Board Thread:Survivor 22: San Marcos/@comment-30516037-20170209232355/@comment-27845097-20170210182326

Hey Claudia! Thanks for clarifying all this, I can finally sleep at night.

 I just want to address little points you made in your speech first. I’ve reiterated this already, and I’m glad you agree, because I never blamed you either. I believe it was especially tricky for us to maintain a constant line of trust since there wasn’t any, not on NuTacana, not on Yaknad. This is probably what ruined my relationship with Chris, which is unfortunate because I know how shady it comes off.

I think my main obstacle was honesty. It was better to be vague, than directly lie. I would often avoid these conversations because I didn’t want to have to be dishonest about something like a vote which would be revealed soon enough, and I couldn’t risk being 100% honest to the idol queen. I do want to say, whenever we did connect over various times during the game such as Final 11, Final 7, and Final 6 it was honest. I genuinely wanted to work with Tacana early on, and later I was extremely suspicious of Chris and Nathaniel, so I wasn’t just leading you on.

As for my late replies during the Tribal Council you’d be voted out, I’ll take blame for that. I have a really long commute between my house and school, and I don’t have data, so it’ll often take me more than an hour. The deadline passed during my commute, so I couldn’t get to you in time (I remember replying using the bus-stop wifi) so I’m sorry!! I wasn’t ever actively avoiding you, but I should’ve been more upfront earlier, so again I’ll take blame for that.

but seriously, thank you. Thank you for giving me a chance and recognizing what I have done / have to say. You’re honestly a great person and I’m going to enjoy our friendship after this game. and HA! I knew something fishy was up at Final 6…and honestly I’ve become so used to getting second in the majority of these challenges. I almost snatched the Final 5 and 4 immunities as well, ahhhhh!

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Now onto your actual questions. Since it probably seems that me and Nick are trying to claim every decision for ourselves, I’ll give a quick rundown on what actually happened, because I was a more active role in votes than people recognize, however there were times where I let other people get what they want to maintain trust. I know you said final stages but what the hell.

'' Brian - Voting out Brian was initially Austin’s idea due to his various connections to people on rival tribes, and we had all agreed despite what messiness came afterwards. ''

'' Hannah - It was really unspoken, but unanimous. ''

Malik - I’ve said this before, I was thrown onto a tribe where a dynamic had already been set without me, and although I was suggesting splitting, we didn’t want to randomly isolate you Claudia, so I agreed to this vote based on what I got from Rhi.

''Malik - I was firm on taking out Malik because I knew how anti-Catarina he was, and at this point we had stopped talking completely, so I knew it would be better for all of us overall if he was out of the picture. I knew tribal lines were still present, so at first I was approaching Quetzal, however the numbers didn’t agree with that, but at that point Austin revealed he had the idol, so that’s a bit of background on that. I’ll say it was a group decision. ''

''Elmo - I’ll say I was suspicious of Elmo before the others were, as we all kept saying how much we trusted him, I figured he was the social mastermind behind it all. Although I believed you guys about voting out Shea, I know how addicting the swing vote position is, and the fact that you guys were going to preserve it was suspicious, so voting out Elmo and gaining Shea as a number was probably Nathaniel’s idea due to his proximity to Shea + his idol, but I want to say that Elmo was also sort of a group decision, based on the pool of Quetzals to choose from. ''

''Brandon - I personally voted for Renz at this tribal, although I had a feeling Nathaniel would go, which I didn’t mind actually. However, splitting between Brandon was a safety precaution because that’s what Chris seemed to be pushing for + Jenna was someone I was growing close to and she wasn’t as big of a threat. ''

''Renz - This vote is the biggest example of me taking charge. There were a lot of factors going into this like a 5th idol play, etc, However Austin wanted to use this opportunity to let the other side just take out Nathaniel. I didn’t see this as beneficial because I wanted more negotiating power, and I know that you/Chris/Jenna would’ve made a deadly alliance, so that’s why I made the extra effort to change that vote, even though it became a giant mess thanks to Shea. ''

''Chris - Basically Nathaniel/Shea had flipped at this point, and I voted Chris out sympathetically because I couldn't bring myself to directly vote out Austin, although I had told him he was pretty screwed at that point, however it was done as some sort of precaution because I was planning something with Jenna earlier, but that kinda fell apart, which was just a big mess because she wasn't going to vote out Chris, but she got word that was happening, and aehioeajh if you wan't more clarification I'll provide that but it was frustarating and I can say I didn't like losing control, but I realized my position after this round so it was worth it. ''

''Jenna - I’m taking credit for this move as well because my main goal coming out of that tribal was to continue this middle spot me and Nick had acquired, and ensuring that you guys were still pitted against each other. Jenna was voted out because A) and she was the most vulnerable one to strike based on idols + our auction prizes and B) I knew, even jf Jenna would've flipped, that she was closer to you guys, as was Nick and I was being left out in the dark, in a place where even Shea wouldn't have forgiven me so I thought about the future and figured it was a move that had to be done. I believe Nick was ready to get revenge on Nat at one point, but I thought we could delay that until later. ''

<p class="p1" style="font-weight:normal;font-stretch:normal;font-size:12px;line-height:normal;font-family:Helvetica;color:rgb(69,69,69);">''Shea - I was definitely ready for Nathaniel to go, but when I realized what was going on, I definitely chose to keep Nick safe over Shea, who was begging to quit at that point, (but I know he didn’t want to so he could vote Nathaniel in jury lmao). Nick voted for Nathaniel only as a safety precaution, which he let me know beforehand. ''

<p class="p1" style="font-weight:normal;font-stretch:normal;font-size:12px;line-height:normal;font-family:Helvetica;color:rgb(69,69,69);">''Claudia - I want to say this was my decision, but it's hard to prove that, and I do feel like me and Nick discussed this equally, so I'll let you be the judge. Also I promise you I hadn’t made up our mind when I told you, so I don’t want you to think I gave you false hope. Ultimately Nick and I had begun thinking about FTC and the Final 3 and I guess Chris was brought along, despite whatever challenge history Nathaniel was throwing at us, because it was easier to stall on that decision. As the empress, I knew you’d decimate us with the chance and I knew Nat wouldn’t have the balls to vote me out so that’s what was going on. ''

<p class="p1" style="font-weight:normal;font-stretch:normal;font-size:12px;line-height:normal;font-family:Helvetica;color:rgb(69,69,69);">''Chris - This I will give to Nick. I believe we discussed this for an entire week going back and forth, and when you had left Claudia we had planned to go to the end with Chris, but as Nick listed the cons to bringing him, I felt like we couldn't hand him the game. ''

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<p class="p1" style="font-weight:normal;font-stretch:normal;font-size:12px;line-height:normal;font-family:Helvetica;color:rgb(69,69,69);">Now your next question, paranoia. Early merge I was constantly paranoid and I would often joke that the merge felt like a scam because now we have to go to every tribal council which was non-stop stress LOL. I believe you mentioned something about idols saving me/Nick as well, and I’ll admit that it was nice to have idols, but they helped the general wellbeing of the alliance more than helping me personally. The fact of the matter is, when I saw how y’all perceived Catarina individually, I knew Austin and Nathaniel were emerging as threats. Of course, I’ve said enough about using them as shields, but I knew I was still vulnerable, especially after Nick had obtained a white pearl, I knew I was the “Jenna” aka the one to blindside, and so after that crazy vote w/ Renz, and seeing Austin leave, I had become way more tuned into the game. I’ll say I was somewhat calm after Final 7 because my awareness had increased. There wasn’t this “other side” anymore, being in the middle gives you access, and aside from your crazy advantage I generally felt in control of my own fate from that point onwards. And honestly, my confidence in challenges had grown, not to rely on challenges, but enough to win when I needed to. Once me and Nick were being called out for being goats, I knew that it was in our hands to decide what the Final 3 would look like.

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<p class="p1" style="font-weight:normal;font-stretch:normal;font-size:12px;line-height:normal;font-family:Helvetica;color:rgb(69,69,69);">'''What was your most enjoyable moment in the game? '''Meeting people like Nick, Austin, Rhi, Brandon, you, Renz, Elmo, Jenna, Brian, Nathaniel, and I’m also enjoying to play with Malik/Ryan/Hannah in the Hunger games so I could go on, it’s just been incredibly fun. I look forward to continuing most of these friendships outside the game and I’m sure we’ll look back at this season and laugh. Also not getting swap-fucked for once. I think I’ve finally got the redemption I was seeking in the ORG community, and can prove that I do know how to play Survivor :D

<p class="p1" style="font-weight:normal;font-stretch:normal;font-size:12px;line-height:normal;font-family:Helvetica;color:rgb(69,69,69);">'''What was the most difficult moment for you personally? '''Betraying Jenna is up there. I was genuinely planning to go deep with Jenna, and I lied to her face because I know there were idols and that special advantage, etc, etc. I knew Jenna had to be the one to go because it had to be a blindside of sorts. It sucked nonetheless. Also when Rhi and Austin were voted out of course, and this is why I feel so bad at times because I know how hard it is to see people you grew to consider friends be voted out, but I’m trying to own my decisions regardless haha!

<p class="p1" style="font-weight:normal;font-stretch:normal;font-size:12px;line-height:normal;font-family:Helvetica;color:rgb(69,69,69);">'''What was the moment where luck was a determining factor in your survival in the game? '''The Tribe-swap! As someone who’s been swap-fucked twice, luck is usually the main factor in that, and props to you for being able to survive it! I was so terrified to be exiled, and I my worst fear was being left behind, but it was definitely better than being in the minority of either tribe.

<p class="p1" style="font-weight:normal;font-stretch:normal;font-size:12px;line-height:normal;font-family:Helvetica;color:rgb(69,69,69);">Can you write a quick list of how you expect each juror to vote?

<p class="p1" style="font-weight:normal;font-stretch:normal;font-size:12px;line-height:normal;font-family:Helvetica;color:rgb(69,69,69);">''Rhi - According to her question it could be anyone, although I thought it’d be Nick due to their friendship before this game. ''

<p class="p1" style="font-weight:normal;font-stretch:normal;font-size:12px;line-height:normal;font-family:Helvetica;color:rgb(69,69,69);">'' Malik - Hmm, me or Nathaniel? ''

<p class="p1" style="font-weight:normal;font-stretch:normal;font-size:12px;line-height:normal;font-family:Helvetica;color:rgb(69,69,69);">''Elmo - Completely up in the air, he’s just too nice to all of us!!! ''

<p class="p1" style="font-weight:normal;font-stretch:normal;font-size:12px;line-height:normal;font-family:Helvetica;color:rgb(69,69,69);">Brandon - Me :’) I don’t mean to sound cocky about that but he understood my game completely, and I appreciate him so much for trying to vocalize that in ways the jury would respond to. 

<p class="p1" style="font-weight:normal;font-stretch:normal;font-size:12px;line-height:normal;font-family:Helvetica;color:rgb(69,69,69);">''Renz - Nathaniel, but I’m trying to sway him LOL, but Nathaniel. ''

<p class="p1" style="font-weight:normal;font-stretch:normal;font-size:12px;line-height:normal;font-family:Helvetica;color:rgb(69,69,69);">''Austin - I’m hopeful that I might have his vote, although he could also vote Nick. ''

<p class="p1" style="font-weight:normal;font-stretch:normal;font-size:12px;line-height:normal;font-family:Helvetica;color:rgb(69,69,69);">''Jenna - Can't say definitively, but I guess based on her video, Nick? ''

<p class="p1" style="font-weight:normal;font-stretch:normal;font-size:12px;line-height:normal;font-family:Helvetica;color:rgb(69,69,69);">Claudia - omg again, can’t tell!!

<p class="p1" style="font-weight:normal;font-stretch:normal;font-size:12px;line-height:normal;font-family:Helvetica;color:rgb(69,69,69);">''Chris - Nick. ''

<p class="p1" style="font-weight:normal;font-stretch:normal;font-size:12px;line-height:normal;font-family:Helvetica;color:rgb(69,69,69);">'''Will you be joining the jury on our reunion skype call in the near future? '''Yes!! PM me your Skype, I’ll try to be there if I’m not universally despised LMAO.