Board Thread:Survivor 27: Bora Bora/@comment-24078873-20171011023841/@comment-29261560-20171013003042

Whew hey Torsa! Not gonna lie….this one stung a little bit. I have the utmost respect for both Joey and Asa but to say I’m the least deserving...I don’t necessarily agree, although I may be a little biased but I hope I can prove otherwise.

For your first question, the reason I was so quiet during pre-merge was honestly because I was extremely in over my head. I made the poor decision of playing three games at once and the Mikey and Rhys week was the most stressful as I was dealing with two final immunity challenges at the same time and I don’t mean to say this as an excuse, because it’s not. I chose to put myself in that situation and ultimately it definitely hindered my game as I was left mentally exhausted. I’m a pretty quiet person in general so this coupled with that was an absolute horrible combination and I will 100% own up to that cause I definitely took on more than I thought I could handle, so I definitely tried to make up for this during the merge but I was still extremely grateful to be given the chance to play despite being seen as this quiet kind of player.

When it comes to the Jared vote, I definitely feel like I had some input in it but I do kinda see it as a double effort between me and Toby as he had the connections I necessarily didn’t to spread that around. But ultimately that move was crucial for me as I was able to start a working relationship with Toby and would later on help me make connections with Jake and the some of the others.

You’re right about the part about keeping me in the loop, I honestly saw you as one of my closest allies as it was just so easy to discuss things with you. I always thought we had a kind of genuine connection which is why I was so willing to share the idol clue with you, even if you already got it from Joey. If that wasn’t the same case for you than I apologize but to me I’m always gonna be grateful because I did need you to survive and I obviously wouldn’t be here if you and Jared hadn’t have given me that chance. I wanted to stay loyal to you up until final 6 as I wanted to make a big move against you with my legacy advantage but fate (or in this case Tate…) had other plans. I knew you couldn’t get too close to the end and I had so many plans that honestly kinda flopped in the process with me wanting to go after Aromal during the Toby vote only for Tate to make him safe, trying to get you out at final 6 only for Tate AGAIN to make you safe and then trying to plant the seeds to get you out at final 5 only for me to finally take you out myself at final 4. It’s not like I wanted to coast, I had so many things I wanted to do but things just kept getting in my way but I stepped up at the most crucial moments for my gameplay and I hope that you can see that. I love you girl and I hope we can talk more after this whole thing. If you have anymore questions for me I’d love to answer them.