https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=j0Zb8G8rE1g

1. Girl you didn't do anything pre-merge and then the only thing you did do was play an idol that you lucked out and got in an auction! 

2. When was I constantly played if I only was out of the loop on one vote lol

Are you trying to lose everyone's jury vote with your responses? Lmao

Yes, I literally mentioned in my speech why and that I still made efforts. You literally were just there, that was your game. That is the difference.

Also, I'll take the L on that question because I just copied and paste it from something previously, so re-read it. And you were out of the loop for Jared's vote. It's one thing to not be included in a vote and it's another to have actually influenced it and not just being a vote. 

From reading all of your speeches, it seemed like none of you were really leaning towards me anyways over Asa and Christine. So, I decided to have some fun with my answers!

You literally had Jared and Torsa's. Tate and I were close to voting you if you didn't give shitty responses lmao. I'm sure you easily could have turned heads around, that's the point of Final Tribal Council. I guess I won't take more time from you then if you're just gonna give up lol

1. Who was I a goat to specifically? Was I just like the general tribe goat?? Everything I’ve done was for my own game. If you want to see what peak goat gameplay of mine looks like, look at Kerala, where I basically helped Tucker win B,^)

I’ve done a lot of things differently this time and just because I gave an idol to someone does NOT mean I’m a goat. If you’re thinking that I was the goat for Aromal, he’s not even here in the final tribal council, so what’s your rationale. Maybe giving the idol away was a mistake, but I personally never needed it anyways, and I wanted to help him because he was the last one in my split post-mutiny Motu tribe that I felt the closest to besides Ting Ting, who had subsequently left before merge. Also, the only reason I told you that I was close to Aromal instead of I don’t know, lying, was because I trusted you. To be honest, I think you’re perceiving it all wrong, as I actually talked to Aromal less than say Toby during the merge, and Toby was booted out before Aromal. Maybe if I wanted to be a goat, I could have brought Torsa to the end. Everything I’ve done I had conscious thought put into it, I played a UTR strategy through and through, letting others get distracted by the players that were more threatening than I, and made it to the end with only one vote when there were opportunities to vote me out.

2. Not mutinying with you didn’t mean that I dropped you for Aromal. I trusted that you’d be fine being on the other side, and accepted your decision wholeheartedly!! I wanted you to feel safe and I totally understand why you mutinied, I never took you mutinying as you abandoning the group. While sometimes I think about whether or not I should have left as well, (I even coined my staying in Motu a ‘possibly sinking ship’) I wanted to stay in Motu because I wanted to help my allies that were there. Not even solely Aromal at all, who I wasn’t even particularly aligned with at this time. I wanted to stay because I felt remorseful for Violet leaving, I liked working with my girls Tata and Ting Ting, and I wanted to get to know everyone else on the tribe better so that I’d have a solid connection going into merge. Obviously, this failed because the tribe split and Tata and Ting Ting left before merge, making Aromal the closest person to me as the merge came. I don’t understand where you’re coming from saying that I was closer to Aromal when you never even talked to me about it as if it were a problem? I told you who I was closest to at the time and I’m sorry that I didn’t say it was you. Naturally I couldn’t say we’re the closest because we just didn’t talk because we were in separate tribes? There is no solid proof to what you’re saying that I wouldn’t flip to save you if you were in the minority. Also, the only reason I was seemingly “attached” to Aromal was because he had a big target on himself and I clearly used it to my advantage as a sort of shield because I was able to get the end and he didn’t. I believe that’s a strategy in terms of UTR gameplay. I don’t know whether or not you were forcing yourself to try and make an alliance work with Aromal and I, like I was touched but I wouldn’t have minded if you presented something else, but you didn’t. I’m not a mind reader. I’m sorry that you perceived it this way and I hope that this clarified some things.

3. Survivor is a game with almost infinite possibilities, and every player affects the game in larger ways than one would think, just like how the people that you see in your daily life affect you. If someone were just completely replaced, how big of an impact do you think it would have on you? Just some food for thought. In terms of this game, let’s do some math. There were a total of 17 tribal councils the entire game. I did not attend 5 of these, so I was in 12/17 tribals. This means I point-blank affected 70.5882352941% of the game in terms of who got voted off, because if I were to be replaced with someone else, who knows how the tribal councils would have gone. If anything, the Asa-substitute would have maybe won the immunity challenge for the team! Maybe me being replaced would have caused that same replacement to go home on that day. Maybe they could have been first boot. The entire boot order and immunity challenge wins could be altered, as well as where everyone is in terms of tribe swap and what items people got in the auction and who the finalists are. Everyone impacts the game in larger ways than one would think, and that placing a percentage value on one’s impact can be grossly inaccurate. Anyways, to give you a plain answer, I’d like to say my impact was 24%. My impact comes from my contribution in challenges during pre-merge, working with people in a failed attempted blindside, finding the Motu idol, working with the Order of Holy Doggos alliance, and winning the last two immunity challenges.

- Music -

https://youtu.be/UMJm_97QXHA

I chose the song “Francis Forever” by Mitski to represent my game in Bora Bora.

The overall vocal tone of this song is mellow, capturing my UTR gameplay. At times, it even sounds spooky - over the course of the game I had my fair share of fear and worry. The strong guitar riffs encapsulate my challenge ability.

Some notable lyrics: “I’ve been trying to lay my head down, but I’m writing this at 3 A.M.”

It’s 4 A.M. while I’m writing this jury response, so that’s applicable. I stayed up multiple times over the course of the game.

“I don’t need the world to see that I’ve been the best I can be.”

Playing an under-the-radar game, I understand not everyone will be able to see the whole picture of how I’ve played.

“But I don’t think I can stand to be where you don’t see me.”

You being the jury, I think this makes sense for me because I want to be able to convince the jury that I have played a game worthy of the win!

To end it off, my game was vastly different than the other two for a few reasons. Firstly, my physical game was better than the other two. I won three immunities, they each won one. That means my physical game was three times better than each of them. Secondly, my social game revolved more around the group dynamic. It wasn’t floating, it was being likable and using that to my advantage to get this far. When I couldn’t do that anymore, I won immunities because I knew I could.

☆ Asa ☆

Hey Ally! Alright so thanks for not making this as brutal as before, although that one was really fun to answer, I’m really sorry about the wait so without further adieu let’s answer these!

1.I touched upon this a bit in Torsa’s answer but throughout the entire premerge I was a little inactive due to the fact I decided to take on 3 orgs at once, which again is my fault and not meant to be an excuse whatsoever as I thought I could handle the pressure when in reality I couldn’t. That didn’t stop me entirely from things as I did always work my ass off in challenges with only having to sit out of one, however this was definitely because I knew my inactivity was moreso on the social side of things and I knew it’d be risky having to go to tribal. I am very aware of the fact Torsa and Jared easily could’ve sent me home, however they didn’t and I’m eternally grateful for that and I really appreciate you wanting to bury the hatchet. The premerge phase I only ended up going to a total of 3 tribal councils, one of which was due to a double tribal and so even despite being as “inactive” as I was, it would’ve been difficult to make as many impacts as I could’ve done however despite this I was able to impact the game as I was seen as less threatening at that point in time in comparison to people like Mikey and Rhys so although I didn’t have as much influence in the premerge as I would’ve wanted, I definitely tried to make up for that later on.

2. I think I affected maybe around 30% of the game, some of the votes this season came super close which was insane at times, had one single vote messed up during the Rhys tribal I could’ve been toast, but I’m still here. I stood my ground and took charge when I needed to and took the risk of taking out bug players such as Jared and Torsa. Had I not worked my ass off in that final immunity challenge, Torsa would be here instead and would definitely in my eyes be winning, I also reached out to Asa to get the job done despite the fact we didn’t necessarily have the best overall working connection. So yeah, I definitely look at it as though I took advantage of most of the opportunities were thrown my way.

3. Alright honestly if we’re comparing my game to other orgs yet again, I think my playing style switched up a little as in Bangarang and even my past season Caracol, I was an extremely loyal player. In Mo’orea I threw around what were considered “Pity Votes” fully aware of the fact that my allies were going home. This time around I didn’t do that, I was pretty disloyal towards Jared and at times Torsa and stepped up to the fact that I couldn’t play the same game as I had before. I also stood up for the people I wanted to keep around during the Jon vote. In Mo’orea I took a lot of heat for not standing up for my allies and so when I heard Tate was in trouble I plead to Joey and Torsa as to why that was a horrible idea moving forward. I was also a hell of a lot more physical in this season as I wouldn’t be here if I wasn’t. I ended up winning two tie-breaker challenges this season, one of which is the main reason I’m here right now and Torsa isn’t. I also didn’t rely as much on my social game as I did before, as that is something that is normally essential to my strategy. So I do think there was more of a contrast to how I played this time around and it wasn’t necessarily the same at all really. I know it was still a bit UTR, but I think my game will always be like that as that’s just who I am in reality as well. I’m someone who definitely likes to sit back and observe in some capacity and I don’t really see that as too much of a negative thing in my eyes cause it allows me to think things through without trying to be too flashy which was extremely important this season as anyone who played a flashy type of game was eliminated immediately, so I hope you can respect that as sometimes playing an UTR game is crucial to one’s survival.

4. It’s hard to play the what if game but I think had you not reached out to reconnect, I probably would have at some point, mainly after your speech from Mo’orea cause I was lowkey not gonna let you tear my game down again like you did, but also because I genuinely enjoy talking to you as a person.

Song - https://youtu.be/X1Fqn9du7xo (Whataya Want From Me by Adam Lambert)

“There might have been a time

When I would let you slip away

I wouldn't even try but I think

You could save my life”

This obviously resorts back to Torsa and Jared as I let my social game slip away and didn’t put as much effort in as I would’ve preferred but in the end they saved me anyway

“It messed me up, need a second to breathe”

I’m not gonna lie, I definitely struggled throughout this game, I had to take some rounds to try and compose myself, I needed that second to realize what kind of situation I was in when merge hit and what I wanted to do about it.

“Just don't give up

I'm workin' it out

Please don't give in

I won't let you down”

I know I wasn’t doing my best during the pre-merge but that didn’t stop me from making a comeback at merge. I assessed my situation and realized I didn’t wanna be known as the quiet person, so I started talking moreso to the people that wanted to target me and assure my position. I wasn’t gonna give into the label that was placed upon me, sure I was quiet but I wasn’t gonna continue being that way and ultimately cause myself to be a goat or pawn that inevitable be seen as disposable. I didn’t want to let myself, the hosts, the people in the vl or the other players down so I worked things out to the best of my ability to change the perception of myself and better my position in the game.

“Whataya want from me”

This is more directed towards you more than anyone as I’m kinda conflicted as to what you really want of me. In Mo’orea you gave me flak for playing the same old game as I always do and essentially your doing the same thing here but I DID change things up and I tried my best to change that perception of me. The only real kinda of consistency was my UTR standing but I hope I was ultimately able to convince you otherwise.

Finally, my game was vastly different than the others as I had to step up to the plate to show my worth in this game. I was targeted fairly early on in this game and I had to prove to myself and everyone else that I was more than their mere perception of me so during merge I started to stand my ground and be my own player. I learned from my mistakes and used them to my advantage and adapted from it. I didn’t stick with my loyalties once I saw there was no purpose for them in my game, I created enough social bonds to keep myself in the loop and stuck to my own ideas. When I wanted something done, I got down to it and got the job done. Yes, I was seen as a quiet player however when I wanted people out I was extremely vocal about it. Asa talked about this in her speech with Torsa but we didn’t talk for the longest time in this game, I sucked it up during the final vote and approached her because I knew I had to protect myself and get the biggest threat out. Ultimately these are the reasons why I’m here right now and why I believe I’d be the best representative for the season.