Board Thread:Survivor 25: Resurrection/@comment-26852922-20170707032124/@comment-24808835-20170707035342

Hey Jenna!

Your vote pained me so much as a friend. I adored you, but something in me just did not sit right with you, Zak, and Charlie. Zak and Charlie had spent the entire game together and were sharing items, and I felt like you were controlling the group. I felt like if I continued to go to the end with you guys, I would be voted out in 4th place, or I would be taken to the end as a goat, and like you said, you perceived me as someone who was easy to beat, so I definitely made the right decision.

Either way, you were really my last choice for that vote. I knew I wanted one of you three gone, and with Charlie exiled and Zak immune, you were my only option, and I saw you as a threat, so I just had to take the opportunity. I didn't want any regrets from the game, and you being short a vote due to Charlie's exile made me that much more motivated to do it.

I honestly didn't tell you about it immediately despite your presing because a) you tried to convince me you had an idol, and that was one of my biggest paranoias, and b) I was flat out afraid. I felt shitty and a little subhuman that I was doing that to you, and I was afraid to tell you about it when you found out, so I just had to keep lying and lying and lying and digging the hole deeper until I reached a point where I was just too upset to hide it from you once the deadline had passed. I was on a field trip for school shaking the entire time because I was nervous about being caught and having to tell youand deal with you being upset that I just had to keep trying to hide and cover it up, and I'm sorry. I really am.

I love you, Jenna.