haven't built any semblance of a game relationship with 👀, not to mention I've said to multiple people that I wouldn't mind if Brian was voted out flkasjdf I wonder if anyone leaked that to him hmmm. Konrad just yesterday I actually messaged to try to start some bond with him because I was sensing the swap coming and uk was just covering my bases in case we swapped together, and whaddaya know :) I feel like we have a really strong tribe and have good chances at staying immune so hopefully I won't have to worry too much about tribals, but ya never know. I have high hopes of making it to merge now yay "mytikas"

- wait i just realized the hosts retired Dion and brought back both the purple and pink buffs... i'm suddenly upset we're not purple lkajfsd 😫😫😫 ""mytikas"

- Well I’m on the Mytikas 3.0 tribe consisting of myself, Emily, Karsten, Louise and Nicole. Liam comes up to me and lets me know about this supposed alliance between everyone on the old Dion tribe excluding Louise, Brian and Sammy. And then Louise herself lets me know of this after herself. So it’s like I really want to work with Karsten, but however if this is true then Karsten needs to leave if we go to tribal because we can’t risk that if it’s true

I feel bad if it isn’t true since I was just accused of being in an alliance myself but I feel this may not be false but we’ll find out hopefully. "				""kakalos"

- omg... so much has happened. the blindside on lexi was nuts but i feel like necessary almost. she was a target but also i felt like really well set up. she gets deep in games and i feel like we had to try to send her home as early as possible, and with the whole “alliance” rumor that she was involved in, i don’t think it looks like as big as a move as it really was. i’m glad i was able to get charlie/emily/ryan on board and i think me telling gevonte about liam/malik/lexi voting him gave me major points with him. i feel like i’m set up well socially, the only person i’m “eh” with is konrad. i don’t know if i’m anyone’s #1 gal but i think playing the medium threat level is a good spot for me to be.

this swap is ok for me. i’m really good with brian, good with ryan and elizabeth, and don’t know shit about konrad. brian and elizabeth want each other out of the game so i think that saves me for one tribal. i’m hoping to make a solid 2-3 relationships. i’m not really sure what the clear path is for me to get to the end, i’m taking it day by day and hoping i can find a way. so far i feel good. "				"stefani"

- So we just swapped and I am living for it. I'm still with Ben, big plus cause we worked closely together on our last tribe and he is now away from Liz and Karsten. Both of these things should be wonderful for my game going forward cause I need to make sure he is with me over them. I'm reunited with Charlie which is huge because I feel like he views me as his number 1 ally atm. So for me, its a matter of bringing these groups together come merge or soon. So luckily that was already put in motion by me getting ben and Charlie to talk before now about working together, and poof. An alliance chat of the 3 was born within the first hour of us being on the same tribe. This is great!! Now I just need to see where Gevonte and Liam stand in the overall scheme of the game. If we lose I want Liam gone, I think Gevonte has a greater shot at being with me in the long run than Liam just based on my gut. I'm excited to see how this tribe will play out for me. I think I'm in a good spot. Its just a matter of maintaining my trust circle and keeping up with everything. My plan is to get a good amount of people in my corner, see where they stand. And make my moves accordingly. Its a rough strategy and it can be hard to argue at the end. But no one will out social me. "kakalos"

- So this tribe swap worked out in my favor to an extent. As much as I would have loved to be with Ben and Karsten again, I think I'm still in a good position. I trust Konrad the most out of everyone on my tribe and he trusts me also. I trust Ryan a lot and I'm assuming he's serious about wanting to work with me since he told me Sammy threw my name out last round and says he's down to get Brian out. Cammy I get along with well when we do talk so hopefully we can get her on board to vote Brian if we were to lose. Regardless winning is still my number one priority since I've been to 4 of the 5 past tribals but if Karsten's tribe were to lose I'd worry he would be the one voted out. "stefani"

- Ok, so this morning I woke up to find that we are getting demolished in this challenge. So it's safe to assume we're going tribal, and after giving it some thought I feel like Gevonte would be the best option for me to send home. I have an interest in keeping Liam cos of what Brian said to me. I also don't wanna vote out Ben cos it will probably alineate Jerry. Although it also could bring Jerry closer to me... ""stefani"

- Omg. I just got added to an alliance chat with Liam and Gevonte, and they're spilling some major info about how karsten/ben/elizabeth were the core 3 on that last tribe, and got Konrad/Jerry to join them.

This might mean that Jerry is not so tight with them. But maybe he doesn't know that! If this core 3 is a real thing, I need to break it up. I want to vote out people's allies so that they feel closer to me.

If I decide to take out Ben here with Gevonte and Liam, I'll gain back Liam's trust and still have a valuable ally in Gev, who I believe trusts me after saving him at Lexi vote. If I can convince Jerry that Ben has closer allies, and that we can work with Liam and Gev, we'll be golden.

I definitely feel as though I can trust Jerry the most in this game, so I'm really happy his name isn't being thrown aobut. "				"stefani"

- FUUUUUUCK THIS CHALLENGEEE "stefani"

- I will NOT let the Malolo curse persist damn it! This sausagefest is way to volatile to lose and I am NOT fucking here for it! "kakalos"

- life is good on NewKakalos :))) we are strong as fuck and slaying in this C4 immunity and whew I'm happy. I'm growing closely to both Elizabeth and Cammy separately and I made a visual of the maze so hopefully I or an ally of mine can get in there this round and snatch up some power ""mytikas"

- So we won the challenge, and surprisingly I dragged my entire tribe to the win. I’m so glad for once minis applied to this because it helped me get my tribe a win since im so used to that system. Hopefully I’m one step closer to themerge and I can’t wait.

On the other hand, Stefani was very annoying, specially Gevonte and Liam. Gevonte is always bragging about winning the challenges and is usually rude about it but the second you’re flopping you wanna get angry? Come on now. And Liam same thing he would rub it in my face and now that it’s the other way he wants to block my messages. You better be lucky I’m not playing how people know me to play or you’d catch these hands by now. Venty venty.

Either way, I’m just so glad I could get my tribe a win. They all thanked me and called me the mvp which makes me feel good because I usually suck at challenges. Hopefully we won’t go to any tribals before Merge. "				"kakalos"

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Day 17
""stefani"

- My mood swings are going to be the death of me

I'm sorry if I've been a downer lately in confessionals, I understand if you're frustrated by me not giving quality content, but I don't know what else to say.

This has just been a week and I'd be lying if I said I haven't thought about jumping from my fucking dorm window c':

I just don't feel very optimistic about my chances if we lose, which seems very likely at this rate.

hate stuff "				""stefani"

- This is either my last confessional until tomorrow night, or my last confessional overall.

I've done what I can with Charlie and Gevonte and personally I think they both realize they have nothing to gain by keeping Ben over me.

Though I said this about Ben keeping Brian and that got all fucked up.

I really really hope this isn't the end for me, it would be really embarrassing to go out in 15th place, especially knowing that the jury phase is so close. I can almost taste it. "				"kakalos"

- we won immunity & reward :::))) Brian really had the balls to ask if we were cool with letting him go into the maze.... when I read that I just had to laugh.... I was not about that, I said we should send someone that hasn't gone yet so my girl Elizabeth could go. and it was suggested that we randomized it so of course I offer to random.org it and you bet your ass I rigged that shit to ensure Liz went ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ lol sorry bout it ""stefani"

- Okay so we swapped and it worked out for me. I got on a tribe with Jerry and Charlie and both of them are allies of mine, so unless and idol is played I am in the majority, so yay!!!

Right now the target seems to be Liam. I'm not good with him.on game terms, so I feel like this is the perfect opportunity to vote him.out.

So Louise has been telling everyone about how me karsten liz konrad and even Jerry are in an alliance. This is not a good look for me. It makes me become.a much easier target at merge, so I am trying to figure out how I can downplay this, but I really don't know how. I mean I can easily claim that I am not with them, but no one is going to buy it. Fuck, I wish I was a lot smarter in these games :( "				"stefani"

- Man that challenge killed my soul. -_- I'm sorry for how frustrated I acted, but it's just hard cause you never know whats gonna happen in a first swap vote. I've gone from one completely chill tribal one round to nearly DYING in another round. And now with all these alliances getting mixed around it's gonna be harder and harder to make the right decisions.....but that's SURVIVOR RIGHT??! lol "stefani"

- Anyway, the vote is basically gonna be Ben unless someone pulls a fast one again. Liam was preeeettyy quick to make an alliance with me and Charlie. Apparently while everyone was worrying about my premade alliance (which was STILL fake af you fucks) another alliance got made on Dion. It didn't involve Sammy so lowkey not mad at it, but it's still dangerous o let them stay till merge is we know who they are. The PROBLEM is that Jerry is supposedly in it, but he's an OG Mytikas and we all still seem pretty loyal to each other. So if this works and we inevitably lose again, he'll be pushing for Jerry to go next and idk if me or Charlie are up for that yet. So this is just stress waiting to happen, hopefully I can talk to Jerry and see where his head's at, if he's suddenly loyal to this other alliance then we'll probs just have to do it, even tho I don't want to. But I also don't wanna vote off Liam so????? BLARGH! Choices. Tatianna help me! ""kakalos"

- whewww I was on a tea gathering mission today honeys. I went on a mission to gather up info about the maze, which lead to the conclusion that either the maze is changing, that each tribe has a different maze, or that someone be lying.... so after getting the tea from Elizabeth about her and Karsten's trips, I put together a drawing of what the maze seems to be like, hoping no one has any powers yet and that Liz or I can get sent back into the maze next round

also talked with Charlie a long time about what's happening at his tribal. ig he's in the middle between Liam & Gev wanting to vote Ben, and Ben & Jerry wanting to vote Liam; he said he was very conflicted about what to do and was asking me for pros and cons and what not. I love a good ally taking my thoughts into consideration at a tribal I'm not even attending <3 He seems to be planning ahead for merge and wants to use this vote to set up him/me/Cammy/Emily to have a group to work with once merge happens. He thinks it's turning out to be Ben/Karsten/Liz/Jerry working together, and Liam/Malik/Gev/Brian/possibly Louise, and that's probably likely but I feel like it won't be so black & white when we actually merge. I would prefer Jerry was the one to leave lol as I see potential to work with both Liam and Ben, but I think he's gonna take out Liam ultimately and that's okay. Preserving the trio that went to rocks [Karsten/Ben/Liz] feels like the best plan for all of us because I see them being a big target in merge, and also I feel a good bond with those 3 and want to work with them. So yay things be happening "				"stefani"

- Aaaaand just like that shit falls apart and LIam is going home. God DAMNIT I hate last minute shit. But Charlie for some reason can't find it in himself to trust Liam, and despite my minor campaigning I couldn't convince him other wise. Maybe he has a point tho? Liam going now doesn't burn Jerry and if he is still overall loyal to Mytikas....he might be willing to let go of Ben next time? I'm not for sure, but I got now that I'm gonna lose yet ANOTHER close friend this early on. Ugh I HATE this game so goddamn much. Yet I love it to bits... :/ Jeez is this Stockholm Syndrome? Regardless, I'm potentially FUCKED if we lose again, so my primary concern is WINNING. God forbid I let wishy washyness fuck me next round! "kakalos"

- I'm really glad Ben survived and Liam got voted out. Going forward I wasn't sure if Liam was someone we could work with because of the rocks situation. So when I heard it was coming down between him and Ben, I was really hoping Ben could stay since he is one of the two people I've been aligned with from the start. I was really worried Louise telling people me/Ben/Karsten were a trio would harm our games and her almost outting us in the OW chat isn't good but hopefully we can survive the next few rounds and K.E.B make merge together. Charlie and I just had a conversation about who we'd like to work together with at merge and it's crazy how in sync we are. He wants to work with Ben and Jerry still since they're all on the same tribe currently but I listed off Karsten, Nicole, Cammy, Konrad and Ryan as potential others to work with since I talk to them more than Louise, Brian, Malik, Emily, Gevonte and Charlie was on board of all 5 of them. If all 9 of us make it, it's gonna be one hell of a merge because I love all of them and would like to work with all of them but 7 would have to go if I wanna make it to the end. ""stefani"

- I'm in the exact position I didn't want to be now. I have to choose between two sides, Liam/Gevonte or Ben/Jerry. Honestly right now I am having a nightmare deciding. I feel like this decision could have a huge impact on which side takes control at the merge.

Brian messaged me asking me to keep Liam safe, so I know that he's someone I could get closer to if I do vote with Liam. On the other side, Ben/Jerry are tight with Liz. I honestly feel like either way could benefit me. "				""stefani"

- Ok, after talking to Liam more I am leaning towards voting Ben. Liam is such a nice guy and I feel like he really is genuine about wanting to work with me from here on out. I'd feel so bad about blindsiding him again like I did with the Lexi vote. I also like the fact that I'd be allied with Gevonte/Brian, as they are two people I wanna get closer to.

The only downside is Jerry isn't going to be very happy with me. I think he feels like he would be the next one voted out if we went to tribal again, and I completely get why.

The hosts told me that if i voted with Jerry at the next tribal council in this hypothetical situation, it would go to rocks if it tied. UGHHH Fuck that!! I'm not going to rocks this early lmao "				""stefani"

- I am starting to become terrified. I'm really worried that both sides are not going to really appreciate my dilly-dallying, and get together and vote me out instead. It's happened before on the real show. The swing vote is too indecisive and so the sides decide to just vote them out (christy, amazon)

I need to make a fucking decision! But first, to the maze! "				"stefani"

- Just got dicked by the minotaur in the maze. It seems like it's gonna be hard to find the idol in there tbh, even with the collaboration of routes. Knowing these hosts, the maze probably changes every round or something. ""stefani"

- Just had a 40 minutes conversation with Jerry on the phone. He is definitely not going to vote Ben out, and he sounded so sad. .

I also spoke to Cammy/Ryan about the situation to see what they thought. Both of them seemed keener on the idea of voting Liam out, as they said they'd rather go with Liz's side at the merge. Cammy told me that Brian has been talking about making an alliance with us him Malik Louise and maybe someone else. But Cammy thinks that it's all talk since he's been talking about it for ages.

I am starting to lean more towards Liam now. i just feel like he and Malik are probably still mad at me about blindsiding Lexi, and i'm just not sure how comfortable I'd feel being in an alliance with them if they do hold that grudge against me. Liam says that he wants to move on, but who knows? He might just be saying that to keep me happy here cos he needs me for my vote.

If I vote with Jerry/Ben, I think i'd feel more comfortable going with that side. Especially if Cammy/Ryan (who I consider my closest allies) want to do the same.

Fuck, Liam is gonna be so crushed though. I feel so guilty, he's such a nice guy. "				""stefani"

- Ughhhhhhhhh not long till we have to vote and I still can't make a fucking decision. I keep changing my mind every few minutes, it's all I can think about. But I think I am leaning towards voting Liam.

Honestly this is probably the worst I've ever felt in an org. Both sides think I'm with them 100% and I'm gonna really hurt whoever I do vote out.

And i really feel like this vote is so important. It really could change the way the merge unfolds. "				""stefani"

- Fuck. I voted out Liam. I told him before the results were shown, just so he at least wasn't blindsided. He didn't reply with much though, and Cammy told me he's devastated. After the vote off was confirmed he said it was the ""biggest middle finger he'd received in an org"".

I feel terrible, this is horrible :( "