There's a Lot Going Through My Head Right Now/Confessionals

Day 34
"dholavira"

- Ugh. This comp was really hard. Antoine is probably gonna win it with like 2 minutes or something and I spent 20+ before I gave up on it. I just want one individual immunity to my name ;w; Just one!!! I suck!

Day 35
"dholavira"

- There's a lot going through my head right now for a final 6. We are so close to the end, and I am a lot more terrified than I have been. Im leaning way too much trust on Lex and it scares me. I have worked so hard to get us here without even winning a single comp... idk what the jury has been talking about but Nick is giving Lex so much credit. I'm the one who's been saving Lex for weeks now, I have gotten my final 3 to an outstanding point in the game. The only thing that could stop us is an idol not in our hands. Im hoping for a juror having it.

Courtney asking me about eliminating Lex at final 5 is scary. I have feels that it is a trust test that Lex is trying to get Courtney to do to me... I've been played like that before and I fell for it, I refuse to let it get to me again, my paranoia and past experience is just not helping me right now. As much as I would not like Courtney in final 4 with Lex and Ant, that is such a scary concept considering what they have been through on Lothal 3.0. What would I appear as in a f4 against them? Would my case be helped if I manage to make f3 even without winning immunity? Sheesh