Board Thread:Big Brother 8/@comment-25087748-20190306184206/@comment-9602029-20190307004609

Hello Alissa. Let's get down to business.

1. Everything about your assessment with me is true. Regardless of what you think of this answer, I believe that I "woke" up after your harsh post-eviction words. You may not have really seen things since your departure into the jury, but I think that you are correct in that assessment. Here's why:

~ Our social game was probably one of the weakest. Paired up with Tyler's (like you mentioned) were where my social game probably had the biggest flaws. I know that for a fact that timezones played the biggest setback in our conversation because I'm either falling asleep when you start or you fall asleep when I start. So that is where the lack of connect happened. As for the Tyler thing, I slowly began to lose touch with him too because of him simply nominating me the first time. And as someone who has placed on the Fire Element due to personality and outlook in life, I purposefully distanced myself to make sure that I don't say/do anything that I would later come to regret. Those two things are the biggest reasons on this first chunk.

~ To address your second point, keeping a positive outlook on the "pre-game" connections was strictly a choice. Everything in life you can see it with a positive or negative outlook. I chose to see it with positivity and a hope to see that something can sprout from it. I believe that I am an awkward person, both in real life and when it comes to games and my sassy/salty personality only comes out when I developed a good connection with a person or group of people. How does that tie into this? Well awkwardness is like such a pandemic to me, so to sing praises of having good connections really was something that I can use to avoid the awkward (if this makes sense). Everyone always has those awkward first conversations that set the tone when it comes to the start of ORGs. It can mean that you are compatible to work with others or you aren't. My positivity was strictly a thing to hope that we can use our shared experiences in the past to hope something come out of this game.

2. One thing that benefitted Drew and Drew alone. Evicting Jayme with no hesistation. Again, sounding harsh but before Roisin was evicted, some of her plea points included a highlighted relationship with Jack/Jayme. Obviously the alliance between you 4 didn't pan out but she did mention that they have a pre-existing relationship that may as well have been a Final 2 deal. So with that information, I didn't know if it was true or not, so I acted like anyone else would and treat it as if it were a possibility. Cause when Jayme was on the block the following week, they thought that they had Jack and my vote and it would be down to a tie, but I did not. I played the appearance to make sure that they didn't need to make some confession/plea to me, to make sure that they believed that I was in their corner when they needed it the most, and to make sure that I would be an advocate for them towards Lachlan- should it have been a 3-3 tie.

3. My biggest flaw in the game... I don't know actually. Everyone has pointed things that was wrong with me and my approach to this game, so to isolate one and claim it as my "biggest" is gonna tough. Everyone already had a pre-existing notion of how I am in this game and should I been sitting here in this position, I'd be the biggest goat for anyone to take. So again, its hard to pinpoint one thing when people are giving up on me so quickly before making sure that I a chance to explain/defend my game.