Board Thread:Survivor 37: Egypt/@comment-31683906-20190130033108/@comment-31124935-20190130042803

Hi SAM!! <3

I dont think you asked me any questions but I definitely have some followups I want to say:)

Basically Rob told me at F9 that you wanted to vote me out because you thought that John and I were running the game and you would prefer me leaving since I have better social skills than John- so if thats not true then I apologize for being a little more adamant on you leaving than I needed to be, but even so I wouldnt regret the way the boot order happened. So I know it must have been sooo frustrating continually offering me your hand and me blowing you off, especially since were friends, but if you put yourself in my shoes I hope it makes sense.. I was INCREDIBLY confident in my alliance and my ability to get to the end. Like I said in my speech, some people wanted to take me far and others didnt, and I was constantly evluating which was which for each person. I didnt think you did, at least not when you still had options, and I KNEW Tara and Andre did. Tara, Andre, and I would talk about being the Final Three SO often, unnecessarily much, like so much so that it would be one of the most fucked up things I have witnessed in an ORG if they cut me hahaha, so I was definitely willing to get out a big threat who would likely turn on me even if on paper, and to the jury, it didnt make much sense

More reasoning for trusting I could get to the end are because even though you see the game as me being Tara and Andre's master, I think I did a good job of not having that side of things displayed while in game- I was almost always flexible on the boot order, I asked a bunch of questions of what we should do, and I downplayed a lot of the relationships I felt I had made. Becuase of this, I wouldnt call the Immunities crucial- like for FIC neither Tara or Andre tried very hard, they each did the puzzle once and the flash game a few times and then submitted and told me what they got, making it very easy to beat them. If they wanted me gone they would not have done this

I feel horrible that I didnt work with you (and Zach/Luke/Danielle) cause I know how much fun that would have been, but I stand by the fact that it was not good for my game, so I sadly dont regret much... with you specifically, there were just too many red flags for me to trust you. Like when you said that you tried hard to save Rhys, or that you werent the one to spearhead it on Rhi, or that you submitted for John when you actually voted Rhi the second time... for each of these things I had Tara and Andre giving me information that proved it wrong before you even said it. So I do think you got more and more genuine in your efforts to work with me, but I think that was just becasue you personally had less and less options, while I still had lots of options and wanted to stick to my plan

I know its frustrating that I was viewed as boring this season, it wouldve been iconic if I just snapped and cut someone randomly with you all, but this is seriously one of my last ORGs and I am so tired of being this "big bad player", getting caught for it, and then just sitting on the jury watching my allies win instead while all I get is like POTS runner up LOL.... I came here to WIN! Love you, let me know if you have any other questions man

SHOOT just typed this whole thing out then noticed your question as I went to hit reply

No, I dont think Andre and Tara followed me this season but that was intentional, when I have followers I get called out for it, turned on by them, or otherwise taken out for being powerful- it was SO important for me to not come across like that in the game so I went along wiht some of their plans, let them take the wheel at times, etc.... HOWEVER, I do think I had the most influence of us three, was the best positioned, and ultimately had them acting for my best interest more than I did for theirs, so if there were followers in this dynamic it would be them yeah