I Want to Throw Up/Confessionals

Day 16
"lhotse"

- That was the best possible outcome for that tribal council, my god! So ecstatic to be going into the final 12 now, bit curious about Jenna going on the old Yangra but I understand the thought since she was so unpredictable back on my original tribe. Fingers crossed the merge is either now or next so this game can really get going!

"yangra"

- Boy what a wonderful day it is. Birds are singing, the grass is well, still green, and I'm still sitting here with my perfect game :) . These guys don't know what hit em man, I've had total control this entire fucking premerge and I'm proud of it. It's nice, for once, to finally look back and say yeah, I made everyone in premerge my damn slave. It's brilliant really, and now I'm in the middle of Vincent and Lexi, so *if*, *if*, we lose, I still come out on top. Isn't that amazing? I'm a God amongst men right now. Jenna came up to the pearly gates and I told Peter to send her ass back down to Hell. Now, real talk, I really did enjoy Jenna, and hearing her be like "yeah I'm glad everyone is keeping me" did kind of break my heart a little, but I already voted, so, lesson learned, share sad stories beforeee people vote. Whatever, moving on. My alliance has been doing fucking amazing here. Not a single vote against any of us at the final 12! The final 12! Like we stand a chance to have none of us ever get a damn vote premerge if NuMakalu loses. All my little Apostles down there are doin great hahahahaha. I'm cocky? No, you're cocky. Shut up and go back to voting how I say please. I'm probably trying wayyy to hard but call me a level 12 Mr Hollywood bc I am power trippin everywhere. And the best part is, no one can fucking stop me! Hahahahahahaha I'm fucking brilliant man. And assuming NuYangra wins immunity here, which we will, because I said so, then Me-Lexi-Vincent-I forget his name but it begins with t-Drew-Liam have full control over the merge. And oh boy is it gonna be great.

"lhotse"

- Somehow even though Seamus self-voted I'm still concerned he could have, or get his hands on the idol. Especially since we won reward. So my two focuses in the game right now are to find the idol, and win immunity. Whatever it is I'll literally spend the next 24 hours at my laptop if I have to because I really wanna win lol! That's pretty much itt, tbh I really wanna escape this tribe and merge. Swap is my least favorite part of Survivor ugh

Day 17
"yangra"

- I'm really hoping that we don't lose, it's not like we have someone on our tribe who I wouldn't really mind going like Jenna, both Pory and Lexi are really great. From a strategic standpoint I'm obviously in a certain amount of danger, but I think that Pory and I might stick together for a vote if we do lose. Then I'd be in trouble coming into the merge, so I just want to win this one challenge.

"makalu"

- I am very intimidated by all Yangras. They have perfect clean looking light clothes, have never recieved votes thus far and are in the majority tribe wise.These people are like gods. Taking one of them down alone is a hefty task but I think its achievable, and once one goes down it will snowball into a landslide of yangras. Trust me.

"yangra"

- Wow, so my tribe has been on a losing streak, huh? I don't believe I've made a confessional since the swap, so let's kinda go back in time for a bit.

So my swapped tribe was Emily, Jenna, Vincent, Pory, and myself. I've played with Vincent before, though we didn't really talk before he was voted out. So there was first a chat with myself, Jenna, and Pory- our original tribe. During our first Tribal Council- Vincent approached Pory with a plan to vote out Emily. Now, this was good with us since that was who we were thinking about voting already. This led to a unanimous vote for Emily. I did tell her before the deadline, though I know it doesn't actually matter all that much.

Second vote, Jenna abstained from the challenge, and since she was a wild card in some ways, we decided now was the best time to vote her out.

That leaves myself, Vincent, and Pory on our tribe. I'm hoping we can pull off second in this challenge- that way we can all make it to merge. Otherwise, it'll probably be Vincent going this Tribal Council.

Pory and I have been aligned from the start- I don't consider him my closest ally, but I do trust him and see myself working with him moving forward! So I'm fairly confident that I could be safe this tribal if we go, it's just going to be on Pory to honor our alliance.

I really can't wait to meet back up with some of my other allies, it's going to be a big happy reunion when we do and I really can't wait!! <3

"makalu"

- Rip Jenna and potentially rip my game. I feel like even if I get to the end I’m gonna spend the entire time defending my decision to give her the idol. It made sense in my head but maybe it was just dumb. Now I’m gonna be fighting back against the perception that I’m a messy player for the rest of the game. I think after molise and Malawi I was just trigger happy, but that doesn’t excuse it. Big oops.

"yangra"

- Man it feels great being amazing. You know, we're winning this immunity easily. You know why? Because I'm the greatest. Only I, PORYFUL ZED have the GENEROSITY, THE GREGARIOUSNESS, THE CHARTIBLENESS FUCK WHO CARES I PUT MY POKEMON IN THEIR GOOD POKEBALLS ALRIGHT. Look, many owners, they just see a pokemon, throw it in a pokeball, call it a day. Well, I'm fucking Poryful Zed son, and I do not just let my animal sla- companions live in terrible conditions. Only I have the KINDNESS to capture a cleffa in a heal ball instead of an ultra ball. Only I have the HEART to capture a metagross in a heavy ball. This, right here, is why I am winning. Because I am not only amazing, but I am kind. Many people can claim to be amazing all they want, but if they aren't generous to their pokemon, HA! They don't stand a chance. Thank god for me!

Day 18
"makalu"

- Well here we are, one vote from the merge, and my back and Big Z’s back are against the wall. This is a low point for me in the game because I could’ve had a damn idol but instead I gave it to Jenna. That might be the worst move I’ve made in an ORG... ever. That was horrible. Just bad. But anyways Z and I are basically in a position where we’re gonna have to throw each other under the bus and do you understand how crushing that is? He’s my #1 ally, I think I’m his, but it probably ends tonight one way or the other. Even if I survive, I’m a lone wolf. Yangra doesn’t trust me, Makalu probably isn’t gonna take me. This is not how I expected this to go. Rip Z and I </3

"makalu"

- Losing immunity sucks. Both of the yangras are viable flips and voting one of them off plummets our chances of having control at merge. I am leaning towards keeping Zach because marty seems a bit more erratic. I am not sure if the other two will bite on it though.

"makalu"

- I think there is a chance karsten or damien try to take a swing at me. Vincent seems to be a likely swing vote come merge and I alienated him when I sniped Trey. This wouldn't be the best move for them but it is a possibility.

"makalu"

- We have a big decision to make tonight with our Marty/Zach vote. We THINK there's probably going to be a merge after this vote, and we want to flush out any potential idols before we merge. Plan is to split votes 2-2 on Zach and Marty, in case either of them have an idol. Marty is under the impression that we're all voting Zach. Suspect Zach could have an idol because he hasn't been very interested in talking about tribal to us. I just hope it isn't me going home tonight.

"yangra"

- We're probably merging next. Everything adds up to a merge coming. When we merge it's going to be absolute chaos. This swap worked out very interestingly, everyone left is going to have connections with multiple people from other tribes, so there's no way to figure out how the alliances are going to pan out. All I can say is that Pory, Lexi and I are sticking together, and I'm hopefully going to end up reuniting with Karsten (I'm hoping that Jp will go, but I can't guarantee that, it would be convenient though).

My allies (people who I expect to want to work with me immediately coming into the merge) are the Makalu excluding Seamus (including Jp if he does stick around, since he seemed to want to work with me after the Trey vote), as well as the Yangra 3 (aka what's left of Yangra 2.0). I'd easily get four, and I imagine that Damien would go with us too. Especially if we get the three (Drew, Liam, Tyler) on our side as Pory thinks we will. They're clearly tight, otherwise Joey and Seamus probably would have tried to vote one of them out (they realized that there was no chance and voted for each other (Seamus definitely would have voted Joey) out of self-preservation).

Seamus probably has an idol, so I want to be weary of that. I don't know what he did to avoid going home on Lhotse, but clearly hes a really big threat who has a lot of leverage with his idol.

I'll have a lot more to say when we actually merge.

"makalu"

- So I’m either royally fucked in this game or I’m about to get really lucky. Not optimistic at all but I guess we’ll see. Of course when all I wanted was to make the merge I’m potentially going to miss it when we’re literally a vote away.

"makalu"

- I thought this council will be easy but i was wrong. I feel like it will end by either me being voted out or me taking a bad decison.

"makalu"

- Holy SHIT what a turnaround from a few hours ago. Myself and Marty just might survive this one after all. Unless I’m getting played which is totally possible but I feel comfortable for better or for worse. Plus myself and Jp are a final 2 and my tribe based alliance doesn’t even include him. I feel like I’ve truly worked some magic since joining Makalu.

"lhotse"

- Honestly I've had the worst week and the fact that I was so useless in that immunity challenge, which I really wanted to do well in btw, made it even worse but the feeling of relief I had when we won was so great. Final 11 isn't a huge milestone or anything, but I know we're close to merge and I just can't wait to get off of this tribe. We're down to only 7 guesses left on the idol map and none of me, Drew, or Liam have found it yet, (or at least none of us have revealed we have). Tbh, it's a huge possibility either Drew or Liam has already found it and just covered it up, which honestly, I don't care too much because I don't think either one of them are coming after me as of right now. So if either of them found the idol and just doesn't wanna come out and say it, that's fine. Personally, all I care about is that Seamus doesn't have it. Because if we don't merge and go to another tribal, that would be horrible. (And of course, even when we do merge, I don't want him to have an idol lol) Drew told me he believes Liam has it, and tried to cover it up because whenever he would update the clue map, I noticed that he forgot to cross out a shit load of guesses that we have already used. And he could have done that purposely so that the guesses would last longer? Personally I think that part could be far-fetched but either way, when we merge, one of these guys having an idol will be in the back of my head for sure. Speaking of merge, I think it might be after Makalu's TC? We'll be on day 19, and down to 11 people, so it's possible. If it is, I really hope Marty goes tonight, cause that will be one less headache, and then merge could look like 6-5 with us (original Yangra) in majority? Maybe. No idea yet though tbh. All I know is I'm ready to get off this tribe already.

"makalu"

- YEAH BABY DAMIEN CAME AROUND. I’m so pumped. Z, Damien, and I are voting Karsten which isn’t necessarily ideal because I trust JP more than damien and JP will be alienated by this, but I’m very happy because Big Z is staying in the game. Going forward I think the three of us are gonna be a swing, at least for the first merge vote, and then we’ll see how it goes from there. But I’m very happy with my spot in the game. I don’t need the Yangras and the Makalus need me. So much has improved in the last 18 hours. Yeah baby.

"makalu"

- I just feel so bad for this council, for blindsiding an ally like that when he trust me. I'm stressed as fuck and i want to throw up. Really, i'm near to hope that i will be the boot. This game will kill me.

"lhotse"

- UGH there's some tomfoolery going on @ Karsten or whatever his name going over Marty and Z. I guess it's safe to say we can't totally trust them but, their vote wasn't totally unanimous, and there could be a story behind it that I don't know. But I already don't trust Marty so him still being here is annoying. If Makalu scooped up both Marty and Z (which wouldn't be too hard bc neither of them were in Yangra's majority alliance, they have no allegiance to us.), Our other 5 Yangras could be in minority at merge (If we merge now) and that's annoying but who knows tbh.