I Am A Fucking Lucky Bitch/Confessionals

Day 10
"anarchy"

- Why are these people so avoidant of me? Zakriah, I thought we were on the same side, am I your enemy or something?

"anarchy"

- This is INSANE. So, I'm already in a conversation with Joan, Felix & Nathan from the other tribes, and hoooooly shiiiiit! We've been exchanging intel from our tribes (although I've barely given anything away from Azorella; I've just said that things were really really chill strategy-wise given the fact that we were so dominant at challenges) but DAMN, the shit that was going on in Gallieni and Couvreax is really interesting.

First of all, on Gallieni, apparently Julia is a snake - and if I'm swapped onto a tribe with her and some other Couvreax folk, I should work with the Couvreax to get her voted-out? I heard something along those lines from Joan.

And, Nathan was telling me that Nifty's been chaotic as fuck.

Of course, I need to figure out what information here is true, and what is false; but I know for sure that Joan has some type of vendetta against Julia right now. Interesting!!!

"anarchy"

- So, I have been told that on Couvreux, there is a big rivalry between Joan and Aviv, which is honestly great for me if I wind up with them, because Aviv is a shield who I believe trusts me, and Joan is someone who I'm inclined not to trust.

"anarchy"

- From what I understand at Couvreux, Aviv orchestrated a split vote plan because she thought that Kevin had the idol, Hunter and Zakriah are on the bottom, and Joan is leading an anti-Aviv resistance on the tribe (which means she would probably have gone next because I doubt Charlie and Ali would go to rocks for her). I'm hoping that the former Couvreux members self-destruct should we be on a tribe together, and that the Azorella Love Tribe will stick tight together. No word as of yet on what happened at Gallieni (besides Nifty being a serpent, that is.)

"anarchy"

- So, I've been lowkey talking to Cali & Josephine, and I've told them both that if I'm swapped in a strong position and they're swapped into a minority, I'd be down to throw the challenge in order to keep them safe, because they're my 'closest ally'. If that isn't gonna earn me trust and respect, then I don't know what will.

Honestly, though, if I am swapped into a position that I'd consider to be very strong and they're both not - I wouldn't be opposed to throwing an immunity-challenge. I came here and I came here to play. If I'm afraid of dipping my torch into a flame, then I don't deserve to play.

That being said, I'd only do that if I felt super duper safe. I'm willing to dip my torch in the fire, but not dive into it face first.

"anarchy"

- Okay lmao well this tells me a hell of a lot.

Sooo, Josephine comes to me, and she's telling me all this shit that Zak's telling her... And then I talk to Zak, and the information he gives me? A fart in the wind - he doesn't tell me shit! So, this shows me that Zak & Josephine really ARE close - the rumors are right. Rumor has it that Josephine might be closer to Zak than me, and I don't like that. If I have to personally snuff Zak's torch myself in order to get him out of the equation, fuck yeah I'll do that lmao

That being said, I could just be reading too closely into it. But I find it strange that I asked Zak about OG Couvreax and he says literally nothing, but Josephine asked him and he told her just about everything.

"anarchy"

- It's amazing how quickly your opinion can change on a subject once you actually find out what the fuck is going on (i.e. that Joan actually can be trusted and Aviv is too dangerous to keep around).

"anarchy"

- Jesus Christ, how is it that I was the one who initially put Miguel's name out there in the first place, yet I'm still here? How does that work?? Anyway, Nifty's not the smartest tool in the shed and I'm fully convinced that the only reason why he played that idol on Miguel, is because he wanted to be iconic. Like we're at the Final 20 now and he could have had an idol heading into a swap, but now all he has is no idol, but Miguel, whom he might get seperated from after this swap! Truly, grade A survivor player. Miguel seemed really hurt by me lying to and eventually voting him, which comes as a shock to me, cause I really didn't feel like we were that close at all, but I'm trying to make up with him right now. It seems to be working, but I'm obviously gonna be extremely cautious when it comes to him. I'm just telling Nifty that I'm really not that mad at him, and that he actually did me a favor, considering Nick literally told people that him and I were a duo, which is the dumbest thing ever (I love you Nick but seriously fkasjkfs). Heading into this swap, the only 3 I'd really wanna stay seperated from, are Miguel for obvious reasons, Trent because I feel like he's starting to see me as a threat, and Zakriah because I really feel like he doesn't like me for some reason. Also, I'm starting to think that I just don't have it in me to play an under the radar game...

"anarchy"

- https://youtu.be/mrpgDNbHSYA

"couvreux"

- This tribe swap couldn't have gone better tbh. This tribe has all the people I need out, and by ""all"" those people I mean Josephine. I still want to see if I can get a general feel of trust from her, but if I can't I have all the tools necessary to go into hyperdrive and flip this on her head. I just can't stop thinking about a potential trio of her, Zak, and George, and the fact that Joan had told me he was getting a good ""feel"" from her earlier is making all my red flags go off.

What I need to do now is 1. Secure trust with Ali

2. Secure trust with Ryan

3. Give Marie the impression that me, her, and josephine are still tight.

I need to be careful about overplaying this, cause if I do this wrong I will easily send a bad message to everyone else in the game.

"azorella"

- I must've done something really shitty to the Survivor gods in a past life.

This swap is fucking twisted.

So, it's a 2-2-1 split - and guess who's the 1 there? This fucking jackass! Like, seriously...??? What were the odds?? Ughhhh...

I'll just have to do my best. I know that Julia is reviled over on Couvreax, so perhaps I can turn things on her...? God, I fucking hate this. I'll be praying to every god in existence to save me here. Seriously, if anyone is willing to spare me, I'll give you three sheep, five cattle and twenty goats. Go wild, they're all your's.

"gallieni"

- So, initial reactions to swap: HELL YES! I ended up with Andy and Miguel, who are most definitely on my side, Nathan, an easy target immediately due to him being so shifty to me, and Hunter, an outsider who will most definitely want to get pulled into a safe spot in this new tribe. I think I'm set up to be safe for at least two tribal councils as this tribe, maybe three if both Miguel and Andy stay true to me and don't get with each other. Damn, this swap turned out good

"couvreux"

- I'm a lucky bitch. I am a fucking lucky bitch. Two of my alliances are in the new Couvreux (the Myself-Ry-Cali alliance and the Myself-Ry-Marie) alliance. This swap has also saved Adrian from being ousted; At the original Azorella, my target was Adrian, not because he did anything intrinsically incorrect, but because he was the only person who I was not allied with. Now, that position is Ali, meaning Ali is the player who is my target to send back to the VL should we lose immunity.

"azorella"

- HOLY FUCK I JUST REALIZED

AS THE ONLY AZORELLA MEMBER STILL ON THE AZORELLA TRIBE

I HAVE A REALLY STRONG SHOT OF GETTING THE DAMN IDOL AS LONG AS ITS STILL OUT THERE

"couvreux"

- Okay this is gonna be very extra but...

We swapped 4 Azorella and 1 rando, the rando being Ali. What I wanna do is rat out that alliance with Josephine/Cali to Marie and Ali and get them to vote out Josephine in a blindside 3-2. I have Ali's back 100%. Even if he truly doesn't have mine.

Ali told me he was close with Cali so it'd be an issue later. So if I can't flip him and Marie then Marie would have to go. But I want to use her as a number. If Marie goes, and it's Josephine, me, Cali and Ali then I'm fucked. Cali/Jose are closer and Ali could rat me out to save himself.

anyway here's the extra part. Today Julia added me to a skype chat with random survivor wikia players that idk, among them on the call was Josephine, George and herself (Hunter was in the chat so im triggered). I wasn't sure about taking out Marie or working with her 100%, but with Hunter in this chat and all these people from our game here, they don't need any more numbers. I will 100% flip to get Josephine out. I called with them being fake and shy and friendly for like 30 minutes before I literally texted Dani Perovich and told her to call me, she rang, my phone went off as I put it by the mic and faked an emergency like I had to go.

"gallieni"

- So I'm pretty majorly pissed right now. My closest ally, Nick, is gone. Finito. Donezo. All because Nifty just couldn't handle not being the big man on campus. At least it saved Miguel though, who I'm pretty sure I still have some trust in. So there are worse outcomes than this shit.

But yeah I'm here already planning in my head how I'm gonna take Nifty out when all of a sudden there's a tribe swap! And I'm thinking to myself, "Self, we're gonna be reunited with Posie, with Zak, with Ry, with Joan, with Cali. We won't have to deal with fucking Gallieni anymore." Of course though my dreams never come true in this game, and not only am i still on Gallieni, but of my 4 tribe mates, 3 of them are old Gallieni members. Even better, one of them is fucking Nifty. I gotta tell ya, the survivor gods have a cruel sense of humour, and I'll probably end up having to fake any trust I have in Nifty for a little longer. I have Miguel and Andy though, so that reassures me a little that I'm not in immediate danger if things in the challenges go wrong.

So, best case scenario, we win out until a swap, and I finally get to hightail it away from seeing a green buff ever again. Worst case scenario: Miguel actually doesn't trust me anymore and Nifty uses that Azer bond with Hunter to fuck me over. Probable reality: somewhere in the middle.

"bizet"

- The swap happened, just as I planned, one tribe was added, which I saw coming from a mile; and for that reason, I tried to further myself by trying to network around people. For that very reason I used my scapegoat, Julia. She fucked up so badly in Old Couvreux that I'm just eager to get back at her, she's a good girl but her strategy really stinks. One by one I went to Cali, Nathan, Aren, George and Josephine and warned them of Julia's overplaying and devious ways. I chose those 5 because I can see myself create bonds with them or I simply just like them and got a good hunch from them. The idea is that if I end up in a tribe with Julia, regardless on what position I am, I can ensure myself one extra set of days by pointing fingers at her and pointing out all her bullshit. However, thankfully, I didn't end up in a tribe with her, and her position was in a tragically good one. She was with only one of the people I warned: Aren, and also with Zak, whom is one of the people she didn't see all that value on Old Couvreux (together with me). To make it even better, she is with Felix, who is a beast at challenges and will probably keep them away from tribal. So that blows.

Yet all is not bad, I am in a pretty great tribe: I have Charlie whom I considered together with Zak my closest ally, I also have George whom I respect and then there are Jenna and Adrian, whom I cannot be upset of being in a tribe with, they are fine people. I immediately tried to secure me and Charlie some sort of deal with George, and George replied he'd be open to work with us, which is good. Furthermore, I did some digging on Jenna since I remembered that her and Charlie are friends, and they are indeed, so I probably managed to position myself in between two circles where me and Charlie are always included. I am not worried of going to tribal, I feel that Adrian is too shy and doesn't talk too much to me or anybody, I'd say. And if all goes rotten, I am sure I could try targeting Jenna, she just hasn't been the strongest competitor up to date.

Day 11
"azorella"

- ive been a bad confessionalist lately

so we swapped! yay!!

idk if i talked about nifty yet but he made a very good play by idoling out nick. but that means he's also panderingn heavily to miguel, which takes miguel away from me. i don't like that.

now we're on our new tribes, and someones about to be voted out from two of the other tribes but im safe woo. it looks like julia and felix are on the bottom of this tribe with me and aren and zak ib the majority. felix tried to communicate w/ me and outed an alliance on old gallieni, but conveniently mentioned that the alliance that targeted miguel also happened to include miguel. now im not a rocket scientist but that math seems a little off to me. so i dont really trust felix at all. but i think he thinks i do so hopefully thatll be good for me. as for julia, girl..... she's cracked as hell.

also im very close to beating my placement which is always a treat! i just gotta survive this next round and everything will be good! i think im doing fairly well this game too, so who knows maybe i can pull a win out of my ass for once

"azorella"

- I'm trying so, so, soooo hard not to freak out.

Thing is, it's so, so easy for Felix or Trent to go to Zakriah & Julia and just say, 'hey why dont we unanimously take Aren out because he's the only Azorella here' and that's what scares me.

I honestly feel really bad for myself right now because I've been swapped into such an awful position, and I'm the ONLY Azorella member in that position. Like, seriously, fate? Do you really hate me that much??

I'm trying not to overplay, but... I just feel like I should do something. If I can't find the idol, then I need to make sure that I have the votes to keep me. I need to prove to Zakriah & Julia that I'm trustworthy; that's the most important thing. However, I also want Trent & Felix to trust me too. I'm hoping that I won't have to risk seeing my name come up on any parchments at any tribal-council.

The best thing I can do is make sure both sides think I'm 100% with them and that they can utilize me going forward. I need to sweet talk Felix, and I need to sweet talk Roxy, and I need to sweet talk Trent, and I need to sweet talk Zakriah. It's the fact of the matter.

It just really sucks because I'm at my worst when I'm swapped into the minority. Like, in all of Survivor, that's the area that I'm the worst at. That's why I'm scared. I'm just not ready to leave yet. I'm really not...

"azorella"

- The number six can eat it's own fucking asshole

"couvreux"

- Im honestly really worried about this swap, Im the only one from Couvereux so I cant really throw anyone under the bus, the only thing I can hope for is my relationship with Cali and Ryan. I need them to know Im with them 100% so we can vote off Josephine. I need a miracle also, we need to win this challenge lol

"couvreux"

- For some reason, I thought the deadline for scores was 11:35 PM and not 11:35 AM and submitted way too early. Grap.

"couvreux"

- This next challenge is critical to the future of my game. If we lose, then more than likely, the player to be voted out will be Ali, which is going to generate the appearance that the original Azorella tribe members are planning to stick together, which is pretty dangerous considering that Aren, one of my closest allies, is all on a tribe by his lonesome. He has a human shield right now in the form of Aviv, that could change if people see him being a threat for the sake of being a former member of Azorella. We need to win this challenge to protect our image as a whole, and keep our cards as close to our chests as possible.

"azorella"

- So, surprisingly enough, I think I have actually managed to find a solid foothold within this tribe...

Roxy, Zakriah & I are planning to vote Felix off. Simply because Trent said he was shady. I think it's a lil early to be planning a boot, but eh, they seem to really want to do it and I'm honestly gonna take anything I can at this point. We're thinking perhaps we could even get Trent in for a unanimous vote... It'd be really nice if I didn't have to betray anybody except for the boot here; because that leaves more doors open for me going forward in this game.

"gallieni"

- So, I'm pretty sure I'm set up in a way with this tribe that, if we lose twice, I'll still be safe. Miguel feels obligated to work with me cuz he thinks he owes me for saving him with the idol, and Andy is still with me 100% as the only one he can truly trust (if I can trust what he's saying there, which at the moment I do.)

So it's just between Nathan and Hunter then, as to who will be the first one booted from this newly swapped tribe. Nathan has his hands in everyone's business and is just trying to be he on good terms with everyone and have everyone think he's working for them (when he really isn't at all) and Hunter was targeted on Couvreux before but isn't really telling any details of what happened, so he's staying closed off and kind of distant. Nathan is definitely the bigger threat, but I don't know if we wanna let Hunter slip by, either.

"bizet"

- Catch up time! Nifty just saved Miguel with his idol but negated his own damn vote LMFAO WYD MAN?! Mess. As anticipated, tribe swap. It's me and Joan from Blue and Jenna, George and Adrian from Yellow. The gag is? Jenna is my bff which means I don't think lines are drawn in the sand. We're on a brand new tribe (purple, also sorry idk the names ok) which means a new idol! The only issue is that it's a needle in a haystack and I'm hella lazy. I wanna be more organised but good god it's hard enough having a damn social game. Why can't we just have a gmail thing to open for the idol so we can browse "forced gay porn" instead like they did last returnee season? :/

"bizet"

- Things are looking bad. I might be one of the top scorers for this tribe and there's a double tribal at stake. I came into this saying I'll vote anyone out to win (and I really wanna win) but I value my friendship with Jenna more than a game (I hope she doesn't backstab me lmao), so even if she loses us the challenge I can't turn on her. Nope. Lesbines 'R' Us.

"gallieni"

- The pressure is so high right now. No one on our tribe is exactly dominant at challenges. All of the beasts got put on the other three tribes, and of top if that it's going to be a double tribal tonight. I feel like I'm being a Negative Nancy or a Debbie Downer right now but I'm really not feeling too confident about a possible win today. I just REALLY don't want to go right back into that high-stress environment of strategising. But who knows? Crazier miracles have happened.

"azorella"

- Just my damn luck, on a tribe with Zakriah and Trent, 2 of the 3 I didn't wanna be on a tribe with :( I'm happy as fuck that Aren is here though, we're definitely gonna be working together. I can't see myself pulling Julia over to my side because she's likely with Zakriah, so I'm gonna have to go for Trent. I felt like something was up between us, so I told him about the alliance Nifty and Nick made like Day 3 and I think it actually did make him trust me more. I told him that Nick originally wanted Trent out and that I talked him into going for Miguel instead, which got the ball on his vote rolling (which is true). I have a good feeling that Trent would want to work with me now, which is amazing, cause I really think Zakriah has it out for me for some reason.

"couvreux"

- We swapped, and I got really lucky since there's 4 Azorellas on this new tribe, including my allies Cali and Josephine, and there's Ali who is easy to pick off, so it's a perfect swap for me. The only dowside is that I'm not with my closest ally Aren, but I'm sure he'll find a way to survive.

"couvreux"

- I really did not want to go to Tribal Council tonight. On one side, Ali is the only person who I'm not allied with, so more likely than not, he's going to be the person going home. That being said, Marie is also someone who I'm looking towards as a target. Marie is pitiful and challenges, and my tribe getting ulonged is what killed me in Sumbawa; I don't want to repeat that mistake if I can avoid it. Marie is also playing a pretty good UTR game, she hasn't offended anyone, and I'm worried that she could slide into the late-game and potentially win. It may be too early for a blindside, but I'm just weighing my options right now.

"couvreux"

- My mind is going a million miles a minute right now. On one side, I'm just telling myself not to rock the boat, we have a good thing going on our tribe, and we should just vote out Ali. On the other side, I'm thinking that maybe it might be good to try my luck and push the vote towards Marie, because I feel that she would be extremely dangerous to let make it into the late-game. Back to the first side, I don't want to overplay and screw myself out of the game at my first tribe of the season, that would be utterly humiliating.

"couvreux"

- My fate may be in the hands of someone who doesn't know who our hosts are. Oh, fuck, fuck, fuck, fuck, fuck.

"azorella"

- Enter Felix, stage left: OMG Zakriah! I'm starstruck! Sorry I haven't talked to you yet!

Felix, simultaneously: *Makes an alliance with Trent and Aren against Julia and me without realizing that both of them want to work with me over him and he lost any chance of me saving him over Julia should we ever lose*

"couvreux"

- Thankfully, Cali and Ry have the same idea that I do that we can't win any challenges with Marie on our team, and that Ali is more valuable to keep around. Unless someone does something stupid between now and the vote, Marie is going to be the sixth player eliminated from the game.

"bizet"

- That challenge, I'd say it was glorious. It was my redemption, the reason why I was in this season to begin with. In Japan I failed to submit for it, or even play, and I was benched out of tribal as a punishment. It degraded me as a competitor and people did not take me seriously despite me having won my way back into the game through Redemption Island (partly due to luck, I'll admit myself). Having scored second highest in that challenge, and partly bringing the win to my tribe after pushing myself to beat the point I was stuck in (I checked and had I submitted the score I had when I was stagnated, we'd have narrowly lost) just brings me joy. I feel that I transcended from this detrimental factor to others to a genuinely helpful one. Yet having proven myself on the challenge won't stop me from proving myself to other players on a one on one basis: after all, I don't want to end up like Kevin. I feel that my safest bet is to stick to Charlie in order to have Jenna cooped in, but I also want to talk to George, if Adrian doesn't start speaking up to me, I don't know what I'm gonna do, I feel that I'm holding all the cards, I just gotta play them right.

Day 12
"bizet"

- Ayy we won immunity!! Fucking Jenna almost cost us it with her low ass score (I'm sorry ily but omg girl if we lost..) but myself and Joan stepped up our puthis to help us win! I feel such a weight off my shoulders. I've been really trying to work Adrian, George and Joan socially. Is it working? Quite possibly! It feels like they all liked it [me] and put a ring on it so yeah I think I'm aligned with everyone on my tribe rn. Hopefully we can avoid tribal so I don't have to make a tough call. Part of me is actually thinking I should cut Jenna before someone finds out we're close at a merge and comes after ME. Homegirl is good at being an utr non-target nsbgkjsg. Idk. Only time will tell. I'm all over the place but only in my mind. My external self is keeping calm, friendly, flirty, open, all that good shit.

"azorella"

- Wheeewwww, am I relieved that we won immunity or what?!

That was great.. We were FIRST PLACE, all thanks to mah boi Felix!!

Also, I feel a lot more confident now. Everyone seems to want to work with me, which is honestly going to be either a blessing or a curse here.

Trent wants to make an alliance with Zakriah & I, because we're all from different tribes. NOBODY WILL SEE IT COMING, MWAHHAHAHAH!!!!

"couvreux"

- So.. we're going to tribal. Most of us for the first time.

I'm on a small tribe... so I could do the easy things. I could vote Ali out and got strong Azorella.

I could vote out Marie who's the weakest in challenges.

Or I could try to make a big move and get out Josephine.

I like Josephine now... but I'm just turned off by her. She was close to Aren and Cali. She hosts with Hunter and was in that friend with him and George and Julia. She's played with Zakriah and I know they're friends via facebook. She has too many connections.

The only way I could get her out is go 2-2-1, Cali/Josephine vote Marie, Ali/me vote for Josephine and Marie votes for Ali. And Ali and I send her home in the revote.

Or go 3-2 and tattle everything to Marie like I did to Ali. However, Marie is not fucking here. She won't fucking reply to me. Even now I'm telling her B.S that Ali is the vote and she won't even open the fucking message. And if she self-votes we're so fucking fucked and I'm so annoyed.

Honestly everyone could be lying to me, the conversations died down. I could go home 4-1 tomorrow. In that cast there'd be nothing I could do anyway so I'll do my best to make a big move or go down swinging.

"bizet"

- I have been bonding with Charlie a lot, we can really talk about anything at this point. I really like the bud and I feel that him and I are for sure going to make it to the next swap. Due to being aware that Grande Terre is laying around the corner, I think that we might be swapped into tribes of 3 at Final 15, before having a merge at Final 13. I think the double tribal fuels this, since it is used to lower us to Final 18 whilst also allowing for a tribe to lose all the way until Final 15 without running out of people to vote for. I doubt that my tribe will lose any challenges, having New Couvreux already weakened by Marie (if they keep her over Ali, they are goddamn idiots) and New Gallieni supposedly being ready to self-implode due to the Old Gallieni detractors (Nifty and Miguel) being placed together with two of the Felix and Nick loyalists. My only wish is that we could figure out a way to send New Azorella to tribal council: In that tribe there are two people I wouldn't mind seeing go home, Felix and Julia. Furthermore, I'd consider Trent and Aren expendable at this point, the only person I'd be bothered if they went home, would be Zakriah (Ed. note (Zakriah): D'awww thanks Joan ;) )

"gallieni"

- So right now, the obvious vote seems to be for hunter. Everyone wants to keep old Gallieni together and not shake up the tribe too much. It almost seems too easy, you know? Like, if he does go home, I'll feel bad that we voted out a dude on his birthday, but at least I'd still be here. I don't know though. Maybe it's just me being a natural paranoid freak, but I just don't have this good gut feeling at the moment. Probably it's because it's just all TOO easy and TOO cut and dry, and nothing involving a Gallieni tribal council thus far has been easy nor has it been cut and dry. I'm just hoping I can rely on these guys to not fuck me up today, cause I really do not want to go home so early, not when I have so much game left in me.

"couvreux"

- We're going to Tribal Council, and the plan is to vote Ali off since he's the only Couvreux left. He might have an idol though, so I'm gonna throw a vote at Ry in case he uses it. Now, we just need to figure out how we're gonna explain that vote to Ry after TC.

"couvreux"

- THE FACT THAT RYAN AND ALI ARE RUINING MY PLAN IS PISSING ME OFF.

RY JUST SHOWED ME THAT HE CANNOT BE TRUSTED, AND I WILL GLADLY SIDE WITH MARIE NEXT TRIBAL TO GET HIM TF OUT

"couvreux"

- So, apparently Ali ain't going home, it's gonna be a tie between Josephine and I, because Josephine and Cali were stupid enough to follow Ry and they voted against me! Ry and Ali are probably gonna vote Josephine, and I'm here voting Ry. It's just, ugh. Cali told me that but if I stay and Josephine goes, I won't trust her at all. I genuinely trusted her and Josephine sooo much and they flipped on me just because they were scared of Ry and had an alliance with him on Azorella??? That's bullshit. Cali is telling me she'll vote Josephine out at the revote but I can't believe her at this point. If I stay, all hell breaks loose.

"couvreux"

- Less than half an hour before the voting deadline, Marie comes up to me and says that she's voting for Ry in case Ali has an idol, and that she's going to justify it by saying that she forgot to vote so her vote was randomised. Pure genius.

"couvreux"

- Marie needs to get over the fact I voted for her. I literally exposed MY WHOLE GAME TO YOU just to regain your trust, and you stay giving me shady ass responses? When we are off of this tribe I cannot WAIT to vote you out

"azorella"

- Well here I am again, in another great position on my tribe (as far as I know) with everyone except for one person including me in some kind of alliance. Now I just know when I go back and read these confessionals I'm gonna wish I never said any of this because it was all a lie and everyone's lying to me as always and if we go to tribal council as these tribes I'm getting voted out unanimously because this simply is just way too good to be true. One thing I'm nervous about is me and Posie, three games later, have still never once been on a tribe or gone to tribal council together, so how do I know she has any reason to align with me if we do end up on the same tribe? What if we're on opposing sides? I remember in Sumbawa, she and Jordan never went to tribal council together, and she was still fiercely loyal to him, but I just don't know if the same thing holds true for me because she has been on two tribes and has been able to form actual solid relationships that won't be affected by the anarchy twist from Sumbawa. And I know she won't be playing the same game she did then because everyone knows her game from then; she was absolutely blinded by loyalty, honesty, and snakery - this time I just know she'd be more than willing to stab me in the back on a whim. But everyone is going to assume we're gonna be working together anyways, so I'm hoping she sees that as a reason to work with me if we end up on a tribe together and not against me like it would make sense for her to. I'm also hella worried about idols. I've played how many games now? Like 15? idek but I have never ever had an idol before and things aren't looking up for me this time either. We're six rounds in and we've already seen a successful idol play. Who's to say the other idols haven't been found already and someone's just waiting around the corner to blindside me with it? I'm a fairly easy and visible target at this point, everyone knows I have a lot of bonds with these people, it always happens to me in games, who's to say it won't happen again this time?

"azorella"

- Also I love Charlie more than anyone here and I really hope he doesn't turn into another Brian because that shit got me really sad :'(

"azorella"

- So, Trent, Zak & I now have an alliance. The backstory to said alliance is simply the fact that Trent desired an alliance with one member of each tribe - so, him, Zak & I. He thinks it'll be good for trading info and all that business. I'm honestly really down. It seems that Trent, Zak & I are in the best positions right now in the entire tribe - as far as I know we're liked, we're relatively strong at challenges, and all have a niiiice alliance! Although, how loyal Trent is to this alliance is questionable...

"gallieni"

- So, I hadn't been the most active this round. These past two days have been packed in real life so I'm not surprised w/ Hunter calling my social game bad cuz I didn't talk to him cuz I wasn't able to be on as much as usual! Anyways, I'm honestly surprised there wasn't an idol play.

Anyways I voted Miguel lol. Andy and I wanted to make sure that neither of us got screwed by an idol play so I volunteered to vote Miguel and try to frame it on Nathan. Hopefully we manage to convince Miguel about our lie

"couvreux"

- Well, shit.

"azorella"

- Oh man... Oh man I never thought they'd pull a fast one on Posie like that. I'm feeling personally attacked to my core, and Ry and Marie are fucking DEADTOME in this game. And if Ali or Cali vote Posie in the revote (haha #voteposie) THEY'RE DEADTOME TOO! I will be COMING FOR BITCHES come next swap and I WILL NOT BE TAKING PRISONERS! Whew I'm fucking heated, I'm gonna start rallying troops for a Posie's Avengers. What's a synonym for Avengers that starts with P? Time to find one. I'm beyond words at this point, and I can't help but feel like somehow her getting voted out is my fault because I don't think Ry was gonna wanna work with me and everyone and their mother knows me and Posie are really good friends and I don't know. Stuff like this has happened before in games and it probably doesn't have anything to do with me but I still feel guilty and upset that she's being done dirty like this. Ali and Cali better not fuck this up on a revote or else I'm denouncing my Pakistani heritage and I'm never going to Canobie Lake Park ever again!

"couvreux"

- Props to Ali from going from a likely boot to the swing vote.

"couvreux"

- Right now, I'm just fighting with Ry and telling him that I want nothing to do with Zakriah, which is of course complete bullshit because Zak is a very good friend to me. I'm just playing up some extremely minor conflict as if it was the main fight of the season.

"couvreux"

- Josephine confirmed basically that she was close with George, Cali, Jenna, Aren, and that she was close enough with Marie to vote for me instead of someone else like herself. She denied being close with Zak and Hunter which I do not buy.

Regardless.... she confirmed she was basically gonna target Adrian.

https://youtu.be/IuGhiBdmDEk

"couvreux"

- This tribal has made me think of things. I have been gunning for Josephine for NO LEGITIMATE REASON. She has shown that she is someone who is loyal and genuine.

I feel like its too late to save her and I hate myself for how I let this turn out. I was nothing but FAKE to her this entire game because I thought she had something against me. I let my real life paranoia affect an online game, and now that I've reached this resolution I feel more unstable than I did before.

Josephine I'm sorry about this. About all of this. I am a wishy wash person and I wish I was atleast HALF the well put-together 21 year old that you are.

"couvreux"

- I did not come out of retirement just to be voted out because of some petty, vindictive rat bastard. If I somehow make it through this tribal alive, I am going to collect Ry's fucking head.

"couvreux"

- So let me tell you the tea on the vote: so basically everyone thinks that Marie is the vote and Marie thinks I'm the one being voted out... however ry told me he wanted SSISJSJWUWB JOSEPHINE and he told me that the vote would be 2-2-1 2 for Marie 2 for Josephine and 1 for me, it's an amazing plan but I don't trust Ry's ass at all he's a smart and good player and I know this bitch wants to use to me for the vote okay! So now I'm really really confused, I'm very happy that people wanna work with me this vote and stuff but idk what to do lol, voting Marie would Be the safe vote but this is resurrection I wanna make a big move... I'm just really confused