Board Thread:Survivor 41: Phi Pan Nam/@comment-43593892-20191012073852/@comment-38878628-20191012151629

Hi bby <3

Thank you! It wasn't an easy task, but Kyle and I worked our asses off to ensure we'd make it another 3 days in the game. I tried to work with Fathan, since he was originally open to the idea of flipping on his OG tribe. So I took this as an opportunity to form a new connection and potentially Kyle and myself. However, that didn't work out when I had Fathan come up to me and tell me he's voting me out and that I'd be the one going home. So I knew I wasn't going to lay down and die! I went and formed new connections with Tyler and Jason, pushed the fact that Fathan was confident I was going home and that he felt as though he was leading the tribe. This worried Tyler and Jason, who then got Chris to flip on Fathan too. I had managed to get the vote from being a 5-1 or 4-2 against me to being a 5-1 against Fathan. Then following that, I was able to influence Tyler and Jason again, getting them to take out their ally Chris, right before the merge. We had all bonded throughout this swap, so it was a difficult vote for them, but I got it to work and I knew Kyle and myself were setting ourselves up for a solid merge alliance with good numbers.

Now to your questions!

Between the two of them, I'd say my game really began to grow more and became stronger during the post-merge gameplay. I had gone into the merge with numbers. I had Kyle, Tyler, Jason, Anthony, and you! That was 6. Majority to run the vote, which we still did that vote. Then shit went downhill for me when you were blindsided. I honestly thought it'd be a 5-4 vote in your favor, but people had different agendas. I knew this was a crucial moment in my game since people were flipping back & forth and playing both sides, so I had to secure myself moving forward. When Evan told me he was voting Alex, I was genuinely shocked with this information, even if it was a lie. I used that lie to my advantage, took information I was given, and flipped Alex on his own alliance. Even managed to have Anthony jump back on our side for the Evan vote too. From here, it was only Chloe I was worried about that would potentially target me at this stage in the game, so I kept Alex in the loop about going after Chloe. This is when Anthony flipped back to the other side, making it a 4-3 vote. The rest of the merge I fought hard socially between everyone and managed to get myself here in the end. My pre-merge game wasn't bad, it's just the merge allowed for much more gameplay to be done and so much more strategizing along the way.

My weakness in the pre-merge was my lack of connecting with everyone. The game started when I was working 60 hours a week at Big Brother, so I knew it'd be hard to invest so much time into the game. I tried my best, but I failed to connect with both Dylan and Maynor at the beginning of the game. As well, I didn't get the opportunity to learn more about everyone else more personally. I usually reach out to every single player and build my connections, but my personal life, work schedule, and relationship was were my focus was at a mjority of the time. People from my past seasons know I'm usually the bubbly, social guy who talked to anyone about anything. I just had a lot going on with my grandfather being hospitalized, working 60 hours a week and being physically exhausted every day I came home, and my relationship with my boyfriend, who I've been dating for 4 1/2 years, was important to spend quailty time with him too. So when I say I didn't have time to build the relationships with everyone in the beginning of the game, it's true. I wanted to, but life happens and I played the game with the cards I was dealt.

My weakness in the merge was, yet again, a lack of connecting with players. I attempted to chat with Chloe, Evan, and Alex a bit more. Chloe and I got to know one another a little bit early merge, but we never talked any game until it was Evan's vote off. That's just how we were with one another and I enjoyed it being more personal than game related. Evan and I, I guess, never clicked? I tried, but it was too little too late when it was his name on the chopping block. That's the only time he messaged me back, but I seriosuly tried. And Alex and I grew closer throughout the merge, but yet again, my personal schedule was conflicting with the game and I didn't have the time to build the personal relationships I wanted with everyone. I still talked to anyone and everyone about whatever they wanted, just had so much going on that I know that's where my weakness was in both pre-merge and post-merge.

I seriously hope this helps you out and better understand my gameplay and weaknesses.

As for you Derek, I seriously missed you so much up until the merge and was beyond excited to play with you again! In the game, I wanted to work with you long-term, but that got cut short. I trusted you and believe we could have made it far together too! I felt like we could talk about anything and that information would stay between us, which is hard to find in this game, but you were a loyal player to me and I respected thatso much in you. The merge was harded without you, but I'm so incredibly happy that we got to know one another early in the game! I love you so much and hope you've been doing well! I still haven't watched The Avatar yet and I've been meaning to, but now that Big Brother is wrapped up, I'm going to start watching it! And how's everything going with becoming an actuary? Are you feeling more excited and pumped about this career?