OH MY GOD IM STILL HERE/Confessionals

Day 30
"trebizond"

- Well fuck Jenna DID THAT. She pulled them votes together and did the deed. Toby and the idol are gone and that leaves me in kind of a precarious position. Fortunately Jenna is still interested in seeing San Marcos in the final 2 and so we are working together again. Originally Sam lied to me and said he was on the bottom to gain information about the idol. He got what he wanted and all he could say about the situation was " I'm a lying piece of shit, I'm sorry." Sam has to fucking go, he can find this idol and then I'm forced into a position to win immunity because Matt has told Rhys that him and Matt are after me. This round comes down to two factors for me, winning individual immunity and getting on Benj's good side. If I can accomplish these two things Jenna, Rhys, and I can take control at final five and I won't have to necessarily rely on immunity wins anymore.

Day 31
"trebizond"

- OH MY GOD IM STILL HERE. I didn’t even need to do the message thing everything just finally fell into place for once I can’t believe this!! Jenna Matt and Sam I love you guys thank you so much that was amazing wow. Toby of course you know its nothing personal, you’re a great guy and it’s just a game! That was my first ever majority vote this merge wtf. I don’t know whether they will save me again though so I just have to try win every challenge to make final 2 0_o

"trebizond"

- All I have to say about fucking winterbells is that is the worst punishment of a challenge I have ever fucking encountered.

Day 32
"trebizond"

- Well thank god I have immunity because I found the location of the idol this morning and it was gone so that means either Sam or Benj have it. If Benj has it, he might be more inclined to align with Sam and Matt strategically because he'll still want to weaken my grasp of the numbers on the tribe. If Sam has the idol it actually makes achieving the numbers in the final five possible for me. If Sam has the idol it'll hopefully make Benj more inclined to vote with Rhys, Jenna, and I to flush the idol and weaken the power of those two. A lot of people think I'm the biggest threat to win the game at this point because I've played a pretty aggressive game this entire time but I've been letting everyone in this game know that the jury will not want me to win at the end! My strategy is to hopefully convince Rhys and Jenna to approach Benj for a final three deal, this would make Benj feel inclined to vote with us for strategic purposes and flush the idol from Sam. If Benj has the idol, it'll hopefully still make him feel like Jenna and Rhys are a better option to take to the final three for him to win the game. If Sam can actually be eliminated this round, it gives me the best opportunity to continue to win individual immunity in the future as well as take the numbers at final five. If I don't, I'm stuck in a position to continue winning immunity anyway but they won't stop me from fighting!

"trebizond"

- why is this tribal the most unclear tribal ever. Like i want to SMACK my head against a brick wall rn its that bad. I could be going home, even though im probably getting like 5th cause people perceive me as a jury threat (like SORRY for being social and generally nice). I can't win challenges for shit, this is WIDELY known LMAO. I KNOW i have Sam with me. Benj will flat out refuse to vote jenna, and Rhys isn't helping either. oh WHY did BENJ LOSE THE GODAMN IMMUNITY THIS VGOTE WOULDVE BEEN SOO MUCH EASIER. I hate this. I really want to do well this game and for there to be a HIGH possibilty that I might be going stress me out cause its back to mid jury I go LMAO.

"trebizond"

- THEY'RE SPLITTING THE VOTE ON SAM AND I OH HELL NO

"trebizond"

- 40 mins till the deadline and I still don’t know what to do. Sam and Matt are voting Rhys, the rest want me to help with a split vote between those 2. Ahhhh they could just be playing me so I throw my vote and they vote me 3-2-1? And even if they aren't lying and whoever stays out of Sam/Matt wins immunity next time then I'm gone for sure.

Brandon and Jenna both told me that Ali was the idol location and that Sam has it so Sam lied about that if its true… unless they found it and are just trying to get me to turn on Sam. This is so hard I wanted Brandon off and of course Texas Toast ruins that, and 3 out of the 4 people I can vote this round saved me last time.

And now suddenly everything has gone quiet after a tribe call out im worried something else could even be happening. I’m cursed with 6th if I go this has been a wild ride! I still don’t know who to vote...