Zak's A Bitter Juror/Confessionals

Day 17
"bizet"

- Okay so when I saw geoguessr I wanted to cry because I hate it so much!! I wanted to scream at the hosts but I didn't want to draw attention to myself....so I spent at least 40 minutes playing this stupid game, looking for signs and landmarks to help me get a decent score, that last location was the worst!! there is so many basic "welcome to nebraska" signs god that area seems like a horrible place to live... but hey I got 24882 but I am not gonna try and beat that... BUT OMFG RYAN IS GONE!!! :( IM SO UPSET WHY DID THEY GET RID OF HIM!! but like Marie is still there and she is hopeless so maybe just maybe Bizet will keep up it's runner up position in the immunity either that or we win which would be perfect! if not I'm going out 16th and I will cry

"azorella"

- It honestly feels really good not to have to worry about getting that idol anymore. Literally all I have to do is chill back and make sure that if we lose, I will be safe. That's it! It's that simple!!!

"azorella"

- Going forward in this game, I'm honestly so excited. I'm assuming that we'll hit the merge + Jury at f12 or so, and therefore, assuming that we win this immunity since both Zak & I rock at Geoguessr, I probably only have two votes to survive before we hit merge??? Oh my fuck I'm so excited lmao. Then, at merge, all I have to do is increase on my bonds and make sure I'm in a good position and I really think I could make it to the end of this game. And, with an idol in my pocket? I'm even more confident. :)

"azorella"

- So, I've been speaking to Zak, and I came up with this pretty smart plan for how we should handle merge.

I was thinking I should pull in some Azorella, and he should pull in some Couvreax. He was thinking Joan & Charlie, and I was thinking Cali & Marie. Then, the next step is to make everyone think that Zak & I are NOT tight so they don't think that we actually want to go to FTC together.

This hypothetical alliance would put me in an AMAZING position, because every single person within said alliance seems to really like me. I'm definitely going to make a f3 with Marie & Cali if this does happen, whilst also having a deal with Zak. I've heard that Zak's a bitter juror and takes games very personally so I don't want to blindside him, but... If it's ever looking like I have to do that in order to strengthen my position, I will.

Of course, nothing is set in stone. Marie, Cali, Joan, Charlie & Zak? They might not all even make the merge. I'm just planning ahead in the hypothetical situation of a 12 person merge involving us 6.

"couvreux"

- I'm sad Ry is gone, I wish we swapped honestly we didn't tho which I'm mad about! Also I asked cali for a final 2 deal which she accepted so if we do again rip Marie hopefully

"gallieni"

- And the slaughter of alpha challenge beasts continues. I'm honestly shocked Ry got voted out since he could easily balance out Marie and Ali's subpar challenge performances but you do you, Couvreux. Meanwhile, I'm pretty sure I'm still good on Gallieni. As always I'm kinda nervous, but Andy still seems to want to be a tight duo, Nifty isn't AS shifty as he usually is, and as always, Miguel is a delight to be around. Maybe it'll be a blessing if we end up going to tribal, but at the moment, I think I want these 3 guys with me to stay around a while longer. As always, my fingers are crossed every which way.

"azorella"

- so ry left last tribal..... definitely a little disappointed because i was hoping to get the chance to work with him. but on the bright side, i'm still in the game :) felix was pretty hurt by his vote out, which makes me feel a little bad, but dude. If you didn't want to be voted out you should have been less sketchy. at the moment it seems like its me, aren, and zakriah running things on azorella with julia on the bottom, but tbh zakriah has been giving me really weird conversation lately. i'm going to need to keep tabs on that. I'm just hoping we win this challenge because I don't want to risk losing and having Zak go crazy on me if he is considering trying to get rid of me.

I'm kind of over this 4 tribe setup. Bizet has yet to lose and as a result jenna george and adrian havent gone to tribal at all so i've honestly forgotten they were playing. i actually had to remind myself that adrian was their fifth member and they don't actually have 4. i wouldn't mind seeing them get knocked off their pedestal and seeing them test their own waters. I just hope we get a swap soon because this game is somehow moving turtle speed yet also being rapidly paced challenge wise.

as for the idol, i'm getting increasingly frustrated. this would be so much easier to figure out if i knew if alex was supposed to be 3rd or 4th in the chain, but i just can't figure it out. I think with the way the clues are set up he's gotta be 3rd, but then the placement of eva is confusing because it sounds like she isn't the last one, but I don't know where else she could be put. My head hurts >:(

Day 18
"azorella"

- Heck yes!!! We won again! <33 now THAT'S MY TRIBE!!! Daaamn I love Azorella lmaooo!!! I really fucking do!!

It's amazing that I've dodged tribal like a prostitute to church within this premerge section of the game. Honestly, I'm mixed on it. Part of me is incredibly grateful for the amount of times we've won the idol, but the other part of me reaaaally wants to bloody play.

What I really love about this tribe is that I feel completely in command. I don't feel like anything's gonna get past me. You want to blindside me? You, my friendo, are fucked!!! Hahaha!!!! Jeez, I hope I'm not being foolish in saying all this shit, but I also have the idol in my pocket as a backup plan moving forward.

"gallieni"

- Welp. We're at tribal again. Honestly, I feel like I'm being used on this tribe, that or my fate is very much so out of my hands. Either situation is not the best for me. Like I can just tell that Nathan and Andy are probably getting away with running things, that or I'm just extremely paranoid. Either way I'm just hoping that I'm still here after today. Gonna have to work my butt off a bit to try and get any sort of potential target off of me and onto others. Damn, four person tribes are scary...

"azorella"

- Things are really quiet right now. I mean, I'm in a tribe of four and we keep dominating at immunity, so what can I expect? People ain't gonna be hugely active because... Honestly, there's not much point. We're kinda just binding our time 'till swap right now. THEN, the game shall resume!

"couvreux"

- So, we lost again because of me, and I feel so down because we lost all of those challenges because I suck so much. That's like the third time I have the lowest score out of everyone in the game and I'm so scared Cali and Ali are gonna vote me out for good. I just have to put myself in the middle between the two. I have a separate alliance with both of them so I think I can do it.

"gallieni"

- I actually have this sick gut feeling about the way the vote is going down tonight. What makes it even worse is that I usually only get that right before I'm being voted out. Maybe it's just guilt, maybe it's just gas. I don't know though. I hate making this decision. Even though I want to keep Miguel in this game, I don't want to strongarm Andy into it and alienate him. And as much as I REALLY do not trust Nifty at all, it's just so easy to have a conversation with him. Of course that could be considered a red flag in terms of him being such a good social player. No matter what happens tonight, I'm probably gonna feel gutted, someone is going to feel betrayed, and the game will finally begin for the Gallienis.

"azorella"

- Oh my god I found the idol!!!!!! Just kidding, i found the place where the idol was hidden but someone did a poor job of filling the area back up. so someone from azorella has the idol, not sure if it was preswap or postswap but someones got it, so I've gotta keeo my eyes out for people. I kinda wanna say Zak probably has it but I honestly don't know or care anymore. It's annoying because now the idol opportunities are really just at the merge since weve been here long enough that theyve probably all been found, unless i end up on like couvreux or gallieni because they suck at challenges.

anyways im at final 14 since i won immunity so yahoo i guess. my boot picks are ali and andy so we'll see if I'm some sort of miss cleo. i'm hoping cali and andy pull through though because those are two that I really want to work with in particular and I'm a little tired of this game being a ""let's vote out trent's potential allies"" thing. marie keeps sucking in challenges so idk why she keeps staying because from my conversations with her she's really not THAT much fun to be around? Idk I don't see the hype that much now that I'm actually playing with her but I guess we'll see when we inevitably merge together

"gallieni"

- Okay this is potentially going to be my final confessional in this game. I'm pretty confident Nifty is going to write my name down. But even though Andy and Miguel are saying they have my back, they could be saying the exact same thing to Nifty and I could be the one getting the boot. I'm gonna be pretty disappointed in myself and my game if I get taken out now, especially since I'm so close to the merge. But for this first time this season, I need to put my fate in other people's hands and hope that the trust I built with them beforehand is still a thing and that I'm still standing tomorrow, albeit with one extra vote against me. For potentially the last time,

Nathan, out

"gallieni"

- I really do feel like I'm being used and being played. I wouldn't be surprised if people are talking behind my back about how screwed I'm about to be. I'm just hoping for a tie, at the very least. That would give me another shot to stay in the ring and keep fighting. I just need a tie. That's it. God I hope I can truly trust Andy. He's really pushing me towards voting Miguel though, probably cuz he has some sort of deal or sees a personal strategic advantage to keeping Nathan around longer. I don't see it, I don't care, I want Nathan out, but Andy is seemingly my only hope left for surviving this tribal and it's really upsetting that it doesn't feel like I have some sort of control over things. Just need to survive man...

"couvreux"

- I think I managed to put myself in the middle between Cali and Ali. Now, I just need to make a choice. Cali was my ally and I trusted her but she voted for me a few rounds ago, while Ali didn't screw me over since I wasn't with him to begin with. At the same time, he may have had alliances with people on Couvreux 2.0 and I know where Cali stands with the other Azorella members. It's a tough choice but I just hope they didn't get together and voted against me.