Creating Chaos Is So Much Fun!/Confessionals

Day 17
"kesha"

- This tribal is a mess!And honestly me and Nadine are responsible for this.And I dont even know why I did that. So we kinda fixed Toby was going home but then I was trying for rhys instead1of Toby.cause toby like talks to me more and I thought Rhys is close with matt as Matt wrote he is his best friend in their TAR profile.and Eve is super close to matt.so it gives them a lot of power at merge.But changing the votes was a hassle and I could like see the merge in front of me so close,so we didnt want to risk it.Then Toby started talking with me and Nadine,and she thought maybe we could change it afterall.This Toby has an idol lie is sooo hillarious and I am awed anyone even believes it. Jenna clearly sees through it,its all just a mess.But honestly creating chaos is so much fun! Now I am just scared they will catch us and we will somehow be blindsided.but thats just me being paranoid.

"kesha"

- Just like I suspected we really did make things a bit tooo messy.I feel like I lost an easy way to merge.The girls alliance is now just filmsy as Jenna and eve are appearantly voting for Nadine according to brandon.I am still voting rhys and so is Nadine.The 3 boys will vote Eve so she will go home possibly.I hate it so much,now all the power will shift to the boys.Who knows when merge will come 😑 I may be picked off before that specially after I lied to everyone tonight and Rhys surely knows I asked everyone to vote him,cause he hasnt talked to me once the whole tribal.Tribal council sucks!BIG TIME

"miranta"

- OKAY HI Ive been at the movies so I barely was on but omg Pre tribal I heard from both Eve and Nadine that they were in danger I was willing to idol either of them but apparently they could have been targeting each other (which I think happened but no one is telling me ughhh) So I knew if I sent it to one of them the other would probably go This sucks cuz those 2 and fariha were my top 3 on that team I would have tried to do something but Nadine was asleep just before the deadline so I had no idea what was happening mess Not excited for double tribal cuz if Nathaniel wins I am probably a target

"miranta"

- Nadine just told me her and Fariha voted Rhys to Eve really voted herself out by not voting with them ugh im sad I never got to be on a tribe with her :( As for this vote my preferred target is Nathaniel but if he wins im seriously scared Me and Nicole have an alliance with Matt but im worried hes closer to Justin/Sam than hes letting on so me and Nicole really need to secure Maddie and hopefully Matt ahhhh. I don’t want Justin or Sam to go either tho so I just hope Nathaniel doesn’t win, even tho I like him we talk the least

"miranta"

- I'm in a state of shock, anger and disbelief right now. EVE of all people my closest ever ally I have ever had in a game was voted out 3-2-2. LIKE BITCH TF HOW DID THAT HAPPEN. I am now the last chaos standing, something of which I legitimately thought that would never happen, especially since we are still to merge as well. Making the merge would honestly fill me with hope that I can do well in the game, because for me making the merge is just like winning. IM JUST SO ANNOYED THAT EVE WENT OMG. I feel simultaneously alone and safe because of this vote, mainly because I now don't have a confidant who i can share my worries with and get accurate intel with. fuck my life

"kesha"

- Okay I knew this vote was gonna end up 3-2-2 because the last thing I read before I went to sleep, was Fariha telling me about the guys' plan, so I didn't have a reason to use the idol. I still voted Rhys but didn't communicate with Eve and Jenna further, and for some reason they voted me due to paranoia or due to the guys' work! Love Queen Eve, but trying to be iconic all the time doesn't work well though. I still can't believe my Aras was robbed parchment indirectly caused the conflict between Eve and Toby!! Anyway I need to win the immunity first and foremost, I'm worried of Rhys or Brandon winning it

Day 18
"miranta"

- Ok complete plan change from last conf, Nathaniel is not going anywhere. I didn’t know Nicole had such a good bond with him so we can actually have majority with him and Maddie.

Nicole just told me that in the Byzantium alliance chat they ruled out my name cuz they like me (now I feel really bad about possibly voting them) and Nicole steered them off the worry about my Nadine connection.

Soooo who we vote out really depends on the what other tribe does because Matt has an instant alliance with Rhys and Toby if we merge next, so if Nadine can boot Rhys then we can keep Matt and he’s more likely to stay with us?

If Nadine can’t which is highly possibly and Fariha goes, then realistically voting Matt is the smartest vote cuz it gives the potential Toby/Rhys/Matt/Brandon/Jenna merge alliance 1 less number, and keeps both Sam and Justin cool with us. It sucks tho cuz of our trio with him ☹…

While if we voted Justin, Matt could flip and Sam would be pissed at us SO IDK it really depends if Nadine and Fariha can get Jenna on their side to boot Rhys.

It sucks since I like all of the possible vote options on my tribe but I know that to win you have to be willing to put feelings aside and strike first before they strike you… As I have learnt the hard way too many times in the past.

Right now I think merge could be a showdown between these 2 sides

Brandon/Rhys/Matt/Toby/Jenna vs Me/Nicole/Maddie/Nadine/Fariha with Sam/Justin/Nathaniel as question marks? It depends on who goes….

Ahh at least if anything goes wrong I have idol but at this stage hopefully I can make merge without using it!

"kesha"

- I hope I am safe this time.Everyone seems to have agreed on Jenna.Jenna is never online and never talks to me so I couldnt care less.Nadine goes around the circle of this cast.Everytime I talk to someone they tell me Nadine told me this,which is usually the same thing she told me two minutes back.So She is using the same words on everyone.I have tried to talk and be good with them all.Hopefully it will take me to merge.I do NOT want to be blindsided today. But still I am concerned cause they all know messana idol has been found.So 3 messanas with an idol is a risk which I may not have wanted to take if I was in their position.Plus after merge they would surely want to take out Nadine and as she may have the idol people will try to split votes,and who would they choose as a scapegoat?possibly me.So I am trying to find my own idol but the hosts just wouldnt let me. Brandon is super smart and lately I like him,maybe I will stick to him more after merge if I survive.

"kesha"

- So maybe leaving Nadine in the game wasn't my best move? She won individual immunity, and the United Gaytions (Toby, Rhys, Jenna, and I) are worried Nadine will play an idol for Fariha. So Toby, Rhys, and I went to Nadine and Fariha and said that it's probably best that we vote for Jenna so that an idol wouldn't be played. It's looking like at this point the Gaytions plan to blindside Fariha is gonna work, and unfortunately as much as I like Fariha I've gotta play this game with a cold heart sometimes.