I Am Not Getting Jigme With It/Confessionals

Day 9
"rubicante"

- Well, I just got totally swapfucked. I’m the only one from OG Alichino on my new tribe. I guess what I gotta do now is socialize with people and hope that I can find some sort of crack somewhere.

"rubicante"

"malacoda"

- So, we just swapped. I think I ended up on a pretty good tribe. I've still got Liz with me and obviously we are gonna work together. Sam is with us too and I think I've made some pretty good progress on getting him to trust me again. I've been previously talking to AJ so I could be good with him too. Lexi and Andrew are mysterious to me. Lexi seems like a cool cat and Liz says she likes her so obviously I gotta talk to her too so me and Liz have an in somewhere. Andrew, can go. He's kind of the odd man out when it comes to my perspective. Obviously I'll talk to him to keep my options open. But as of now, he's low man on my personal totem pole.

"alichino"

- Aaron went home which is fine. He wasn't relevent in my game.

So we swapped and I'm with Zach, Lex, Tommy, Liam, and Lora.

These are all people i had no intention of voting out at the moment, but whatever. Zach, Liam and I are the core of this tribe, with Lex thinking hes included. Lex is my side piece in this game. People know hes loyal so they like him, but no one knows how close we are. Then you have Tommy on our tribe who is safe for a round, hes Joeys guy in my eyes, and I don't like that, but hes too afraid to do anything now, so he'll be fine. I wish he was more talkative. Lora (Pris) i had no intention of voting you out, but you'll be first to go if we do. Unfortunately I can't get a read on you, i think you want to play with me, but i dont know. at least i know where tommy is at.

I found out about the big alliance chat from zach and sam on our voice call. I really trust them now and i intend to go final 3 with them. we vibe hard. We talked alot of strategy and i think the core of AJ, Isaac, us, Liam, Lex, and chloe will control merge, from there we can decide how well want it to go. I dont want to get cocky, but were in a great spot. More to come, but Im in good right now. I let Lex know also that i knew, but i dont want him knowing how close Sam Zach and I are.

"malacoda"

- Aaron going home was surprisingly a lot more rough than I thought it would be. I knew it had to happen and I was pushing for it, but it doesn't change the fact that I just voted someone out that I'd previously had a ride or die all the way to the final three with in another game. I'm not one for meta-gaming at all and so I was never going to use that as a reason why Aaron should stay, but irrespective of that, seeing someone go that I've worked so well with in the past and that I very much like and respect as both a player and a person isn't fun. RIP to little Aaron, I'll get big Aaron in your honour. He's like, my closest ally in the game, but I'll get him at some point maybe probably.

"malacoda"

- This swap is almost perfect and I'm so happy about it. I got to keep Lexi who would be the number one person I would've wanted from the old grey tribe without a doubt. Lora would probably be the person I'd want to work with more, but she's also more likely to be a target than Lexi since Lora's name has been thrown around as a target in the past already, especially by Lex who thinks she's some hidden danger we should be aware of. As long as Lexi and I can find a few people to tag team up with, we're all good. On top of that, I got Aaron who I've been talking to heaps since the get go, so I'm glad to finally be playing with him, even if my trust of him - or not necessarily trust but more so just the amount I feel like I can work with him long-term - has waned a bit recently. Maybe this is a chance to patch up the doubts I have. On top of that, I have Andrew and Sam who I talk to somewhat, but not as much as the other two, so while I'd be glad to work with them, I'm not like, hell-bent on it. I think Sam, in particular, is someone that I have to watch out for, because the second we swapped I had people like Hesh giving me glowing recommendations for needing to work with Sam, so he's clearly in good with a lot of people, and I'm not a huge fan of that. That really just leaves Elizabeth as the only person that I'm not really on good terms with. I'm not on bad terms with her at all, and I wouldn't close the door on working with her at all, but I'm definitely not sure where we stand together since we haven't spoken a whole lot, and so going forward, she's definitely the most on my radar person on this tribe in the event that we have to lose someone, since I have more of an in with everyone else at this current point in time.

"alichino"

- Aaron was voted out pretty smoothly so at least that worked out. What we'll have to see if it works out or not is this tribe swap. I've been put on a tribe with people I sort of talk to so it's a bit iffy. I'm pretty good with Hesh and Liam so hopefully they can stay loyal because we can always tie a vote if we work together and we'll have the majority if we manage to grab someone else. Zach is cool, Tommy is cool but I don't talk to him too much. Lex is kinda condescending to be honest but I'll give him the benefit of the doubt and assume he didn't mean to come off that way. It's an interesting tribe makeup of 3-2-1 with me being the 1. I don't think tribal lines are that strong this season because of one world and the first vote. I'm cautiously optimistic about this going forward and I hope we just win immunity so I don't have to deal with showing my cards yet. Oh yeah I shared this with Hesh earlier but my theory is that we merge at 13 or 12 after all the circles of hell are through. That would mean maybe 5 more tribals which I think is definitely doable if we stay on these tribes.

"alichino"

- Well, I lived to a swap, let's go! This was the best thing for my game honestly.

I am so EXCITED that I got Zach and Hesh on my tribe! They're two people I wanted to work with this game and now that opportunity is here, and having Lora here is just as sweet. If I play my cards right, I shouldn't be in the minority on this tribe, but I just have to hope that Lex doesn't try to bury me, cause let's be real, I did kinda try and bury him myself when Shane was voted out. Oops!

"alichino"

- I think the swap is very good for me. On my tribe, we have Zach, Hesh, Tommy, Liam and Lora. Out of those, I'm very closely aligned with Hesh and Zach. Hesh is my number one ally while I founded the Black Licorice Gang (Sam, Isaac, AJ) with Zach. Liam, I think, is still a bit shaken from the Shane vote, but as long as I include him if we go to tribal I believe I can lock him as a number. Meanwhile, Hesh and Zach have both said to have influence over Tommy. I also have a good relationship with Tommy though I assume a little less then them. This leaves Lora all alone. At the first vote she told Felipe I was gunning for him. I did vote Felipe, I did tell Lora I heard Felipe's name, but it was not my plan to get Felipe out. This kind of free flowing leakage is very concerning and while I cannot close the door on working with someone. If we go to tribal, she will be the favourite to go home.

"rubicante"

- Yup, Aaron's gone. 6-1 vote, too. It's a bummer, I was really fond of Aaron - I said as much in my apology to him just before results, because it genuinely did sting to see him go. He must feel the same, because I actually got his garnet gifted to me. I didn't expect it, but I'll take it. AJ's a bit miffed that Aaron didn't give it to him, so I won't tell him that I have it. Let him stew.

I tell Liam about this and I finally learn that Shane gifted Liam his garnet, which if anything is further proof that I can trust him. We begin talking about potential mutual allies, and I have a similar conversation with Hesh, who I'm quite close to on the side. Immediately it's becoming clear that we all have mutual bonds. This'll be a fun game.

Then the swap came.

"rubicante"

- Who the fuck is Jigme?

"rubicante"

- Jigme tells us to choose random numbers (just like the first tribe selection), and I go with 16. New tribes are selected, and it looks like this:

NURUBICANTE: Myself, Brian, Chloe, Isaiah, Joe, Ian

NUALICHINO: Liam, Lex, Hesh, Zach, Tommy, Lora

NUMALACODA: AJ, Lexi, Liz, Aaron M, Andrew, Sam

I've hit the absolute jackpot with this one, and I couldn't be more pleased. The entire trio of Queens of Josephine have stayed grey, and I've got Isaiah, another close bond of mine, on the same tribe as me. Joe is also someone who seems to trust me, which leaves Ian. Ian's a nice guy, and he and I chat every now and again, but being the only Alichino might make him cannon fodder. Then again, the goal is to avoid tribal.

The new Alichino works out pretty well for me too. Liam, Hesh and Zach are all fairly close with both me and each-other, and Lora being the sole Rubicante on the tribe will likely work to her advantage as a potential swing vote. With that said, Lex is on the same tribe as Zach, and I fear Zach may sacrifice some allies to keep Lex as a meatshield. Tommy could go either way, I don't know too much personally.

New Malacoda is a wild card. AJ and Lexi are the two Rubicantes, but I don't know if either are particularly close, so they might not stay together. Liz and Aaron M were both part of the Shane vote, whereas Sam wasn't, so that could also get dicey. And Andrew is the sole OG Malacoda on the tribe, yet he's also a wildcard so he might not factor in at all. Tribal with that tribe is genuinely something that could be frightening.

Overall, I'm satisfied. Unless I go through with my plan to PM everyone with "you are a bitch", my game will be solid til merge. I hope.

Day 10
"rubicante"

- I'm pretty happy with my swap tribe. I get along great with mostly everyone. The only one I haven't really talked to is Ian, but we had a convo last night and I feel better with him. If we go to tribal, I think I'd be alright. Joe is already throwing Ian's name out so hopefully we would be able to make that happen. The only thing is if we lost twice, me and Joe will be in a minority, but we will deal with that if it comes. I feel like I'm being pretty social with almost everyone, which is what I think is my biggest strength rn.

"malacoda"

- Never get a virgin's opinion on what 'easy' means. Sincerely, everyone misled by Toby's puzzle.

"rubicante"

- Well, a lot of talk amongst us the past couple days about the election, but besides that, I hope I do well with this challenge. I’m at a 3-2-1 disadvantage here, and I might be fucked if we lose.

"alichino"

- https://youtu.be/Qnsr91tO4_M

"rubicante"

- Bad news is, I didn't get a great time. Good news is, I still finished under what I said. So I guess I learned my mistake from Tarkine? But will that be enough to keep us from tribal?

"rubicante"

- The challenge comes in (after a day's rest) and it's actually an interesting one. Each of us needs to pick a particular puzzle, but our time limit is self-elected. The trick is, if you go OVER the time limit you set, you get no points. If you stay under the time you choose, you'll at least get 1 point. The time you set is the time you'll be ranked as, so you overall speed means nothing unless there's a tie. A lot of strategy with this one, so I'm curious.

Problem is, I have something the doctors call "complete and utter fucking stupid idiot" disease. Okay, that's an exaggeration, but my problem solving skills have been fried by years of untreated depression and anxiety. Because of this, I immediately dibs the logic puzzle, because that's the sort of puzzle I'm good at. To be safe, I set a 45 minute time.

I finish the puzzle at around 30 minutes, and I'm honestly pretty angry with myself. I overshot the time and that'll likely screw my team, making me a target. Joe and Brian also choke their puzzles, which makes me more scared. For one, I don't want Brian to have a target either - for another, I'd rather just stay away from tribal. Joe is also terrified, but if we end up at tribal I think I'll try to keep him here. Ultimately, Ian is the one who's expendable.

Day 11
"alichino"

- Two immunities in a row to two tribals in a row, what a downward spiral. I don't think anyone can really be blamed for this challenge and I guess as a result I can't really be praised for my performance either. I don't exactly know how the others perceive me because I've only been on a tribe with these people for a short while, and that kind of terrifies me and I feel kind of unsure about my position. I'm good with Liam and Hesh sure but I don't know if they'd stick their necks out for me. I'll try to work on Zach and maybe see if he wants to target Lex or Tommy. Fingers crossed, friends.

"malacoda"

- Holy shit, we won, and it wasn't even really close at all! I'm so proud of my new tribe, but I'm mostly proud of myself! I didn't expect to be doing so good in these challenges, since I'm not exactly known for being good at really anything when it comes to ORGs, so it's nice to have this temporary ego boost before I get inevitably get voted out!

I think, when we do go to tribal, one of the Alichino is going. I'm leaning towards trying to get the Rubicante + Sam to try to take out Elizabeth or Aaron, since the fact that those two voted out Shane doesn't sit right with me at all. I also really trust Sam, I think he'd work with me if I present him with the opportunity to be on the majority. It all really depends on what the Rubicante want, though.

"alichino"

- With the craziness of the election going on it's been understandably nonexistent on the strategic end of this tribal. I totally get it too I mean I'm exhausted. Since the deadline is coming up though I think I'd want to target Tommy. He seems like the easy vote and after that then Hesh, Liam, and I should have the majority. If we go to tribal again I'd like to split up Lex and Zach, especially since Lex was apparently the ringleader behind Shane's elimination. Brian told me that Liam was left out of that vote so it should be easy to pin Lex down. My prediction for this tribal at least is everything starts happening a few hours before the deadline which hopefully I'll be awake for. Fingers crossed.

"rubicante"

- Holy fuck, it actually paid off. I just won the challenge using my own stupidity as an asset!

Malacoda creamed both of the other tribes, which was pretty surprising. Ian, for his part, got a solid 2 points, with Chloe winning her heat to make 5 points total. Knowing that Joe, Brian and Isaiah had all failed to get points, I was beginning to panic. It seemed that my choice to go way high for time would screw us. Instead, I pulled a Bradbury.

Lex choked the logic puzzle and went overtime - still three times as fast as it took me, but that's not the point of the challenge, so rip. Liz, Malacoda's entrant, got it wrong. As such, my dumbass score of 28 minutes (aka, the speed it would take a three year old to do that sort of puzzle), somehow got my tribe three points and confirmed our victory over Alichino. I'm now a hero to my tribe, and I find the whole situation hilarious.

As for Alichino, I can't help but feel Tommy will likely go home. He forgot to submit a time for his challenge, effectively voiding his entire participation in the challenge - the two points he COULD have won would have made a difference, I'm sure of it. However, we won't know for a while - with election night stressing everyone out, tribal has been extended to 48 hours. We'll wait and see.

"malacoda"

- For the first time in a while, I don't really have a whole lot to say. I think things are shaping up pretty well for me in the tribe, and I have quite a few avenues that I can definitely use to my advantage moving forward. Given that all of those involve Lexi, I definitely need to have a chat with her just to figure things out and get on the same page, but I'm not rushing into that at all. I'd much rather take my time in having the conversation and let things come about naturally, rather than force the conversation to happen and risk things not going entirely how I want them to. Currently, I have a proposal from Sam who wants to work with Lexi and I, most likely with Aaron as our fourth. Ulteriorly, I have a proposal from Aaron wanting to work with Lexi and I, this time with Elizabeth as our fourth. The thing is, Elizabeth would've been my candidate I would've gone after if we had've lost and I had my pick of absolutely anybody in the tribe to leave. I don't have a single qualm with her, we just don't talk as much as I do with everyone else on the tribe. Still, if it's not her, I guess Andrew going isn't the worst thing in the world for me, since it keeps Lexi and I in the middle between two opposing factions and we can just decide where to go from there. It would possibly put me in an awkward spot if I'd be expected to cut Sam over Elizabeth at the next vote, but I'm hoping it wouldn't come to that before a swap or a merge. Right now I'm still managing to outperform everybody I've competed against in every challenge aside from the flash game which is self-admittedly the genre of challenge I put no effort into and don't care about, so I think things are probably looking good for me to actually make a decent run at things and keep the group together until the next phase of the game. That's essentially it, really. If we keep winning immunity, I keep all the people I've been talking to happy, and I don't have to break off any connections. I don't have to vote for Andrew and risk fracturing my relationship with Liam, I don't have to vote for Sam or Elizabeth and reveal my cards too soon. I can do a lot without doing much right now and there's not a lot of pressure on me. I can just focus on getting on the same page with Lexi, and we'll mobilise from there. Still, quite boring.

"alichino"

- So we swapped and I ended up with lex Zach Liam and lora solid bunch.

Zach and lex are tied foe my #1

Zach doesn’t know about lex

But lex has some idea about Zach

We are in a three way chat

Liam Zach and I are as well

Except Liam made it clear to lex I was on the bottom of his list on this tribe after Tommy

Liam pushed for Tommy but once lex told me that Lora was 100% going

Don’t get me wrong liam wanted Tommy and it could’ve happened lex didn’t care

But Zach and I agreed Tommy I’d harmless except for his allegiance to Joey which we’ll deal with later, I don’t want to vote off Lora but she doesn’t fit into my plans long term and I don’t want Liam thinking he has any power. He’s mine and Zach’s pawn on this tribe. Lex and I are figuring out our long term goals but having Zach along for the ride is great.

Another one down, and I actually voted out the two people who voted me out in previous seasons Felipe And Lora. Weirdly enough didn’t want to do either.

Rankings

Lex

Zach

Sam

Isaac

AJ

Chloe

Brian

Isiah

Liam

Tommy

The rest

"alichino"

- i had a whole conf typed up but then my laptop crashed and im exhausted from election and tribal and irl so im gonna make it brief i dont have the energy nor time to retype an entire essay but i dont wanna give yall NOTHING so here u go its sloppy its incoherent im sorry but thats just how it is

we swap into a group i rly fuck w, obv im ride or dyin w hesh at this point + liam and lex are dope as shit and people i have in my plans as well. tommy being w us too is coo, leaving lora as a bit of a satellite here. we completely fuckin tank immunity but the hosts be cool so we have 2 days for tc cause of election (thx), where tribal talk didnt rly start til last night. lex mistrusts lora cause i told him that felipe told me that lora told him that lex led the charge to get him out first (phew), which he told hesh who told me, but lex didnt say who told hesh. this is huge and works out super well for me cause it shows me that both lex and hesh are not cracking and are remaining loyal as fuck to me right now. so, the vote looks to be lora, but liam seems hell bent on taking tommy out of the game due to his poor social game. and i agree - from a social standpoint, lora deffo deserves to be here more than tommy does - but this is also a numbers and logic game. if hesh and i boot tommy first, joe and isaiah are probably not gonna react too kindly to it, and while i dont really think i /need/ those bonds perse, its still nice to have them to default on. plus i love isaiah and dont want him mad at me if i can help it sooooo

ready for another through-the-grapevine timeline? lex told hesh that liam told him that he views the tribe in a ranked order for him like this: (presumably lex) > me > lora > hesh > tommy, which, if lex is being truthful which i really think he is, explains why he wants tommy out so bad AND explains to me why liam and lex didnt tell ME this info. lex knows that that kind of info might make me too complacent or make me go "flip to" liam over him, and liam is smart and he knows hesh and i are p tight, and he also knows that telling me that lora is above hesh in his tribe rankings is just asking for me to tell hesh, for hesh to get mad, grab lex, tommy and i and gun for liam. hesh, however, is a rational player and even after hearing that still has liam above tommy and lora on his bootlist order. hes thinking about the future of this game a lot more than i am, and i genuinely believe him when he says that future includes me and sam. hesh has also really imprinted on lex which is great because im the one that kind of encouraged that relationship, and i think im closer to both of them than they are with each other. i actually feel rly confident about my positioning, although i will admittedly say that ive been slacking socially recently and havent been paying too much attention to many aspects of the game oops

idols still unaccounted for, whether an aj or someone snagged it by now or not idk, but it seems likely to me.