Board Thread:Survivor 26: Chaos/@comment-26056991-20170826200701/@comment-27904923-20170826204104

I think we have expectations of the way we want people to play and I don’t feel like I fit anyone’s expectations. Within my personality and the reason I applied for a season called chaos, I think I did the best I could do aside from actually taking my shitty personality and supplanting it inside someone else more likeable like David or Luca. My game was all mine at least as opposed to how I’ve played before. So here goes with your answers.

My move that didn’t actually work out at all was exposing the Den of Beasts at the merge. The reason it didn’t pan out was because I naively expected the lines were drawn firmer than they were and didn’t anticipate that you and Aras were working so much with the Nic, Kyle and Eve. I think if the lines had been firmer, exposing it would have gotten some other people on the chopping block, but it didn’t work and I just ended up looking like the old guy who plays Gangnam Style in 2017 thinking he's up to date on what's going on.

Best independent move of mine was actually the one you said was my worst and dragged me for. Emily and I didn’t play that differently on paper. I mean we came off way differently and acted differently but for a large chunk of it we always got lumped together, so I didn’t feel like I had that much to compare myself with against her. So I said, well if it’s me, Elias, and Emily, you’ll probably all give her a lot of UTR praise—evidently the same praise you’re giving Luca now. So I wanted a stark contrast of my game. I left it up to chance because voting in the majority 3 votes in a row at the end kind of shits on the image I just tried to build up as this chaotic rogue. In that case I would just be the unlikeable version of Luca instead of being my unique self. I didn’t do all of this and get dragged to shit just to have a boring game. If you hated how I played, I understand. But if you sit at the final 12 like me with a bunch of likeable people, and see no real path to the end, playing balls to the wall ridiculousness isn’t that much of a far logical leap. I did me. And I think I added something unique to what some have argued was a bland gameplay season.