Board Thread:Survivor 24: Caracol/@comment-7317707-20170607002011/@comment-30582641-20170607170502

'''"P.S. You said in your speech you were the only one who wanted Dwayne gone ("but only I wanted Dwayne gone most at his boot."), that's a lie, me and Christine were ready to vote either Luis or Dwayne out in a heartbeat." '''

 

'''Sure. I should have been more clear and said 'the former Maya majority' because I had no real insight into what you and Christine wanted at all and figured you’d both vote for anyone if there was a way to put a target on anyone but the two of you. '''

 

 

1.) Why would you tell Hunter that I thought he had an idol when we were in an alliance and I was 100% loyal to you at the time? Why would you want me gone at the second swap before the idol mishap when I was 100% loyal to you at the time? 

 

'''Because Hunter was also 100% loyal to me, and he did it first, and he had an idol. And if you were 100% loyal to me, then I didn’t think so. I dug this out of my confessionals to give you a glimpse into my mind: '''

 

'''“-In other news, Forrest messaged me this morning to let me know that he and Hunter had a spat. To hear him tell it, Forrest messaged Hunter in the middle of the night, and Hunter flipped out on him for waking him up. Then Hunter apologized and told Forrest he’d talk to him tomorrow (today). '''

'''<span style="font-size:11pt;font-family:Arial;color:#000000;font-weight:400;font-variant:normal;text-decoration:none;vertical-align:baseline;">-It seems open and shut to me. Some people get grumpy when they’re shaken from sleep suddenly. Hunter apologized. I don’t think it’s any cause to worry he might flip on us or have a mental breakdown or something nutty. '''

<p dir="ltr" style="line-height:1.38;margin-top:0pt;margin-bottom:0pt;">'''<span style="font-size:11pt;font-family:Arial;color:#000000;font-weight:400;font-variant:normal;text-decoration:none;vertical-align:baseline;">-Then Forrest brought up Marie from Maya. He says she’s super into ‘girl power’ and whatnot and implied she’d probably never work with a dude. Again, he’s blowing shit out of proportion. His only experience with Marie is from some viewers’ lounge where everyone gets all memey and idolizes the queens. There’s no reason to believe she’s a got a chip on her shoulder within the game. I’m sure she’ll make whatever moves she thinks will get her to Day 39 like the rest of us. '''

<p dir="ltr" style="line-height:1.38;margin-top:0pt;margin-bottom:0pt;">'''<span style="font-size:11pt;font-family:Arial;color:#000000;font-weight:400;font-variant:normal;text-decoration:none;vertical-align:baseline;">-He prefaced these tip-offs with, “I’m probably overreacting but…”, and ended them with, “...I’m kinda worried tho.” Like why does Hunter worry you? What about being snappy in the middle night means that he’s going to flip on us at the swap? Dude definitely wants to plant seeds of doubt in my mind. But fuck that; Hunter and I are one hunny and we have a bond and an idol between us. All Forrest has is a glint in his eye. I’ll grant him that he’s a smooth talker, but I’m too much of a cynic, for better or worse.” '''

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<p dir="ltr" style="line-height:1.38;margin-top:0pt;margin-bottom:0pt;">'''<span style="font-size:11pt;font-family:Arial;color:#000000;font-weight:400;font-variant:normal;text-decoration:none;vertical-align:baseline;">Right or wrong, that was my thought process, and it’s why I chose the other two. When you explained to me at the swap that they had confronted you (Never got the full story, won’t pass judgement) and you were comfortable flipping on them, I knew I’d have to pick a side and sorry, but the choice seemed easy to me. Hunter had shown me his idol (Which is why the fake was important to me- I compared you to Hunter as an ally in my mind), Hunter was protecting Anna on Maya, and I never could convince myself you actually were 100% loyal to me. If I knew you were as loyal as you’re telling me now, I’d have handled our relationship differently for sure. '''

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<p dir="ltr" style="line-height:1.38;margin-top:0pt;margin-bottom:0pt;"><span style="font-size:11pt;font-family:Arial;color:#000000;font-weight:400;font-variant:normal;text-decoration:none;vertical-align:baseline;">2.) Anything you've said or done to ANYONE on the jury you'd like to apologize for? 

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<p dir="ltr" style="line-height:1.38;margin-top:0pt;margin-bottom:0pt;text-indent:36pt;">'''<span style="font-size:11pt;font-family:Arial;color:#000000;font-weight:400;font-variant:normal;text-decoration:none;vertical-align:baseline;">Yep. Apparently I was abrasive, arrogant, and condescending. Never knew, especially that last one. I want to make it clear it’s not the person I would like to be at all and it hurts to know I could not just led people to see me that way, but also to really just stir up so much vitriol that’s coming out tonight. If I have a self-pride, it’s not something I try to project, and maybe I failed to show enough humility (I’m sure this is why you’re warning me against getting defensive, because I guess that’s how my ego manifests itself), but I never understood I, like, actively peddled my ego either, which is why the word ‘condescending’ surprises me especially. I don’t think I’m better or more deserving to exist than any of you, I have plenty of character flaws, and my biggest weakness in this game was a lack of emotional intelligence. '''

<p dir="ltr" style="line-height:1.38;margin-top:0pt;margin-bottom:0pt;">'''<span style="font-size:11pt;font-family:Arial;color:#000000;font-weight:400;font-variant:normal;text-decoration:none;vertical-align:baseline;">Now, the idea that I thought everything revolved around me is something that is more perception than reality. I’m not going to pretend to completely understand where it came from but since it’s there, it’s still probably a product of my behavior and something to address. I’ll return to that when I respond to Christine. '''

<p dir="ltr" style="line-height:1.38;margin-top:0pt;margin-bottom:0pt;text-indent:36pt;">'''<span style="font-size:11pt;font-family:Arial;color:#000000;font-weight:400;font-variant:normal;text-decoration:none;vertical-align:baseline;">If Christine is talking about the same fight you are, then I’ll start by addressing that: I was a total hypocrite in that fight, and knew it the whole time. Here’s how I justified it to myself: I couldn’t trust you, and I could never trust you. Right now, it seems like all your anger towards me was completely reactionary, but I had no idea at the time.I was thinking, “Well, if he’s going to play that way then I can too,” but maybe it was only me. In addition, I thought that if I kept playing the victim, I could convince you that I in fact had done nothing, so there was a strategic element to it too. '''

<p dir="ltr" style="line-height:1.38;margin-top:0pt;margin-bottom:0pt;">'''<span style="font-size:11pt;font-family:Arial;color:#000000;font-weight:400;font-variant:normal;text-decoration:none;vertical-align:baseline;">    <span style="font-size:11pt;font-family:Arial;color:#000000;font-weight:400;font-variant:normal;text-decoration:none;vertical-align:baseline;">I’d also like to apologize for that soundbite that Hunter keeps trotting out that I said any of the final 3 would beat any of you, Luis, and Lori easily, because I don’t actually think it’s true and it’s something I said in a moment of excitement after regaining majority, to Hunter in confidence. '''

<p dir="ltr" style="line-height:1.38;margin-top:0pt;margin-bottom:0pt;">'''<span style="font-size:11pt;font-family:Arial;color:#000000;font-weight:400;font-variant:normal;text-decoration:none;vertical-align:baseline;">    <span style="font-size:11pt;font-family:Arial;color:#000000;font-weight:400;font-variant:normal;text-decoration:none;vertical-align:baseline;">I’d like to apologize to Anna for not telling her I was sending her to the jury once I won. I could have taken the time between I made up my mind and the results were posted to talk to her, and explain my reasoning, and let her vent if she needed to, but I didn’t, and it’s because I wanted to spare myself the trouble of metaphorically looking her in the eye, because I know she was expecting me to take her. It was the least I could have done, but I selfishly protected myself from her when she had every reason to be more emotional. It was something I regretted immediately. '''

<p dir="ltr" style="line-height:1.38;margin-top:0pt;margin-bottom:0pt;">'''<span style="font-size:11pt;font-family:Arial;color:#000000;font-weight:400;font-variant:normal;text-decoration:none;vertical-align:baseline;">    <span style="font-size:11pt;font-family:Arial;color:#000000;font-weight:400;font-variant:normal;text-decoration:none;vertical-align:baseline;">Finally, I’d like to apologize to Christine for her ROP but I’ll save it for her response. '''

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<p dir="ltr" style="line-height:1.38;margin-top:0pt;margin-bottom:0pt;">'''<span style="font-size:11pt;font-family:Arial;color:#000000;font-weight:400;font-variant:normal;text-decoration:none;vertical-align:baseline;">I have more questions to answer obviously but the hosts are egging me on to get my replies out there, so here’s your first two answers. '''