I'm Ready to Shoot For the Moon/Confessionals

Day 26
"ralfiki"

- My closest ally is ded, I'm in the minority, and I still can't fucking find the manga that has an Adidas cap I want to SCREEEEEEEEAM. In other, better news though, I'm happy to announce the founding of the Church of Drew Heuser. Services are every Saturday at 1:30PM EST; please be prompt.

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- Also these people are frustrating me to no end; actually, correction: Mihai is frustrating me to no end. Mihai is someone who will promise you the world and it is the most transparently fake promise ever, and he'll run around delivering promises that he can't keep and after that bullshit he pulled with the Drew boot, I really do not see that dude winning the game. Like his chances were low before mind you, but it's dropped from like 1% to 0% - I'm trying to maintain as cordial a relationship with him as possible but I think it's better for my game, and really everyone else's games other than Joan if Mihai were just like, yeeted outta this game sooner rather than later lol.

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- I cant stand Grace. She can talk so much about herself that it gets exhausting. My goal this tribal is to get her out, but with the boys wrapped around her fingers it probably wont happen. However, I can tell you already who is the one person who will never get my vote if she makes FTC: the annoying Grace!

Day 27
"ralfiki"

- I feel like I am such a mess, but if this was the real survivor, at least I wouldnt be boring. So, first, when beginning this game I said I wouldnt make the mistakes from the past and I will play to win, not only make it to the end. Yeah, not gonna happen. Haha. I switch sides so much that I have no chance to win at the end, people will hate me. So, this tribal I started thinking I want Grace out and I still do and so I literally tried to convince Joan for some hours that it is weird that rob would accept so easy to vote Grace because it was weird and that fucker didnt tell me everything. Anyway, after that, I just had a sudden realisation that I want Joan gone because of how well he does in challenges and how close he is with Linus and zach and possibly Aro. So I went to rob and told him that we should vote out joan and then I also told him to not tell aro because Aro came to me saying we should tell false info to rob about this vote so he cant tell wanani. Now I think rob finally believes that Aro plays much harder than he wants to appear. So, I convinced Rob to talk with wanani so we can take joan out. Unless they talk with each other and find out what a hot mess I am by playing all sides, Joan should go. If I go, it is what it is, but no one is safe with me because I could literally betray anyone. I love being a villain if that is what I am because villains have more fun 😈😈😈

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- Moya 3.0 has got to be one of the most dysfunctional groups ever. Like us 3 Wananis are basically sitting ducks yet they can't get their shit together for one second to try to target us. Aro is targeting Joan, Rob is targeting Aro, Joan is targeting Rob, Mihai is Mihai'ing. Like it's just kind of hilariously sad to me that these guys have it made and set for them to just dominate the rest of this game yet they can't go a second without self destructing. I'm just happy that their destruction may possibly allow me to see another day.

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- So through my lovely network of second and third hand acquired information, what I've deduced is that Joan is once again being messy, and not keeping a straight target on, anyone. So in addition to Aro/Rob feeling sketch about him, apparently Mihai/Linus are now also shaky on him. Looks like the wave is me voting for Joan...again. I swear to god if I vote for this dude for a 4th time and he STILL doesn't go home I'm leaking every single ounce of info that I've acquired over this merge, idc how outdated and whose ship it sinks - I just need a plan to work out for fucking once.

"ralfiki"

- So, this is going to sound very cocky, and I want to preface this with I know very much what I'm about to say is very much a long shot. I do fully expect to lose this game, but I think I have an opportunity here for something really great. I wasnt super confident in that I would win it. The truth is this game I was playing for merge, but while I was doing the challenge, I was on the page list of 703 contestants, and for fun I checked total individual challenge wins, and it turned out, going into this season I was at 6, and I realized I had also already won the Touchy Subjects. I saw the record holder has 10 individual challenge wins, and thats when it hit me, I can break that record, I can go all out in everything and I know full well if I try I'm capable of hitting 11 total. Thats when I decided to go all out with the challenge to try and get it, and then, I did bringing me up to 8. Simultaneously, this round an event occurred that makes me thing that although theres a high chance it blows back, theres a small small chance that I can run this game. That event is that I realized I could guess before Zach, and that I was likely to get a second hidden immunity idol. Both the Immunity win and the idol worked out flawlessly for me, and that is when I decided this game is different for me now. Im not just going to try to survive, Im not just going to be other peoples pawn and bank on winning some challenges, I for the first time genuinely believe I am in a position where I CAN become 703's first two time winner, I CAN set the record for individual challenge wins, and I can take this game by the horns, manifest my own destiny and ensure the moves I want made are made, and theoretically I believe I may have an opportunity to become one of the most dominant winners since Perry. It wont be easy whatsoever, and it's very unlikely to happen, but if the stars align, I CAN get to the end with Mihai or Aro, and I fully believe I can do this thing and really have my name go down in the history of 703. That's why from this day forward, Im not playing anyone elses game, Im playing MY game and will push for the moves that benefit ME over my allies or anyone. I still do wish to keep the genuine friendships I've made here, but now, I truly believe I have gotten lucky enough that the pieces are lined up for me to do something truly special and really define my org legacy. As Norman Vincent Peale said, "Shoot for the moon. Even if you miss you'll land among the stars". Well Im here for this game, and I am ready to shoot for the moon.

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- Lmfao this tribe is the absolute fucking worst at secrets. Now Zach apparently knows about Joan getting votes but who leaked the damn plan to Zach?! But according to Linus, Zach is still moving forward to splitting votes between Grace/Gus, which is funny because earlier I heard the split was Grace/me - actually it's funny because hypothetically they shouldn't even have numbers for a damn split vote in the first place. I'm honestly excited to see these tribal results now - cause most of this tribe is in for a fucking reckoning.

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- "i dont have a LOT to say today but i have some

first things first, it feels GOOD to be in the drivers seat. after the rocky start, the fact that ive climbed not only from the bottom to the top, but also be in the drivers seat with 2 massive meatsheilds in front of me in linus and joan is still mind boggling. Last round was my move and this round is also gonna be my move. its a win/win/win. Were splitting on Grace and Augus. If no idols are played, we revote and i hope we can do augus, but grace is a lot more likely tbh. If one idol is played, Grace/Augus goes, and if both are played, Joan goes, which isnt exactly ideal but he is someone i have to cut off /eventually/ cause hes basically me but less socially good but a bigger resume, n he'll beat me in a ftc prob. him going at 9 wouldnt be the end of the world, i gotta lot of backups as linus and i are essentially in the middle of 2 alliances. My ideal plan now is to get to ftc with aromal, my day 1, and either rob or mihai. i feel i win w that group and theyre all people i like so, yknow, thats the plan. Grace and i have made up and now shes showing genuine interest in workin w me, so shes another backup that i might even choose over nathan tbh, but ye thats where we be. not a long one but its compact and i feel much more comfy this round.

im also high at the college listening to big thief. gn."

"ralfiki"

- "I don't know how I am still here after last tribal. The fact that not only Mihai, but also Rob flipped was pretty fortunate, and I do hope that they realise that turning their backs on me, Linus, Zach and Aro would just guarantee them to lose four jury votes, enough to seriously put them in serious danger. Mihai has really grown close to me I feel, and whilst I know he is still conniving due to how he was able to conveniently forget that I saved him twice pre-merge in the Vivor vote and not even throw me a bone, but I think that reached this point where he was still willing to go to rocks for me when Rob was not budging really means he has come around and in a way, redeemed himself. At this moment I think that it'd be more possible for Zach to turn on me than Mihai, not in an actual chance messurement but in a standpoint that I'd hate Mihai's guts from ponderosa.

After surviving that tribal, this round I really wanted to win immunity, I spent hours and hours on the challenge, it was a total ball kicker. Apparently the only other person trying at it was Linus, and he sent it in the night before the deadline and was feeling alright about his chances. I was feeling good about mine, not great because it was still a bitch of a challenge, and when the results came up... I won? Nope, I did not, Fitz did a mistake and it was revealed I had tied with Linus and Linus had submited earlier than me, so he won. It's the second time in a row that this has happened. These are also the challenges I ACTUALLY stand a chance at winning and I am still losing them with people fucking abstaining from them. I wish I had the DNA strand that allows literally everybody to just calmly submit shit scores whilst I am here fighting for my fucking life round in and round out. I felt really jaded after losing again and part of me wanted to just go home because of how burnt out I felt from being targeted vote after vote after vote.

In fact, I thought that was the case because NOBODY was messaging me overnight and in the morning, which felt out of place, but then again Aro is no longer the spy he was the past two rounds when it came to getting info and when people came on again, despite feeling sick, I had to arrange stuff. The plan was either to all vote 6-3 all together, or to do a 3-3-3 split. The latter one made people very nervous because you don't even have to use an idol to fuck that one up, whilst the first one was idiotic since it was leaving a 1 in 3 chance of the idol that my core alliance (Linus, Zach and Aro) know we dont have and that Grace, Augusto or Nathan have. It took some work but at last I got everybody on board for the only viable plan that is bound to work as long as nobody flips or snitches, and the opposite side only has a maximum of one idol. There were turbulences in the lead up to the deadline, given that I came up with the back up strategy of voting for the Wanani member excluded from the split in case we thought Rob was leaking or flipping, and even I suggested us potentially voting out Rob if he was being messy. Mihai also got CRAZY paranoid about Rob at one point, which gave me a fucking heart attack, but then Mihai had a chat with Rob and apparently Rob gave him a pretty convincing pitch about being loyal, which is great and stuff.

Fully knowing that there might be a double idol play, an accidental screw up, a flip, a snitch and at least one conspiring bitch meaning that I am likely to get votes for the third tribal in the row due to Grace being silent once again and Augusto and Nathan clearly being evasive again despite being really nice guys, I think that this time I might go for reals, it'd be very disappointing at this point after surviving the past two insane tribals, and a bit short sighted from Grace's side because they are not realising that Zach might be a more valuable vote off than me since he is closer to Linus and Aro, whilst if I really have to I'll do anything to survive, but oh well. Just hope these aren't my famous last words. Press F if they are."

"ralfiki"

- "For this tribal, I thought it would be ideal to target Aromal. He is playing the middle too hard, and that is dangerous for my game. He is also someone people think they can beat at the end, so they are using him to get further as a vote and then as a spot in the final. To do this, I needed to regain the trust of the moya 5/6. People will always say actions speak louder than words, but my mission was to have my words speak louder than my actions. I wanted to cast doubt on Aro as someone else who forced the draw. I wanted to cast doubt on Joan that he would betray Zach and Linus. I wanted to cast doubt on Mihai that he probably has the merge idol. I wanted this group of 6 to split, and then I would join the Wanani 3 to vote out Aro. This would also be perceived well by the main group because Aro would be voting Joan. This would show Joan that I was looking out for him, and hopefully add trust. BUT people rightfully did not believe me. The Moya 5 planned to lie to me and my name was even thrown out; however, I think that my social connections with Zach, Linus, and even Mihai were strong enough to inform me of this info and kind of deter this line of thinking. Aro and Mihai approached me with the same idea that day- align with the Wanani 3 and get 3 votes on Joan. Joan was the person that was holding back Linus and Zach from playing more individually so this was not a horrible idea. I ran it by the Wanani 3 and they switched from Aro to Joan. Ideally Aro would have went, but I have to be adaptable when the group wants Joan out because I can have that benefit my game. We are also setting Aro up to feel comfortable because people are finally realizing what I have been saying about his floater-ness being a threat in the endgame. Everyone wanting Joan out spread to Linus as well who agreed to join the vote. I thought this was great because it showed that Linus has a connection to one of the Wanani 3 and hopefully cast doubt on him as a loyal person to Zach. Ultimately, we all voted Joan with the exception of Zach, but I need to do damage control to reiterate that I want to show trust to him, that I wanted Aro, and that nothing I could have done would change the outcome of this vote. I think that I am still sitting well with my social connections and likability in this game. I know I need to make some power moves soon, but not too soon. I have few people like Nathan and Aro who are not sharing info with me, so either of them can go. With my knowledge of the two idols, I think that is where I will make a splash, show a huge move. I have been banking on my social game, which I think will get me far, but I think using the advantages of others to my betterment will show that I came here to play and will make the moves to win this game. "

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- "So Joan wants to split the vote 4-3-3, between Augusto and Grace. But Rob literally just almost went to rocks for the other side, and if he sees an opportunity to flip he's going to take it by any means. The safest option is to put all of our votes on either Nathan or Augusto (since Grace has the idol) and hope that they don't play an idol on him.

But Joan is so adamant about it, and he goes crazy with even the smallest paranoia so I'm afraid he's gonna sink me/Linus/Zach again like he did last time. "

"ralfiki"

- So Joan has officially gone crazy, and he wants to now vote out Rob, which means its time to take him out. I mean I think Zach or Linus will talk him out of it, but I'd feel safer with him out and this gives me an opportunity to play double agent once more. I'm gonna flip with him to the Wanani 3, which means it will be a 5-3-1 vote, with 5 votes on Joan, 3 votes on Augusto, and 1 on Grace. Even if Joan abandons the split plan, me and Rob flipping would make it enough numbers to take him out. The tricky thing is I'm gonna alienate Linus and Zach, but at this point I've gotta start making my own moves.