You F*cked Up Once Again/Confessionals

Day 37
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- That moment I'm bored and want to tell Joe I voted him for shits and giggles, like honestly he is like Russel Hantz he can't accept being targeted, he is like I'm a kill you, and I'm like I'm a tell you to fuck off. The even worse thing is that Will is another Russel Hantz cause he freaked out at me for not sticking to the plan. Like Imma give them some Ice cubes cause they need to chill.

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- It's incredibly crazy. I went from on the outs, to RI, to one of the more powerful players left. We're at the final five and if my last idol is real, I'll be at the final four. I don't have intentions of bringing Will with me. The only way he'll get to the end is if he wins the last two challenges but even then, I think he's beatable. He'd probably only get Martin and Richie's vote since he pissed a few people off. I just need to keep at it. My ideal final three is me, Austin, and Joan since I'm confident I can beat them. In my mind, Lucas is the next to go since I do think he can win. He hasn't pissed anyone off in a game where social games weren't that great. So right now, it's win or go home

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- I was not very pleased with the votes last night, I was gonna go with voting Lucas out, but thanks to Richie self vote and Joan not telling that his mind is made up by a Random.org I pretty much might aswell punch myself in the face because this could sealed my fate in this game. Lucas does said to me that he will use the negator on me after I just save him last night, I'm not sure he'll keep his word but I do hope that Joe does win immunity so that maybe he'll give the immunity to me and I'll have Lucas use the negator on himself or Joan and Will be leaving this game. I got to make sure that I take the right people to FTC so that I could have a better shot to win. I hate this challenge that we have to compete so hopefully Will doesn't win or otherwise I'm fucked.

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- Will is a frustrating individual. I don't know what it is, but it's like he WANTS to be disliked by the jury. GG there. Anyway, I want Lucas gone while Will wants Austin gone. I gave him a ton of reasons why it would be a BAD idea but he goes 'nah fuck it l0l' I just want to bash my head against a steal plate covered in spikes. Whatever, as long as Lucas and Will think they have Joan, Lucas should be going.

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- Shit!.... Shit! Shit! Shit! Once again for the billionth time Will should of been the one going!!!! Idk why but he's just a big threat to me, doesn't mean I hate. My game is fucked right now because Will does confirm to me that he's voting for me, I mean what i shocker right? Lots of things going like Lucas gave he Negator to Joan for some reason and then somehow Will said that's a lie Joan said he actually don't have it. So I'm freaked out, it sounds like I'm next, my only hope is that if Lucas stick to his word and use the negator on me, or have Joe give the panda idol to me, I mean he's going to have to. I know that he's the kind of person that he would use the idol on himself whenever he is safe or not, which worries me, by chance right now is getting him to use the idol on me and gives me a few more days for to get to the end, cause right now clocks ticking, and if he screws up, if I go down he's going down with me at next tribal haha.

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- I’m speechless right now. This season is going to be known as being the one where self votes fuck up plans. I was saved by Joan’s self vote way back when and know karma has come around to rear its ugly head back at me. I almost got what I wanted. I didn’t necessarily want Lucas gone, just his negator and everything was planned out perfectly. It would have hit all the checkmarks. Joe and Richie would both still be in to continue their feud. One of Joe’s idols would have for sure been gone. The negator would have been gone. Also Richie agreed that if he stayed he would throw the immunities so the only challenge threat would have been gone too. It was all ruined though by the one guy that I wanted to save, selfvoting himself. Well at least I’ll just win out in immunites and let everyone else worry about the idol craziness that will happen next tribal.

Day 38
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- I am so proud at how hard I worked in the Immunity today! I ended up being second but now Will apparently cheated, I lowkey hope he gets disqualified and Max takes his spot in the jury. Looking at the jury I am scared as I am the reason half of then are there, I just hope they aren't bitter, they didn't seem bitter, I think. I have gathered Joe and Lucas and we have come to an agreement, if Will keeps immunity, whoever gets voted out will make sure the jury see the Will hasn't done jack in this seasons other than win challenges. Like honestly I am probably the anti-challenge person of this season because I fucked up in most of them and even didn't submit in some because shit happens. But honestly in Day 39 it's gonna get real nasty, one way or the other.

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- I am all alone. Austin left and Joan lied so I got no one. My best chance at making it one more day is either winning the final challenge or convincing Will it's better to go against two people who went to RI, as we were already voted out, who would want us to win? It's my best play right now so wish me luck

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- The challenge is over and waiting for the results is painful. I NEED this immunity. I don't think Lucas and Joan did well at all so I feel like it's all up to me to beat Will and I don't have any confidence I beat him. UGH, this SUCKS

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- Ok, fuck you Joan, just fuck you - how can you screw up such a simple task, wtf - he's supposely thinking outside the box that the jury will hate Will for "cheating", I'm pretty sure that's bs - how can one screw up so badly...

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- So a LOT has happened. Well remember when I said I felt like the challenge was up to me? I didn't even get 10 points and got last place rip. But it was found out Will used a program to help him in the last challenge and his immunity was taken away, so Joan has it. So Lucas, Joan, and I are voting him out and sending him to the jury. I hope Joan and Lucas follow through with the plan because he NEEDS TO GO

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- I finally got the vote to go my way this time. I honestly forgot what it felt like it’s been so long. I didn’t really want to vote Austin but Joe had an idol and Austin was the next biggest threat. I think the key into making it happen was asking Joan for a screenshot of him giving Lucas back the negator. He had told me he did it the night before but Lucas then informed me that was not the case, and there is no reason for him to lie about that. So I guess when I pushed Joan for proof, he was forced to do it and therefore couldn’t have voted for Lucas anyways. Now with immunity time coming back up it’s time to get back into the zone. It’s going to be tough though because Joe has gone into scramble mode super early. In my mind, it’s either him or me winning in the end so I need to win so Joe can be voted out. He keeps telling me nonsense that the jury doesn’t like me and other BS. He never even talked with members of the jury, the closest he got was RI (even though he should already be on the jury already but what are you gonna do). Oh well even if what he is saying is true and the whole jury hates me, there is still absolutely no reason to take Joe to the end with me. I also hope that the jury will still respect my game. I never treated anyone like dirt and I tried my best to not be overly deceptive but some people just get mad when they get beat I guess.

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- So I have admitted, I did not exactly do the typing portion of the FIC exactly as intended, but that is something I’m sure will come up in front of the jury so everything will come out there. I’m not going to give up though. I don’t want to be known as a cheater but it should be known that I will do everything I can to win. Once Joan won immunity I knew there was only one option I had. Joan loves chaos, he loves doing things for the hell of it. With him in no danger, I had to play to that to convince him to put me in a tie break challenge. I am still the best at challenges in this group of four and so I wanted one last chance to prove myself. My immunity being stripped will for sure cost me some votes at FTC but I am sure I can still get there and that I still have a good chance at winning this game.