Board Thread:Big Brother 8/@comment-25087748-20190306184206/@comment-19601789-20190306233333

Thank you for your kind words Alissa! This might seem a bit rushed since I’m writing it before I head to work so keep that in mind if it’s a mess yjrntntn

1 - My biggest flaw in the game and more so in life was my overthinking that lead to being indecisive at certain moments in time. Since I did want to play a more UTR game, I was always thinking about every action I made and if it would at all expose my gameplay. Knowing that, I might have taken longer to ponder certain decisions (for example the Tymeka vote or even the Louise vote in the first round of the game) when I should’ve just kept calm and trusted that in the end, things would be okay. This overthinking also did prohibit me from maybe overstepping boundaries I had set for myself in the game as at the F5 I kept overthinking as to whether or not I should win the HOH because then I couldn’t win the F4 which may have mattered more. Ultimately I just had to quiet that insecurity and I do think it played out in the best way it could.

2 - I do think my biggest disadvantage came down to two things; winning Byzantium and being put on the Water team (even if I love everyone on there). I think me winning Byzantium isn’t as important in the grand scheme of things but I was initially nervous that this game being on 703 that it could affect my performance. I wanted to be seen as less of a threatening, winning player hence why my stategy was more low profile, which ultimately got me to this stage in the game. Being put on Water was a disadvantage since the Water team was made up of less active and not incredibly social players which put me in a place to play catch up. We were not able to win HOHs during the team stage of the game to have influence in that sense and we were instead targeted alongside Air. I do think I was able to overcome this as I was the last member of Water to be nominated and the only Water that was not evicted mostly due to my social game and adaptability.