Board Thread:Survivor 21: Kerala/@comment-5018496-20161208094228/@comment-27707100-20161208232355

Before I address your question, I want to make it REALLY clear that I never said I "created the alliance between you and Nic". I reread the speech to make sure, but I noted a few times that the relationship between you and Nic already existed, which is why you were onboard with voting Vik and Cathy among other things. What I did though was extort y'all's relationship to cover my back more, and highlighted its existence to a few people, but I have no hand in setting y'all up or anything. It seemed like it was an original-tribe kinda bond and I would never try to take credit for that. Please read that part again if you disagree with me.

ALSO I really wasn't that close to Violet. You were the only person other than Kon that I told about my idol before f5 where I told everyone, and I only told Kon because he was going to figure out I had it anyway since we were really close to finding it. I don't think Violet found out for sure until she was saying her goodbyes, and I really tried to pull more strategical moves with you than Violet. She can vouch for me, we really didn't talk that much. I worked a lot more closely with Kon/youself/Asa so when people pinned me and Violet as the super close pair I was honestly kinda surprised. I kinda didn't know how close I was to her until she got out, because once again, we didn't strategize that much, and I knew she was strategically smart, so she could have been just using me. I was always kinda on high-alert with her.

I'm sorry that meta and my idol got in the way of you wanting to play to your best of your ability, but I really wasn't very ingenuine with you. I'm sorry it came off that way, but I don't know what I could have done differently. :(

To address your question, I kinda don't know what you're referring to as lies. You seem to think that I was lying to you about my closest connections, but I don't think I was. You seem to think my closest allies were along the lines of Anna, Violet, and Asa, and while that's kinda true, I worked a lot more closely with Kon due to my aversion with him, and honestly besides Kon I probably talked the most strategy with you. I also considered going to the end with Jake at some point, so I think my alliances were a little bit muddled than what you're considering.

I was a little bit excessive in my lies to anyone who I thought my have the Thekkady idol in fear that they would play it when they were in danger. I lied to Cathy, Jake, and Daulton right up until the end of their votes in fear that they have the idol, and I feel like I guess it wasn't necessary because Jake ended up using the idol and saving himself anyway, but it wasn't out of like fear that they would hate me afterwards. I just didn't want to get idoled out with an idol in my pocket.

I lied to Cathy about the idol clue too because I really needed her out at f6 if I wanted a chance to get here. Her getting eliminated and that whole f6 vote is really what propelled me here the most, I would think.

I may be wrong, but I feel like you may have just expected me to lie more because of the meta you have about me, but I REALLY REALLY didn't lie that much compared to Kon's unnecessary lies. Like what's the point of lying at f4???

I'd kinda have to know what you consider as lies and truth to fully answer your question because I think we have a disagreeing perspective on what you think were lies and what others think were lies too, but I will say that if it was anyone but Asa that wasn't immune next to you f5, I would have voted them out in a heartbeat. I'm sorry that you felt like I was using you but I really felt that I wanted to go to the end with you. Going to the end with you and Asa was all I wanted after Anna got out.

As for flaws, I think the information I gathered from people created a good like sense of awareness for me, but it clearly didn't give me all of the information present in the game. I think I made a lot of good decisions, but if I were faster on the uptake on both the Anna/Nicolai votes then I really think both of them would have made it further and I wouldn't have been in a bad position probably ever in the game.

GOD another one is writing that really long jury speech. I thought I would have to write a lot and explain what I've done because obviously just not getting voted until the f4 isn't enough to win the game, but I get it. I know that I wrote a shit ton and nobody's going to read the whole thing, and even if they do it's a lot of information to take in all at once, so it's just gonna hurt me. People for the most part are probably just going to skim it and not look at every vote and that sucks but I should have written a smaller speech, I regret that a lot LMAO

Thanks for your questions, I wrote a lot again I'm sorry dklafdasfaesi

If I didn't answer anything or you want more from me post in here again and I'll elucidate anything that's misleading.