Board Thread:Survivor 41: Phi Pan Nam/@comment-10242823-20191012015933/@comment-43601271-20191012133152

Hey Alex!

So I think I need to start off with an apology to you, just in general. Your vote off weighs on me as one of the hardest, because I think we were really starting to connect more and I felt a lot of trust with you, and then I thought if I pushed to hard to save you it would screw me over. I know you probably don’t want the whole explanation but from what people were telling me, Anthony and Kyle assumed you and I were a power alliance once Final 6 hit and wanted to take one of us out. Since I won immunity, you were the only choice left for them. I talked to Shane and Jason a lot about it, but in the end,  Jason preferred you going and Shane didn’t wanna force a tie. I didn’t push as hard as I normally would have because I thought if I did, then my other allies would buy into the idea that I had replaced you with them, and I would become the next target. I still had no reason to give you a vote so I didn’t that round, but I still knew what was going to happen and I still feel bad about it. I hope you aren’t too upset with me.

In terms of your ACTUAL question.

I actually really wanted to meet you once I realized you were in this game, I think Nancy Dupire (I THINK it was her, it’s been a bit) told me after my first Survivor Org that you were one of the nicest people she ever met, and when I saw your name once we merged I remember thinking “that’s the guy I was told was chill AF!.”  However, due to our conflicting schedules at the time I remember we actually didn’t talk all too much until after the Maynor vote. We did get the chance to chit chat a bit back and forth, and I am still super impressed with the fact you can sing, since I love to sing! I probably seemed a bit hard to talk with from your end because I honestly know nothing about the “science” or “technique” to singing, and I would look dumb as fuck if I tried. I remember trying to connect with you over my love of alcohol (I don’t have a problem I promise) but you don’t drink, and I remember talking to you about board games a little bit. I feel bad because our conversations certainly speeded up after Evan left, but it was mostly game stuff and I feel like for whatever reason out time talking about non-game related things became few and far between. Honestly, I wish I knew a bit more about you, because I think we could have found more things to bond over if we managed to bring them up in casual conversation. It just never happened. I remember you telling me early in the merge that most people weren’t talking to you, and it really surprised me. I dunno I still think when I caught you at times we both weren’t busy with school or work, we were able to hold decently long conversations. Thinking more on your question I feel compelled to at least tell you that I’m kinda sad the read you felt strung along by me. I mean, it’s totally valid and I know to an extent I probably did, but one of my goals for this game was to not make people feel terrible in this game. I feel like I’m rambling a bit and I’m a little sleep deprived as I type this, but if I truly made you feel like you didn’t matter to me, I hope you know it’s not true. I appreciated you going out of your way to talk to me in this game, and overall I think you’re a really fun person. I have no idea if my ramblings on here gave you what you were looking for, but I hope they did, or at least made you feel better. No matter what you do I’m always down to talk more in the future! Thanks Alex, it was really fun to get the chance to meet you in this game!