Board Thread:Survivor 39: Poveglia/@comment-72.141.7.170-20190604000111/@comment-31200621-20190605141640

Whew we stan a rap god. I just got home from work when your speech was posted and it didn’t matter that I was dripping wet and full of chlorine, that shit was a bop, a little harsh bop, but a bop nonetheless.

''How much of the reason you're here is owed to Scott? Also name/remind the jury of a big move that was only/mainly yours.''

A big reason of why I am here is thanks to Scott, I hope you read the clarification I made that I put on Scott’s speech where I didn’t mean to seem like I was discrediting the work he did this game as well. To look at like a vote or something that was only mine those mostly come later in the game, I think as a partnership we would go back and forth between either taking the lead or supporting the plan of the other, similar to I assume you and John, it be hard to say what you did exactly without John and only you and vice versa. I think a partnership relies on each other and we were able to help further each other in the game and planned out how most things would go together from the time we got together to when Scott got out at final 5. I’ve also talked a lot about what I did at final 4 and final 3, and those I can say were moves I made entirely on my own.

However that being said there were little things I did to just ensure that I had a slight edge over my competition. I’m sure you’ve noticed by now as a jury that Devin is very much claiming he was my dream final 2 and that I must be lying to Scott, but that’s only a half truth. Knowing early on in the game that Scott didn’t really like Devin (Devin’s straight I understand) and that led to a bit of animosity between them at merge. The fact that they were both my final 2’s, it made it easy for me to be able to to further the divide, but just occasionally dropping the tidbit of info that the other was upset at them or didn’t like them or whatever, always seeming like I wanted to bridge the gap between them but in actuality only trying to further it as much as possible. Due to this I was able to send them pretty similar ideas knowing they wouldn’t be close enough to compare notes and realize a lot of what I was telling them was the same.

By keeping separate ties with each it makes it look a little up in the air where my true loyalty lied and I was able to go back and forth if I was seen as a pair with Devin or Scott, but now I will officially set the record straight and say while he was the bigger threat my loyalty lied with Scott more than Devin, and like I’ve tried to say most of the game “Actions speak louder than words” and I think there's examples to prove it. I never had a problem needing to lie to Devin about a vote and then being able to swoop him back in after, like the Alex specifically. Whereas opposed I wouldn’t have dreamed of leaving Scott out of the vote. But considering Devin has been preaching like hell that he was my dream final 2, my storybook ending (almost exact wording i’ve used multiple times to manipulate him) he must have believed what I was selling him.

''You have a misplayed idol, and a misplayed advantage on your survivor resume. You also asked Scott and John based on what the jury is saying, who  you should take to f2. In my opinion all of this makes it look like you couldn't read the game on your own. How have you shown to outwit and outplay your opponents?''

I think this is a very fair question to pose and I’m glad you’ve given me the opportunity to sort of explain my rationale for each thing I had, I will be honest I’m not quite sure what you mean when you said I could ask John a question from jury, we talked before he left about the endgame and stuff after at least in my mind a strong moment of camaraderie after the challenge was done, and in that moment I talked about wanting to sit in the end with Devin, but I don’t know if I would count that as jury intel as John had not interacted with the jury yet.

For the idol nullifier, I had been holding onto that for a long time and figure because I wasn’t sure the layout of people’s idols and who was holding them the best thing for me to do was to use it on a big vote out to just ensure whoever I was voting for was going home that round, you were a super scary gameplayer and while I was pretty sure you or John had an idol, it seems I missed the mark a bit. I know that doesn’t justify the move but that’s just what my rationale was for it.

The idol is a little different because in my opinion I don’t think I wasted it. I went into that round knowing I wanted to lose immunity and play the idol on myself because I wanted to see this close to the end who had my back and who didn’t, while I could have played it on Scott (something I did consider doing) I’m glad I did not because I would have went home 1-0-0 if I did. While I could have considered keeping it in my pocket, it was final 5 and the round I wasn’t on to be able to strategize really, so I figured it was worth the risk. While you may say I wasted, which is a fair analysis, I like to look at it more positively, and that not needing to save yourself with an idol isn’t really a game flaw in my opinion.

For the jury question to Scott (and I guess to John) I don’t necessarily fault that either, because if you are given the opportunity to ask a juror a question, why shouldn’t you take it? I don’t think the game info I learned was really that important as I already planned to take Devin at this point believing he was the goat, getting confirmation was more to see if what I already thought was correct. I don’t think it shows a bad read on the game on my own, but rather an ability to confirm my read on the game was right. If you view it differently that’s very fair, but this is how I saw it at least.

From your perspective, why was I a bigger threat to take out at f6 over Scott?

In a simple word. Information. I’m not really sure what Devin is talking about in his answer to you that I didn’t have a poker face that round or that I relied on his lie, because that’s completely not true and I have proof to back it up. If you remember that round you never gave me a name (besides a thing that it might be Jackson or Devin) and you never even asked who I was voting for so I never had to give you a fake name at all which is why i'm confused Devin is claiming I used his lie. At that vote in the game you showed me that I wasn’t an essential piece to your game and that you had no problem leaving me in the dark with votes. That matched with your killer killer social game and your ability to be everyone’s best friend I knew you were too dangerous. While Scott was a huge threat as well, at the time he had my loyalty and was still somewhere I could get information from and would tell me things he heard. So in my mind you guys are both huge threats but one of them I have a final 2 deal with and the other is trying to leave me in the dark this round. I love you a lot Natalia but there wasn't really a hard decision.

''One by one, what was one true thing about yourself or your real life that you used to bridge a connection with each juror? Do not use basic ass examples such as "I was truthful about where I worked or what I studied"''

Jino - I remember this really impactfully that me and Jino talked on day 1 about being retired or not playing these ORG’s for a long time and being very nervous going into day one that we wouldn’t still have what it takes. I was able to connect with him early on because neither one of us wanted to flop in our first game back and it was a way to sort of put ourselves within each others common interests.

Alex - I don’t know if this counts as where I work lol, but Alex was actually the first person I shared that I did stand up with and how much i loved doing it and what a new thing it was for me. We bonded over superheros and I explained how i never really been into them before but I had gotten much more into them a little later and we shared love of superhero tv shows and movies.

Abi - I talked a lot with Abi about how I felt about kids, which I know is such a cliche, talk to the mom about kids, but it’s true. As someone who works with really young kids around Abi’s youngest age, we were able to connect and I shared how I love kids but also hate kids and its complex relationship. I remember it as a nice sincere conversation early in the game.

Natalia - The only raptor I know is Norman Powell because I think it’s funny you can be a pro NBA player with the name Norman. But in all seriousness we talked about basketball and why even though its big for toronto this year, I just can’t really get into sports and you tried to teach me about why like its really big for some people. Obviously what we study is also off limits but we bonded hella over politics, and I got to share with you that while I love it, i’ve been conflicted for some time and wanting to go into Comedy and was able to share my hopes and aspirations with you.

Scott - I know this conversation was played off as a joke at the time, but I remember sharing with Scott that even though I’m gay sometimes I get confused to be straight, which led to a lot of rude things said by Scott :P but I remember it actually being a nice conversation that I got to talk about my mannerisms and why I don’t always seem like the most flamboyant person in the world.

John - This was right at the end of Celebrity big brother 2 and I know this sounds like a stupid thing, but I knew I could trust John the moment on swapped padua we bonded over our love of Miss Tamar Braxton. I remember that day it was a bit after the finale and I think I was reading over a bunch of like weird Facebook moms comment on a picture of her that she played an awful game and I was so angry. I started talking with John and for like an hour we were just exclaiming things about Tamar. It may seem trivial now, but that was the first conversation that I felt I truly connected with John.

Jackson - Jackson I found I could often have very blunt game conversations with and I found that often led to me talking about my game philosophies or what I believe of games, I remember one and this was right at the end of the game, I told Jackson that even though I wanted to take Devin, I believe in this scenario everyone deserves a chance to give their final plea and leave it all out their, and I refused to cast my vote until I heard what he had to say and we could have a final conversations. This is something that’s very important to me in games and I’m glad i got to share it with Jackson at the end.

Thanks for the questions Natalia, it was a pleasure meeting you this game and despite our rocky up and down relationship, its been a pleasure. And if you can forgive me for my gameplay, ill forgive you for saying you are from Toronto when you really live in Brampton you faker :P <3 <3