Smash Cut To Me Getting Voted Off/Confessionals

Day 14
"kappolla"

- Nat being voted out is not what I wanted to see happen. My tribe was so convinced that Morgan was going to go purely based on challenge results. I really wanted to say "I told you so" but I knew that would be dumb and also have no point because I would have rather seen Morgan go anyways lmao. I'm not sure if there was something going on with the vote, but if Nat was sent home 3-1, then all hope I ever had in Logan has been lost. Andrew and he were both my allies by association purely through Nat, so I don't care about either of them at this point. Both Andrew and Logan have zero social game at this point, at least with me. Andrew talks good strategy and has a clever mind, but he doesn't ask me how I'm doing. Logan never responded to my DM, so I really didn't care before anyways lmao. The only positive thing that comes out of this is that I don't have to feel tied to them. Now that I think about it, so many people that I talked to are such bland talkers. Literally only Conch, Magnus, and Kamen are good at talking to me, and for everybody else, it still felt like small talk after 9 days or they never responded to my DMs. Thing is, I don't trust Conch or Magnus at all, and if I reunite with Kamen soon, it'll be hard to trust him just because he's been forced to work with people I have no care in working with because they're so dry. I'm just gonna let people continue to cycle out of the game, because who's voted out matters so little to me at this point. As long as Kapolla can keep winning, I don't have to worry or care. I was hardcore rooting against Dumb tribe, but now Kamen's the person I'd least like to see go, so Ngau'u can lose the next one again lmao. Just as a P.S. I know I probably seemed whiny but oh well

Day 15
"dumbripi"

- We are finally going to tribal. Eamonn is the easy vote due to lack of trust and mutual plans going forward. Seems no one’s having any sneaky plans, all safe and set to go.

But no, I can’t have a calm day, I have to try to reason with Eamonn and him pleading his loyalty to me and me not having any of it. Not after you push for me in the last tribal we both attended, no. *insert Jarnéia Richard-Noel singing “No Way” here* Like, this was meant to be an easy vote, why do I have to waste my nerves? >_<

"ngauu"

- Honestly when the whole tribe got a 0 last week, I knew that people in my tribe feel way too comfortable because they have numbers and it fucking sucks because it make it so hard for me to keep on going. I thought everyone was throwing just to get me out and im like ???? whats the point?????? and thankfully they got Natkat out instead. I'm really glad they did 2048 because I'm pretty good at it and it turned out that I carried my tribe to immunity hard. I knew I already have a big target on my back so I dont need to play utr because that wont get me anywhere since I already have a big target on my back. Might as well go big or go home. When we merge, I need to find an alliance to weasle in asap because I'm pretty sure Logan is an awful ally to rely on. Gavin is alright though but I think hes closer to Logan than to me :/ I hope Tal come back in

"kappolla"

- Damn Andrew, way to completely torpedo your game in 8 hours.

Basically the tea is this: Andrew tells me this morning that he's freaking out and thinks he's in a terrible spot, that we're losing the challenge, and that he'll probably get the votes. Now, I don't know if he actually thought he was on the bottom, but from what I can tell, he genuinely wasn't. It was Nick, and/or Mason. But then, he proceeds to tell me that he was really close with Gavin and Logan, just amplifying his threat level at the merge for absolutely no reason. And THEN, he decides 5 minutes before challenge submissions are due to sit out, without checking with anyone else, even though Magnus told our entire tribe that he was out and wouldn't be submitting. So now, Mason is putting together a 3 person chat between himself, Magnus, and I, and even though Nick talks to no one, we may still keep him over Andrew. Idk, we'll see, I guess it'll depend how mad the 3 of us are tomorrow. But damn, Andrew. Truly Drew Christy levels of Survivor self-implosion.

"kappolla"

- Fuck.

Yeah that’s about it I have no fucking idea what’s happening I *assumed* that Mason was gonna have some kinda stupid plan and screw us both over but it’s starting to make more and more sense to me But at the same time I think I told Magnus too much and the endless wildcard, Nick, is in between that plan actually working My main hope is that Nick and I can both work together to pick the right result and hopefully be able to force rocks in the future if it comes to that. I mean after this we’ll be at the final 11 in the main game so I’m willing to assume that there’s a merge after this Or I can use my SFW knowledge to deduce that this might be Dueling Desert again and the redemption people will form a new tribe in which case I can absolutely beat Eamonn in a challenge (assuming things go according to plan) and get into a new tribe with Oli and Tal. I think I have a good enough relationship with Oli to survive a 3 person tribe, but that’s besides the point. I guess I’ll just wait for everyone else to come to me before I can make a decision. Maybe Nick will be up soon.

"kappolla"

- What a day, sheesh. The challenge was absolute shit. Andrew decided to sit out without the full approval of the tribe, and although I learned from Andrew we would've lost anyway, it was irrational and unfair to the other tribes. Let me make it clear that I had zero involvement in this. I never even touched that link to the 2048 game! I probably would have won it for the tribe, but whatever lmao.

I had been feeding this event to Conch as a reason to vote him out, and they appear pretty receptive. I started an alliance channel chat with Conch and Magnus, and I'm hoping to organize a plan with those two. Will I follow it? It'll depend on what the other side does. I want Conch out the most. I believe they have the idol, and now is the optimal time to strike. The thing is, I have to rely on two VERY unreliable people to pull this off. Obviously, Nick is not very active, and I think there's a bit of a language barrier since he's from Russia. Well, he's active, but he never responds to his DMs. I asked him to vote for Conch and he may never respond. If he doesn't, I will 100% vote with Conch and Magnus for either Nick or Andrew. Now let me tell you about Andrew. He has a strategic mind, but he is such a pain to try to work with. I told Andrew all the bad things Conch said about him, and Andrew is in total denial over his challenge fiasco. He called it bullshit, and he thinks that Conch is setting me up and I'll be the one to go. It would be a horrible move on Conch's part to go for me at this point unless he genuinely knows I'm targeting him. It appears that Andrew is on board with me on this, but I have to hope he doesn't mess things up. He told me he's gonna approach Conch about the challenge, but for what? The huge risk in telling Andrew all this is that it's very plausible he'll feed it right back to Conch. Should Conch believe Andrew over me? Hell no! Andrew, although very strategic, does not socialize. I socialize with everybody (who is willing to) and I talk to the others about their day. Andrew doesn't do that. Another idea Andrew suggested was making himself the swing vote. But... that would require me being the target? Unless Andrew doesn't realize that Magnus and Conch are close and Magnus would be the target. Through all of this, it is the most logical for everybody to listen to me at this point. Conch and Magnus are a pair, so I know they'll vote together probably no matter what, but out of anything said to them, what's coming from me should be the most believable. Essentially, it would almost be a mistake on Conch's and Magnus's part if Andrew or Nick leak my plans. If I catch wind of anything funky going on, or if I somehow get eliminated because of this, I won't even be mad. I'd just laugh at the fact that Andrew and Nick would be the two to betray me.

"kappolla"

- Alright so there hasnt been much happening since my last one, but we won a couple more immunities and the idol was found. Kinda hardcore self imploded because of Andrew and took a tribal here but hopefully Nick goes to the tree simply and we move on to win more. That said, Andrew needs to chill out

"dumbripi"

- I spy with my little eye... An idol clue in the treemail announcement! How ?chaotic, isn‘t it? Felt so clever and smug about finding it, but then when the adrenaline wore off realised that I couldn‘t have been the only one to do that. Kamen and Jason talking about it in the alliance chat did make me feel a bit guilty and sort of just itching to tell Kamen about my own idol clue, so eventually did. I don‘t think I plan to tell him when I actually got that clue... Most likely only after the game.

"ri"

- We survived another trail woooooo, getting good at those. I did find an idol clue but no clues for losers I guess. I’ll try to keep u update <3 BYE

Day 16
"kappolla"

- Andrew is the most frustrating person to work with. Magnus, Mason, and I genuinely want to keep him over Nick, since Nick doesn’t talk to any of us. But when I tell Andrew that the vote is Nick and he doesn’t have to worry, he starts trying to push the vote onto Mason instead, because Nick is good at challenges or something (he isn’t though). The man genuinely doesn’t seem to realise how thin the ice he’s on is. Either that or he just wants to go home and is trying to make as dramatic an exit for himself as possible. For now, the vote is still Nick, but Andrew just keeps taking a pickaxe to the ice he’s on, and it’s only a matter of time before the rest of us just give up and let him drown