Board Thread:Survivor 37: Egypt/@comment-24584422-20190130040630/@comment-31124935-20190130063848

Hi Rob! I dont know how sincere this will feel, but just wanted to say I was not excited to meet up with you because I felt like I found someone who would do what I said, I was excited to meet up with you because its incredibly rare that I bond with someone as much as I felt I bonded with you, especially when I dont meet said person until the second tribe swap of the game. I can sort of see how I made it seem like I was using you in my speech, but I guess I was just having trouble articulating that whole dynamic with you and your link to the Sekhmets. Just know that I ALWAYS saw you as a person before a player and really genuinely liked you and all you brought to this game.

I knew you were choosing us just as much as we were choosing you; my pride did not originate from me thinking I controlled you. I was proud of our alliance because I felt like I could adapt and fashion myself into something you would want to align with. I knew you were smart and I knew you were thinking for yourself/doing what was best for you, so I think I have a right to be proud that I was able to have enough awareness to shift my gameplay/positioning a bit and be that best option. I noticed our quickly blossoming friendship, invested myself into your revenge arc, and took so much happiness in seeing you get so far. Thats why I am kind of sad that I could be so easily replaced to you strategically SDAHAFFD like I cant picture anyone else truly caring about all that like I did- but I get what you mean about being a hypocrite and thats one of only a few frustrations I have with myself in this game tbh. As I told you in PMs after Sam left, I wanted to show you that there were such things as good allies. I didnt do that, but I think I did a pretty damn close job and hopefully when this is over you start to feel a little similar &lt;3 Like I came here to play for myself, and I had to follow through with that mentality as we all did, but I do think I largely kept my integrity with you. I am sorry for harping on my indiscretions in my speech and talking about the F8 in the way I did, I just think it was important for me to showcase a time where I took the bull by the horns since I know seemingly passive play can be a big turn off to some people :( I tried to respect the jurors games the best I could and being the emotional/sensitive bitch that I am, I am definitely disappointed that I made you or anyone else feel like their own game wasnt valid- I guess its just a tricky balance of highlighting my own game vs respecting others that I am still learning... I plan on rereading my speech though tonight and digest it all so I can change for the better

NOTE: At the Final 5 I just was getting freaked out that the vote was not being discussed with me by Tara and Andre at ALL, like if we wanted to be the Final 3 and now had majority, why are they so shut off and not discussing it one bit? I see now that it was just out of allegiance to our four, but I definitely got paranoid like lots of players do and wanted to poke around with them to reassure myself that I was not getting 4th. Voting you out was not something I could ever just throw out and breezily consider, it took a lot out of me to do it even when it was known you were leaving at F4

Did you know that I had a legit, bonified, codified since day 3 alliance with Zach, Dani, and Sam?

No, I didnt! I knew you guys were aligned loosely of course, I guess I pieced that together based on how hurt you were by the Nathan betrayal and how hurt they were by the Luke and Zach betrayals. This is random but very relevant haha- Tara found your Roblox out of the blue (??) not sure how that works, so we knew you guys were playing that together, and I knew you would go on calls with them, but yeah I never knew about a concrete alliance! Danielle told me on Horus when I asked her who she specifically got along with that she liked Sam, Zach, and John a lot, so I was definitely trying to be cognizant of that and always reassess its validity (though John quickly went out the window HAHA) but yeah never knew you were solidifed with those three!

Also LMAOO at "Sekhmet Four", I felt so obnoxious being like "Idk if you guys were an alliance but you are now!!" but basically I just didnt want to keep typing out those four names and I definitely did block them four together in my mind since Tara said they were super close at the swap

I agree I tend to underestimate connections though, I love assuming I have all the information so that I can then plan easier and such... its defintely a flaw of mine- I always draw the tribe out in diagrams of alliances and connections only to be proven wrong days later and starting the process all over again :P With that being said, I am still very proud of how much I did know in this game and still do view it as a large strength personally, though I definitely apologize if I harped too much on this in my speech or came off as gloating

What do you think the secret category was?

I am going to go with "the person who made me smile the most" because you are someone who seems to really value the amount of enjoyment you get out of ORGs, and Tara was SO funny in our chat and just popping off with hilarious opinions or phrasing things very articulately and cute

Im gonna laugh if it was actually a negative criteria hahahhahah

What would your Real Housewife of Egypt "tagline" be and please explain why?

Okay okay, God I said I wanted fun questions and now Im BLANKING when one comes along... I looked up some examples though and I think was able to get the hang of it and craft an original one I like &lt;3

The pyramids aren't the only timeless phenomenon here &lt;3

LMAOOOOOOO so basically I was thinking that if I was on the Housewives I could alter my public perception and become anyone I wanted, sort of like ORGs I guess. Anyways I am not actually very confident IRL, like at all, and overall am just a super self critical person, so if I got the chance to be on TV or just reinvent myself as a housewife I would hopefully be like "OH SHIT we out here speaking positivity into existence I am awesome!!" and I think it would be a really good thing for me cause I am trying to teach myself that if I am not my own biggest fan then how I can expect others to be ya know?

'''Anyways unless anyone has anything else I think this is the last you jurors will hear from me! Thank you so much for this opportunity; it really seems like you guys are gonna think this decision through and I am very grateful for that &lt;3 You each fought very hard and I am getting more and more impressed with each of your games as I reflect on the season. Overall, it would be such an honor to represent you all as the winner of this season and definitely something I would not take for granted. Thanks guys'''