This Week is A Disaster/Confessionals

Day 34
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- I'm so proud to have beaten my original placement and it's nice that we haven't flopped. :')))

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- I love crying in the club.

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- I'm too scared to give a confessional until after this challenge is over because I've seen this challenge done before and I- :')

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- OMGGG I WON IMMUNITY YAS

Honestly, I really, really hated the temptations that I had to go through with though. Like holy shit, oh my god, people are gonna hate me, specifically Charlie & Zakriah. This really isn't gonna be pretty. Oh my Goddd... I really hope this'll be okay. I just need to work some magic. At least the people who I said I wanted to work with in my confs will now know that I'm loyal to them... :/

I only went through with all that because I really feel like I would've been absolutely done if I didn't have immunity this round, and making final six would be the best thing ever!!! I'm just scratching and clawing my way through the game right now and I'm gonna do anything to make it an extra three days, seriously

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- Andy, please let the hosts just do their damn jobs. Every single round he always finds shit to complain about and I'm. So. Fucking. Over. It. I kinda have to like put on this fake smile for now though and just nod my head and agree with him though. Tribal tonight will be interesting. Andy wants to use tonight to split up Zakriah and Charlie and, honestly speaking, I don't want to do that. I don't think I'm this big strategic/jury threat or whatever, but I feel like if Charlie and Zak go, I immediately leap up the target list and I cannot have that.

Also, I'm really nervous at just how well Andy has managed to set himself up for the endgame. People are gonna be busy between their fright @Charlie/Zak and their annoyance of aren and I feel like he'll just slip through and end up winning by being the best of bad options. So right now I'm thinking that Andy needs to go within the next couple rounds. If it is going to be now though I need to do it in a way where I get the least possible blowback from the people left in the game.

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- Insane!!! My confs. were leaked, and honestly? it was nowhere near as bad as I thought... all it really did was show Charlie & Zakriah that I want them out, and Nathan, Andy & Trent that I wanna work with them moving forward. That's honestly the best. I really wanna see Charlie go now 'cause he's a threat, then afterwards Trent & I plan on working together in order to blindside Nathan!!! Which would be amazing. Then, F5, we can really do some amazing stuff.

Honestly, it's so hard to imagine but like if I actually make it to the F3 with Trent & Adrian that'd be insane. I could win this game... somehow... maybe... yasss <3

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- Can't wait to play my idol!

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- I think it's the end for me. I really do. One of Aren's confessionals got leaked as part of a temptation in the challenge and he basically spelled out that he wants to make a "big move" against myself and Zak. I went off at him in pms when he asked if I hate him. I'm super disappointed in myself for falling for his fake act, again. He said that I'm going to win this game. The good thing is he can't vote. The bad news is he isn't exiled so he can run his mouth and campaign against me until the cows come home. I'm attempting to get the vote on Andy bc he's set up so well despite acting like sort of an ass. I hope Trent and Nathan get my pitch. It's day 35. I'm 4 days away from winning this game. I want it so bad but it's looking not so good.

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- Andy's possibly really selling it. He's like "good luck u have my jury vote if you make the end" and I'm like what?? Does he really think he's going or is he trying to fuck with me? If I flipped this I'll be fucking SHOOK. If not I can say I played hard, made big moves, attempted to make ones. It is Survivor and it doesn't work out for everyone. It would just suck to come thiiiiis close.

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- FUCKING CHRIST

this week is a disaster

i lose immunity and aren has probably fucked me over by claiming he wants to make a move. the vote somehow shifted to andy because nathan was like ""hmm ok lets directly pander to zak and charlie"" and so i tried to flip it and nathan got word of it that i was trying to get rid of him.

naturally i tell him no because im not stupid and he says ok that clears things up so now im in panic mode because i'm worried as hell!!! is he flipping things on me??? he says he's back to wanting charlie out but what if he rats me and gets me out of here because he doesn't believe me? this is the most nervous i've been.

ultimately getting rid of charlie and zak is better long term and getting rid of andy is better right now and i just dont know what to do. zak and charlie are just so good with words i would prefer not to be around w/ them but i know if i get charlie out then zak will come for me next and itll be a disastah for me. what to do, what to do. for all i know im actually gone

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- What makes this so tough is that andy is trying to get me out which.... um no stank you but also zak and charlie will not have me in their endgame wishes which.... um no stank you. i can tie the vote and piss off nathan and andy and adrian or i can vote out charlie and piss off zak and charlie and i just dont know what to do at this point

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- My fate rests in the hands of Zak and the idol I found for him. I'm praying to gay jesus and Cupcakke rn