Doing Something Batshit Crazy/Confessionals

Day 7
"yangra"

- I'm nervous going into this challenge right now. I got a high score of over 200 but I'm not sure if that's the highest, but I'm likely not going to submit it just in case. I feel comfortable enough right now in the game to not win immunity, as I don't want to seem like a competitive threat right when only 18 people are left in the game. This may be a silly decision if I'm blindsided tomorrow, but time will tell I suppose!

"yangra"

- So.... Shay was just booted. Still don't know for sure who she is for sure, but meh, whatever who cares. Anyways, plan seems pretty set for tonight. Jenna is gonna go. She's been fairly inactive thus far, and I think it wouldn't be a huge loss to see her go. Zach already brought it up, and the alliance im in with the new addition of Tyler Stacks the guy who is apparently famous for a heart filter is all for it. So hey, final 16 I guess. Only thing is i have to somehow figure out how to do really well in this to make sure jenna doesnt get it lol. But hey, whatever happens, ya boi is on top ;)

"yangra"

- I really want to work with Drew but the dude keeps leaving me on read. Like I don’t think he understands the concept of replying to messages? Which he should? But who knows, the guy is either ignoring me or not telling me that he’s busy.

"yangra"

- Phew so I'm feeling a lot better now that a sort of majority alliance has been formed, the fact that there wasn't one last round kind of made me paranoid, and there could very well could still be another alliance going on, but I just feel more secure knowing I'm in one. Right now it's Lexi, Pory, Drew, Liam, and myself, with Jenna probably being the target (wig on saturn's rings) The only thing that weirded me out is that Marty came to me saying he thinks Jenna is the target but he'd rather go after a threat... Like bitch it's final 18 why would we be going after a "threat" right now.. But if anyone "threatens" me it would be Jenna due to the simple fact that she will not talk to me, therefor she's a total wild card. I would hate to be on a swapped tribe with her, especially if we were like in minority. I don't wanna deal with it. ANYWAYS it's a double tribal or whatever it's called. I didn't go for individual immunity because I feel like on top of not needing it, it would only make me come off too threatening to the other tribe and what not. And apparently Marty since he's so eager to go after threats at final 18 ctfu... It looks like Lexi might win, which good for her. But I don't really want it. I really hope I'll get my way at tribal though

"yangra"

- I'm happy Lexi won the immunity, I guess even if I did submit my higher score I would've lost anyways, so I guess that's kinda reassuring? Regardless, I think the vote is going to be clear cut tonight. Everyone's pretty much already made up their minds, I'm just hoping I haven't been targeted for this tribal; fingers crossed my tribemates don't try to pull one over on me...

Day 8
"yangra"

- I feel our tribe did pretty well despite not winning the reward portion (do we really need 3 immunity idol clues?) Double Tribal is incredibly fearing this early in the game. I just hope I'm not on the radar and that people have a different plan. I want to at least make it to Merge and go from there. My guess is Jenna is on her way though from the words that have been flying.

"makalu"

- Emily won the challenge, which is isn't a big deal since she wasn't really a target for any of my group anyway. Right now I'm hoping for a simple vote, but I'm still waiting for something to happen. There's no way that there aren't any other alliances around, that just makes no sense. Until I find evidence, then I just won't do anything regarding that. As unlikely as it sounds, maybe all of these guys are in their only alliance with me.

"yangra"

- i’m fuckin tired of this shit man, last weeks tribal was easy for some reason but this week? who even knows. i hate double tribals!

"makalu"

- I really have been struggling to Keep Up with the Communications™ lately. I've talked to JP and Medha between tribals but other than that i've been... ... . . lost. I feel bad now because all of a sudden I'm approaching everyone about who to vote out and I feel like that will give them a bad impression of me? Or maybe I'm just being paranoid, who knows.

"makalu"

- I know I should be happy because Makalu won the reward challenge and an idol clue, but i'm salty as hell that Emily beat me out by 5(!!!!) points on the challenge. I spent so much time on that and really thought I was gonna win immunity. I doubt i'm going to need it for the tribal, but it's the principle that matters! This challenge just shows me Emily is here to play hard and that she can't be taken lightly. It also takes away a potential person to vote out in Emily that isn't in our core-five (Karsten/Damien/Vincent/Trey/JP). Hopefully we can just do Joey or Medha and move on with our lives.

"yangra"

- Ugh I'm so over this tribe. My biggest problem with these people is that they're so dull and don't say much. I have to drag conversations out of everyone and it brings paranoia out of me because I feel like when people are short with me that means there's some tomfoolery going on. Like once again, logically there's no reason for someone to bring my name up and it makes every bit of sense to get rid of Jenna, but these people are so dry with me that it makes me wonder if I'm booboo the fool and I'm going home for some reason. Am I the "threat" that Marty for some reason wants out? LMAO.. Like I legit can't with one sentence answers they drive me up the wall. And everyone is doing it. All of the time. I'm not saying I want a swap but I just want a whole new cast. I'm bored.

"makalu"

- Uh oh. Things are going to get messy here. I really want to get either Damien or Karsten out, but it looks like people don't want to go for that, so we may have to get Medha out. Unfortunately, I feel like I'm kind of close with Medha and she could be a really good vote for me so it looks like I may have to do some twisting around in order to get someone else out.

"makalu"

- Aw geez I am shooting my poonts right now.

"yangra"

- I honestly do not want to see Jenna leave she has been SUCH a nice person to talk to but she isn't talking to anyone else enough and the wolves are unfortunately coming her way. I'm not about to risk my own life in this game for her sake when she'd just be voted out next anyways.

"yangra"

- I HAVE IMMUNITY, AND IT FEELS SO NICE! I mean, don't get me wrong- I know I didn't need it, but it is nice to have! I really wish my tribe would have won reward- that would've been the cherry on top of the ice cream sundae. Last tribal was a pretty easy vote, and I'm thinking this tribal council will be as well. I love my tribe, and I love how active everyone is in the tribe chat- the only bad thing is that on an active tribe, it's really easy to be swept under the rug or written off as inactive. Unfortunately for Jenna, her not helping in the first challenge, and her not really messaging anyone or the tribe chat is going to lead to her being the second boot of our tribe.

I'm thinking that there is going to be a swap after this vote, and I'm REALLY hoping that I'm with a lot of people from my tribe. My alliance, which is Drew, Liam, Tyler, Pory and myself- seems like a solid alliance. I also feel close to Marty, and Zach was talking to me about working together to form a majority after this vote. Aleks is the person on the outside that I talk to the least. I've also been super careful lately as to make sure I'm not making myself a threat in terms of being too strategic. I told Pory he could ask Liam and Drew about the original alliance, and made sure that he made the chat. When we invited in Tyler, I brought it up by saying that Pory wanted to create it- and he created the chat for that one as well.

I may be hiding my strategic game well- which at this point isn't that much? (But I'm never strategic, so this isn't out of the ordinary) However this game, I'm going to work to change that. I also worry I'm presenting myself as a physical threat, with them calling me the MVP for the first challenge, and with me having the highest overall score for this last one- but I'm working my social game, and right now I feel pretty connected with them and I don't think they see me as a threat, or at least not enough to act on it currently. As for how the other tribe feels in terms of a swap.... I'm not sure. I'm going to have to be really careful as to how I present myself- as an asset and not a threat.

Regarding the other tribe's council... I'm really curious as to who may be leaving. It's hard to tell the dynamics from a tribe when their only other vote was unanimous- but my guess would be Medha or Karsten? I don't think it'll be JP or Joey based on their questions, Emily is immune, Trey is way too good to be in danger this early, and normally Damien is good at challenges and helping carry his team, though I haven't really seen that yet- so he may be in danger since in past ORGs I haven't seen much of a social game from him. It'll be interesting to see what happens! <3

"yangra"

- Ok so sorry I haven’t given a confessional in a while but here are three things I think are important:

1. Big Z and I are really tight and I’m sharing idol guesses with Lexi and Tyler.

2. I have the idol

3. I don’t want Jenna to leave!

The only people I’m legitimately considering sharing the idol with are Big Z, Jenna, and Tyler. Big Z and Tyler I’d just tell that I have it, while I’d physically give it to Jenna to play. She’d be a good ally to have I think, simply because she’s a huge goat. She’d also be useful in a swap situation because she could posture herself as being on the outs on our tribe and as a potential swing vote. I think it’s in an interesting idea because she could be such an asset and it would be a huge resume move down the line. It’s tough giving up an idol though. We’ll see.

"yangra"

- So, it's day 8. It's only been like an hour since my last confessional, but there have been developments. So I was just relaxing, playing Roblox, when my phone vibrates. "Oh cool, people like me!" I think as I check my phone. Alas, it was only Marty- informing me of another incorrect idol guess... J9. I sigh as I switch my computer to my idol searching grid, and mark out his incorrect guess. Before I even have a chance to go back to Roblox, I get a message from Tyler regarding his guess. He says that he searches it and is told that there was an idol there, but now it is gone. I double-check the spot he said he checked... and sure enough, it was J9. Now, what are the odds that Marty messaged me right before, telling me that J9 was incorrect, and then Tyler messaging me that the idol was at J9?

So I know that Marty has the idol, as I'm sure he would have mentioned to me that the idol was missing. Now, I COULD tell my alliance, and theoretically we COULD blindside him this tribal... but I feel I could work with him, and with a swap coming up, we could use that idol. So for now, I'm keeping this information very close to my chest. Knowing who has an idol can be a very powerful thing, especially if they think that you think that they don't have it. I'm going to consider my options here, but I think if I continue to bond with Marty, I can use this knowledge to my advantage. <3

"yangra"

- Ok legit Marty you fucking moron jenna was set to go 8-1 then you go over and be like "VL: ok I’m considering doing something batshit crazy someone help" AND NOW EVERYONE IS FUCKING PANICKING THANKS MAN GOOD GOD PLEASE IF YOU'RE GOING TO DO THAT DO NOT PUT A FUCKING VL IN IT. WHAT IS GOING ON HERE. BUT NOW JENNA MIGHT NOT HAVE MARTY WITH THEM BUT AT THE SAME TIME WHO KNOWS BECAUSE SOMEONE FOUND THE IDOL AND IT COULD BE MARTY AND HE COULD PUT THE IDOL ONTO SOMEONE ELSE AND HE COULD IDOL SOMEONE OUT AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA

"yangra"

- Yeah so whoever said this was an easy Jenna vote is wrong. Someone might get really robbed tonight. The plan is right now to have a 4-3-2 split maybe? Sounds insane because it is. Nothing about this tribe can fucking work ughhh. The one big happy family is having a divorce and it's tearing as apart THANKS MARTY

"yangra"

- It has now been like, 2 hours since my last confessional. So as I said, I knew Marty had the idol and was going to keep that info to myself because I felt I could work with him. Well go ahead and throw that out the door because he has gone insane. He first posted a VL in the tribe chat about doing something crazy, now I don't know if it was on purpose or not... but it made everyone think that he has an idol- which I know he does- and that he was considering playing it on Jenna. Now this was dangerous to begin with. But then Jenna goes crazy and says that she has myself, Drew, and Pory along with her and Marty... she even made a chat. But here's the thing... myself Drew and Pory are in the other alliance. However this chat may have been the best thing, because it made him realize how unaware she is of the game.

Before he came to this realization, we were planning on splitting with myself, Tyler, Pory, and Drew voting Marty, with Zach, Aleks, and Liam voting Jenna, with Marty and Jenna voting together. But now who knows what's happening. We're still discussing. I think it may be Jenna again, though. <3

"yangra"

- Marty is so cracked. I found where the idol was this morning and it had already been found. Then shortly after Marty "accidentally" sends a VL to the tribe chat saying he was about to do something crazy. And after him being hesitant of taking Jenna out yesterday because she isn't a "threat", it was so obvious that he wanted to idol her, or at least try to save her. I don't know what he was trying to do and I don't know why, but eventually Jenna starts going to Drew, Pory, and Lexi saying she has their votes to stay, along with Marty's... They end up in a chat and a poll goes up of who between myself, Aleks, Liam, and I'm assuming Big Z. Obviously 3/5 people in that chat are in my alliance and reported everything back to us and during this shenanigan, I guess it became obvious to Marty that Jenna really is the most clueless person in the game considering she didn't even know our names. (It only took him that long to figure it out) And he (I guess) backed out of his plan to save her and is now voting her? I of course want to get rid of Marty like, right now. And Lexi heavily agrees with me, but Pory like literally won't go along with it for whatever ridiculous reason, and I guess we're still voting Jenna. I'm just so over it and all I know is I don't wanna be stuck on a swapped tribe with Jenna or Marty because he's literally insane. I have like no clue what he's about to do because he's so batshit crazy that he might still go through with using his idol on Jenna, or who knows, but I do know that he voted for Liam to go in the poll he put up in their chat so, I'm gonna hope that's true and he's not coming for me. He's just a whole mess.

"yangra"

- If I somehow go home right now over these 2 absolute idiots I might actually cry and never play an ORG again.

"makalu"

- so i think things r running smoothly. i expect a tribe swap after medha goes home this round. i havent sent many of these idk.

so yah im close with jp vincent damien trey and emily. i think emily isnt very close with the boys but idk. ive been very busy with exams so like ive been lowkey checked out but more checked in then medha i guess LOL. I think if swap happens i will want to keep tribe strong, and target the others if we have a majaority. double trible is great bc one of the other team is dying so like WOO!

Idols were introduced, havent found jack shit yet so whatever. i like idols so i'm gonna find it soon. yah thats it sorry im boring. vote seamus for fan favorite.