https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gzV_q5o14bA&feature=youtu.be

OK so since my speech is after a lot of the others, they've sort of stated where the jury seems to be headed for this vote and at this point it'd be pointless to rehash that, so I have an opportunity to put aside my opportunities as a juror and focus on something I wanna make clear as to how I feel about this.

First off, and most importantly, I just want to congratulate you two for two well-deserved final tribal council spots. Both of you played phenomenal games, you two made a series of well-executed moves and had a wide array of social bonds that got you to this point, and when I left I knew you two could pull it off and I'm unendingly proud of my Tako & Trinity <3 <3

Second of all, it was an honor meeting you two, I honestly didn't expect the sort of bond we had and it touched me, ya know? When it comes to Nathan, Adrian, and Trent, the three of you in particular, you three dealt with all my fucking bullshit and accepted me at my worst, at my most spazzed out and at my most antisocial points and it really made me happy to know that, and I hope I can maintain something outside the game with at least one of you because I can't, I'm about to tear up right now I'm losing it xDDD

And I know it seems like drunk rambling from a sober guy but I'm going somewhere! I just want to make sure you guys don't feel disappointed, especially you two Adrian and Trent. I sat here being the contrarian in the jury house on this because you two are amazing, and beloved, and you shouldn't at all feel disappointed or down on yourself because some juror feels some type of way, you absolutely slayed this and after this game you're ready to deal with whatever faces you because of that resilience you both displayed here in droves. That's all, there's more I wanna say obvi but I wanna keep this about you guys so yeah. You slay and at least 9.09% of the jury doesn't hate your guts <3

Pressed on time so this will be quick, but congrats you two on making it this far! 

Trent

I think we both kind of regret not fully working together, and I do wish we had talked more when the merge started. From what I'm seeing in the Opening Statements and the speeches, it's pretty clear you played the better game this season.

However, theres one thing that's holding me back from voting for you, and that's the last message you sent me before I was eliminated. I know it may seem like I'm being overdramatic, but considering we had such a low amount of social interactions it holds a lot more weight to me.

You sent me this: "so im all for trying to fix things with us but is there a reason you felt like you couldnt tell me you wanted zak or i gone"

So knowing that me and you were never aligned, you expected me to just go and tell you I wanted you or Zak gone? Like fuck me for being willing to vote for someone who I had ZERO ALLEGIANCE with. But to another extent it actually hurt me cause it just felt like a typical "last little dig" at me before I was eliminated. You knew that idol was going to be played, and you knew I was going home.

I blame not fully aligning with you on myself, but Adrian and me talked on the daily. So I just want to know from you why should I vote for you to win vs Adrian who I felt was invested in building a relationship with me.

Adrian

First of all considering you were most likely going to be one of the targets on og Azorella, you should be very proud of making it this far. I know a lot of the jury is dismissing you for whatever reason, but from my perspective you played fine. I don't really have any questions for you, but it was nice getting to know you through the season!

First I'd like to thank the hosts for a wonderful season! Even though I was not able to make it far in merge I am still proud that I got in the top half of the 25 with two beautiful google docs that I have constantly updated and the pride to be able to say that I was idoled out by 3 votes rather than voted out by a majority. And of course not to forget my drawings of some cast members!

But this is not about me! it is about you! and frankly..... there are only two things I know about each of you. Adrian the sweetheart and Trent the afk.  From my pov you guys were very lacking and Charlie was robbed of his win. So you better prove to me why you deserve to be here over him! 

Here is a general thought on the two of you. To tell you more about the two words i described you with. These aren't questions but I'd appreshiate if you broke apart what I describe you as and countered my points.

Adrian: I loved you so much and in and out of game I was your no1 fan rooting for you to win with all my heart and soul! I kept on calling you the "UTR King" why? because I saw so much potential in you! I was begging and BEGGING for you to wait out your time and strike at the right moment and rise above as a king of the game! Sadly I did not see that happening. You were UTR for sure. No one truly knew what your game was, no one truly knew who you voted (in the jury) you were a mystery. I think the main thing was that you didn't trust nor belive in yourself as much as you shouldve. You were in SUCH  a great position but you never used it and you never were able to either realise your potential or soomething blocked you. I disagree that you needed big moves. You didn't need any big nor flashy to get to the end and you were never hated...but at the same time from my pov you never influenced anything in the game.

Trent: 

From the time we were on a tribe together I struggled connecting with you. Not because I didn't enjoy our talks.....its just you never put neither the effort nor the time. It was always me seeking you and you always seeming distant or unresponsive. Sure I understand you were busy and tiemzones but other ppl in the game managed around that apart from you. You never put the effort why should I put the effort into voting you?  All I see from your game Is someone who was led and was an extra vote who happened to be able to get to the end because you werent a threat enough to get out. Sure you voted in majority for most of the game. so did Adrian though. But how many times did your vote reflect your game rather than other's? I was out for majority of merge so all I see is what I hear from the players and what I saw while I was in. From you I saw lack of interest lack of activity and lack of anything. You and Adrian voted the same all but his self vote. So why is my post to him loving while to you it has a more bitter tone? 

Now to questions.

1. What stopped you guys from making bigger moves or if you were playing utr, what stopped you from controlling/influencing more of the votes?

2. What do you think you could have done better this game to better how the Jury saw you? 

3. Why did Charlie deserve to win?

Now for your task:

As I have mentioned before and as many people know, I have two documents of the game. One public one on google drawings, and one private one where I wrote down every vote people made to track who voted who, what tribe the person they voted was originally on vote counts etc. I collected data from the jurors as they came into jury. I also had other super extra parts like what position I thought people were in the game, if i was allied with them etc. 

My task for you is such:

I will provide you with a copy of my voting doc. It will be blank. To show us the jurors or rather me your social awarness, I want you to write down who voted who. Just merge is easy so try your best to think who voted who premerge but itll be more work so you dont have to just youll get kudos from me lel. Include all idol plays and items. Challenge wins not neccisary 

The person who fills the doc out fully and most accuratley will get more points into the likelihood of me voting you to win.

Make copys of this doc:

https://docs.google.com/spreadsheets/d/1yr0lt6sea4HNc2mB43cp6uTIiPNcmmF6RKOaADBYabg/edit?usp=sharing

Also to be extra :

Q 4: Why is Zak a D ick?

[By the way Conor forced me to use this gif]

Hey guys, first of all I wanted to congratulate both of you for getting to this point beating 23 people, thats impressive and I'll give you both credits for that (which does not mean I liked how you did it, but you did it, so kudos).

I also wanted to say that my vote is incredibly up for grabs bc you both made it here when I literally was not planning in voting out neither of you, so it's up to YOU to win my vote and tell my why you both deserve to be here and to win the title, but first I want to make some assentments ( I think that's the word) to both of you.

ADRIAN:

For me ur game was invisible all the time and I was eliminated at f10 and at that point you were literally used by different alliances and you made promises that you did not keep, at f11 Cali was eliminated by an idol and you voted with us, but then we had a second tribal and IDK what happened with you, you scared yourself and went with the other side, maybe it was smart but after you told me you would tell me when people were writing your name and well I knew I was going but a "I'm voting for you bc I'm scared af would have worked" Other than that you r a reallty cool guy but for me you played a Meh game you did reach here and I congratulate you for that, but you really have to fight for my vote bc I don't see any game play by you. (BTW the self vote made me really question what you were doing or if you were actually playing)

So three questions to you:

1: What was your biggest move in this game?

2: What was your biggest mistake in the game, and what did you do to fix it?

3: Why do you deserve to win over your opponent.

Trent:

(You considered yourself a Kass and I consider me a Ciera type of player after ES, so this is us in Gallieni, back when we talked)

As a friend I'm gonna tell you that you were not much better, we were together in Gallieni and what was happening was this: There was a Majority alliance and you and Ryan. M were not in that, but I wanted to protect you because you were loyal to me, when the next round my alliance out of nowhere betrayed me you told me what was happening, and I appreciated that to a level where when I knew I was gonna be saved my an idol I told you to vote for me, ok all good by now.

But after the second swap, the moment where we got together again, you never actually cared of talking to me, literally, ever, and when I talked to you, you were pretty cold to me, and that actually hurted, because we are friends and we never talked. You were inv in strategies up until my elimination F10!, and idk if you waked up after that, I think you did but I never saw it. You are a cool dude but I think that you waked up maybe too little to late.

So same three questions to you:

1: What was your biggest move in this game?

2: What was your biggest mistake in the game, and what did you do to fix it?

3: Why do you deserve to win over your opponent.

I also want you BOTH to compare each juror to a survivor castaway and the reason why they are them.

I want to say thank you to the hosts for this amazing season and I'm happy to be a juror here, Good luck to you both Adrian and Trent and that the best player win

1.    Hey boys! First things first, congratulations to the two of you for doing what 23 of us other flops could not. This was a fucking bloodbath of a season, and I’m sure every single one of us are exhausted and just waiting for it to end. So props to y’all for pushing it through. On a less lighter note, as I’m sure you guys can kind of tell, the jury isn’t particularly happy with the decision they’re faced with right now. And quite frankly even after the opening speeches, which did illuminate your strategies quite a bit, I can’t speak for everyone, but, I don’t know if it’s me being bitter or what, I just feel kind of underwhelmed that this is how this epic season will end.

2.    Now, I’ve been thinking a bit since I stepped out of the game and into ponderosa. This season was all about second chances and correcting your past mistakes. So based on that operative word, mistakes, let’s talk about a little thing I like to call regret. Me, personally, I have a few regrets this season: Not saving Nick by throwing a few votes on Nifty, not having the balls to just straight up vote Andy, and last but not least, making the wrong decision at final 5 that robbed this season of the iconic final 3 that it deserved (not to toot my own horn...much). Instead, of course, I did the opposite of all those decisions and now I’m on the jury again and as you can see, I’m not too proud with myself.

3.    Now, I could get into all about how I’m feeling right now but I don’t quite feel like playing the pity party game for myself so let’s get into a couple questions:

4.    What are some regrets you have or what are some things that you think you should have done differently?

5.    Let’s say we were hanging out for a day, what would our dream day be like? The more description the better!

6.    This part is optional (and kinda extra I know) but personally I think it’ll be fun and lighten the mood for this shindig. Compare each person who made jury phase (so including you two) to a former Drag Race queen. And maybe a short reason why too.

7.    Alright that's all I think! Good luck to the two of you, and can't wait to vote for a winner (also please ignore the shitty formatting)

The hosts seem to be tired of this season and want it to crawl into a corner and die. I'll comply but I need to have a word with one of you.

Cali.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3_4_hXlt_-A

Bored, stoned, sitting in your basement

All alone, cause your little conversations

Got around, now look here what we all found out

(look here what we found, look here we all found out)

That you have got a set of loose lips, twisting stories

All because you're jealous

Now I know exactly what you're all about

So this is what you're all about

Girl, your such a backstabber

Oh girl, you're such a shit talker

And everybody knows it (everybody knows it)

Girl, your such a backstabber,

Run your mouth more than everyone I've ever known

And everybody knows it (everybody knows it)

Backstabber

(Talk talk talk talk talk talk)

I'm sick and tired of hearing all about my life

From other bitches with all of your lies

Wrapped up so tight, so maybe you should shut your mouth, shut your mouth

Shut your fucking mouth

Honestly, I think it's kinda funny that you waste

Your breath talking about me

Got me feeling kinda special really (so this is what your all about)

Girl, your such a backstabber

Oh girl, you're such a shit talker

And everybody knows it (everybody knows it)

Everybody knows

Yeah you're looking like a lunatic

And everybody knows

Yeah everybody knows

Backstabber

------

Trent you played a better game, so you have my jury vote. Congrats, and the two of you don't feel too down on whatever you are told by the jury, you managed to get to the end whilst everybody else took each other out. Good job.

Ello boys!!! Aren here!! 

Honestly, I'm just going to put this out there plain and simple - I don't want to give you guys too hard a time tonight, and I won't ask very stressful questions; in fact, most of what I have to say tonight is simply criticism on a few things that I've picked up on.

ADRIAN

I'm not going to be nasty or mean to you because you're a good dude and you really don't deserve to have someone be rude to you purely due to how you played an online game, but man... You didn't play to win, and honestly, I think that's the reason I don't really want to write your name down tonight. You were likeable, but your strategic game was lacking and I just can't help but feel like you weren't playing this game for any purpose but to just enjoy the journey - and I can complete understand that, but this is Resurrection. It's a returnee season and I just cannot respect the game of a finalist who did not play to win. It's one thing when you're a goat, but it's another thing when you're a goat who allows themselves to remain a goat. See, I was quite the goat, but the difference between you & I is that I tried literally everything possible to change that perception of myself. You openly admitted you wanted to take one of the biggest threats of the game, Nathan, to the end, and I never would have let the guy get to FTC because he would have slaughtered me. Despite being inactive quite often, you were likeable and therefore your social-game was decent, and you were even an alright UTR strategic player, but my issue lies within the fact that you seemingly dedicated no heart or passion towards winning this game - which Trent, as average as his game might be, did.

I think you're a really good person and this isn't personal at all but if you have anything to add then all I'd like to know is why should I vote for a player who didn't play this game with passion and desire for the title of Sole Survivor? 

Best of luck to you, Adrian, and thanks for contributing towards a killer 36 days. <3

TRENT

I'm admittedly frustrated right now. I'm going to vote for you, and I hate to say this, but it's a vote that I don't want to make - I despise saying that, and I do NOT want to feel that way towards you; but I cannot help but feel like your game is mediocre. You were a good player, clearly; otherwise you wouldn't have made FTC, but I just feel like there were more deserving people that could be sitting there right now. 

All I want you to explain to me is how you deeply felt when you applied for this game. I want to know what this meant to you and what it currently means to you. This is a serious thing to me. It is just a game, but it's a very important game, and in my opinion a game that deserves a winner who loves the game. Tell me about your passion for Survivor. Tell me about what drove you. I really, really do want to know. I want to be able to conclude this game on a sweet note and I want to be able to write your name down and write it damn proud of you and how you played this game. I don't want to vote for you and think, damn, I wish this was a vote for Nathan instead at the same time.

In a newbie season, I'd have no qualms with you as the Sole Survivor; but it's the fact that it's a season of as epic proportions as this. This is Survivor: Resurrection. I wanted a true phoenix to win this game ever since I hit the merge, and what I want to know is why are you a phoenix? What made you passionate, wanting, and ravenous for the title? What does this title mean to you? 

Thank you so much, Trent, for contributing towards a kickass 36 days. <3

AAAND, THE CLIMAX...

Finally, I would just like to say a big THANK YOU to the players, the hosts, and those salty applicants that didn't quite make the cut - AKA the viewers. You all contributed to a journey that truly made me feel real feelings and made me realize a lot about myself. I came in as a 14 year-old Survivor superfan and I'm leaving as a 14 year-old Survivor superfan. Superficially, it seems like nothing has changed about me, but that isn't true. I learned things from this game. I made friends, and I learnt a lot about myself personally - and I can't be grateful enough for everything, really.

Of course, every story has a beginning, a middle, and an end. The beginning of this story was exciting, the middle was dramatic, and I'm hoping that we can have something a lil different for the end - I want the end to be evolutionary. I truly want to conclude this amazing season on a high note.

Thank you all <333

~ Aren

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Adrian, reading your opening statement physically and emotionaly pained me. I don't really know nor do I really care what most of the jury thinks of it, I think it was all as much of a joke as this FTC as a whole is. But, unlike Trent's, I actually read them so that's something. I wanted to see if there was actually some kind of component to your game that I didn't know about and... there wasn't! It was so fun to read how you were most proud of your social game when I sent you like five messages ten rounds ago and you never responded to me and never spoke to me afterwards and continued to hold such a "vehement" hatred towards me throughout the rest of the game. It really shouldn't be taken lightly at all that Trent heavily considered taking me to the end over you because you were s u c h a goat in this game that taking you to the end completely invalidates both of any scrap of a game either of you could have wrangled together throughout these two months. 

And that brings me to Trent! You ruined this game by your own doing and gave what could have been one of the most memorable seasons 703 has ever seen and gave it to the most disappointing, sad, mediocre, downright boring ending it could have possibly had. Sitting next to Adrian in the end may give you 11 jury votes but it doesn't give you any respect and I quite frankly believe this final two might be the worst this ORG has ever had. I submitted my vote to win right after I was voted out but just know from the bottom of my heart I don't think either of you played a winning game. That's not just me being bitter I made final 3 and can't be sitting there with you guys, that's me observing you both this entire time and knowing just how bad this final two really is. Literally, in the premerge Trent told me he would be getting extremely paranoid and I would need to control him. The second I stop doing that, he votes out someone who had an unbreakable f3 deal with him. And to think THAT PARANOID MESS controled Adrian like a fucking puppet speaks volumes to how much Adrian doesn't deserve to be sitting in the end either. 

Congrats Trent, you won, but this is the most underwhelming flop of a win I could have imagined. Really, really fitting that it's the season of the flops, though, so I'll give you a 10/10 for fitting the theme! 

Now I'm gonna go back to pretending this season never happened. You all suck! 

Here we go everyone!

First of all, I'd like to thank the hosts for giving me the opportunity to come out here and play again. It's been a wonderful experience, albeit stressful, and I wouldn't trade it for the world. Definitely the most fun I've had in an ORG in a while.

Going into this game, I was a little nervous. I felt like it could go either way for me, especially with the initial tribe-forming twist. I had a good chunk of friends in the cast, as well as some people I wasn't terribly excited to see play again. What surprised me the most this season though was how many new people I got to meet and work with, and it was generally the people I knew prior that I worked with the least. I feel strongly that this experimentation is what best allowed me to get myself here, because I was able to put my friendships and outside relationships aside and really focus on what was going to get me further, which helped me develop a well-rounded game that I hope is worthy of your jury vote.

Part 1: The Physical

It's no surprise that most people would value the physical aspect of the game the least. I know I do. However, especially near the end, I was pretty obviously frustrated at my lack of challenge wins. The thing is, I'm decent enough at challenges to not get booted premerge, but not strong enough to win countless individual immunities. I just wanted one challenge win, and by final five, my patience was wearing down. So when final four hit and I won the trials, I was pretty damn ecstatic, and when I won the final immunity challenge, I couldn't contain my excitement. I was able to win the two most important challenges of the game to not only get me here, but to put the two people I saw as some of the bigger competition in the game on the jury, and that helped shape my physical game up a lot more. None of the challenges leading up to those moments mattered as much as the ones that I won, and all it took was a little bit of patience and I was able to achieve what I wanted to in the physical portion.

Part 2: The Strategic

Strategically, I think I would most compare myself to Kass McQuillen. Most people would take that and feel uncomfortable, but I respect Kass very much and I think I took her game in Cagayan and tweaked it a bit for my own need. Just like Kass, there were times when I made very deep betrayals, and cut people who never would have thought I would do that until it happened (love you, Jenna). Often times, people criticized me for making those decisions. I was always told that I was being too paranoid, or that I was voting out the people that wanted to take me to the end. But even after I voted Jenna out, I still was able to form alliances, such as the shortlived coalition with George and Adrian I was able to pull together, or getting Aren on my side. I was even able to force a tie, which was pretty ballsy, and fought hard to get people to flip, even though it didn't work and ultimately decided to find a new way to squeeze my way here. And by the time I reached the final four, I felt as if every single one of those three had intentions of going to the end with me.

This isn't to say I didn't make strategic mistakes. Sometimes, my conscience did get the best of me. Yes, I did clue in Zak as to Charlie being voted out. Yes, I did get blindsided by George's boot. Even Jenna's blindside was intended to bring me closer to Zak and Charlie, which clearly didn't work how I planned given his initial reaction. However, I was able to recover from those small stumbles and make new opportunities out of the dust of failed moves, and in doing so I put myself in better positions than the last, and I feel like even with people constantly telling Kass she was going to fail, I too was able to make it to the top, taking it just a couple steps further than she did.

Part 3: The Social

But unlike Kass, I was able to keep strong, positive relationships with people all the way to the end. Sure, Zak and I had plenty of discourse. But I was respectful to him and we had healthy conversation, and I always kept my options open. While I feel remorseful that some feelings were hurt about me voting certain people out, I do think that speaks well toward the social game I played, showing that I left people feeling that confident and comfortable with me.

Early on, I had my doubts socially. My closest ally, Ryan M., ended up being the first boot from Gallieni. Then Miguel, the person I was next closest to, got the target next, but got saved by an idol (thanks Nifty!). Even then, though, I was able to slip in with people and make them want to work with me. When we swapped, Felix spilled the beans on basically every alliance that excluded me over on the original Gallieni. While I appreciated the gesture, I definitely felt like I couldn't trust him with all of that baggage and helped lead the charge against him with Zak. Even then, though, I had made myself into someone that people depended on, and someone that people wanted to share valuable information with. There's two people I felt like I didn't let myself really connect with on their way out, which are Cali and Miguel. To you too, especially Miguel, who I was super close with early on, I'm sorry. Not talking to you as much as I wanted to was one of my major social shortcoming, if any others, and one of my only regrets leaving this game.

It's for these reasons I would compare myself socially to Kimmi Kappenberg. Doomed early on her first season due to maybe being a little too abrasive, she was able to transform herself into a motherly figure that without a technicality, probably would have made her a millionaire. In a similar fashion, I was booted early in Tokelau due to being seen as shady (as well as some other minor, relatively unrelated things), but in my return, I feel like I kept a level of poise and congeniality that I think some of my competitors missed. I was socially adept enough to be able to make bonds that planted the seeds for my strategic moments, and I think like Kimmi Kappenberg, I definitely deserve to win this game.

I understand if there's hurt feelings toward me. I've made choices that left people unhappy, and I accept that and apologize. Ultimately, I've put people on the jury out of respect. It was never a matter of not liking someone for me, it was a matter of thinking they had a good enough shot at the end to win this game, and when you want to win the game as bad as I do, it's something you've gotta look out for. I eagerly await your questions and I can't wait to answer them. Thank you guys for reading this speech and for an incredible 39 days.

Hi guys, so I first want to start by saying that I have had so much fun playing this season and it was a pleasure playing with all of you. I would also like to thank the hosts for putting on an amazing season!! 

Now let’s get to my game, like any player who has made it far in this game there were aspects of luck that allowed me to get here. Looking at the pre-merge I was extremely lucky to not go to tribal but luck wasn’t all that saved me from tribal council pre-merge. I was an integral part of my tribes success but it was a large group effort. During the merge I did what I usually do in games, I try and build relationships with people and for the most part I did, and that is my view in the game, the personal relationships are the ones that tend to focus on and although I didn’t do that with all the people I was on tribes with I feel like I did that with most people. Coming into this season I didn’t know a lot of people, in fact I knew of 4 people, Ry, Hunter, Nathan and Aren. I had a strong relationship with Ry and that was one I wanted to keep secret because I didn’t want to be seen as a pair. I knew Nathan and Hunter and I have played with them before but I didn’t know where I stood with them and Aren and I played on a season where he was eliminated first so we never got to form a relationship back then. But other than that I knew nobody and nobody knew me, and that scared me! I was playing a game where everyone knew everyone so I was seen as an easy out and that is exactly why I was happy I never went to tribal until the merge. I was seen as an easy out as I knew people like Josephine were wanting me out at tribal. But thankfully I never had to go to tribal until the merge. 

At the merge I had been forging a strong relationship with Julia who had been giving me information about the other people in the game and I really was upset and shocked when Julia was voted out because I felt like she was what I needed to play my game successfully and she was honestly the only person I trusted. My vote for Joan at the next tribal came after Cali came to me and exposed the game Joan was playing. During this time Jenna, Charlie and I formed what I thought was an alliance and it was something that I was 100% loyal to, I never spoke to anyone about what was said in the group chat that we had. It then came to the Cali vote wherein I did vote for Cali, because I was assured that the alliance between myself, Jenna and Charlie was secure and then my loyalty was questioned and I realised that if they don’t trust me then I should take my game into my own hands. Jenna had to go, for my game it was the best decision for me. The next tribal is where Trent and myself really got together and along with George we sought to get out Aren who we thought was being being controlled by the Charlie/Zak contingent and unfortunately that didn’t go our way and George was voted out which really upset me because I didn’t want George gone and I felt like after Julia, George was one of the only people I trusted. Next came one of my biggest regrets in the Andy vote, I wish you an I stuck to our plan and voted for Zak! I was super upset when you left. Moving forward to the Nathan vote out, I struggled hard with that vote, I didn’t want to write your name down and that is why I took forever to send my vote in, from the merge I wanted to go to the end with Nathan, I genuinely didn’t want to write your name down. I was struggling with your vote off, I was essentially being forced to put your name down because for some reason Trent didn’t want you in the FTC. I was uncomfortable, I wasn’t being listened to and I, like most instances in the game I was shut down. Which led to me falling asleep before I could vote. 

People thought they could control me, I wasn’t controlled. I always voted in a way which benefitted me. I didn’t vote people out who were an asset to me. Once people show me they didn’t trust me or they showed me that I wasn’t a part of their plan I wasn’t working in their best interests. I knew that my best bet was to be that guy that people thought they could tell their plans to and just think that I would listen to them and be their little lapdog. People tried to control my vote throughout the game and I let them think that but nobody can say that I was someones puppet, I played my own game and sure I might have turned my back on people but I only turned my back on people after they did the same. 

I started this game on the back foot, I came in knowing next to nobody, I was seen as expendable and I was seen as wishywashy. I admit I didn’t play the best game and I didn’t play the flashiest game but I did play the game, my game was quiet and calculated, I focused on relationships as I knew those would get me far in the game and regardless of how I feel about some of the thing that have been said about me in game I do genuinely like all of you.