Gavin Eats Phone Camera Incident/Confessionals

Day 24
"zaghagmaloo"

- Gosh I hate Touchy Subjects [I would absolutely put it as a host for the very same reason, people need some popcorn material, okay?]. Like, so paranoid about those public answers... I put Kamen for a lot of winning/good ones in my private ones, but I think he‘s not gonna be that popular in majority ones? Like, Andrew sort of hated him, so probably that whole alliance does, right? Definitely the villain and all that. Plus, I need to exclude couple more so that people don‘t understand how close we actually are.

[cue the challenge results] Bloody hell. Feels like I know shit about this game and about true feelings. Kamen was... everyone‘s top pic, it seems. And I thought I was biased to see him as a social butterfly. I mean, him being such a goodie and hero and lovely is superb, but not for my game. I did not realise I wasn‘t the only one to think of him so highly. That‘s concerning.

Day 25
"zaghagmaloo"

- I was just short of winning the immunity challenge, and I really needed it. It's probably going to be me going tonight, but it also might be Nick if the Touchy Subjects question holds true. I've asked Cole and Kamen to tell me if they are voting for me, and we'll see if they do. If they don't and I'm voted out, it'll get a lot harder for them to earn my jury vote.

I think I've made it pretty clear that you don't need to lie a bunch in this game. Being honest will in the end spare friendships and feelings (damn you guys should cast me as a Hero or something in a HvV season cause this is peak hero shit). From all these lies though, it's so hilarious to see the contrast between the people in power. Jason was being stupid at tribal council and was saying they didn't believe something in my answer to my question. I asked them what they were referring to, and then Jason gets all sassy about it saying that "my side" lied about voting for Jason (which isn't true, at least in my case. I can't speak for Andrew's deviousness). Essentially, Jason was making it clear that they're on one side, the side in power, and I'm on the other side. Also, Jason did the extremely lame strategy of putting themself for every question in the challenge. I attempted to talk strategy with Catnip for the first time, and she was awful. I asked her very clearly who else voted for Andrew (because STILL nobody will admit for whatever reason). She tells me that she knows who voted for Andrew, but she won't tell me because I voted for Jason and I'm on "the other side." Damn, I'd think the oldest member of the cast would understand that by giving me this information, my trust in her would skyrocket. However, I don't think I'll vote for her to win no matter what LMAO. The hilarious thing about these two is that when I talk to Kamen, he goes WAY out of his way to make me feel like it isn't Dumbripi + 2 against Kappolla and (maybe) Ngau'u. Kamen is clearly overcompensating, but at least he has the social skills to make it feel real. As dry as Cole can be, he wasn't just denying to say anything to me because I voted for Jason. I went on the voice chat that was created last night and talked to Gavin, Kamen, and Magnus for a couple hours. It was really nice to be able to talk to each of them for real, but I doubt it's gonna change anything. It grounded me a little bit though; I can separate the game from my friendships. I'm glad we got to create some memes for the season. I swear Gavin has the same sense of humor as me and I really hope we can keep in touch after the season's over. What was also good about the voice chat is that originally I was talking to Gavin only and I think I can now 100% believe that he was on my side the last vote. I'm probably stupid for still doubting that it wasn't Magnus and Tal, but you can never be sure. When Kamen and Magnus came on I jokingly begged for them not to vote me off and the awkward laughter that ensued was pretty funny. Basically, I'm not gonna be mad if I'm voted off because I'm expecting it. I just hope that people make the right decision and tell me beforehand. And also send the right people to the FTC. I don't want something like Catnip/Cole/Jason. I would literally let the Meanjin Lumber Services hack me to death with an axe.

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- 2nd merge's tribal day! Things are kinda scary, I know the Jason voters dont bye that I votes Jason as well, but I'm playing with it. I'm doing my best to make sure Nick and Mason know I want Gavin out, where Nick is the real target :)

I think my name might be shown in some parchments today, hope it won't. On the other case, where I am staying part of the game, I'm going to be such a big target next round, which is not grate, but like, nothing I can do about it right now, I will have to deal with it step by step.

"zaghagmaloo"

- Well, things did not go as expected. I thought that Gavin was going to be the one to go, but the votes were piled onto Nick. There’s an interesting contrast in information as to why we were convinced that the votes were going on Gavin. According to Kamen, he was my lord and savior and switched the vote at the last minute to Nick. I talked to Magnus after the vote, trying to establish a clean slate after they lied to me about voting Andrew. I was pretty surprised to learn that the votes were always going on Nick. Hmm, really? As much as I don’t trust Magnus, it’s so believable that Kamen would use this lie to his advantage.

It’s awful that Nick had to leave the way he did. I don’t know what conversations he was having, but these people are so insistent on their lies and I understand how it could really get to someone. I wish him the best. He told me he has a break from school now so I hope it’ll be good for him. The vindictive behavior of Dumbripi is only worsening as they get more and more confident. Jason is honestly just a troll under the bridge. I feel bad that they have to resort to kicking people while they’re down and making gross and creepy comments (won’t elaborate due to host response to a VL conf). I don’t know if Jason is trying to throw their own game, is a sock puppet, or is genuinely just that bad of a player. Any way, Jason will never win the game, and if they really behave this way in the real world, I genuinely pity that. I am usually a very kind and open person, but if I am disrespected for little to no reason, I can rip someone to their core. What is Jason always on about, by the way? Always giving random mysterious microaggressions about something I did the first merge vote. I never lied to Jason because we never even talked. Not sure why it’s being pushed against me. I don’t know if I already talked about Catnip refusing to talk strategy with me, but that happened. And then Cole just exists. Great social games these DUMBripi tribe members are playing. I’m the last real Kappolla member remaining, and Kamen says he wants to keep me. It’s so obvious he’s in total control but he’s totally denying it. If there’s a pecking order based on original tribe, I’ll be going next. I obviously can’t predict who will go or have any expectation because everybody else is just gonna lie about it. And then there’s Tal. He gives me this long-winded explanation, all angry about how we voted for him. Tal has done nothing but lie to all of us since he returned. Lied about voting for Andrew, lied about how the votes were on Gavin, lied about agreeing to vote for Kamen. Once again, great social game. Oh my lord, what bullshit I’ve dealt with since the merge began. I don’t deserve this lmao. I’m sure Conch is laughing about it, but would Magnus not have flipped if Conch were not voted out? I have no idea. I’m glad Gavin and Morgan are able to make humor of this situation with me. Clearly telling people that “you have to make a move at some point” doesn’t work, so I might just meme around and see what happens. I’ll just channel my inner Sandra and recite an iconic quote: “Lord help me through this shit.”

"zaghagmaloo"

- I've been slowly working on trying to get Catnip on my side. I told her how I know about the last picked advantage which essentially meant that I knew she have an idol, and I'm assuming she also knows I have an idol. I was hoping to use that opportunity to get in her good shoes. One of my biggest concerns is that whenever I get super into talking game, it may rub people off and I'm sorta doing that with Catnip :/ I only do this to people I want to work with and I understand not everyone like talking complex strategy and stuff and it might be too much for them. Catnip seems really cool to work with and I'm like 80% sure shes probably winning the season. Her only vulnerable moment I think will be at final 4, so if she can overcome final 4, she should probably win.

"zaghagmaloo"

- I'm kinda in a shitty sitatuation because some of the players are too salty and emotional that they refuse to work with people that went against them once. Like come on... This is Survivor... Looking at you Magnus and Tal >.> Unless you guys show me otherwise, I dont think I'm giving you two my jury votes.

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- I‘m in the top 9. The upper half. Doesn‘t feel like a special accomplishment, but more a plan minimum (where I wouldn‘t feel that I have done lame, I mean). And then later I realised this is probably where I need to properly thinking about my plan for the game. For my game, to be specific. I definitely know one thing – if Kamen‘s in the FTC with me, I‘m screwed, and not in the fun way. So despite the fact of us being allies since about day 3, I have to prevent that from happening. Nothing personal, just business – I still like the guy, and while I‘m sure he‘s strategic behind my back, he still is lovely. He‘s my number 1 ally, but also my number 1 target. The main question is, how do I do that? Or even more so, how do I do that without screwing myself over in the process? I‘m not even talking about jury votes – I don‘t think that me eliminating him (if it so happens) itself would make him hate me for the move in the jury – but I need to have a plan to thrive after I get him out.

So then Morgan approaches me. Sneakily throws in bonding about being last picked. And I immediately realise that especially with this leverage about him knowing I have an idol (I mean, I didn‘t directly tell him, but at this point it‘s bleeding obvious I must have found it by now), this looks like a good opportunity to establish the connection to get Kamen out. *insert Montgomery Burns EXCELLENT gif here* Mason tells me that my allies are voting weird and telling different things to him. Of course they are, especially this tribal was a huge mess and back and forth. But I knew all about the supposedly switching the vote in advance. So all of this is nothing new, nor nothing suspicious. But of course, I have to pretend to him that I had no idea and that this makes me think.

"zaghagmaloo"

- I am definitely not in a good spot right now. Andrew wwas voted out, which absolutely sucks because the other side now has the numbers. At this point, I am willing to integrate myself to the other alliance and do whatever I need to do to survive. I really like my group. My main ally Morgan and Mason are really fun to talk to. But this is a game about survival, and I plan to do what I need to do to survive.

"zaghagmaloo"

- Well, it looks like I am going. The Dumbripis or the "Dumbs" are targeting me for god knows what reason. My alliance is saying to vote Tal. I wanted to go with the majority, but they seem to be targeting me so no way thats happening. If I do go, It's been really fun.