I Am Not Coming In Second/Confessionals

Day 22
"kilbride"

- WITH WES' COMMENT, I WILL MISS THE MAN

"torrin"

- NOT AT ME SQUIRMING MY SLIMY ASS THROUGH ANOTHER VOTE ON THIS GOD FOR SAKEN TRIBE SHIT ME OUT. Sweet mother of god I don't know how i managed to stay alive yet again, well Perry mainly, but still fuck me up!

"kilbride"

- So basically Torrin is Perry + Sheep now... disgusting

"torrin"

- Okay, so hopefully merge might be next and if so, its time to cut my ties with Perry. We don't need Perry pulling a resurgence here, and even though im happy he worked to save me, I don't feel at all bad. His own fault really

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- Merge, let's fuckin' go, I made it. I'm actually kinda proud of myself. I felt like I've started on the bottom, scrambling to establish position on Kilbride, to the top, having so many connections post-swap, back on the bottom, going on a losing streak and now facing a number deficit at the merge. It's been a roller coaster, but this is a nice achievement and I'm damn proud of it. HOPEFULLY, I DON'T GET THE FIRST MERGED BOOT HERE TOO. Wes actually pm'ed me during the revote and was able to key me in on a bit of what went down. So according to him and the shit Joe fed me, there was a plan in motion to blindside the fuckin' daylights out of Perry, and of course, Nuno and Sam pussied out. I'm shocked. Tyler and Wes were the Perry voters, so I wanted Wes to stay, but he was unanimously booted and he left with a hilarious bang. So long Wes, wish I was able to reunite with you at a merge but trust me when I say you're not the only one in here that wants to get rid of Perry ASAP. My downfall my last go around was being unassuming of cross-tribal relationships and not talking to anyone from the opposing tribe at a merge. See, I'd like to believe I'm able to correct the first. Luke talked to me, I'm not surprised because even if he's a 'brain' in this game, part of his strategy is establishing a lot of relationships. So I put my happy face on and one of the things he did say was he didn't know a lot of people around here. Luke, are you serious, you're a seasoned veteran on the main, I know damn well you're not as much of a newbie as you say you are. But other than that it's just friendly banter, aside from Luke of course I'll talk to Tyler to see where he's at as well. The thing I do feel like I'm at a deficit at is the whole cross-tribaling bullshit. I'm sorry but I'm not a fan of it, it's nonsense. A lot of people are honestly trying to manage people from the other side and it's not only a good idea, but it's just obnoxious to me from a game standpoint. I'm slightly guilty of this to a fault, but when people talked to me from the other side they were the ones talking first. Obviously in an all star cast you're going to expect pre-game relationships, and there's nothing I really can do about it so I'll just have to shut my mouth. I'd like to think though that I really don't have a need to be extremely social with Torrin, this is all stars, and there's a TON of threats from both sides that should pose targets before my name every should.

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- I'm excited we merged. Right now, Operation: KILL PERRY is underway. We need Tyler to join me, Szy, Dom, Evan, and Alex in order to blast Perry. Perry wants to probably split the vote on Nuno and someone else so it could possibly work. If not and it ties, we may go to rocks and I'm willing to do it

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- Luke is already so freaking annoying fml

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- We merged! Yaaaaaaaaaaaaaay! Perry has been calling me a lot since the vote talking game and seeing where my head is at and he is telling me up and down that he doesn't want to go after me etc etc. If he's telling me the truth then everythng is great and wonderful in Tylerville but I'm still finding it tough to believe after I voted for him to go. Hopefully this merge gives me a new lease on life and some more options moving forward!

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- So I'm like 98% sure Sam and Szymon don't trust me, and I don't think I'm going to try to change that. But I can keep them convinced that I trust them (rip nope). They're both nice, so I hope they talk to me later, but I don't trust them here lol. I need to come up with numbers, and I'm also totally here for that immunity necklace :') Also Wes being...special D:

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- So Szymon got the idol clue, LET'S GO. I believe he's only shared it with Alex and I, and I think those 2 are a viable final 3 option for me. I kinda planted the seed saying that we may need to share the clue to others (Joe, Dom, Tyler) in a bit to build trust with them (I'm the glue remember), so it's really up to Alex/Szy if they wanna bite on that offer or not. If so, cool, I'm sure one of the 6 of us would get the idol and we can have 2 idols on our side, or at least 1 in some of their minds. If not, that's cool too, cause I'll just go behind your back and show it to the others and build even closer connections with whoever I show it to. Either way, I'm glad the clue landed on our side and here's to finding it IMMEDIATELY. Options options options, I love them. Here's what I'm thinking now. A final 3 deal with Alex/Szy is already in the works. A "go to the finals with whoever the fuck we want" deal with Joe is as well. Next, when I talk game with Tyler P, I'm thinking of making a final 3 deal with him and Dom, because I know he'll feel like he'll need some incentive moving forward and I know Dom already knows where she stands with the rest of the guys from Kilbride. As to which group I stick with? Who knows, ideally, if Alex keeps finding these idols and starts dropkicking all these massive threats, good for me, but he'd have to go later. I've known Joe for a long time but we've never made it to the end together. Tyler P's already voted me out two times in ORGs. The only two that haven't really fucked with me yet are Szy and Dom, so maybe that's who I roll with? Stay tuned. Oh yeah. Torrin needs to be annihilated. Pagonged. Decimated. Blown to a million pieces. I want nothing to do with any of them, minus Tyler. Perry and Luke are 1 and 2 on Alex and I's hitlist, if that goes to fruition and those two go, then I think things can go brilliantly in the long run. I'm gonna guess Sam, Zane, and Sarah are just going along with Perry, and that Nuno will eventually just bumblefuck himself into a blindside in a few rounds. Kill the weakest in the herd? Nope, go for the shepherd and let the sheep run wild.

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- So let me tell you the news.... about the Bjane of my existence. Remember when I told you that either Zane or Bjorn were gonna be my doom? YEAH, THEY HAVE BEEN. I just found out from Joe, who finally trusts me again (YAS LORD), and apparentely Bjorn spoiled everything I told him to everyone on his tribe, and all of them want me out and are against me because I told Bjorn stuff about them. Kaloo-kalay, oh glorious day! (I hate that line btw). I mean, if my situation was already complicated, it got even more. I am gonna have to do some socializing if I want to be on people's good sides now.

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- So I'm in an alliance with the switched Kilbride people and one of them has the clue. Everyone said they don't have it, which I feel like is a lie because if a Torrin member had it, they would tell Perry who would tell me. I feel like Evan & Joe would tell me if they had the clue so of course it's down to either Alex or Szymon to have it (the people who want me out).

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- Alex doesn't want to share the idol clue with anyone. ALEX, WE NEED THAT MERGED IDOL. Not you, not me, BUT ONE OF KILBRIDE. It's whatever at this point, I'm gonna work with Alex and Szy for the next day or so to see if I can get it, but after that, I'm sharing it with the rest of Kilbride and keeping you guys out of it. WHOOPS. but seriously WE NEED THAT IDOL TO TAKE DOWN TORRIN.

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- me when I'm telling Joe my suspicions and he's not really listening ugh I feel like because I'm a female, the guys in my alliance underestimate my intelligence and that really irks the fuck out of my nerves. There's a reason why I got on the Brains tribe. I honestly can't with this alliance. But I need some Torrin people to go or at least Alex to waste his idol getting Perry out

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- I had a good talk with Tyler, I'm actually shocked I'm going through with it cause the man's voted me out in every ORG we've played, but I say fuck it, he's a swing vote and we need him. He gave a good rundown on Torrin. He was one of the Perry voters, and he's willing to go against Torrin. I didn't want to appear too over-welcoming, be like "yeah you're with us for sure to the end". I wanted to make it more of a priority that he and I just be on the same page for the rounds to come. Would I want him to work with Kilbride to the end? Absolutely. Is it going to happen. Probably not. As much as I'd love for Kilbride to pagong Torrin it's not going to happen. I mentioned working with Domonique too him, but as so many others have been, he's hesitant on working with her. I tried to say, "alright, Dom was sorta on the outs over here, and you were on Torrin, maybe us 3 and possibly Nuno (also on the outs at Torrin?" could solidify something, but that's when he dropped the bomb that he's apprehensive with working with Dom because of the whole cross tribaling thing with Perry. It's starting to become ridiculous. I'm gonna need some time to think on what to do to exactly piece these people into place. Do I tell the others to stfu and just trust Domonique? Do I tell Domonique to talk to the others and prove her loyalty in the upcoming rounds? Do I play it cool and go for an under the radar approach in all of this? I better find out quick because this merged vote is gonna happen soon.

Day 23
"bhaltos"

- Ok so I just found the merge idol! Evan showed me the clue and I just finally figured out how the clues work!!!! Also when Szymon tells me he got the clue after I already found the idol LOL <3 someone must have told him to tell me

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- Skye Islands Confessional 2 ("I will NOT come in second")

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- Skye Islands Confesh

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- Oh yeah so earlier I showed Domonique the idol clue. Why? Cause I'm a honey badger. And I do what the fuck I want. So, I've got some good news, bad news, and great news. The good news? Luke left the game. If Tyler's on our side, or at least, if he wants to get Perry like he says he wants to, we're up 6-5 and OH IT'S LIT. The bad news? Well, Luke left the game. This isn't really the circumstance I wanted to gain a possible numbers advantage. He's dealing with something that's going on his life and I hope everything is alright when it's all said and done. This is the tough part of the game, am I happy that a number that wasn't on my side is gone? Yes, but this isn't how I wanted it to happen. But the great news? WELL I JUST FOUND OUT DOMONIQUE HAS BOTH THE TORRIN AND MERGED IDOL LOL. I was able to get a solid talk in and I at least tried to dispel some of the preexisting friction between her and the boys of Kilbride. I didn't force my hand and force her into sticking with them long term, that's not gonna happen, I just wanted to let her know that as long as her and Perry are in this game, the bullseye on her back (and of course his) is gonna grow larger and larger. So she's game to take out Perry. It's the monkey that she needs to throw off his back, and once Perry goes, I wanted to let Dom know that I'll be with her to start picking off the other immediate threats in the game. That's when she dropped the bomb with the idols. So essentially, I got all 3 idols left in the game on my side, and I don't foresee a circumstance in which I leave THIS vote (only this one, cause I don't think Tyler would want to boot me). So was I gonna stick with Dom in the long run, most likely, but now that she's told me she has two little green men (or two idols whatever), I'm definitely sticking with her. So I'd like to believe I'm in a good position in this game. Let's go, I'm ready for anything [: Except for the challenge. I'm throwing it cause I'm gonna be busy later today watching Straight Outta Compton and then the BB finale/survivor premiere. TEAM ROUSSO AND TEAM COLLINS YALL.

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- I feel like this season has something against me... Nuno beat me by like 2000 points, Tyler P flipped because Wes has a vendetta against me for something I've barely started doing, and now my best ally is gone... I really don't know if I can win anymore rip...

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- Hi, I'm Sam, I annoyingly and repetitively ask for things and never give back, and I failed to make a move last tribal in blindly following Perry instead of following Wes' lead. :~)

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- After slaving to get my score of 85 seconds all night, the challenge gets cancelled frown emoticon It sucks though that Luke had to leave the way he did, I hope everything sorts itself out and he'll be okay. In regards to the game and final 11, I'm ecstatic to have made it this far, but the game is just getting tougher and tougher. Luke is the only one who I was certain would be on Perry's side, everyone else is a wild card. Domonique asked me if I was still good with my alliance with her which gave me serious generations flashbacks when Tyler R asked the same thing before he voted me out so I'm a little suspicious. My main goal is to win immunity so that a) i'm safe duh and b) Perry doesn't. If Perry wins immunity he has a lot of influence and might try to take me out. I can't flop in the challenges anymore, this is the big leagues.

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- Sarah is a cunt, As if she would tell Perry that Im making an alliance against him when I don't even TALK to her Is she fucking serious lmfao I am legitimately pissed off with how fake Samuel Hall is, go home, same with Sarah, I barely speak to either of them, yet they think they can start rumours about me and get me voted out, well guess what bitches, I got an idol adn you probably don't, byeeeeeeeeee Throw as many votes as you want on me, I'm not going anywhere and your little leader Perry will and then you all will scramble and cry and I will sit here and laugh about it with popcorn and Sprite So I did what I do the best, pluck a passive agressive comment in the public chat and make a statement that fucking with me is not necessarily the best decision, it always worked :- ) I got the idol and you don't

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- me when I found out earlier today from Joe that Perry told him that he found out from Sarah that an alliance was formed by Alex to take out Perry and thought nothing of it until Alex popped off lmfao

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- Alex is a ticking time bomb. It's hilarious. Before I get into why, first I let Alex know Dom is gonna be with us, I'm tired of him being distrusting of her and I wanted to end that nonsense. Reality? She'll vote with you now before slashing your throat somewhere down the line. Then, I needed to get operation "VOTE PERRY ASAP" on board. What's this you say? Well, here's the deal, I know a lot of people are gonna be all worried that Perry's gonna have an idol played on him. The truth is, IT'S NOT HAPPENING, Alex and Dom control all the idols in the game. So I don't want any antics this round where we waste a vote on Sarah or Zane and give Perry another opportunity to pull a run at immunity wins, cause trust me when I say, he'll fucking do it. So I basically told Alex "I highly doubt Perry has the Torrin idol, he sure as hell doesn't have the merged idol cause Szy had the clue." Then he basically pitched the idea of just using his idol anyways to possibly cause a null vote, and I knew it was coming because he has a giant propensity to use idols: Minoan Empire film, check it out. He's thinking we can just 5-5-1 a vote and if both Alex and Perry play their idols (spoiler it won't happen but Alex may flush his oops), there's always a throwaway vote on a Sarah or Zane. Strategy talk aside, Alex loves talking shit and he 'spilled tea' or whatever the fuck you call it by lowkey calling out people who spread rumors about him in the tribe chat. I love working with him because he's not only hilarious and a good strategist, but, oh look, ANOTHER SHIELD for me. Another thing I'd like to give myself a small pat on the back for is getting Sam to possibly be our Will Sims of the group. What's this, you may ask? Well, according to Alex, Sam may vote with us. I know Szy believes Sam is with him. Do I believe that for one fucking bit? HELL NO. So I just told him that we should throw his vote away. That way, if he's mad that we threw his vote away? We just vote him out and laugh endlessly. If he's not mad and understands why? We just sheep him along. It's hilarious.

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- Merge time!

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- At least I'm not dead