Board Thread:Survivor 27: Bora Bora/@comment-27941254-20171013022434/@comment-29261560-20171013173059

Hey Ally! Alright so thanks for not making this as brutal as before, although that one was really fun to answer, I’m really sorry about the wait so without further adieu let’s answer these!



1.I touched upon this a bit in Torsa’s answer but throughout the entire premerge I was a little inactive due to the fact I decided to take on 3 orgs at once, which again is my fault and not meant to be an excuse whatsoever as I thought I could handle the pressure when in reality I couldn’t. That didn’t stop me entirely from things as I did always work my ass off in challenges with only having to sit out of one, however this was definitely because I knew my inactivity was moreso on the social side of things and I knew it’d be risky having to go to tribal. I am very aware of the fact Torsa and Jared easily could’ve sent me home, however they didn’t and I’m eternally grateful for that and I really appreciate you wanting to bury the hatchet. The premerge phase I only ended up going to a total of 3 tribal councils, one of which was due to a double tribal and so even despite being as “inactive” as I was, it would’ve been difficult to make as many impacts as I could’ve done however despite this I was able to impact the game as I was seen as less threatening at that point in time in comparison to people like Mikey and Rhys so although I didn’t have as much influence in the premerge as I would’ve wanted, I definitely tried to make up for that later on.

2. I think I affected maybe around 30% of the game, some of the votes this season came super close which was insane at times, had one single vote messed up during the Rhys tribal I could’ve been toast, but I’m still here. I stood my ground and took charge when I needed to and took the risk of taking out bug players such as Jared and Torsa. Had I not worked my ass off in that final immunity challenge, Torsa would be here instead and would definitely in my eyes be winning, I also reached out to Asa to get the job done despite the fact we didn’t necessarily have the best overall working connection. So yeah, I definitely look at it as though I took advantage of most of the opportunities were thrown my way.

3. Alright honestly if we’re comparing my game to other orgs yet again, I think my playing style switched up a little as in Bangarang and even my past season Caracol, I was an extremely loyal player. In Mo’orea I threw around what were considered “Pity Votes” fully aware of the fact that my allies were going home. This time around I didn’t do that, I was pretty disloyal towards Jared and at times Torsa and stepped up to the fact that I couldn’t play the same game as I had before. I also stood up for the people I wanted to keep around during the Jon vote. In Mo’orea I took a lot of heat for not standing up for my allies and so when I heard Tate was in trouble I plead to Joey and Torsa as to why that was a horrible idea moving forward. I was also a hell of a lot more physical in this season as I wouldn’t be here if I wasn’t. I ended up winning two tie-breaker challenges this season, one of which is the main reason I’m here right now and Torsa isn’t. I also didn’t rely as much on my social game as I did before, as that is something that is normally essential to my strategy. So I do think there was more of a contrast to how I played this time around and it wasn’t necessarily the same at all really. I know it was still a bit UTR, but I think my game will always be like that as that’s just who I am in reality as well. I’m someone who definitely likes to sit back and observe in some capacity and I don’t really see that as too much of a negative thing in my eyes cause it allows me to think things through without trying to be too flashy which was extremely important this season as anyone who played a flashy type of game was eliminated immediately, so I hope you can respect that as sometimes playing an UTR game is crucial to one’s survival.

4. It’s hard to play the what if game but I think had you not reached out to reconnect, I probably would have at some point, mainly after your speech from Mo’orea cause I was lowkey not gonna let you tear my game down again like you did, but also because I genuinely enjoy talking to you as a person.

Song - https://youtu.be/X1Fqn9du7xo (Whataya Want From Me by Adam Lambert)

<span style="font-size:11pt;font-family:Arial;color:#000000;font-weight:400;font-variant:normal;text-decoration:none;vertical-align:baseline;white-space:pre-wrap;">“There might have been a time

<p dir="ltr" style="line-height:1.38;margin-top:0pt;margin-bottom:0pt;"><span style="font-size:11pt;font-family:Arial;color:#000000;font-weight:400;font-variant:normal;text-decoration:none;vertical-align:baseline;white-space:pre-wrap;">When I would let you slip away

<p dir="ltr" style="line-height:1.38;margin-top:0pt;margin-bottom:0pt;"><span style="font-size:11pt;font-family:Arial;color:#000000;font-weight:400;font-variant:normal;text-decoration:none;vertical-align:baseline;white-space:pre-wrap;">I wouldn't even try but I think

<p dir="ltr" style="line-height:1.38;margin-top:0pt;margin-bottom:0pt;"><span style="font-size:11pt;font-family:Arial;color:#000000;font-weight:400;font-variant:normal;text-decoration:none;vertical-align:baseline;white-space:pre-wrap;">You could save my life”

<p dir="ltr" style="line-height:1.38;margin-top:0pt;margin-bottom:0pt;"><span style="font-size:11pt;font-family:Arial;color:#000000;font-weight:400;font-variant:normal;text-decoration:none;vertical-align:baseline;white-space:pre-wrap;">This obviously resorts back to Torsa and Jared as I let my social game slip away and didn’t put as much effort in as I would’ve preferred but in the end they saved me anyway

<p dir="ltr" style="line-height:1.38;margin-top:0pt;margin-bottom:0pt;"><span style="font-size:11pt;font-family:Arial;color:#000000;font-weight:400;font-variant:normal;text-decoration:none;vertical-align:baseline;white-space:pre-wrap;">“It messed me up, need a second to breathe”

<p dir="ltr" style="line-height:1.38;margin-top:0pt;margin-bottom:0pt;"><span style="font-size:11pt;font-family:Arial;color:#000000;font-weight:400;font-variant:normal;text-decoration:none;vertical-align:baseline;white-space:pre-wrap;">I’m not gonna lie, I definitely struggled throughout this game, I had to take some rounds to try and compose myself, I needed that second to realize what kind of situation I was in when merge hit and what I wanted to do about it.

<p dir="ltr" style="line-height:1.38;margin-top:0pt;margin-bottom:0pt;"><span style="font-size:11pt;font-family:Arial;color:#000000;font-weight:400;font-variant:normal;text-decoration:none;vertical-align:baseline;white-space:pre-wrap;">“Just don't give up

<p dir="ltr" style="line-height:1.38;margin-top:0pt;margin-bottom:0pt;"><span style="font-size:11pt;font-family:Arial;color:#000000;font-weight:400;font-variant:normal;text-decoration:none;vertical-align:baseline;white-space:pre-wrap;">I'm workin' it out

<p dir="ltr" style="line-height:1.38;margin-top:0pt;margin-bottom:0pt;"><span style="font-size:11pt;font-family:Arial;color:#000000;font-weight:400;font-variant:normal;text-decoration:none;vertical-align:baseline;white-space:pre-wrap;">Please don't give in

<p dir="ltr" style="line-height:1.38;margin-top:0pt;margin-bottom:0pt;"><span style="font-size:11pt;font-family:Arial;color:#000000;font-weight:400;font-variant:normal;text-decoration:none;vertical-align:baseline;white-space:pre-wrap;">I won't let you down”

<p dir="ltr" style="line-height:1.38;margin-top:0pt;margin-bottom:0pt;"><span style="font-size:11pt;font-family:Arial;color:#000000;font-weight:400;font-variant:normal;text-decoration:none;vertical-align:baseline;white-space:pre-wrap;">I know I wasn’t doing my best during the pre-merge but that didn’t stop me from making a comeback at merge. I assessed my situation and realized I didn’t wanna be known as the quiet person, so I started talking moreso to the people that wanted to target me and assure my position. I wasn’t gonna give into the label that was placed upon me, sure I was quiet but I wasn’t gonna continue being that way and ultimately cause myself to be a goat or pawn that inevitable be seen as disposable. I didn’t want to let myself, the hosts, the people in the vl or the other players down so I worked things out to the best of my ability to change the perception of myself and better my position in the game.

<p dir="ltr" style="line-height:1.38;margin-top:0pt;margin-bottom:0pt;"><span style="font-size:11pt;font-family:Arial;color:#000000;font-weight:400;font-variant:normal;text-decoration:none;vertical-align:baseline;white-space:pre-wrap;">“Whataya want from me”

<p dir="ltr" style="line-height:1.38;margin-top:0pt;margin-bottom:0pt;"><span style="font-size:11pt;font-family:Arial;color:#000000;font-weight:400;font-variant:normal;text-decoration:none;vertical-align:baseline;white-space:pre-wrap;">This is more directed towards you more than anyone as I’m kinda conflicted as to what you really want of me. In Mo’orea you gave me flak for playing the same old game as I always do and essentially your doing the same thing here but I DID change things up and I tried my best to change that perception of me. The only real kinda of consistency was my UTR standing but I hope I was ultimately able to convince you otherwise.

<p dir="ltr" style="line-height:1.38;margin-top:0pt;margin-bottom:0pt;"><span style="font-size:11pt;font-family:Arial;color:#000000;font-weight:400;font-variant:normal;text-decoration:none;vertical-align:baseline;white-space:pre-wrap;">Finally, my game was vastly different than the others as I had to step up to the plate to show my worth in this game. I was targeted fairly early on in this game and I had to prove to myself and everyone else that I was more than their mere perception of me so during merge I started to stand my ground and be my own player. I learned from my mistakes and used them to my advantage and adapted from it. I didn’t stick with my loyalties once I saw there was no purpose for them in my game, I created enough social bonds to keep myself in the loop and stuck to my own ideas. When I wanted something done, I got down to it and got the job done. Yes, I was seen as a quiet player however when I wanted people out I was extremely vocal about it. Asa talked about this in her speech with Torsa but we didn’t talk for the longest time in this game, I sucked it up during the final vote and approached her because I knew I had to protect myself and get the biggest threat out. Ultimately these are the reasons why I’m here right now and why I believe I’d be the best representative for the season.