Board Thread:Survivor 20: Heroes Vs. Villains/@comment-17738489-20161026143255/@comment-24553600-20161028224845

Thanks Szy !!

My question for you is what do you think was your strongest aspect of your game and what was the weakest.

I think in this game and probably most games I play, this is a cop out but my social game. I mean I feel like I had to overcome so much in this game, I never had an easy road and there were a million reasons to get rid of me literally throughout the ENTIRE game. I had a good relationship with pretty much everyone, I didn't lie when I didn't have to. I was in a controlling position throughout the entire game and my finger was behind the trigger on almost every single person who left this game because I was able to make the necessary relationships with people to get me that power. I wasn't really ever a legit target for people to go after, because people were too afraid to do it. I made those genuine relationships with people and those relationships got me here, not pre existing ones or just my idols, it was ultimately the 21 other people in this game that chose to ignore that because of the work I was putting in.

I think my biggest weakness in every game that I tried to get over in this one was, I'm too loyal to people at times and trust them too much. In this game I knew I couldn't pull the shit I was pulling in past games where I felt really bad about taking someone out and in the end just didn't. I think my emotions were a big part of why at times I did bad, I trusted you with a screenshot that I didn't think would go anywhere, and I trusted people thinking they would never go against me like Emma Alex and Tom. I tried to improve this season on that and be more cutthroat, but in the end I think I just handled it poorly and burned the bridges completely in the way.

Compare your game to other 2 finalists and explain to me why the other 2 shouldn't win.

(Just a note to Bryce and Dusk that this is all game talk so don't take any of this personal please)

I think the biggest difference in the two games and mine is, the other two were playing games that were good for keeping the target off of them and it was to get them here, but I was playing hard and playing to win the entire time and I'm still here. Dusk and Bryce both had their own games, playing down that they're not a threat and playing under the radar, there both good games and they played them to get here so they worked. However, I played in a winning position and didn't hide in this game despite being labeled as a threat from the original tribes early on and I'm still here. Every single negative aspect about my game thats brought up in comparison, can be a positive as well. People listening to me or 'bowing down' to me wasn't out of the random and me just sitting around and it just happened, I had to work on people individually and get them to trust me and want to work with me. People I knew/knew of pregame really only hindered me, I was able to talk with people a little better but a majority of people I knew initially didn't plan on working with me and I had to change things around to get people to work with me. I'll break down each of them individually:

Bryce- Bryce played a game not to win, but to get to day 39. I feel like from things he's said he's trying to overcompensate for situations that had happened and try and turn them into game moves. Voting for Szymon instead of Tom was foolish and he got persuaded by Jennifer to do so and it fell apart. Bryce also stated during the game that he admittedly wasn't even playing to win. He openly followed other people's moves and never made his own initiative clear. He was bad socially and strategically, to the point where he never made a move of his own to save himself, but rather had other people always saving him because there were bigger fish to fry.

Dusk- Dusk played a very good under the radar game and I can respect that because many games I play the same way with just going with the flow and keeping your head down. The problem is, is that if you're too UTR like he's been the whole time, then he really hasn't given himself a resume other than 'I survived without immunity or items'. It's good that he was able to do those things, however so was Bryce. Also as Jennifer states in her jury speech, had I not won immunity and she really was down for a villain's final 3, then Dusk would actually be the one going home and not me so it's not accurate there. Also I don't quite understand his point on how winning immunities at the end of the game, and finding two idols in the game is a bad thing compared to not finding idols or winning. He really wasn't threatening in the game because he didn't make any decisions, even the three big moves he stated aren't even his moves. Voting out Jennifer as a move really shouldn't be taken credit by anyone, instead you should lose credibility for not voting someone who's won 6 immunities in a row out immediately once they lose. She was always going to go home at any point had she ever lose immunity so that's not really an actual move. Next Eddie wasn't him either, it was me. I had started thinking long and hard about going to the end with Eddie ever since his ROP and seeing how well he spoke and looking back at his game just made me scared of him. Bryce even before the challenge was over put me and Eddie in a chat with the hosts and was planning on voting Dusk regardless if either of us won or not. I had to be the one to message Dusk and put the target on Eddie, and do the same with Bryce. Also Emma was the one who organized the Alissa blindside not him, he played a part of it but it was Emma who really got things going and she was the one who put herself out there to get rid her. Even that move in itself speaks to my game, he wasn't aware of the second idol because no one in this game was since I never told anyone. The move was over and over reasoned with "It was to weaken Sora", so instead of actually getting rid of me, they got rid of someone I was close to and let me go to the final 6 with 2 idols. They SHOULD'VE just voted for me and then I would've been voted out with two idols and they would've gotten even more of what they wanted. Just from that and the rest of the game, I did EXACTLY what Dusk was trying to do except being very open and making moves to it. Dusk was UTR to avoid being the target, but I wasn't UTR and I made multiple moves in this game and yet STILL wasn't the target ever. I was voted ONCE in this game, just like Dusk. Dusk played a great game to getting to the end, but lacked a move that really put him out there as a winner material. He played a game of surviving and outlasting, but in this game you need more than just outlasting people, he lacked the outwit and outplay aspects. I blindsided people and got people before they got me out, and yet I still survived and got here. I played this game never scared and never followed anyone, and I still got here. The whole entire 'I kept my head down and didn't want to make waves' argument is valid for getting here, except I went directly against that, and did EXACTLY what Dusk did but I'm still here.

The main problem with both of them compared to me is simple though, neither of them EVER took the game into their own hands. Both of them for most of the game just went with the flow, they let other people make moves for them and they stayed safe. They coasted off of moves other people made to be safe, but I made moves to be safe and took the game into my own hands. No one EVER made me vote a way I didn't want to and had to convince me, I played this game how I wanted to and set the pace of this game how I wanted to and I didn't have to hide from doing it. I was the one making moves but I was still safe, and I'm still here. I worked my ASS off to win challenges and beat someone no one else in this merge could beat, and I'm still here. I controlled multiple votes and alliances, and orchestrated so many blindsides for my game, but I'm still here. I came into this game with a ginormous target on my back and a majority of people wanting me out soon, but I'm STILL HERE. I did exactly what Dusk and Bryce did by getting here, but unlike them I got here on my own terms and didn't follow people to do it.

Literally people even said "You would win this game 9-0 if you didn't make a screenshot", at this point I think I've said pretty much everything I could to try and express how minor it was and how I apologized for it but I feel like it's still not good enough for some people. I could cut my arms off and break my laptop to express how sorry I was, but people would still seem to not be okay with it. I owned up to it when I didn't have to, I apologized, I took my punishment which very easily could've eliminated me. The screenshot rule is a rule, but if everyone respects rules so much, then I guess we're all pretty innocent of not breaking any laws or rules right? No one ever does things that are illegal like underage drinking or smoking, no one has ever cheated on a test, or stole a candy bar from a store right. But if we're going by this logic, I should be in jail for taking a candy bar from a store and have the key locked away. I'm not trying to make excuses, I'm trying to say that while rules should be respected and upheld, all I'm trying to say is not everyone here is a saint and no one here is perfect. We've all done things that aren't necessarily right, but at the end of the day it doesn't make us bad people and at the end of the day I don't think that one little incident of a screenshot, that let me remind you all I didn't send to anyone for game purposes, should ultimately send me to prison. I think with or without the screenshot involved, my game in all aspects is above Dusk and Bryce's because I got here just like them, I didn't have to lay low or pretend that I suck at the game, I got here while every single person knew I won before, and every single person knew I was a threat, but every single one of you let me get here. I played a dominant game, but I sent a screenshot to a friend, which I'm sure no one else has ever done before or gone on a skype call and did pretty much the exact same thing. I think my game really is the best of the final three because at the end of the day, I worked my ass off to get here and the entire time not for one second got to just sit back and chill. I played a game that was hard from start to finish, and that's why I'm here today and regardless of the outcome, I'm really proud of myself. Thank you.