Board Thread:Survivor 24: Caracol/@comment-30582641-20170529023710/@comment-30582641-20170529232755

Luis-

Don't worry Chase, I didn't forget about you; in fact you're the last person I'd forget. You loomed large in Caracol, man. As much as I resent your flip against us and Zach, you definitely created the biggest moment of the season doing so, and set the tone for this crazy ass merge with blindside after blindside after blindside after blindside. I think it's poetic you were the last of the former majority alliance extinguished; the story of the Outcasts Alliance (By the way, if I had any idea how big a deal this alliance would have been, I'd have put my foot down about a more original name) began and ended with you.

But of course our relationship goes deeper than that. You were my ride-or-die from the first day on Maya (Sorry Hunter and Anna- We've talked about this)  to the night you flipped and it's because our conversations were just so long and so entertaining and it drew me close to you. We both appreciated languages and culture so much, and we had a perfect opportunity to fulfill these appreciations by comparing our own cultures and lifestyles. I think it's incredibly interesting we can be so similar, and our lives so different.

When you voted for me at F6, you made a comment about how 'I think this game revolves around me' on your vote and it took me aback because I don't think about myself and my game that way and I wanted to know what I did to give you that impression. It's true I like to take about myself a lot but I wouldn't consider myself a narcissist at all. You explained that it was because I never acknowledged that you had reasons for your flip and that I only focused on the betrayal. Well, I love you but I stand by the fact that I believe you made a poor choice, one that made the season much more exciting, but one that nevertheless hurt your game more than it helped. Maybe it was my fault for not communicating successfully exactly what sort of loyalty you could expect from me, Hunter, Anna and Zach, but like I told you, I don't know what I could have said or done differently. So I was never bitter towards you, because you only knew what you thought was best, but I am bitter towards some of your moves, because there were many times when trusting me was in both of our best interests, and the fact that you didn't trust me made us both look bad, I feel.

What hurt me the most though, was that you explained later to me that you had no real reason you didn't trust me; you blamed it on the stigma of a hyperactive teenager overscheming, trying to pull off a big move, everywhere and always, which is not me, as I hope you understand now. So, without sounding too bitter because I'm not, I think you were definitely unfair to me in this game. And I haven't even touched upon that time you gave me a list of legitamite reasons I had to be upset with you, as part of a ploy to bait me into voting for you so you could idol me out, AKA the cheapest cheapity cheap cheap cheap move in the history of cheap.

But that was the game. I love you all the same, fam. I love your enthusiasm for internationality. I loved that one conversation we had where we exchanged book reccomendations. I loved the verbal tour of Ciudad Guayana and its single movie theatre you gave me. You were so enthusiastic about everything we discussed and I meant it when I said I felt you could be my older brother in another universe. The game can't take any of that away from us. I know you're far away from the violence, but I wish you and your country the best for the future.